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  1. Thanks Lea! I am really happy about you that you haven't lost hope like I did. 13/90 Long term goals: Quit gaming/internet surfing Learn german language Feel comfortable talking to people and find gf Find a hobby I am passionate about Get a summer body Find a job and move out from parents Short term goals: Prepare for exam which consists of 12 parts untill next thursday (12/12) ✔ Return the uniform back to paramedics Go to sleep before 00:00 Visit friends basement gym Force myself to study for a hour daily without breaks (it will help to increase my atention) Meet friends or new people What happened today? Ahh, it is getting harder and harder each day to restrain myself... I am starting to dream playing, thinking a hour daily will be nothing wrong and other bad thoughts are coming... I am scared, I fear I might get back into playing, because temptation is very large... Stress from exam and people, really pushed me into that direction... Finally, i got week off from medicine school, but wait... without studying... what I will be doing with all that free time??? Anyways, to sum up this day, exam is over(I would say not too hard, but also not that easy, might get about 70%), talked to old friend, who is studying psychology, she said, that gaming addiction is incurable ?, it is permanent struggle for all life, also started to fear again with my fathers lifestyle(smoking, drinking, obesity, sedetary life, but somehow no serious illness) and for last... argued with the new date girl. I have made a mistake, because I started to rush everything. I don't know why I did this immature move, but it scared her a bit and I have lost my self confidence... Maybe I am not ready for this. How I feel? Depressed
  2. @Doug Welcome to the community! I am glad that you finally decided to leave gaming and have a wonderful person in your life who will support you to overcome this terrible thing.
  3. @Can'tComeUpWithANickname Welcome to the community! First thing to do, I would suggest is to try finding a hobby, because without gaming and movies you will be spending lots of time on youtube or mindless internet surfing
  4. Hello, I have seen many people take no masturbation challange and I wonder why? Just because it works with dopamine-reward system? We gain dopamine on daily by doing almost everything. Eating tasty food - dopamine. Being with person you love? Dopamine. Even completing workout? Dopamine. Excessive and in huge amounts of dopamine, can damage this system (like it does in addiction), but if you are not "playing" with yourself every hour, you should be good. The first thing I learned studying about male genitals, that ejaculation reduces prostate cancer. Seems pretty good thing, because prostate cancer is the 3rd most common cancer around the globe. Of course, doing it 3 times a day might be too much, but going 90 days and more without it? Can't find any benefits. Feel free to debate over this, because I might be missing vital information here.
  5. @killua145 Welcome! I am medical student myself and believe me, it is worth all the pain, created by studying huge amount of hours. I would suggest deleting every game, so you would avoid temptation to play games. Also, start journal in this forum, it will help you to lay off feelings, make goals and track your progress.
  6. @jsup Welcome! I feel exactly same as you. Lonely, scared, afraid of living real life. Been fighting with gaming thoughts for couple of days, searching for reasons to play, but I am holding. I have fully decided myself to stop this alternative reality world. Yes, people support helps to fight this addiction, but all the hard work needs to come from you. They just can show a way to go, but only you can take it. Believe me, it is bumpy road with many roadblocks, but in the end it is all worth more than anything. Your life goal/purpose is to defeat this monster called addiction...
  7. @arq loved it, even though, i am not christian (but not either atheist) @NanoSalah liked the one with country music style, but couldn't find playlist (my german not that great ?)
  8. 11/90 Long term goals: Quit gaming/internet surfing Learn german language Feel comfortable talking to people and find gf Find a hobby I am passionate about Get a summer body Find a job and move out from parents Short term goals: Prepare for exam which consists of 12 parts untill thursday (8/12) Return the uniform back to paramedics Go to sleep before 00:00 ✔ Visit friends basement gym Force myself to study for a hour daily without breaks (it will help to increase my atention) Meet friends or new people ✔ What happened today? I was out for couple of days, but not because i relapsed. I studied hard for these days, 10 plus hours and felt to tired even to check on what is happening around. Today was kind of a special day, I went to neurosurgery group meeting, even thou I didn't say a word, I still feel proud of myself for going out. In the end of the day, I met interesting girl on dating app. She studies veterinary and is active camper(this could be a key for myself to become one). Seems like we have many things in common, but one thing worries me, that she admited being often cold and never loved a guy. Hope to be first and last lover for her! How I feel? Very tired, but happy for having crush on someone again
  9. @Lea ohh, good old I will survive ? plus noticed you are really into korean singers. Have you ever thought learning korean language? @spacemonk liked Plini song, but metal song maybe was too hard for me. Whats up with you germans always into metal songs? ? @katsudo19 saw Johnny cash in your list, i knew i am going to like your songs. Try the original version, made by nine inch nails. @Philipp left you for last, because I stopped checking your list after Yatao -Prag... That song is fucking awseome! And you said don't expecting anything from it ?. Smashing replay button for 30th time! Wish it was longer. Anyways, like to hear what other people also listen!
  10. @info-gatherer hmm, the answer really depends on you. You should never run away from your problems, but try to face it or they will be following you for. But, if I was in that position, i think i would quit it, because my current self-esteem is very low.
  11. @Silverlining Congratz! As someone who just started detox, you give me hope that there is a way out of this gripping mess.
  12. Welcome to the community! I would suggest to start a journal, it will help you to track your progress and lay off the emotions. Also, introduce sports in life, it will help you to keep away from gaming. Your main task should be to find a hobby, you truly love doing more than gaming.
  13. Why 1h Fitness per day is not in progress or completed? ?
  14. I have noticed, that all of my songs are very depressing and mood killers. So, I would like to ask you guys to share any song you are really into now. It can be any kind: from motivational(expecting lots of eminem-till i collapse ?) to rock music, doesn't matter. Need to refresh my playlist and maybe you guys will find something fitting for you. Plus interested what people are listening around the globe. Put a link or write it down! For example: Macklemore x Ryan Lewis - Otherside (orginal) (been listening for 4 days this song)
  15. 8/90 day Long term goals: Quit gaming/internet surfing Learn german language Feel comfortable talking to people and find gf Find a hobby I am passionate about Get a summer body Find a job and move out from parents Short term goals: Prepare for exam which consists of 12 parts untill next thursday (2/12) Return the uniform back to paramedics Go to sleep before 00:00 Visit friends basement gym Force myself to study for a hour daily without breaks (it will help to increase my atention) ✔ Meet friends or new people What happened today? Damn, fighting this illness is getting extremly hard. Today I barely held myself from gaming, but spend huge amount of time watching tv cop shows. Still i would call today a minor progress, becaue probably it is first saturday in last 6-7 months in which i havent played any video games. Also, studied a bit for exam and thanks to @info-gatherer planned my tomorrow. One last thing, I think i need to start going to actual sport instead home training. Thinking about 3 things: krav maga(mainly for self-defence), karate (mainly for sturdier, athletic body) or gym(mainly for bulkier muscles). All did in the past. Probably i ll choose gym, because other 2 involves groups and my anxiety is over the roof. How I feel? Hopeless
  16. @ketias haha, same, we all are afraid of weekends!
  17. @Lea @Phoenixking Thank you guys for support! 7/90 day Long term goals: Quit gaming/internet surfing Learn german language Feel comfortable talking to people and find gf Find a hobby I am passionate about Get a summer body Find a job and move out from parents Short term goals: Prepare for exam which consists of 12 parts untill next thursday (1/12) Return the uniform back to paramedics Go to sleep before 00:00 Visit friends basement gym Force myself to study for a hour daily without breaks (it will help to increase my atention) ✔ Meet friends or new people ✔ What happened today? The day started quite rough, had a surgery lesson, in which we visited patients, checked, examined them, there was a chance to overclimb myself and gather whole information from patient, but i rather gave this task to other colleague. Left lessons early, because i felt tired and out of mood. Almost went to fast food restauraunt, but somehow persuaded myself to avoid it. Got home early and found my father at home. He works as a truck driver and leaves home for several months. After talking to him felt sad, because we were too distant from each other and he doesn't care about his health at all. Abuses alcohol, eats everythings he likes, smokes cigarattes. This is triggering me, because he is living bomb, which would one day blow up. Our family is blessed with some of the genes and some not: no one had cancer, stroke or even heart attack, but we all have one problem - we are addicted to something. My grandfather had drug addiction while working as a doctor, but managed to overcome it, my mother has smoking cigarattes addiction, but also overcame it and becamed psychologist at addiction center, my father has alcohol and smoking addiction, my sister has IAD and in the end, I tried to avoid drinking, smoking, but addiction found its way by form of games. I am wondering, what kind of addiction my children will have? So, after talking with my father, i studied histology for a couple of hours, tried one hour without distraction studying challange. It was harder than i thought, but i am happy that I did it. Ended my day meeting with old friend, but she just reminded about a person I loved. Anyways, I would call this day a win, because i studied, but the hardest challange comes in the next 2 days - weekend... My greatest enemy... God bless me to stay strong having all this free time. How I feel? Decent, sad, angry a bit.
  18. @info-gatherer I think you can't make conclusion from the first day in football, try going for a week or two, and then decide if you still want to continue it.
  19. I agree with katsudo19 on this. We can't be talking about the games, because we all met on this site for one reason - to get rid of them. Anyways, props for trying make this community more lively ?!
  20. @Simms Glad that you and doggo is doing okay, I am just curious, why your dog needed a surgery? Also, noticed that you had a fast food, is it one time thing or almost daily? Have you tried getting rid off junk food?
  21. @Kameron Delete every game in your pc and phone, because from my experience, when I asked my parents for help 5yr ago, they put lock on computer, so i could not access it. But after a week the urge to play was to great, so i started downloading games on my phone, watched gaming videos on daily base and eventually hacked the lock system and was playing again. You need to go cold turkey on this one. Also, you are quite young and don't have many years in gaming like most of us, so it will be easier to quit for you. Good luck!
  22. Hey Brandon! Glad you find this community. I know how you feel, because I to suffer from severe anxiety and discomfort when communicating with people. My suggestion would be, not only quit gaming(you already did this), but also youtube, mindless internet surfing(just use fb for chatting, nothing more). Try doing sports at home! It is one of the easiest activities against boredom to achieve. (You can find 60+ hobbies in the game quiters website). Also, last one thing, start journal in this forum, it will help you to track your progress and lay it off whats on your mind.
  23. Hi! Welcome to the community!
  24. 6/90 day Finally, I have decided to start my journal, because last two days there stresful for me and needed a place to lay it off. Plus, it would be cool later in my life to read them. I am Dovydas (in english call me David) from Lithuania who is studying medicine and have finished paramedics. I have gaming problem about which i talked more in my introduction. Long term goals: Quit gaming/internet surfing Learn german language Feel comfortable talking to people and find gf Find a hobby I am passionate about Get a summer body Find a job and move out from parents Short term goals: Prepare for exam which consists of 12 parts untill next thursday (0/12) Return the uniform back to paramedics Go to sleep before 00:00 Visit friends basement gym Force myself to study for a hour daily without breaks (it will help to increase my atention) Meet friends or new people And more will be added! What happened today? After a bad day yesterday (barely passed the gesture exam and avoided friendly group meeting) i thought this day could not get any worse! I was wrong. I and my colleague had to prepare sample for examination, but added to much paint and it was ruined... Anyways, returned home early and started battling with my demons. It was 3 pm and I had nothing to do untill sleep(except studying which i didn't want to do). Big problem i have, that i live far from city center, so it takes about 30 minutes to reach friends or other activities. Thoughts about gaming started coming like: "one gaming hour won't damage you" or "you are studying about viruses, remeber that cool game about it?". Tried chatting with one girl who is really into me(but i don't like her, because she is also gamer and her lifestyle is quite destructive), but it didn't help. The suffering continued with these plagued thoughts for hours untill suddenly, it was stopped by a message from a person who forced me to quit gaming in first place. That person was a girl, i really loved, but she left me with another guy. So, back to the story, she wrote me to apologise, how she acted and wanted to know if i am angry at her. I used this moment, to tell about my addiction, but she just replied that she was not expecting that, asked again if i feel anger towards her. I told no, she said ok and wished me luck in life. This left me in shock, i don't know why, maybe because i was expecting something from her or maybe that cold ending has killed me, but at least it helped my gaming thoughts to go away. How I feel? Devasted, sad, but somehow stable. Won't go gaming to run away from my feelings.
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