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Day 85;

Legs day done at the gym, and with the dog walked as well, it's been a good day on the whole xD

I haven't done a situation update in my journal for a while. I've continued to have little problem not gaming. My gym routine has remained consistent, I've put on weight through eating and exercising (which is a good thing with my medical condition), I've returned to playing football after a lengthy lay-off due to injury, which is a major plus. Getting back into my yoga schedule would make things perfect, which I fully intend to do this week.

Gaming and exercise goals exempt, my other targets simply haven't gained traction whatsoever. I've had a couple of unforeseen successes, such as my experimenting with minimalism and selling nearly all of my gaming equipment for a decent amount of money, both of which have benefited my bank balance. Post-detox, I'm going to put a lot more focus on my other goals, such as reducing my internet procrastination, my time spent reading etc. While continuing to hold myself accountable when gaming, making note of how I feel when I do play, and whether it's a pastime that I really want to return to, and to what capacity.

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Day 90;

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My 90-day detox is complete! I have a few thoughts on my mind that I'd like to share, some of which may come in another post, anyway...

Firstly, @Ironfly, @Danielk, @Primmulla, @WorkInProgress, @Merdoc_Rowboat, @Falky, @Dannigan (I know there are others, apologies if I didn't tag you!), I'd like to thank those who I have interacted with over the course of my detox, be it in my journal, or on other parts of the site, all of whom have been supportive of myself and others, and come across as genuinely nice people. Last but certainly not least, a big thank you to @Cam Adair for creating this amazing site, dedicating so much of his time into helping others. I'm so glad to see that his little part of the internet is getting bigger and bigger (seriously, the rate of growth from when I first joined to now is ridiculous!).

Coming into this detox, I was coming into it from a slightly different angle than someone like Cam for example, who was spending so many hours a day, everyday, playing video games. Over the years my average playing time gradually reduced to a couple of hours every day, with the occasional binge of 5/6 hours, which in itself had become a rarity. That being said however, I am in no doubt that I showed symptoms of addictions when playing certain genres of games, notably multiplayer shooters. Thankfully, I haven't touched Left 4 Dead 2 and Team Fortress 2 for two and four-years respectively, and this detox has helped me to ascertain that online games of this ilk are a problem for me, and I will not return to playing them, period. I don't even want to play these games again, which is a great feeling in itself.

Something which has troubled me in its own weird way over the course of this detox, is that I found it quite easy to complete, easy to the point that it raises more questions than it answers. It was long yes, and the temptation to play was present in occasional moments of boredom, but I didn't crave it, I wasn't desperate, I never felt in danger of relapsing. I've gradually weened myself off gaming over the years through various means to get to the point to where I was at the start of the detox, and I have to believe this partly explains why the detox wasn't that difficult for me personally.

It is my intention to return to gaming in some capacity, but it will only be single-player games, and I will be very particular about which games I do play. I will not moderate in the sense that I will allocate a set number of hours each day/week to play. I will not play for the sake of playing, that is when it becomes a negative habit. My future presence on this site will focus more on other aspects of my life that I wish to change, and to respond to other topics which I feel I can contribute to, but I will continue to monitor any time I dedicate to game, self-awareness is key. I will be sure to act on the first sign that gaming is having a negative impact on my life again. For now, gaming will be nothing more than an occasional hobby I pick up.

Something that I feel like I can't stress enough. Please don't use my experience to justify your gaming habits, not only is everybody's situation unique, but there is every chance that I might be full of horse shit! Only time will tell on that one. 

Whether you are/were playing for 16 hours a day, or a couple of hours a day, if you are on this site as a registered user or as a lurker, something has clicked in your brain to tell you that something isn't quite right in your relationship with gaming. Whether you want to quit playing video games forever, or whether you want to moderate your playing time. Take a break, not for a couple of days, not for a couple of weeks, do your utmost to complete the whole detox. This allows you time to become aware of other aspects of your life, to reflect on your gaming habits, and to see how you can improve as a person. What is involved in that? Complete the detox and find out!

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Wooo Good job bro! :D Proud of ya! What you said is so true on so many levels too, everyone's journey is different and it's down to the individual to recognise his/her situation.

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Congratulations man, a lot of what you said really struck a chord with me. 

The detox has been easy for me as well, and in the last couple weeks it's become more and more apparent to me that gaming on it's own wasn't the source of all my problems.

In the last year or so it had become somewhat of a problem for me, but I thought that giving it up would make me get up and do what I need to do. but that hasn't been the case at all. While I'm proud of myself to a degree that I've come this far, I still have a lot to learn about living in the real world.

I still intend to meet you at the finish line, so don't worry about that!

Best of luck moving forward friend!

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Wooo Good job bro! :D Proud of ya! What you said is so true on so many levels too, everyone's journey is different and it's down to the individual to recognise his/her situation.

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Congratulations on completing your detox!

Congrats  congrats!!!  You made it!

 

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Cheers guys!

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Congratulations man, a lot of what you said really struck a chord with me. 

The detox has been easy for me as well, and in the last couple weeks it's become more and more apparent to me that gaming on it's own wasn't the source of all my problems.

In the last year or so it had become somewhat of a problem for me, but I thought that giving it up would make me get up and do what I need to do. but that hasn't been the case at all. While I'm proud of myself to a degree that I've come this far, I still have a lot to learn about living in the real world.

I still intend to meet you at the finish line, so don't worry about that!

Best of luck moving forward friend!

I'm glad that you can relate to some degree. I hope to see you at the finish line as well, although it doesn't end there, we must continue to move forward, continue to learn ;)

 

I have played video games in the past week, but I will not go into detail about that, I want to spend some time processing the feelings that I got from the experience, but also, I don't see how it would benefit those who were reading it. 

For now, I would define a relapse for myself to be the loading and playing of a multiplayer game. I'm not sure whether I should continue to count the days post-detox, or whether @Cam Adair would prefer me not to, as by the standard definition, I'm not completely game-free.

 

The past week has been a frustrating one. I had a difficult week at work, and a back injury prevented me from going to the gym. I managed to salvage the situation Sunday and yesterday by having a couple of productive rest days. Speaking of productivity...

 

Post Detox Goal #1: Internet Procrastination 

I have talked previously about setting some targets for myself post-detox, some of which may relate to gaming, while some may have no connection whatsoever. Internet procrastination has come up in my journal before, suffice to say it's a major problem for me, so I am going to implement the following rules...

1. No browsing of the internet on my computer/phone in the morning. I cannot log on until I've competed my normal morning routine (showered, dressed, made the bed, had breakfast etc.)

2.  No browsing of the internet on my computer/phone after 9pm. As stated, after that time, I will go to bed, read a book, whatever, but no more time browsing.

3. Set an alarm on my phone to go off after a certain time to limit my internet browsing.

 

If anybody has got any suggestions regarding the tackling of my internet procrastination, then feel free to let me know!

 

 

 

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Both yourself and @kortheo make some great points. I'm going to discontinue counting the days for the time being. I have updated my first post that now details the start and end of my 90-day detox, because both dates are significant personal milestones, but I don't want the number to have more emphasis than it should have, and like Travis said, to define me in some way.

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Both yourself and @kortheo make some great points. I'm going to discontinue counting the days for the time being. I have updated my first post that now details the start and end of my 90-day detox, because both dates are significant personal milestones, but I don't want the number to have more emphasis than it should have, and like Travis said, to define me in some way.

Sounds good to me!

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That moment when you've spent close to half an hour typing out a post only to close the page by mistake...

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Things are going well for the most part. My battle against internet procrastination is very much ongoing. There have been days in which I have failed to manage my time spent browsing, but rather than dwell on this, I feel it important to learn what lessons I can from these failures and move on, while focusing more on the days in which I have succeeded.

I hope everybody is doing well, it is my intention to interact on the site more in the coming week, so I'll catch everyone later :)

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Without the need to go into detail, I've had a tough week due to factors relating to my health. My time spent browsing the internet has reduced further partly because of this, but I don't really view that as much of an upside to the frustrating time I've been having as of late. It is my intention to modify my gym routine for tomorrow and hopefully things will start to settle down sooner rather than later so I can get back to feeling my normal self again. For now, I just have to take it one day at a time. I've been to work this morning, and I'm now getting ready for an afternoon of football now that Euro 2016 has started!

The above is nothing more than a paragraph of me ranting, but sometimes it's helps to get things like this off your chest xD

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