February 11, 20179 yr Howdy everybody, So this is my first daily post. I’ve not played video games in 30 days (minus one time at a friend’s house) and I know the reason I’ve joined here today is that I’ve got this far before and relapsed. I first stopped after I did a form of meditation called Vipassana, it’s 10 days long in silence with no external stimuli. Just sitting, eating, walking and meditating. It’s by far the hardest thing I’ve done and was extremely rewarding. After my first course of this I didn’t play video games for about 6 weeks and then relapsed after a tense atmosphere with my current housemates. It soon spiraled from there and I’m sure you all know where that leads.This time last month I started my second course with the distinct aim of using it to help me quit video games. I had the mentality ‘if I can do this I can do anything, especially quit video games.’ So far, so good. I’m on the verge of starting a new business, finding new hobbies and a true purpose in life. On the other hand I find myself watching more TV and movies than I have done before – So I know I still have a long way to go. That’s why I’m here saying hello to you lovely guys and girls. So hey! I’m excited to be here :-) Much love,Mark.3 things I’m grateful for:· Opportunities to grow and develop to become who I believe I can be.· The light dusting of snow we had this morning· A supporting family Edited February 11, 20179 yr by magicalmerlinmark
February 12, 20179 yr Author Thanks for the hello It's nice to see some friendly people here. I've spent the day with my family so it's been pretty easy going today. Things I'm grateful for:1) Food on the table (and in my belly)2) A healthy and loving family3) The fact that I was able to perform a deep squat yesterday (as part of a new fitness plan) which was something I previously thought un-achievable!
February 12, 20179 yr Woow 30days already! Do this 2 more times and you'll hit 90days so you can be one of the cool kids here
February 14, 20179 yr Author Thanks everybody I'm feeling pretty hungover today - I'm still struggling with dopamine short circuits. I'm attempting to give up porn too which is whole other task in itself. Time to unplug 3 things I'm grateful for:1) Being patient with myself.2) The chance to have deep meaningful conversations with friends and family.3) The time I'll spend planning what I'm going to grow at a friend's organic farm. This is a big part of the 'new' me
February 15, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for:1) Starting to trust in myself and my own ability more and more.2) All of these tools, shared experiences and opportunities to learn. 3) The sun shining outside!
February 16, 20179 yr Author I've started keeping a dream journal recently and it's so very interesting to see common patterns that arise. It's a pretty simple concept: Record what the dream was and what emotions were prevalent every morning when you wake up. I've noticed my dreams in the last few days are reflecting a lot of anxiety. I give workshops about herbal medicine for my passion. In my dreams there are always the wrong herbs, not enough seats etc. A general sense of being unprepared. Taking this deeper than the superficial level, I think my dreams are just reflecting the general anxiety of the human condition. Where am I going in life? What I am doing? Why am I doing this? Is it always this scary?My previous behaviour would have been to worry about these dreams. Today I'm thankful for them, I welcome anxiety as a guest (but not as a permanent resident) and I'm able not to worry about worrying. Not to tie myself in knots. Just enjoy the wave.1) I'm grateful for tools and experiences that allow to get a deeper understanding of who I am.2) I'm grateful for some new medicinal herbs that arrived today - It's time to start a lung detox.3) The beautiful back garden in my childhood home.
February 17, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for...1) 37 days of no gaming. Go me! 2) All of the new tools and skills I'm learning here.3) The fact that my guitar skills are greatly improving now I have all this free time!
February 18, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for...1) The youth and playfulness of my 15 yr old dog.2) The opportunity to see friends this evening.3) The fact that I signed myself up to some volunteering at the local food back. Today I'm going to achieve...1) Searching for organic seeds for a medicinal herb garden2) Donate my old train set to the local hobby club.3) Start drawing my future reality.
February 19, 20179 yr Author Today I'm hungover, threw up around 7am. I'm nearly fully recovered 5 hours later. Pretty miraculous for me as I've had some real bitches in the past. It's time for me to try and stop drinking for a while - I'll try till this time next week Today I'm grateful for:1) Facing my hangover.2) The party I had that led to said hangover3) Time I get to spend with family later
February 20, 20179 yr Author I went and volunteered today at the local food bank. All part of getting more social and connecting with my hometown's community Today I'm grateful for:1) A free cup of tea and biscuits!2) Spending time with my family3) Free time to achieve my goals and move forward.
February 21, 20179 yr Author I'm learning more about setting goals and observing my behaviours recently. It's really giving me insight into what I can achieve and how to set my mind on it.Today I'm grateful for:1) My comfy trousers2) The herbs that will help heal my body3) The opportunities I have to help others.
February 22, 20179 yr I'm learning more about setting goals and observing my behaviours recently. It's really giving me insight into what I can achieve and how to set my mind on it.Killer man! Although this seems simple, success isn't COMPLICATED. Simple steps lead to big results.
February 22, 20179 yr Author Thanks Cam Today I'm grateful for:1) A whole day to enjoy my new hobbies2) The feel of the wind3) The Stephen King book I'm reading. It's great stuff
February 23, 20179 yr Author I dropped two tabs of LSD yesterday and had an experience that was quite something. I didn't get a lot of sleep today but that's no problem. I had a dream I succumbed to my video gaming urges (first dream like this) and then in my dream I stopped myself - So I take this as a good sign! Today I'm grateful for:1) A storm which is bringing amazing winds2) The class I will be holding tonight on herbal medicine3) My partner's coming to England for a month today
February 24, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for:1) The killer workshop I did last night2) The sun that's shining so bright3) The chance to go and explore my hometown
February 25, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for:1) Going off to explore London2) The karaoke evening we have planned 3) The wonderful breakfast I'm about to make!
February 26, 20179 yr Author Today im grateful for:1) Pancakes! 2) free time to explore london3) karaoke with my friends ^^
February 27, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for: 1) Being taken in by wonderful strangers2) Exploring my country's history3) Coming home to a wonderful home cooked meal
February 28, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for: 1) Opportunities to do work that is aligned with my focus.2) The sun that's shining on this cold morning3) The opportunity to grow and improve my new hobbies
March 1, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for:1) Time with my family (young and old)2) Cheesey biscuits! 3) Day 49 of no games!
March 2, 20179 yr Author Thanks Chen Today I'm grateful for:1) More people signing up to my herbal workshops2) The chance to explore another town today3) The daffodils are all in bloom
March 3, 20179 yr Author Today I'm grateful for:1) An opportunity to go slow, at my own pace.2) The chance to give my dog a big long walk3) To have made a great lunch!
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