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  1. OMG it's been a while! It's like what people say, the days are long but the years are short. I'm now a confident mom with a heathy and happy 6-month baby boy! There is a lot that I want to talk about, but I have to make it short here while my little one is taking a nap. I have turned my life around. Now I know that game quitting is never about games. It's about EVERYTHING but games. It's about LOVE. When I have things to fight for in my real life, nothing stands in the way. I love my son so much that I would not let him down. But the changes actually started before my pregnancy. At one point, I stopped beating myself up. It's something that I have been working towards ever since I quit games, and after tons of journals and self-analysis and long talks with my dear husband, I finally did it. I started to appreciate people more than ever. I feel more connected with my family and friends now. I appreciate everything that everyone has done for me. Moreover, I appreciate all the efforts that I have been making to make my life better. I LOVE MYSELF now. And it makes a huge difference. I have also joined a support group for new moms since pregnancy. I made a lot of friends there so that I no longer need my old "friends" from mmorpgs. And these are real friends who care about me and my family, and they make me a better person. There are still a lot of challenges in the future. I need to get a job when COVID is out of the picture, and I need to prepare myself for it. I still have a lot to learn to be a good mother. I want to my son to be confident and happy and full of love so that he won't get addicted to drugs, alcohol, games or anything horrible. I know these won't be easy. But I am confident now. Baby waking up so I have to go. Best wishes to all of you!
  2. WOW! I'm happy for you. You are very brave! I quit my job a month ago. I will write more about what's going on in my life in about a week when I am less busy. I wouldn't say that quitting my job made me immediately happy. In fact, for the first week, I was confused and stressed. But I have been better and I know for sure that quitting is the right decision. A few tips learned from my own mistakes: 1) Do not stay home all day. Even if you are setting up a home office. It's a good idea to work a few hours in a cafe or a library or somewhere else every day. 2) It's helpful to set a quitting time every day that separates your work life from the other parts of your life. And good luck!
  3. I'm so sorry to know that you might have BPD. On the other hand, I'm glad that you have the courage to analyze yourself and to face your problems. GOOD LUCK!
  4. Day #150: 3/19/2019 Tuesday I watched a video today and thought that it might be a good idea to share it here. If you want to achieve your goals, don't focus on them The general idea is that we should focus on the behavior to achieve a goal, instead of the goal itself. It's inspiring. I keep a private journal to count the days. And today is Day 150. I guess everything has been fine. Except that I am not as active as I used to be on this forum. I still read as many posts as I can and I will try to be helpful and supportive.
  5. Are you all right? I have said this a few times, but you don't need to go to the gym to work out. Try some aerobics at home, like planks, push-ups. Or yoga. It only takes ten minutes to make you feel better. I don't know much about porn addiction, but it sounds like you are going through some withdrawal symptoms. Also, 2.5 hrs commuting per day is a lot. If you are taking a train then you can read and write while on it. But driving 2.5 hrs/day can be exhaustive for anyone. That being said, life can be difficult but we don't have to feel depressed about it. I hope you get better soon.
  6. It's been a while. How is it going?
  7. Maybe it will be helpful for you to take a vacation and just relax. Spend a few days away from this city and this colleague.
  8. You have been under a lot of stress. It's totally understandable. Don't worry too much about it. ?
  9. Some of them might be fake but more likely that's just the way they are. Some people can use you intentionally, while some others can use you subconsciously. Some people can use you even if they like you, because they are immature, insecure or selfish. My point is, I think you need to focus on "you". Don't be afraid of "being used". As long as you take control, it's not a big deal. You can give whatever you want to give but at the same time, you need to make sure that you receive. "You" need to feel happy in a relationship. "You" need to feel supported and receive attention as well. If you don't feel that way, walk away and don't look back. Keep in mind that there are plenty of single women, and you only need to find one of them. At the same time, I think it's a good idea to date different types of women. Maybe you will find out that you can be more comfortable with some other personality types. Maybe someone can become more charming once you know her very well -- some introverts are. Maybe they will help you understand yourself better. You are single. It's a privilege. Your next date is full of possibilities. It's exciting! Enjoy it!
  10. Sorry for what I said. I think there is still a good chance for you to get an A. But for you, the chance is not good enough. You need it to be an A, 100%. I understand. If I were in your position I would probably feel the same way. I just want to say that high expectations could lead to too much stress on us. You set very high standards for yourself, which is a good thing, because we definitely want doctors with high standards for themselves. But there are a lot of important exams and challenges ahead of you. I just hope that you could take it easy.
  11. I totally understand your frustration about dating. A few years ago when I was single, I had exactly the same problem. What I am saying is that there are plenty of single women out there who are just like you and who want the same thing for a relationship, and who keep failing because of this modern world. I guess the real problem is how to meet them and how to really get to know them. Dating apps and bars might not be the best places to find a soul mate. Hobby clubs might be better. And friends' friends, colleagues' friends, etc. Well, I met my husband in an mmorpg so that's not helpful information. (It's a rare case. And the fact that we ended up with each other has little to do with that game.) I guess love can happen anywhere after all. You can keep asking yourself about what your ideal partner looks like to decide what you should do on a date. e.g. if you want her to be supportive with your career decisions, you need to find out her opinions about career and money; if you want her to agree with you on your future kids' education, you need to learn more about her parents and her childhood. It might be painful and requires a lot of patience to find true love, but it will be worth the wait.
  12. I feel embarrassed at the gym, too. So most of the time I only use the elliptical there, and do yoga and aerobics only at home. But my gym is a very small one, so it might be different...
  13. You are joking, right? One (mid-term?) exam can't decide whether you are going to medical school. And if you got 91% correct, it shouldn't be a bad grade anyway.
  14. Ugh. I'm supposed to be excited about this new opportunity at work, but I am not. I start to deal with the new manager, and I doubt that some of his trades are unethical. He admitted his mistake and said that it was nothing more than a model error. I hope that he is telling the truth because my career will be largely depended on him. Everything else is fine. Except that I still need to fight with my migraines from time to time. I have found an online group for people who are taking the same exam with me this May. It's very inactive though. Maybe they are just too busy studying. I have also been chatting with a close friend a lot recently. We are not in the same city or time zone, so we can't get together. But it's still nice. BTW today is my Day 122.