lilX Posted June 18, 2016 Share Posted June 18, 2016 (edited) Time when I bought Respawn: 4:47 6/17/2016 Day 1 (half day)Daily: Workout: 1hrHealthy Eating: 6/10 Hygiene: 7/10Mindful: 2.5/10Sleep: goodwake: 9am To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 0News Reading: 0Porn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: I'm reading Mindset by Carol S. Dweck, Ph.D. It's recommended by Bill Gates and it's one of my favorite books so far. Edited June 21, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cam Adair Posted June 18, 2016 Share Posted June 18, 2016 Great job getting your journal setup here and thanks for purchasing Respawn - means a lot.We're here to help so if you have any questions just let us know. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 18, 2016 Author Share Posted June 18, 2016 (edited) Day 2Daily: Workout: 20 minutesHealthy Eating: 7/10 Hygiene: 6.3/10Mindful: 3/10Sleep: good, 12pm wake: 9am To Quit: Caffeine: 1 can of colaGaming: 0Internet Browsing: 45 minutesNews Reading: 4 minutePorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: Not watching porn is very difficult. I stopped watching because in the book "The Science of Trust", M. Gottman, PhD says watching porn is like cheating. I don't think my girlfriend agrees with that, but I do believe that the relationship will become better if I stop watching porn. I am not going to masturbate either. This is so hard. Anything can trigger my desire to watch porn or masturbate as I have not been doing that for the past week. Edited June 21, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cam Adair Posted June 18, 2016 Share Posted June 18, 2016 Quitting porn will definitely be a positive for your relationship. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 20, 2016 Author Share Posted June 20, 2016 (edited) Quitting porn will definitely be a positive for your relationship. Thanks for reading, and thanks for the helpful responses Day 3Daily: Workout: 45minHealthy Eating: 6.9/10 Hygiene: 7.3/10Mindful: 3.5/10Sleep: 7pm to 8pm, 10:30pm to 5:45am, took nap 8am to 9am next day. wake: 6:20am To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 0News Reading: 5 minutePorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: One of my triggers to playing games or browsing the internet is feeling angry, because games distract me from what I am angry about. I felt angry at times when driving back from a father's day brunch today. I was just thinking about some things, that happened in the past with a co-worker. My mind tends to wander with its own narrative. Lately I have been telling myself to refocus on the task at hand whenever my mind wanders. Even when I am doing menial tasks such as driving, I can improve myself by training my mindfulness and focus. Edited June 21, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WorkInProgress Posted June 20, 2016 Share Posted June 20, 2016 Hi there and welcome to the forum!. Actually quitting porn is a good idea. I quit porn lately and limited masturbation to around 1-2times a week and my wife and me benefit from this in my opinion.If you want to train your mindfulness, Meditation is a nice way to do it. Try out headspace if you are new to it. They have free 10min guided meditations you can do every day in the morning or in the afternoon. Another thing you could try to let all the anger frustration and other emotions out, is to journal every day. Just write a fixed number of words for yourself. This is an outlet for all these thoughts and after writing them out it is much easier to let it go. You process your thoughts in that way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 20, 2016 Author Share Posted June 20, 2016 (edited) Hi there and welcome to the forum!. Actually quitting porn is a good idea. I quit porn lately and limited masturbation to around 1-2times a week and my wife and me benefit from this in my opinion.If you want to train your mindfulness, Meditation is a nice way to do it. Try out headspace if you are new to it. They have free 10min guided meditations you can do every day in the morning or in the afternoon. Another thing you could try to let all the anger frustration and other emotions out, is to journal every day. Just write a fixed number of words for yourself. This is an outlet for all these thoughts and after writing them out it is much easier to let it go. You process your thoughts in that way.Thanks. I am starting a journal and I have just done 10 minutes of headspace. Day 4Daily: Workout: 1 hour Healthy Eating: 7/10 Hygiene: 5/10Mindful: 3/10Meditation: 10 minutesSleep: 10:00pm wake: 8:15amJournal: done To Quit: Caffeine: cappuccino flavored tofu Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 3.7 hrNews Reading: 20 minutesPorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: My internet browsing was triggered by turning off the block for youtube on my computer, which was triggered by craving to listen to music while trying to figure out how to do a a hard homework question. I will continue to block youtube on my computer and only listen to music or instructive videos on my phone. Maybe there is a way for me to stop turning 10 minutes of internet browsing into hours? Edited June 21, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 21, 2016 Author Share Posted June 21, 2016 (edited) Day 5Daily: Workout: 20minutesHealthy Eating: 4.6/10 Hygiene: 6.5/10Mindful: 3/10Meditation: 0Sleep: 9:40pmwake: 6:50amJournal: done To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 0News Reading: 20minPorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: I edited out my log on when I masturbate because this could haunt me in the future, and some people who are browsing this forum may prefer not to see this. Edited June 22, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
usernameforworldpeace! Posted June 21, 2016 Share Posted June 21, 2016 Hi. This is great! I like how you've set out your journal and your self-ratings. By the way I love Gattaca!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 22, 2016 Author Share Posted June 22, 2016 Hi. This is great! I like how you've set out your journal and your self-ratings. By the way I love Gattaca!!Thanks. Glad that someone recognizes the movie lol on my avatar. Gattaca was very inspirational for me when I was a kid. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cam Adair Posted June 22, 2016 Share Posted June 22, 2016 Hi. This is great! I like how you've set out your journal and your self-ratings. By the way I love Gattaca!!Thanks. Glad that someone recognizes the movie lol on my avatar. Gattaca was very inspirational for me when I was a kid. I still haven't seen it. Time to watch it maybe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 22, 2016 Author Share Posted June 22, 2016 (edited) Day 6 Daily: Workout: 1 hour 20minutesHealthy Eating: 7.3/10 Hygiene: 5.5/10Mindful: 2.9/10Meditation/Yoga: 10 minutesSleep: 9:40pmwake: 8:50amJournal: done To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 1 minute News Reading: 5 minutesPorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: I find that I have been more productive and getting up much earlier nowadays. Cam, your program and the forum has been extremely valuable for me, and it's only been less than a week. Thanks so much! I really appreciate it. Edited June 23, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 22, 2016 Author Share Posted June 22, 2016 Hi. This is great! I like how you've set out your journal and your self-ratings. By the way I love Gattaca!!Thanks. Glad that someone recognizes the movie lol on my avatar. Gattaca was very inspirational for me when I was a kid. I still haven't seen it. Time to watch it maybe It also inspired me to be a little too obsessive with my goals. Or maybe that's just the way I was. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mad Pharmacist Posted June 23, 2016 Share Posted June 23, 2016 Hey!The setting of your journal is terrific! I really appreciate I've just read that because I need to implement something like this into my own!It's the best way of tracking compulsive behavours and your goals too! Thanks man for that kind of inspiration! Greetings, Mad Pharmacist Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 23, 2016 Author Share Posted June 23, 2016 (edited) Hey!The setting of your journal is terrific! I really appreciate I've just read that because I need to implement something like this into my own!It's the best way of tracking compulsive behavours and your goals too! Thanks man for that kind of inspiration! Greetings, Mad PharmacistHey Mad Pharmacist! This format helps keep me accountable. Glad you found inspiration from it! Day 7 Daily: Workout: 17 minutesHealthy Eating: 7.1/10 Hygiene: 7.3/10Mindful: 3/10Guided Meditation/Yoga: 0Sleep: 10:15pmwake: 7:10amJournal: done To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 5 minutesNews Reading: 4 minutesPorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: I spent 3 hours trying to fall asleep yesterday. I kept thinking about conversations. Sometimes I thought about events in the past that made me angry. In the past, this would cause me to play computer games and watch porn. I am going to keep a journal by my bed to prevent this from happening in the future. Meditation may help with this over the long run. Let me know if you have any advice or suggestions on anything I am working on. Thanks! Edited June 24, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cam Adair Posted June 24, 2016 Share Posted June 24, 2016 If you're having trouble sleeping make sure you have f.lux installed on your computer, no caffeine 7+ hours before you want to fall asleep and a sleep mask also helps me a lot! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mad Pharmacist Posted June 24, 2016 Share Posted June 24, 2016 Well, let's say brutal truth: Porn industry is fake in every aspect.Just ask yourself: Do you wanna have a wife that is porn actress? They're taking drugs to survive so long scenes in the movies, making breast augmentation surgeries (so they have scars on their breasts), and destroy themselves by long-term contraceptives. So, remember my words whenever you'll feel an urge to watch porn. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 24, 2016 Author Share Posted June 24, 2016 (edited) If you're having trouble sleeping make sure you have f.lux installed on your computer, no caffeine 7+ hours before you want to fall asleep and a sleep mask also helps me a lot!I physically destroyed the power chord on my home laptop to stop playing games. I will try the sleep mask though. Thanks Cam. Well, let's say brutal truth: Porn industry is fake in every aspect.Just ask yourself: Do you wanna have a wife that is porn actress? They're taking drugs to survive so long scenes in the movies, making breast augmentation surgeries (so they have scars on their breasts), and destroy themselves by long-term contraceptives.So, remember my words whenever you'll feel an urge to watch porn.Good point. Thanks Mad Pharmacist. Day 7Daily: Workout: 1.5 hoursHealthy Eating: 6/10 Hygiene: 6/10Mindful: 3/10Guided Meditation/Yoga: 0Sleep: 11:45pmwake: 9:30amJournal: 0 To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 0News Reading: 0Porn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: Keeping a journal by the bed and trying to be mindful or meditate when I am trying to fall asleep helped. Thanks for reading. Let me know if you have any advice or suggestions on anything I am working on. Edited June 27, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cam Adair Posted June 25, 2016 Share Posted June 25, 2016 I used to make fun of my friend a lot for having a sleep mask, and then I tried one and slept like a baby. I take it all back!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 27, 2016 Author Share Posted June 27, 2016 (edited) Day 8 Daily: Workout: 2hoursHealthy Eating: 5.5Hygiene: 7/10Mindful: ?Guided Meditation/Yoga: 0Sleep: 10:00pmwake: 7amJournal: 0To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 1 minuteNews Reading: 0Porn watching: 0 Day 9Daily: Workout: 7hoursHealthy Eating: 5Hygiene: 7/10Mindful: ?Guided Meditation/Yoga: 0Sleep: 10:30pmwake: 7amJournal: 0 To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 1 minuteNews Reading: 0Porn watching: 0 Day 10 Daily: Workout: 0Healthy Eating: 4/10 Hygiene: 1/10Mindful: 2.7/10Guided Meditation/Yoga: 10 minutesSleep: 11pmwake: 8:45amJournal: done To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 2News Reading: 60 minutesPorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: Stayed over at gf's this weekend. I went hiking with a group of new friends and my gf yesterday. It was a 7 hour hike and I know I was challenged because I am so tired that I can barely walk now. I learned not to argue with my girlfriend or anyone in public yesterday (I'm new to social interactions so I actually don't know these things). Today my main goal will be to develop my focus on work and studying. Edited June 28, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WorkInProgress Posted June 27, 2016 Share Posted June 27, 2016 Yeah always better to clear the air in private if possible. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cam Adair Posted June 28, 2016 Share Posted June 28, 2016 Yeah always better to clear the air in private if possible.Agreed! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 28, 2016 Author Share Posted June 28, 2016 (edited) Day 11Daily: Workout: 0Healthy Eating: 5/10 Hygiene: 3.5/10Mindful: 2.6/10Guided Meditation/Yoga: 10minutesJournal: donePosture: 3/10Sleep: 11:20pmwake: 7:50am To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 0News Reading: 15 minutesPorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: Added posture to my daily. 10:20pm felt an urge to play games or read manga but going to bed now. Edited June 29, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted June 29, 2016 Author Share Posted June 29, 2016 (edited) Day 11 Daily: Workout: 0Healthy Eating: 6.5/10 Hygiene: 6/10Mindful: 2.7/10Guided Meditation/Yoga: Journal: donePosture: 3.4/10Sleep: 11:05pmwake: 9:00am To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 10 minutesMindless News Reading: 2 hours 10 minutesPorn watching: 1 Thoughts/Feelings: I just finished an exam yesterday and got a large block of free time today and fucked up and watched porn and read the news for hours. I'm coming up with worthwhile backup tasks now that in case if I get a large block of time in the future, as well as redoubling my efforts to reach all my daily and to quit goals. Edited July 1, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilX Posted July 1, 2016 Author Share Posted July 1, 2016 (edited) Day 12 Daily: Workout: 14 minutesHealthy Eating: 6.8/10 Hygiene: 7.5/10Mindful: 3.1/10Guided Meditation/Yoga: 10 minutesJournal: donePosture: 4/10Sleep: 9:45pmwake: 8:40am To Quit: Caffeine: 0Gaming: 0Internet Browsing: 5 minutesMindless News Reading: 30 minutesPorn watching: 0 Thoughts/Feelings: Still working on my "daily" and "to quit" goals. Good luck everyone! Edited July 1, 2016 by LilChenChen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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