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Day 0 

So it been awhile since I have been here, and thought about doing this later but the later you wait the worse it gets.

 First an update is over the last couple learns I joined some communities and learned unity, blender classes I took during the 2020 lockdowns. I’m apart

of Discord with few Christian communities, while yes I do not recommend this, I did learn a few things, that I’m not game developer all or coding or programming even though I understand it a little bit. I did enjoy set desgin in unity meaning what scene could like for movie set or something like that. 
 

So I need to stick to what I’m passionate about and that building YouTube with the animation software I have and orginal stories, I even tried out for a few voice acting a couple of times. 
 

I have experimented with off and on gaming while that’s not best idea I have managed to limit to 45min 1 per week and found games is not what I enjoy but interactive stories. 
 

So if you are gaming addicted you may have seen yourself drawn to anime or gameplay videos on YouTue, (while do like vr and would love to make own app one day), things I do not recommend on your fasting journey is anime and gaming even visual novels, yes I made the same mistake not thinking they were games so it not recommended.

I have even thought about quote educational games just so I can learn Japanese better since it does not have the best hiragana learning tools. But when I thought about this there was angel wars episode that said if your worthy of it you let go. 
 

So that why I have decided to take this fast because what I have discovered is anime is far worse addiction that I could have imagined and I do not even watch anime mostly rap battles and stuff online and even mlp show has anime tendencies as well anime adult sites to. 
 

And every time I think of returning it makes me lazy, unproductive etc. 

So the thing I can do is to fast these things which means starting right now I’m making so new rules to myself.

 

1.Christian content only anything I own but no cartoons or anime for the time being.

2.Me being Christian I will still read the Bible and have Christian music going 

3.Christian content only to kind isolated myself but not too much so I can do different things 

4.Learn this Christian trading card game I have.

5.This fast is going for 180 days rather than typical 90 days and the reason for it feels more extreme.

I would like to learn Spanish to at some point so if anyone has some pointers on that that be great. The reason is I go to real life church now and so people only speak Spanish there.

plus I will be going on vacation next week which I will totally disconnect from everything. 
 

My goals are to focus on thanksgiving this week and packing as well as scripts and recoding for my YouTube.

2.I have an app call nerd fitness journey which I really thought would have triggered my gaming addiction but the opposite has happened where you do see your progress, it does have story but more as back seat and you do different exercises. 
 

3.I do like geo chasing as good alternatives to video games and do have Duolingo as Spanish learning app.

I that about it. I have noticed this twice the moment I do not have anime everything moves forward and the moment I bring it back it feels like procrastinated or become so lazy and do anything that I want to and compare myself to others.

so now that it.

grateful 

1.My Real life church 

2.Family

3.Clothes 

4.Food 

5.Water

6.Shelter 

7.Car 

8.Money 

10.Blessings 

 

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  • 1 month later...

Day 1-8

 

So I have started the new year with a new anime detox and so far so good, I have not watched any anime stuff like amvs, pmv, mlp, or game of the sort, 

Right now I have been getting into the Word of the Lord by reading historical plan and find his his will first before I pursue anything else. 

Second I have been voice acting for few roles in projects as well as something to give me extra to do, I m in one but am auditioning for others and kind hard trying to find ones that are original, no anime. But I do try and when I find intersting project I audition for it. Whether this will take off or not is beyond me but I m happy to do it.

My Goal for the Month of January is to get my Youtube Channel Animated Christians in order and get nice batch of videos done for the next 3 months then I don't have to worry about it too much,

Second I've been eating healthier and walking outside as well, plus I have standing desk so I type this I'm actually standing. 

I think that it for now 

Grateful

1.God 

2.Church 

3.Bible 

4.Family

5.Car 

6.Home 

7.Health

8.Food 

9.Water 

10,. Money 

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  • 5 weeks later...

So I have not written here in awhile so I wanted share few things I have learned and few things I will be doing.

first of all for all of you ex-gamers, have you found yourself replacing gaming with anime and porn? 

   The reason I say this is because anime is directly linked to gaming because wasn’t an anime that got you into gaming wether that be Mario, Zelda, Pokémon, yugioh. I grew up in the 90s which makes me a 90s child and noticed how anime makes you want to play games. 
 

This why I think they’re directly linked to gaming and there something called fan service which soft porn think bikini beach scenes and hot springs episodes in anime where girls do not have clothes but is somehow censored. that why I think they are directly linked to gaming in porn.

Now i amid I have anime addiction (I know it can be for tv or cartoons too) but this different. Anime creates the same escapism that video games gives you and immerse you like no other cartoon.  Cartoons (American cartoons do not have the same effect as anime influenced cartoons like avatar the last airbender, legend of Korah and others but cartoons like SpongeBob do not have the same effect.) this why I believe anime addiction is real and quite different than what we perceive it yo be. 

Now with that out the way I think the best way for me is to take sabbatical starting in march. Meaning no internet at all expect for few things but no internet research, no YouTube, no soical media.

app expecting is Geo cashing, Christian mediation, bible app and fitness app and that it. 

the reason for the fast is to clear my head and give my body rest and take break from everything then Apirl will slowing back in.

it will give me some fresh air as well, plus books will be allowed (physical books no kindle) and physical dvd Christian dvds will be allowed but beyond that and the apps that what I will be doing. 
 

I do want to make aware this an addiction that is not talked about a lot and it does it exist in few people.

I think that it, have good day

 

grateful 

 

1.God 

2.Church 

3.Family

4.Bible 

5.Car 

6.Food 

7.Water 

8.home 

9.money 

10. Blessing 

March started new beginning for me. 
 

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Replacement is pretty normal. Anime, netflix, youtube, social media… I guess for you its anime. Thats why you should focus on doing what you are supposed to do instead of focusing on what you not want to do(gaming anime). Otherwise its just replacement after replacement, pretty pointless.

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Not replacement per se but of course other problematic habits become more reinforced when you exclude the one big thing you used to do. In my case these haven't become a problem so far as they don't have the same strong holding power as gaming. I don't think about them when I don't do them and I also realize that I cannot be productive every hour of the day; there needs to be some downtime with less meaningful activities. Still, they need to be under constant supervision because it can be easy to get lost in them when the energy needed to be productive is not always on top.

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Yep anime and gaming were always problems with me and were directly linked together.

Now I have down sort replacement before about a month before for example if I had no gaming, then I have anime and internet, if I did not have internet then I replace it with video games. (This prior to game quitters). If had no anime I would have internet and video games. You get the idea. Though I did one big mistake is when I finished these fasts that I would unlock everything again which is boring at first but then you get back in the same rut. 

So I thought about how I could do this better, and (I have pc I built with my own two hands as well. Something I had wanted to do for very long time). The way I I'm going to fix this is I m not going to unlock everything at once. Once march is up I will add one element back and slowly transition back in. This way I can have balance between screen time and fresh air. 

So in April I will be to trying learn Japanese again and Spanish so that month is no internet either but will be adding learning a new language on PC. Partly because I have the software to do so without buying extra equipment. That and I have VM (Virtual machine) that I can use to have windows 7 on since some maybe no compatible with windows 10. (Yes I can do it with books as well, but I just using what I have). The two software I believe are Instant Spanish and Human Japanese. 

May I will reintroduce internet making scripts for YouTube and few other platforms. That will be it 

Then in June maybe add something else. 

Plus I experiment with few things and one thing is I found that if you do 45min of what your learning and take break then do something else your brain retrains more but if you try to continue that project then you get headache from it. That what I did is got up 6:00am and got started 8:30am and finished 3:00pm then gave myself a reward system like after 3pm would be out to eat, geo cashing, tea or coffee shop, discord, telegram etc.. On Mondays I do no digital detox but I mostly doing this detox to relax and focus on myself. Then on Friday I would unleash this YouTube, and all social media but this the first time to get rid of all 3 for one month and will be looking for new RL church. 

I think that about it for now thank you for reading 

 

Grateful:

1.God 

2.Jesus

3.Bible 

4.Church 

5.Family

6.Home 

7.Car 

8.Food 

9.Water 

10.money 

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So I wanted to approach this detox again. And the reason is because this particular addiction very real but different than say a social media addiction. 

Anime is just like cartoons you may ask well no it seems that anime is much deeper than than that and I want explain why it problem not so say I m addicted to it.

Anime is known for their uqunie stories, characters, and way to escape for many of us, it a form of escapism but more like the anime connects us like to that world and it characters. In Japanese culture it is said that they eyes are the windows to the soul and there actual bible verse related to just that 

Luke 11:34-36

The Voice

34 Listen, your eye, your outlook, the way you see is your lamp. If your way of seeing is functioning well, then your whole life will be enlightened. But if your way of seeing is darkened, then your life will be a dark, dark place. 35 So be careful, people, because your light may be malfunctioning. 36 If your outlook is good, then your whole life will be bright, with no shadowy corners, as when a radiant lamp brightens your home.

 

You see even the bible says the eye is the window of the soul? But how does this having to do with anime. Well simply this have you ever wondered why anime eyes are so big? This because they want to you focus on the character, become apart of that character and be that character in that world that your eyes are linking to. 

Anime does very good job on escapism and I m dangerously good this why it so hard to get out of because we sympathize with these characters. We grow attachments to to them. 

For example there are two Japanese words Kawaii and Moe. Kawaii just means cute we just think something cute and move on with our day but Moe is more of fatherly or motherly instinct that wants us to take care of that character we become attracted to. Because now that were invested with this character and don't want to harm it, this where merchiaching comes into play and they make these characters of anime in real 3D dimensional way because it priding on instinct without us realizing it because we think were just enjoying a anime show. 

This escapism is much harder because we now have figures, dvds, blu rays connected to these characters and worlds. But have you noticed that by the end of the day after you watched these series you feel kind of drained or more lonely before than when you started well that normal. And it happened to me then we go to get anime games, visual novels, to help fill that need and hits right into the video game addiction. Though I m not sure which comes first the Anime or the Video game but they are intertwined together. 

 

It gives this same dopimane high in anime just as video games does but more in passive form rather than aggressive form. The best way I can descripe this is very similar to a vampire where he sucks blood, the vampire not going suck all the blood out at once but will slowly suck your blood out. Meaning the more anime you watch the more blood the vampire gets and the more misserable you feel. 

Good example is when I was going and watching anime the more I watched and played the more this life seemed distant to the extesint that I wanted to being the anime world rather than the real world. Yes it was that bad and even VR made it worst in addiction to it. That how I found game quitters when I noticed nothing was changing and I needed to change form video games but made the mistake of swapping video games with anime. 

 

There is actually very little online as in support groups with this addiction. While video game addiction has now more support which is good thing, I think this needs to be addressed as well. 

 

The other thing is anime is NOT just for KIDS there are a lot of anime that address to all age groups and something call Hentai which is the anime version of porn. This very hard to reverse and that what I m trying to do now. 

The second thing you should know is maid café which is similar to Japanese version of hooters where females talk to you dressed in cute maid outfits which very similar to to the hooters in their sexy outfits or bunny suit. Maid cafes in video said be 2.5D characters in others they role play those characters and you pay for enteriment not the food type thing and the reason I bring this up is I used to go to Anime Atlanta  Weakened every year and while being Christian I thought I shine my light in there but I let the dark slowly take over me so I don't go any more. I try to avoid it as much as possible but with it becoming such popular culture hit in America it, this problem needs to be addressed. 

Manga too can be addicting to because of the visual elements and then those with people with autism this can be even worse since they would hype focus on that one thing. 

So now what I m doing to address this problem? Simily avoiding it and anything do with Japanese or anime for 90 days while it wont happen this week it will problally happen next week. Now the one thing I cant help is if someone post memes, or gifs that are anime that out of my control. 

My plan right now is to finsh some youtube scripts and get some recording down and once that is done I can finsh my animation project now what I m not doing is stop learning animation or how do things of that nature but it just won't be in anime style though my software is kind of like that but I dont look at that way. 

 

Grateful. 

 

1.God 

2.Jesus 

3.Holy Spirit 

4.Church 

5.Family

6.Car

7.Home

8.Dog 

9.Food 

10.Water 

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Welcome to game quitters.

the trap as you described it is a game or film perceived as something common. There is a bigger excuse to do something wrong, if a false impression is created that there is a community around the harmful activity. This is how people play online video games for years without detecting that they are performing the same operations without any tangible meaning.


Another thing is how jobs previously filled by your community members, have been transferred to automatic computer systems and back office functions. So the human element is greatly reduced. This causes that feeling of loneliness and loss of sense of belonging to a community.

Now online communication and easy on demand entertainment makes people less present to notice their family, neighbours and friends. There is a great transition to fake substitutes.

the answer is greater control over one’s needs and focusing on building relationships with family and community.

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On 7/5/2024 at 4:07 AM, Amphibian220 said:

Welcome to game quitters.

the trap as you described it is a game or film perceived as something common. There is a bigger excuse to do something wrong, if a false impression is created that there is a community around the harmful activity. This is how people play online video games for years without detecting that they are performing the same operations without any tangible meaning.


Another thing is how jobs previously filled by your community members, have been transferred to automatic computer systems and back office functions. So the human element is greatly reduced. This causes that feeling of loneliness and loss of sense of belonging to a community.

Now online communication and easy on demand entertainment makes people less present to notice their family, neighbours and friends. There is a great transition to fake substitutes.

the answer is greater control over one’s needs and focusing on building relationships with family and community.

Thanks for the reply and yes it true but getting out of this mess can’t be done all at once, one at the time and the more you give up reliance the devices on the more the human you become. 

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Day 1 

So this the first day of the fast, normally today I would avoid all electronic devices but I’m making expectations here so I can write down my thoughts.

   It just occurred to me as a former anime fan that it very isolating experience, even when I was little kept it to myself. 
 

Let’s back up I m not sure how got into it wether it was videos games then anime or anime then video games like which came first the chicken or the egg? Not sure.

The first exposure I got is probably the Pokémon trading card game in school and kids showing me the nine tales hologram trading card and thought it was the coolest thing ever. 
 

And not too long I was switching between the tube portable tv (this is 90s after all) and found kids wb and Saturday morning cartoons and Pokemon seemed to be the first thing I saw and loved it and it theme song. 
 

Know this I’m not person of faith at this time and I obbessed with this much more than Mario on nes that we had. Eventually got a gameboy color and played red, and yellow plus gold and Sliver which I did not like at the time but yellow was my gam. Playing day and night my parents got worried and took it do to obsessive nature of me. 
 

Found a few friends with Gameboy link cables where we could exchange Pokémon and brought it to school one day without my biological dad noticing and left there and had tell my parents to take me back so I can pick up. 
 

I mention this because school was very hard for me, my age is right but the mental age is behind which made it very hard for me to relate to anyone. 
 

I remember I had girl friend NOT girlfriend that I hang out with for a lot when we were kids but my obsessive nature drove her away and my parents divorced and we moved down south. 
 

I was so into this anime thing that lost track what it was going to me. It isolated me because I had no one to share my interest with. Not even my parents would understand the draw, one time every one went downstairs at my aunts house and watched and it felt embarrassing to be interested in these things. 
 

Then I decided to take away for a time being and it worked but I tried again on gameboy sp and the same obsessive behavior happened. 
 

So I found faith in church in 2003 and am baptized and decided to burn every pokemon stuff I had. That was my choice.

For awhile that worked I focused a lot better, improving myself then found Pokémon equivalent shows like lilo and stitch the series and going through teenage years without much of biological father. And found porn through deviant art. 
  This and I had obsession with cow and chicken. 
 

I decided to try anime again and this time stay away from pokemon and mostly watched dubbed shows even asked pastor about this. 
 

Then in 2014 I discovered sub anime with a ton of content to watch, you to watch 2 hours a week yet I felt I could not share this passion with anyone at the time. 
 

I discovered Christian who dubbed anime and few Christian anime websites but that still didn’t help heck I even went to anime conventions as well. 

while in 2014 I gave up console gaming, and discovered pc gaming and Steam and visual novels because as long as there not game then be fine. That sent me in deeper rabbit hole than I wanted to because I played those gaming craving friendship and dating but in the form of anime and vr but never pursued it. 
   In 2017 I discovered game quitters and I have whole journey seeing where I came from. But an online church I m apart of is in a platform called VRchat and I got addicted again this time cuteness as attractive. 
   In 2021 I gave that platform up (not on steam but oculus quest). 
 

The one thing I noticed any time I gave up something God blessed me for example when I gave up gaming for a season I got a job and when I gave up anime God gave me a church. 
 

I write this to show you how interwoven video games and anime are together and how they connect to porn as well. Second reason is for people to see my story and where I came from. 
 

Now I’m the present day I still doing online church on occasion but now have a real life church and friends. Go to another church as well for other personal things. 
 

While I do not have job a at the moment I would like to help autistic people who may be struggling. 
 

My goals 

1. Complete a Animation Project 

2.YouTube recording hopefully tomorrow. 


There anime extension that I use that blockes anime as well. And I use leech block extension as well to keep me more productive. 
 

The browser I use is currently Vivaldi browser and love it keeps me organized and focused on what I want focus on. 
 

I should clarify that this does not mean I can’t watch animations or different art styles just not the anime art style.

my goal is eventually is to learn 3D modeling in blender but right now Youtuebe and this other project are occupying my time. 
 

will right more tomorrow thanks for reading and saw Pokémon magazine in grocery store but looked away so day one a successful.

grateful.

1.God 

2.Bible 

3Church 

4.Family 

5.Safety 

6.Car 

7.Food 

8.Water 

9.House 

10.Money 

 

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Day 2 

 

So today has been successful maybe a little slip watching another video sort of making fun of the online church I m apart of but other than that a good day. 

So a few things I did accomplish today is I finishing a 2021 project called Dancegirl, I had completed the animation and scripts and had one actor for it but at the time I had no idea how couple of the voice acting sites worked or how to send scripts then got involved with online church and never finished it. 

    Now I have voice actors for this project and hope to complete it soon if anyone is curious here an early trailer I made DanceGirl Trailer

Then finished 40 day retreat of scripture of my bible and yes I did that 40 days the next book I will read is book of Proverbs. 

Then went online bible study and learning some interesting things there. So not much going on plus I m trying to take one project at time now. But since I m in waiting for another actor I will need to complete some YouTube recordings next and write  more scripts so I get more videos out and if you have not seen my channel here it is getting back into Animated Christians .

I just got lost in the online church that this collected dust for a long time so I hoping to upload more videos soon but takes a lot of work to make these videos so might take some time before I can release them. That it for today. 

 

Grateful: 

 

1.God 

2.Jesus 

3.Holy Spirit

4.Bible 

5.Family 

6.Home 

7.Church 

8.Friends

9.Car 

10.Safety 

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Day 3 

 

So far very good day. I went to church in my area and did some activities there then we decided to go to lunch and enjoyed the company of my friends there. After that I went Zevia hunting (alterative coke products without sugar and 0 calories) and stocked up and read the first book of Proverbs. 

  So not much happening today but so far so good. Let's see what the weekend brings. 

 

Grateful 

 

1.God 

2.Bible 

3.Church 

4.Friends 

5.Saftey 

6.Car 

7.House 

8.Food 

9.Water 

10.Money 

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Day 4

 

So not much happening today, had few cancellations today one with an online friend meeting for my online church and that was due because we going to go somewhere with my aunt. That kind fell through and so both fell through. So not much to say there.

Earlier today me and my mom walked our dog and walked around the neighborhood. This dog has a lot of energy, no I mean it non stop energy in the morning and all day. I’m talking about that hyper. Through I found a little trick to wear her out and that when we’re walking is to run to the end of the where you turn around go back where you came from starts with c just can’t spell it. Do that two times and she out like light. But she loves chasing a ball to. So ya she has a lot of energy maybe need two walks a day. 
 

i m also going stay away from puppets to so what might do is stay away from almost anything animation, not easy but it forces me to think differently and hopefully learn new things. 
 

Slides are okay or tutorials to learn how to do something that want learn is okay. Because then I grow in that skill. 
 

Watched some videos on p2p network it fascinating but not something I want to try out.  And some other YouTube videos too since the internet was down, not much do with that. 
 

Second I seem to having trouble updating my window 10 pc (I built this pc and call it a workstation pc) though most will see it as gaming pc. 
   The problem with this update is that it downloads fine but but never installs and has this error. I have used troubleshooter, restarted pc, had vpn on and off and still saying Encouter problem and waited the next day to.  
    When it comes to I willing to do some things but the movement you say I need to delete files, or use command prom I get a little hesitant since I could brick the pc so I would rather have more surface level fixes and yes I have updated the bios to. I have 32Gbs of ram so memory is not issue neither is storage since it 1TB m.s ssd. So I’m not sure what going here. Please don’t say live with that get me more upset. 
   

 I will be probably read the next chapter of book of Proverbs tonight. 

So I think that it for today. 
 

Grateful:

1.God 

2.Bible 

3.Church 

4.Friends

5.Family 

6. Safety

7.Car

8.Home

9.Food

4.Money 

 

 

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