December 2, 20178 yr So like I posted on the Relapse section, I was well into 60 days before my birthday came around. One day of gaming as a treat turned into weeks and I realised that moderation doesn't work for me. So let's go again! I'm back on Day 14 and the brain fog is clearing again. This time I'm determined to fully make it to 90 Days, and then continue past that with a healthy lifestyle where I can fully focus on living life to the full!
December 2, 20178 yr 11 hours ago, ValarMaiar said: One day of gaming as a treat turned into weeks and I realised that moderation doesn't work for me. Same. Powerful realization though.
December 3, 20178 yr Author Day 16 It's good to be back! When I last binged, I stuck with one MMORPG in particular that I'd dedicated a lot of time to since I was a child. It felt good at the time to seem to be achieving something. On the other hand, I quickly jumped through my Steam library, from game to game, never really staying with one for more than half an hour. Upon reflection I realised that I was just seeking distraction and escapism. I didn't actually enjoy gaming anymore, or at least not nearly as much as I used to. Today it resurfaced at the back of my mind occasionally, that little dopamine kick whenever I levelled up. But I'm levelling up my IRL character instead!
December 4, 20178 yr Author Day 17 Work has been hectic so far today, and unfair office politics certainly don't help. But I refuse to use games as a form of escape!
December 4, 20178 yr Be careful with nostalgia, it can be a trigger. Games were a phase. They had their place in our lives and who we are. It was fun games, but I think we need to be with other activities. It's not you, it's me.
December 4, 20178 yr Author 1 hour ago, Hitaru said: Be careful with nostalgia, it can be a trigger. Yeah I definitely agree. I read somewhere that listening to video game music whilst studying can be a great motivator. Well I tried it, and it worked, but I started getting nostalgic. Closed it pretty quick!
December 4, 20178 yr 2 hours ago, ValarMaiar said: Yeah I definitely agree. I read somewhere that listening to video game music whilst studying can be a great motivator. Well I tried it, and it worked, but I started getting nostalgic. Closed it pretty quick! Ah soundtracks are a personal weakness of mine too
December 5, 20178 yr 42 minutes ago, thehondasc00py said: Ah soundtracks are a personal weakness of mine too Mine too!
December 5, 20178 yr Author Day 18 Things are still pretty stressful work-wise. I might not be gaming to escape but I still find myself surfing the web unnecessarily. I need to learn to face life head-on, no matter how comfortable or uncomfortable it may be.
December 7, 20178 yr Author Day 20 Deleted Steam and all traces of games from my computer. Same with my phone, and also blocked websites for gaming.
December 11, 20178 yr Author Day 24 After a busy weekend I came home with no cravings for video games. Sure I was exhausted and wanted me-time, but I didn't want to use video games as an escape!
January 1, 20188 yr Author Day 12 Nostalgia got the better of me recently, but as I started gaming again, I noticed that I lost interest incredibly quickly. They just don't have the same appeal as they used to, but the rush of dopamine is what kept me there for a little while. Well it's back on that horse a little wiser!
January 2, 20188 yr Author Day 13 Very little urges today. As I've embarked on StopGaming and NoSurf, I'm finding more joy in other things.
January 3, 20188 yr Author Day 14 Occasionally get a little nostalgic, but I find myself happily busy with other things, so it doesn't get to me!
January 5, 20188 yr Author Day 15 One sixth of the way to 90 days. The nostalgia is fleeting and not enough to make me want to go through the hassle of re-downloading Steam or digging out and setting up my console. Just gotta stay on guard.
January 6, 20188 yr Author Day 16 First day off of 2018. Not the most productive I've been, but didn't game!
January 7, 20188 yr Author Day 17 Really quite stressful today. Feeling isolated and down, and don't know how to fix what's causing it. But I know that gaming won't fix it.
January 8, 20188 yr Author Day 18 Gaming is hardly crossing my mind these days. It certainly helps that I've cut out YouTube this month and can't wander onto streams or Let's Plays. Feels strange but good to know that something that once had such a hold on me and that I thought I could never leave behind is slowly but surely being kicked out!
January 9, 20188 yr Author Day 19 Really quite stressful day today, but I'm going to the gym, not gaming!
January 10, 20188 yr Author Day 20 I'm doing NoSurf at the same time as StopGaming. Whilst I may have given in with social media and YouTube today, I have not gamed! I'm recommitting to NoSurf and staying strong with StopGaming.
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