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Right now, I can update my monthly journal. Instead, I'm posting here because my safety is at risk. I have already scheduled an appointment with a social worker. Over the past three months, I have been making great efforts to compromise with my family. Show more initiative at home. My sister consistently brings up a gaming incident from approximately thirteen years ago. Thirteen Years Ago: I made new friends at school, and we all have Steam accounts. My new friend starts asking me for TF2 items. I obliged over generic weapons until he asked for my Bill's Hat. (L4D2 Pre-Order Cosmetic) After consulting with my sister, she rightfully shut down the trade. Despite preventing the most valuable item from being lost, she continuously brings this up in gaming conversations. I have a theory as to why this is her saving throw against me. The situation can never be amended. Previous criticisms were actionable and fulfilled. She left the incident in a superior position. I don't know what her end goal is. Does she want my apology? My relationship with that friend ended very traumatically. And thus, any time it is brought up in bad faith, I shut down. After registering a second Steam account for multiplayer, the initial one automatically became hers. What confuses me is her abstinence from all games outside miHoYo's ecosystem. Her Steam account is largely abandoned.

Welcome to the GQ Forum! D2 was one of the most depressive experiences for me. Although, I think I owe it to the people I played with. I tried playing a few public matches this year, all solo queue and the experience was so drastic compared to my original D2 friends. I'm a weak player, and my friends hated me for that. Other events also led to them throwing me out almost ten years ago. My trauma in gaming consistently has been lagging behind other gamer friends and family. Struggling individually is normal since I'm learning. Outside gaming, I'm labelled the weakest and most behind. This following me into a pastime has not been healthy.

In my previous post, I shared my goals related to gaming. Here's what happened in a month: I completed two games ( A Physical Escape Game + A Game at the Arcade ) Spring Cleaning for the Lunar New Year More time in my workplace ( Lesser working from home) The above satisfies me because: I aim to complete five games before considering purchasing any more I fulfilled a family commitment I became more active and social Elsewhere: I completed Gaming the System Podcast #11 today. Exposing myself to a painful past (Playing Dota 2 after six years) Threw out expired G Fuel

Hi Amphibian, I got a diploma in Interior Design in 2018, so school's way past for me. It's relevant since my interests lie in character design and animation. Currently, I work in fanfiction and fan art. When I can at work, I study Microsoft Excel functions. I'd want to study KNIME afterwards.

Sniper, I've had my share of F2P titles. Ironically, the two that affected me the worst were Dota 2 and Fortnite. I played Dota 2 heavily from 2013 - 2015, and I stopped because: Poor treatment from my IRL friends when playing together Zero confidence in personal ability Unfamiliarity with the MOBA Genre Some teenagers brought me into Fortnite after I met them through Overwatch 1. Many things made Fortnite unenjoyable: Extremely competitive community Playing against controller players Cesspool of collaborations Dota 2 trashed my confidence, while Fortnite burnt lots of my money. Regarding F2P abstinence, Disney Speedstorm caught my interest during the D23 Expo (2022). I didn't purchase it during Early Access and haven't launched it after it became F2P.

Hello Pocha, My main problem is pre-occupation. I want to moderate my thoughts on gaming. My worst thoughts regarding gaming are anxieties. For example, today, I learned about Endless Dungeon. Doing so reminded me of Shoulders of Giants and Windblown. I did not purchase these games, but they do interest me. And I get anxious that I haven't started them. Alongside the backlog, I want to avoid starting new games because of: Family criticizing my purchases Impulse purchase guilt Every game's learning curve

I am unable to maintain long hours of play, namely due to: Mental Fatigue Stopping after tilting Quickly achieved goals in sessions By creating so many intervals between sessions, game completion for me has been slow. Here's where my problem manifests: Because I'm bored with my current games, I buy more to excite myself into completing them. Slow game completion for me is caused by Achievement Hunting or 100% Completion. Mastering something, even slowly, gives me great satisfaction. Seeing my backlog grow year on year does not. This issue even extends to F2P titles I've never launched. I feel the FOMO. I aim to stop purchasing games or start any F2P titles.