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Yeah, and I though I was cool for taking walks and considering bodyweight exercises. Meanwhile, this guy is fencing and dancing flamenco.

You have a TEDx talk?

Hm, I've bookmarked that video of yours. I do plan to start exercising myself as well ... back when I did it (for a couple of weeks, ech) I followed this one which is a little different: Beginner Body Weight Circuit Workout Do tell how the Altucher's idea exercise thing works. I'm somewhat skeptical. I mean: it obviously works for him, and he's a millionaire author, so what's my problem. Yeah, I wonder how many people actually read other people's journals. I know I haven't for a while because I was too preoccupied with myself, but everyone should start doing it eventually. I think the fact that some people write huge chunks of texts with mega long paragraphs is also a part of a potential problem.

You basically need to carry yourself like you're an extremely beautiful woman. No time to deal with losers and people who just waste your energy. Bitch shields activated and carry on. Perhaps bitch shields isn't the correct term since I've noticed beautiful women tend to be a lot kinder with their rejections. When she tells you no, and you just want to thank her.

Oh yeah, I think Tinder could be fun. At least to troll the crap out of all the girls. You used to meet girls by participating on a forum or going to a specific IRC channel. Things had substance, for you had to actively post on forums, and you have to share a certain interest/activity for IRC channels. Now it's just one massive conveyor belt. Oh well. I suppose it still has a potential ... I met my first GF online. Also, what was that sneaky plan about?

Are you sure you're on the right forum. I'm still trying to decide whether I should reply to this post because I feel like ... I don't ever enter the "debates" where normal people talk about how weed is cool or whatever because what do they know. But I'm slightly shocked this post hasn't yet been ripped to shreds by the community. You came to a forum that deals with a form of addiction (albeit non chemical, but there's no difference) to talk about the positive sides of taking drugs. I also don't understand your remarks on heroin addicts. Do you understand why people become addicted?

I've gone back to gaming multiple times. I played WoW from 2007 and the first time I tried to quit was in 2008, so I can speak with some authority here. Just like the first beer after a long abstinence tastes off and not that intriguing, going back to games may feel boring at first. You may even actively tell yourself how boring it is because your brain wants to keep playing, yet it also knows addiction is a terrible thing. So, this is boring; therefore, I can play in moderation, and therefore I can become a casual player. Except you can't. You never ever will. At the same time, everyone has to come to their own conclusions. The power and meaning of addiction is something that has to be experienced (often multiple times) in order to be understood. Flamenco dancing? WTF. Going out of your comfort zone is huge! Congratulations on that. Pls report how it goes. But I don't understand how is it possible to be the only man there ... yet not speak to anyone. Surely the girls were interested? I just can't imagine that scenario. Also fencing, wow. It's common among gamers to have an aversion to physical activity, but it that doesn't seem to be your problem :3.

Day 6: Your Best Mistake I'm seeing a number of people playing games during their detoxes. 5 minutes, few hours, a day or two. Or three. We all agree that there's a difference between a relapse and a slip: A relapse is when you go back to gaming, thinking "fuck this, gaming 4 lyef," and doing it for days, weeks, perhaps months. Sometimes years.A slip is a lot shorter and is often done with hesitation. It can be as short as minutes or perhaps several hours/days.Question is: it's clear that the detox counter should be stopped when one relapses. But how about slips? Perhaps it should be reset only for longer slips that last, say, 2 or 3 days? There surely is a difference between playing 10 minutes, which are then followed by tears, anger, and deletion ... and power playing through a weekend? How about 10 minutes versus 5 hours? Personally, I'll reset the timer in any case even if it's 2 seconds of gaming. When I reach my 90 days goal, I don't want a DISCLAIMER stating that I've played for 2 hours on day 6 and an entire evening on day 52. I want it to be 90 days that are completely, absolutely free of games. No buts, no omissions. However, should one decide otherwise -- and there may be legitimate reasons to do so -- how would you react when that person reaches their 90 days? Look, so what if someone plays for 10 minutes on his 87th day. Are you gonna barge into his topic and tell him to fuck off and start again? Should the tolerance for slips be increased according to the amount of days spent in detox? If so, should there be a formula? :PpppPPPPpPPpppppPPppppppp Daily gratitude: - Broccoli is fucking awesome. It's basically potato just healthier. Bake it in a pan with coconut oil and some caramelized onion and it's all amazing. You can also make a pic of it and post it to all your social profiles, so everyone is informed that you can in fact cook. - Having the ability to crawl out of this miserable pit I threw myself into. - Mother replying to my e-mail in a relatively positive tone. Apparently, they're now turning their entire house around, so my sister and her boyfriend will have an apartment in the second floor. Such is the state of millennials. I wonder what children of millennials will be like. Oh, wait. What children. - Nekopara Vol. 2 being out. N-nyaaaaa~! I play it for the storyline. PS: Remade the first post in this journal into a greeting post. Check it out.

Next time you write "broccoli" on your gratitude list (at least I think it was you), I expect a lengthy explanation :s.

It definitely has been a good reminder. There's a part of me that craves comfort beyond everything else, for every price, and as a result, all the beneficial knowledge keeps getting pushed aside. That's why communities like this are so important. Thank you (and Kortheo) again for gifting it to me; I take it as a display of trust :mushy:. How come you don't have it on Amazon? I see there's some other book with the same title, but completely different approach (and I'm not even sure about the contents). I guess the extra exposure wouldn't be worth the hefty cut Amazon takes from each sale? I think it increases dramatically on everything above ten bucks.

You write a very intriguing journal.

Day 5 500 words into writing about politics and trying to make a sensible conclusion again. I basically think almost everyone's approach is wrong and that most people are dishonest. Deleted everything because who cares. Maybe some other time. Read Cam's book and loved it. This is how all self help books should've been written: there is a bit of story, but it's his own story, and he doesn't spend 20 pages praising himself and his achievements. Instead, he clearly shows who he is and why should we trust him. We then move straight into what, why, and how you can deal with your video game addiction. Personally, I don't know if I've learned anything truly new, but I definitely needed to hear it all again. In truth, most of this information is available for free, but it may take weeks to gather for someone who's facing addiction for the first time (and, as a result, is in a terrible mental state anyway). It also has some info that I haven't seen anywhere else. I think Cam's the first person who clearly defined what are the needs games fulfill for gaming addicts. There may be something similar buried in some research somewhere, but that's hardly relevant since it's all poorly presented and written by people who were never gamers themselves. My highlights: - Don't beat yourself for the time you spent gaming. It was an exciting and interesting experience, and I should value it for what it was. - Daily gratitude. This is something I've been seeing others do all the time, and I always thought it a little lame. After reading the book though, I'm sold on it. - The part when Cam decides to game 'till holidays ... then actually sticks to it and quits. I'd say this is an extremely rare scenario. In 2008, when WotLK came out, I told my GF at the time I'll just play to level 80 because I want to experience the new xpac buzz. 8 years later, here we are :P. - [my disagreement with Cam*] None of your gaming friends will support your decision to quit. You must dump them all. Even if some honestly wants to support you, it's just a question of time before they start contributing to your relapse -- often without them knowing. Burn the bridges, salt the earth, make unforgivable insults. It's easy. - My recent slip/relapse (I'd say it's in grey area, but I'm not reaching 90 days with a disclaimer) was mostly a result of not working enough. I barely did any work. Right now, I'm still in a sort of "grinding" phase after which I'll start making real money. This is the only form of relevant tangible progress for me right now, and I spent too much time "relaxing" on social networks and YouTube. Gratitude: Large glass jars to drink water from. I've seen people doing that on YT, and I've finally implemented it myself. Now I'm like those cool youtubers. Woah. But really, it's great because it requires far less refills, and it also feels manly to drink out of a large glass. No more plastic cups shit. I'm also grateful for finally getting my mind back last evening. And the fact that I went Kayne West on FB during my 3 wasted days. It's going to be weeks before I dare to open that website again, so at least it won't be draining me for a while. There's Twitter, but it sucks and it's going down. Natalia Poklonkskaya tells it like it is. *Cam puts this in a much more measured manner and permits a chance that some gaming friends may be worth keeping. This can be true -- the universe is infinite -- but I think it's dangerous to expect that to happen. He's already promoting ideas that the reader might be resisting. The last thing he wants is to tell him all his gaming friends (sometimes all the friends he has) must go and will only hurt him.

Look at the man on the right of him: overweight and frowning. It's almost beautiful. We are teh Borg.

All that's missing is him rubbing his hands :P.

A face of a completely sane person with no psychopathic tendencies that highly values privacy and freedom of speech. Also invented a social network with revolutionary functions like private messaging, news feed, and a relationship status -- things that hadn't been* present on other social networks for years, especially not Livejournal. The success of Facebook doesn't come from dumbing down. Just as this VR thing will make your life rich and interesting. *Also celebrating the first usage of past perfect continuous tense in this journal.

Not an expert on quitting smoking even though I smoked for a decade at about your intensity. Perhaps you could try looking into situations in which you smoke and try avoiding them? Or maybe it's specific drinks. Many people enjoy coffee with a cigarette. Perhaps try switching to green tea or dropping caffeine altogether? But that does sound like a rather wimpy idea. Or if you're using smoking to reward yourself, try to use something else as a reward. START DRINKING INSTEAD no, bad idea. The way I quit was the I basically lost interest in smoking after I stopped going out so much. I also mostly smoked while I drank, so that also contributed to it. For some reason, even after I relapsed (with the drink) I haven't picked up the smoking again.

Wait, why was your wife making fun of your bodyweight training? SHOULDN'T SHE BE HAPPY!!?!?!?1''104'

Nightcore You know those silly sped up dance songs on YouTube? With pictures of girls that may land you on a government watchlist ... if it weren't for their huge breasts? Yes, God is a Girl with a chipmunk voice. I fucking love it, and I constantly run those 5 hour mixes in the background when I'm doing anything productive. I can't listen to anything else. I could go and play some well written, imaginative, and perhaps complex song. Or albums, or DJ sets. Freeform happy hardcore with all sorts of melodic lines, samples, etc. Progressive metal. Beautiful gothic rock songs. But that would all be too distracting, ideas too complex. Also, at this point, most music I enjoy carries some sort of a negative emotional overtone. I've failed so much and so often in life; everything reminds me of failure. Gothic rock? Chasing the feeling of being in love and destroying relationships in the process. Also not getting laid as often as I could. Progressive metal? Failing at being a keyboardist and also failing at enjoying my teenage years. Any kind of electronic music? Wasting my early and mid 20s. Also failing as a DJ. Same with all the other genres. Supposedly change is the only constant in life or something; I'd sooner replace "change" with "failure". But nightcore. All it represents -- being simplistic and formulaic -- is the absence of worry. It means nothing. It demands nothing. It's basically a musical version of having a waifu minus all the negatives.

Hi, Hitaru. It seems that you've out-leveled me due to my recent adventure. Stop triggering me by mentioning VNs! VNs are not games! (I normally prefer to argue the opposite, but not here.) Also fuck you, your nation conquered and/or culturally influenced half the world. My nation is basically 2 million peasants whose greatest achievements are just having a language and an independent country (>implying a country of 2 million can be anything more than a vassal). STOP QQ <3<3<4567iikghkgfh58th Sounds like me (except heroical killings and being selfless). Perhaps I'm secretly a Spaniard myself? And also clerics. How does one get in trouble with clerics? I suppose that was a lot easier in 17th century than today. I know what you mean though. Spain is not the only European country that would benefit from more entrepreneurial spirit. The worst nightmare of a Slovene is to see his friend succeed and move out of the muddy village they all grew up in. On the other hand, there probably are benefits to strong family ties and things. At least you have a penis. Imagine a life without having a penis. I hope you've enjoyed these valuable self improvement insights.

Good news then! Well, kinda. What you describe is called a slip, not a relapse. Relapse is when you fully regress to your old patterns and do so for a while, thinking "fuck shit shit, gamer 4 life". A slip is what you describe: reinstalling, regretting, and deleting very soon. There's some sort of a grey area between a slip and a full relapse, but deleting after 5 minutes is definitely a slip. So I probably wouldn't even bother with resetting the count for this one. You should actually be proud and happy that you've deleted the thing so fast.

don't dissapoint the fanbase (eager reader here). Seriously good that you are back here! Was there a trigger for your relapse or did shit just overwhelm you?( if i may ask) It doesn't even feel like there's a trigger. It's more like stretching an elastic, and all the knowledge and experience I manage to gain only delays the next -- snap. At least that's something. But thank you both, I'm happy someone's reading this.

Day 4 I've been losing interest in politics for a while, and it mostly evaporated during my recent exercise. I don't even know what I wrote on Facebook. All I have are crushed fragments of day two and day three. That and my YouTube favorite videos list. I can't take myself seriously any more. My political opinions are irrelevant to everyone including myself. But all these blogs are still in my bookmarks, and I had to busy my mind with something during the last few days. Listening to a podcast while reading works great. As anyone who has some remote knowledge of basic economics and doesn't have some secondary, personal agenda, I'm fine with Trump. But again, my opinion is not important because I'm a 30 year old high school dropout who's been unemployed for more than 2 years, has no marketable skills, no un-marketable skills, is addicted to booze and WoW, is emotionally unstable, comes from a family with a history of mental illness, and manages to live with a bloated sense of importance and ability nevertheless. By all standards, I'm a "Gamma". And when you are one, you either need to try and improve, or you become a "Secret King". It's the only way to live with yourself, a defense mechanism really. These are facts. There's nothing inherently negative about them; they just exist. I've expected so much more from myself by the end of 2015 or at least by my birthday. Instead, I'm sitting here, telling myself I've recovered from the drinking even though I haven't yet. Not fully. I don't know what's going on; this is just the worst. I can't do this ever again, or I'll die or, almost as bad, mentally cripple myself. I know exactly how that looks because I've been in inpatient (a nicer way to say "rehab) two years ago. Except people there were in their late 40s or 50s and have achieved things in life before crashing. I have achieved nothing. Hey guys! I'm almost 20 yrs old, and maybe I'm getting to old for video games? Ha ha. So I found this cool page and thought that maybe I should join! Day 45: my grades are skyrocketing and I haven't thought of games once xD. Yesterday, I was at this cool party (we had a little bit 2 drink) and almost got together with this really hot girl! I need to work on my social skills, lol. Anyone has any advice on how to get girls??? BTW, I will now post a detailed overview of my day because everyone's interested in that. Here's what I had for breakfast: OATMEAL LOL. My only desire right now is to see if I can make any money before I run out of everything. This sentence above was me ending on a positive note, ok.

Day 3 I’m starting again. I don’t exactly feel like dwelling on it too much. This has happened before, and the only option I have is to keep going. Perhaps I should feel absolutely devastated about failing the challenge, but I don’t. For a while, I really was sure I could do it in a first go, yet I need to remain honest (because what’s the point of this if I’m not) and say it was just a question of time all along. But again, that’s fine at least on some level. Relapse is terrible and I hate it, but it’s how these things work. What actually happened? Nothing dramatic from a gaming standpoint, really. I installed vanilla WoW, made a new character, and played it to level 12. Along the way, I joined some leveling guild and made ~10 people quit it by making the sort of jokes you won’t exactly get banned for, but will make people uncomfortable. That was the thing: I also drank again. I drank for 3 days in a row, and it’s the actual reason I’ve been away for 5 days. 3 days of drinking, 2 days of recovery (and I’m still not fully back). I know this isn’t that kind of a community, so I won’t bother you with that. Let me list a couple of positives: - In a technical sense, I’d say this is more of a “slip” than relapse. I haven’t played much, haven’t played since, don’t intend to play further. - I joined a WoW-related IRC channel and caught up with someone who’s helped me a lot back when my drinking was the worst. I’m glad I was able to thank him again. He’s getting married to a beautiful ginger girl. - On that same channel, I think I’ve made some younger guy feel better about an aggressive and persistent troll. It made me happy. - I’ve made tremendous progress with my drinking despite what happened. - I have this community to return to. (Not in a most flashy manner but still.) - I also have my writing, such as it is, to return to. It’s something productive that I moderately enjoy; much more than I can say for most other activities. Instead of wallowing in self-pity (which is, as probably stated before, a hell of a drug), I can now go back and at least feel grateful for what I have. Day 3.

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Thank you for the gift yesterday, Cam <3.