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welcome mate, wish ya good luck what is your job/school? And any advice how to do nofap? (hard mode)

why dont u want to tell them that u quit?

Yesterday was a pretty bad day, but today again a better one. Yea however Ill try to keep the routine up. Focusing like I mentioned already just on med school currently. Working hard for an exam... After that Ill see what i can improve, but yea university takes the major place in my life currently. Its not bad, because its the main target and so working for it is what I want to do. But of course life is not only work, so ill see how I can get a good balance.

Learning for med school is running good overall. Not that much youtube currently after the learning sessions, mostly just refreshing my brain while doing nothing(chilling with family etc), feels a lot better just to shut up the computer although it isnt already time to sleep. Gives a feeling like ‚hey you have actually freetime‘)

jea The The first detox is normally the easiest, because people have trust in theirself. The oftener you fail, the lesser you trust you trust yourself that you can actually make it. That makes it hard. So you need a clear break between the first try and the next one, so you can commit 100% again Its easier to quit detox at the first 5min than quit at day 100. Thats also a factor Personally I think you have to get more hobbys. Otherwise boredom will lead you directly to gaming again.

Ok skipped the last hours of learning day, just didnt feel right today, couldnt get much done. Crazy how one day you can learn like a machine and the other day it goes slow as fck. That sucks, but I guess thats how it is

Hey mate, thanks for your post :)! Its going okay overall, I suppose. You know, I was kind of into LoL one year ago, but I quitted with success. So currently there is no huge problem with gaming. I do play sometimes, but never ever LoL just some mini games and stuff which doesnt lead me too addictive behavior. But I want to quit that too, but Its currently not so important. I opened the journal because I want to quit on internet in general. I want to get to the point in which it isnt hard for me to do without youtube, surfing etc. I need other things which give me joy so I dont have this FOMO without internet Since my last post(and also some days earlier) I dont do that much yt and other stuff. I simply eat my food after learning session while watching some videos and then I close it, and chill the rest of the evening. Its way more refreshing. Of course main goal is to do other meaningful stuff in that freetime, but my major goal is just do get this coming year in med school done with succsess. After that university will not be so much stress and so I have more time for myself. to your question: I stopped to play lol and also stopped to watch lol content. Its funny, I always laughed about those lol streamers, and thought how someone can watch them. At the end I watched every video of them. Thanks to god I am out of this shit. Mainly I replaced the time with studying for med school(like you I couldn't do that productive stuff at home, so I am learning in a library)Then I learned to play a new instrument and did every day sport. So kind of standard things you do when you do your detox. Currently I am mostly focusing on the next year med school. So all other things have not much importance for me. But doing sport etc is good for my health, which means is good for my university stuff too.

Money making let people make addictive games. Fun doesnt matter. Maybe some newbies who learn to code make some games so other people can have fun with it. Bur after some experience they mostly want to earn money, which is normal, but then they want to get rich, so they try to do everything so u keep playing

Well, 1 hour is probably really good for a guy with your background. Wouldnt change that much. Sometimes I think you have to quit all these things, so your dopamin system refresh completely, but not sure... I know youtube is kind of a safe place. Just hiding out problems for some time. That can be helpful. But not 7hours a day or so..

Yea, med school is challenging. Though you can do it. You can even have kind of a ‚good‘(well always keep in mind its med school...) time, when you do your work properly over the time and not just when the exam comes. Which I didnt. Now I have to give my best to make a comeback, because I cant change the past. I can just work every day, and then I will pass everything and be successful in med school. Today I realized in the library how serious my situation is. I need to work hard now if I want to stay in med school. The good thing is I have only 1 year in which I really need to push through hard. Then it will become easier. But well anyway, its useless to think that much. Ill just focus ob the next step, next exam. Its useless to think what can happen if I fail or if I succeed. Ill just work and give my best. For that Ill try again to reduce my display time, so I can refresh more when I am not learning. Also I want to learn a bit more. I am already learning 4-6hours a day, but I think 1-2hours more at the evening would be good to keep things in my memory. But I cant force that, ill see what works for me.

Last days went ok, I learned good. Its pretty hot here this week, so i didnt start with my sport routine again. But I will for sure. However I had a meeting today so i didnt went to library(first day off since 2 weeks or so). I was maybe 1 hour busy, all rest of the day were in front of my computer doing useless stuff. Well, most of the time I was thinking how to make money without much input via internet. I know there are a lots of ways which are not public, you just have to find them. I found something in which i worked all day for. Still feeling like shit. You know this feeling when you are in front of your desktop for some hours, and you notice that you want to to do something else now but you just continue because you are familiar with the fact that you will have fun in some minutes again(doing other useless stuff in internet). Yea so kind of wasted this free day. I need those days to refresh but yea anyway. Good thing: closed pc at 8pm after learning at least a bit for university. So at least I can chill now 2-3 hours till going to bed. Just wanted to post that here really quick, will try to give my best tomorrow again. My health is my major goal and after that I need to care for my university. Those things need my focus currently. Ill try to post more frequentlY, I am often on this forum but mostly reading instead of posting in my journal, ill try to fix that

Oh yea, I played a lot of LoL too. But I quitted one year ago thanks to this forum. I was low lp challenger, also always thinking to get higher so I can be a pro to make mich money. But the reality looked like months of grinding per season to clim again, so many rages, so many bans. LoL is a really unhealthy game, because it let you get toxic. So the chance to be a pro is nearly 0, but hey, this is what all major targets chances are. The bad thing is that when you fail, you have nothing left and a destroyed future. I am a medical student and I worked hard for it. Even if I wouldnt get the place at university I didnt had nothing left. All the stuff I did do push my grades are still in my head. Its meaningful. But lol? You do not learn anything with this game which could be useful in real life. So its a waste of time. Even IF you will be a pro, you will have to play 24/7 league with the pressure to keep your skills up. After some years you will get slow and a 13years will beat your ass. Theb you have again nothing. Just maybe 100 pounds of weight extra, no education, nothing. Because you spent all the time into a gamer. Thats what people call a loser. Looking through my post shows me clearly why I want never ever again start with league

Re-thinked my post. I tended to react on short and impulsiv motivation moments. Above post is again a bit in this direction. Its not helpful. The good thing is I changed that long ago, I stopped living after those small motivation kicks. Life doesnt work like that and thats good. Just because I get the motivation because of one thing to give now 1000% to change everything is just selfdestructiv. Thats why I stopped watching motivation videos and stuff(anime, movies which give fast motivation peak). Progress is slow and steady, not once and fast. You are just frustrated after those motivation peaks because you end up doing nothing again most of the times. So, yes I want to change my habits. Its no magic. Search hobbys, search alternatives. Till I dont have them or dont do them Its meaningless to try to quit with bad habits. No need for ‚motivation‘ in this case. I know what I have to do, and I hope that I will do it soon. There is not one game changer moment. Just daily hard work! So learning went good, not perfect, but thats ok! Will now see what I can do else, some sport etc

Good job mate ? And I feel also more productive when I wake up early. Its somehow the feeling you are better than other people, who wake up late. It gives you kind of a benefit, you are one step more a head. But yea, enough sleep is more important(-> go earlier into the bed)

Argh. Yesterday got mad a bit, because I saw some lazy friends which usually waste their time with useless stuff and they are kepp saying that they are ‚working‘. They are friends so i care that all goes good for them. However it wouldnt bother me much, but I am angry with myself, that to some part I am also not giving my best. You know the feeling, browsing in the internet, or playing a game. You see random people which are just writing dumb things to you/anyone else or they grind you in a game and you want to compete with them or argue it out. Then you realize: mate this guy you are talking too is probably a no lifer, sitting in his room 24/7 is playing a game all the time, or writing bs on reddit. Why do you do the same thing like him? I usually say to myself then: I am NOT like him and I NEVER want to be one of them. The truth is: 90% is thinking like me. They dont want to be the loser which sits in front of his computer all the time, doing meaningless thing. They think they are not ‚like them‘. But they are probably. And this is such a bad feeling. I wrote that down because its related to what i wrote at the beginning. Im mad about my lazy friends, because myself also isnt perfect. I can surely say I am not like them, but I am not near my limit of what I can and want to do. I want and have to change my habits, although its hard. This is my major goal. Right now on the way to library. Want to crush that day.

Hey mate, I read some of your last journal posts and it really seems like you are crushing it! Good job! What are you studying?(Probably you posted somewhere already)

Its probably for all different, but for myself its also harder to quit internet usage for dopamin in general than quitting games. So I think its good that you are honest with yourself and try to improve that. Gz for your new job mate :)!

Welcome mate

Mate, whats up? Let us hear how its going!

Did you try a detox for electronic stuff in general(non productive stuff)? you need alternatives which are healthy. Its not good stop gaming without non-electronic hobby alternatives

Oh true... I feel also mad reading commenty and stuff at low level plattforms(youtube etc). Sadly still doing it Keep it up!

The real battle starts, when you are getting challenged. Start detox = start making cash, start getting good grades, start getting dates, start getting friends, start getting healthy, start getting everything you always wanted? Why should you even think to game again? But this is not how it works. Starting detox mean to feel sometimes shitty, sometimes proud of yourself and so on. But its not like you are a prototyp after it. What I want to say? Everybody can stay strong as long it runs good. Doing sport for 3 months, seeing huge benefits and progress leads to more sport. But what if there is no much positiv feedback? What if there is no progress? Then most of the people will stop. So when everything runs good in your life, its easy to keep up the detox. But the challenge is to stay strong when the life doesnt run like you want it. I know those situation pretty well. Its like a free ticket to start gaming again, when I have a failure(what kind doesnt matter). Its like a reason to game. But it should be the opposite. You must even try to be stronger, keep the routine and detox up. Learn of thise relapse. Hard times will come 100% again(sadly). But you have to stay strong. I know you want to know how to do that. But I think everyone has an own answer to that... The best would be to stay stress free for 1 year, so you can build up new routines and new ways to relieve stress(sport etc), but not everyone can have that.. The rest has to go the hard way and stay strong even in hard times Take your time, come back again, we are waiting here

Hey, days are filled mostly with work for medical school. Learning currently for physiology and biochemical stuff. But it goes good I think. Just have to keep the pace up After those mornings/afternoons I spent in the library I feel exhausted and so obviously I want to chill infront of the computer. Thats also the point that I am a bit unsure if reducing online time maybe will lead to lesser efficiency for university stuff because I doesnt ‚rest‘ as usual. It probably will, but just for some days. Then I would be prolly even stronger. Dunno. As long as the med school runs fine and I am healthy, I feel happy. For that I also need again to start some sport and more socialize. Thats important for me.

Great man! Keep it up, stay motivated till u build up the discipline u need!

Tom is absolutely right. Speaking with someone or even chat helps MUCH. After that everythlng which looked like shit is now way better