Jason70

Hey, Just finished reading your journal and I have to agree with @championealseeing the great amounts of progress and things you achieve without gaming, is amazing. I'm glad you're enjoying your new job, and the apartment! Best Jason

@championealThank you, and yeah even if they disagree, we can still be friends, disagreeing is part of being human Day 2 I managed to get everything done on my to do list, however I still used my phone a lot, to the point where it gave me a headache. I think I might download a screen reducing app to help me manage my time on it. I have an iPhone, so if you all have any suggestions for apps, that would be great! My goal for Saturday- Sunday is to finish the rough draft of the first chapter of the novel I'm writing. I've always fancied writing, and the idea of having these stories I create, whether fiction or non-fiction, and then people discovering them, excites me. So that's one task for tomorrow. One thing I have to do though is for the future study the dictionary maybe. While English is my first language, there is so much vocabulary and grammar I do not know of. So best would be a grammar book and the dictionary. Let me know if you have any suggestions! Other than that, I didn't play games today at all nor did I watch game related content. However, with the phone, I am still talking a lot on Discord, and even though that's a gaming community, I don't partake in the gaming part of it. Anyway, I'm unsure if I should leave as I do not have a Twitter anymore and so Discord is the only way i can connect with those friends. At the same time, once I start talking there, it takes a lot to get me to stop looking at it, which greatly hinders my productivity. Let me know what you think. Anyway, I'm going to listen to music, meditate then head to bed bye! Jason

About this, you don't have to resort to sticking it out in a relationship you don't feel comfortable in. I myself have never been in a relationship so I can't give you top tier advice, but I'd say make a pros and cons list based on how you feel about the relationship and then make your decision. If you feel iffy I don't want you to feel like you have to stick it out. However it's up to you. Also I personally wouldn't use tinder to find dates, I'd do it the old fashion way and make connections and then see how things pan out. I wish you luck in this! I'm glad about this! Yeah definitely, even if the doctors don't live up to what you expected, it's still better than not trying at all. For sleep you probably have read all the tips of like dont use electronics one hour before bed so I won't reiterate them to you. But hopefully the doctors can do something, and I hope you can get enough sleep! Best Jason

That's nice some supported your decision. From the people I told none of them supported me. and some stopped talking to me but some still do, despite disagreeing, so maybe I should keep in touch with them? i'm not sure, I still want to make some other friends so I'm not spending more time on screens but also improving my lack of social skills face to face from years of gaming.

Day 1 I did everything off of my goal list, except actually writing. While I did all these things, a lot of time spent was still on my phone. Darn. I guess it's okay as it's my first day but I am pretty annoyed. One thing I realized with this though is to do my productive things on my list for longer so I have less time to go on my phone. Some of my goals for the day were Waking up at 6, drinking enough water, meditating, learning about writing etc. I can all do these things as long as I want. No games today nor game related content. I successfully finished my work for today and I thought of some ways I could meet a new group of people. Rock climbing. I have always been afraid of heights, so this would be a way to break that fear also interacting with people and doing another non gaming activity. Hopefully i can find a club or organization related to it. I just would have to get the right gear, but if it's indoor Rock climbing, i can just show up every few days a week and see who's there. Obviously I will need to see if there is one in driving distance from my parents house, and if one is actually open but, I'm excited to see this, I've always wanted to rock climb. While I used my phone a lot today, here's to tomorrow. Have a goodnight everyone! Jason

Congratulations on winning the state level competition! I hope your preparation for your exams benefits you when it becomes test day. Good luck on the chess and your journey! Best Jason

Hey I'm sorry you didn't like the energy interview, i hope you are able to get a fourth job and get to the 30+ hours. The other job you're looking at seems pretty positive, i wish you luck. Besides that i'm glad you got a new tv! Jason

Hi dasvira, I'm glad you were able to make it the whole day without internet surfing. This is one of the habits I'm working on breaking too, so we're in it together. As for porn and masturbation, I never had a problem with it. I always found porn and/or masturbating something that was a turn off for me so I never explored it. However, as you described and with my knowledge it is definitely a problem for some, and I am glad you came to your senses about how it affects your image of women and it as something that you'd rather not do. I wish you luck on overcoming this. Best Jason

Same thing happens to me, not just with reddit but with all social media. I noticed If I download Facebook, i get distracted, Twitter, distracted, Snapchat, distracted. It's a loop. I hope you are able to decrease your reddit use and focus on what's important because really, the social media that we have used is like living a second life being a different version of yourself as you can create this perfect image of who you are, which I have seen a lot. It's disgusting.

Hey Alejandro, I am curious, what book did you start? I myself am reading There There a book by a Native American about Native Americans. Reading is definitely one of the activities I have to get into from my years of gaming. So let me know, I hope you've enjoyed it so far! Best Jason

Wow! What a great online friend you have, not all online friends who used to game with are supportive (like mine) but sending you 13 jobs is great! Let me know if you apply for one of them and how it goes! Sounds like things are looking good for your future! Best of luck Jason

Hello all, I'm Jason! If you did not read my story, basically I was back and forth. I played until my Junior year of high school until I realized how addicted I was. Then I quit, and it felt great! Spring of my Senior year though, my best friend committed suicide, which put me into a deep depression and I turned to games. Games gave me headaches, made me verbally violently and increased the gap between me and my mother. After a while I got a therapist and quit again, until this pandemic, where i still played most days. I am here because I want to live a gaming free life, and this is my journal to that goal. Today is day 0 I played games in the first half of the day, the afternoon was where I realized I had to get my crap together. I deleted my steam account again and put my games in a box in the attic. Now I'm going to use my time to define what I really want to do with my life now that games are no longer going to be a part of my life. The issue I'm struggling with now though is the gaming friends. I still want to keep in touch with them but they insist I continue gaming, and that I'm a fool for giving it up. They too have been hypnotized by gaming like i did, but I'm not sure with this pandemic how I could obtain new, non-gaming friends. I'm going to write down my goals now, and then finish a project. Have a good day Jason

Thanks for your kind words Alejandro! I'll definitely be starting a journal here. Also yes she was a gem, we were surprised too as most therapists in my town get a bad rap. The activities you mentioned I think are great, now I think I'm going to just take time to define my goals for life instead of deciding the specific hobbies or activities to do. I wish you luck on the rest of your detox! Best Jason

Hello, my name is Jason. Gaming has been a huge part of my life spanning back to when I was about 5. Ah yes, I remember it so clearly, Christmas of 1996 my mom got me the N64 along with Mario 64. As the giddy 5 year old I was never experiencing something like this before, I played it constantly. Never got in the way of school, but from when I first touched the controller and saw Mario saying "Itsa me Mario," I've been hooked on games until My junior year of high school That year I realized what horrors the games were causing for me. I still did my work but I never attended any extracurricular activities, I never went out on any family trips and on the work side of things, while I still completed my work, I pulled all nighters to do so, and didn't perform my best. I was always tired, cranky, and me spending hours on my computer or my Xbox is what caused the distance between my mother and I. I hated who I was at this moment, and so from that moment I decided to quit. I deleted my steam account and gave most of my consoles to my older brother, I didn't want to touch another game, and it benefitted me. I started going out more and built up courage and I noticed a change in my behavior. I wish this could have kept going but then something happened that spun this whole thing backwards. During the Spring of my Senior year of high school, I heard the news that one of my best friends, committed suicide. This just came out of nowhere and hit me like a bomb. The loss of my friend made me feel so empty, and I literally had no one to turn to. I remember after I installed steam again and just gaming away. The achievements I received felt so rewarding that some days I just didn't sleep, I just kept playing. Although I was sad, and rightfully so, this was the wrong move, my grades were hindered, I stopped talking to people and the anger came back, so did the headaches. The people who I talked to online I thought were the only ones who understood. So I just talked with them, and I basically lived in my room. My dad noticed this shift in me and started taking me to therapy. My therapist confirmed I was addicted to games and she actually helped me move past the grieving from the loss of my best friend. I owe the world to her. From there I started doing better again I quit steam, finished off my Senior year strong and got into my dream college. I didn't graduate top of my class but, I was still happy with my progress. Things were looking great for my future But then this pandemic hit, and now my life is a bunch of screens. Since this was new for me, I didn't know what to do, so I resorted to games. While it's not as bad as the previous times, I still played for the majority of the day. I would go to online classes and do homework, then game. For a while the brain fog was coming back and of course the headache and inadequate sleep. One day I remembered what hell gaming has caused for me in the past and I have decided no more. My issue is, with games having been a big part of my life, I don't know where to start with this whole quitting process. I already deleted steam and got rid of my games but other than that I'm stuck. I would pay for respawn but i don't wanna waste more money, than I already have with gaming. Hopefully this community will point me in the right direction! Anyway, that was my story, I wish luck to anyone else who has decided to quit games! Best Jason