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TheNewMe2.0
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Day 49 NF 18 Np 1 med 4
im feeling kind of tired of screen time. I’m wanting to break from it but still watched tv because I don’t know it’s a habit. I’m still pretty sleepy but that’s just become my life for now. I’m trying to get cardio in to sleep better. It seems to be helping some.
God bless
Erik
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@seriousjay I’m like their friend mentor person. So of course they want a friend who plays games and thus they tend to be disappointed that I don’t game with them .
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@BooksandTrees I won’t game with them. I might not even permit them to show me their games or for a limited time if so.
@ElectroNugget I understand what you mean when you say they’re the jerk for not respecting my sobriety. I just can’t play because I have gaming disorder or am Ana edict however you want to put it
Day 48 NF 17 NP 0 Med 3
I listened to the podcast by the marathon runner on here. It made me want to spend more time off electronics. And to keep a paper journal. I started on antidepressants today so that’s a good thing. I’m starting to get at least thirty minutes of cardio a day to try to sleep better. It seemed to help a bit when I did it yesterday. I’m also thinking I’ll sleep earlier. Got to make due with what you have.
God bless
Erik
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Day 47 NF 16 NP 0 Meditation 2
Heyy so my streaks are going well. I scratched at my ear this morning so that resets NP. Referees ruling there. Haha.
Quitiing gaming is still tough! My clients want me to game with them but I’m resisting. My supervisor may have implied that I’m someone who has an addiction to it and it’s best that I don’t play.
I like to think that my life is better since I stopped gaming. I’m pushing myself to do soo many things I never did before like watch tv, exercise, join meetups, go to church, and write fantasy. Even play dungeons and dragons and watch anime.
That list used to just be comprised of one word, “gaming”.
So...
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Sounds interesting. Is it like a history of money in an area?
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@WhatAboutToday?Oh yeah my skins a lot better since seeing and getting meds regularly from my dermatologist. You don’t need that website if you see a dermatologist. Let’s take care ourselves better, go team!
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Hey,
Sounds like you’re enjoying your Deload week. I might be due for one of those next week. You do one about every eight or nine weeks yeah?
It’s good to have things to do to keep ourselves busy. I read books and started doing some creative writing today. I like following bodybuilding people in YouTube hehe 💪. What’re you doing in your down time?
God bless
Erik
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@DaBest thank you 🙏! I do think I’m doing better now than I was six weeks ago with accomplishing real life stuff. I’ll try to keep with the changes. This is the best I’ve done on nofap like ever. I’m grateful for your support and this site. I’ll be trying to make it to a 10am meetup on Saturday for fantasy writing. Hopefully I make it and it goes well. Church would be the next day at 1030am. I can socialize a bit there and they have a young adults group that meets weekdays. I’ve been reading Buddhist books too but I’m kind of like what’s the point if I’m just going to do christian stuff anyways hehe. Well it’s still got good info in it I suppose.
@WhatAboutToday? thanks! I never felt able to stick with quitting till I found this site so I’m lucky to be here. The pimples thing is hard. Have you thought about trying NP. If you can’t afford to see a dermatologist there’s a site called cureology that sells dermatology meds for like 20$ a month too.
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I’m glad to hear your class made you feel better. What level of school and major are you?
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Day 47 NF 16 NP 1 Meditation 1
Just to be clear I’ve meditated pretty consistently for about three or four years. I just haven’t kept track of the days since I first established the habit. I’d like to keep a log of it and see how many day’s I can go with at least five minutes logged.
Today was difficult with my client who insisted on playing some form of game albeit non video the whole session. I eventually refused and he wasn’t too happy about my not playing a card game with him. It’s necessary though. He’s got to learn boundaries and I needed a break. They’ll learn to share time hopefully he seems to be doing better than the last one.
I keep hearing about other employers giving better perks but I don’t think I’ll look for a new job. I’m becoming a somewhat resilient and consistent counselor. I keep showing up so praise god I give him all the glory.
Im wanting to go to the gym but it’s so crowded after work and especially New Years rush now. It’s okay though the New Years vibe is kind of cool. It makes me feel like I can do anything. NP is not popping any pimples. My dermatologist told me to just apply stuff to them instead and let them be. So yeah I’m putting that up here because it’s been a problem for me.
Im seriously sticking to just weights and cardio. When I do other sports I end up getting too tired and don’t have energy to lift which is my main focus for exercise. I used to lift a lot back in undergrad and I feel like I’ve fallen back into it. I like it and I’m healthier about it now as I do cardio and don’t overeat. I feel the best after weight lifting With some cardio and yoga after. Swimming and kickboxing always made me feel too agitated after. Man I’m thinking about this a lot. Well I’ll just keep focusing on my weights cardio and yoga. Then see what happens from there.
God bless
Erik
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Oh no I meant I’m going to see a therapist for myself next week. I see your point with my clients. They don’t really care if I have addiction so long as they have someone to play with. It is a selfish request In that way . I can continue to keep in touch and befriend clients after I stop working with them although I haven’t chosen to do so so far. You’re probably right with gaming again messing up my social life and recovery in general. Another eight months and I can probably move to an office setting therapy job. Hopefully I can move to something where I don’t get pressured to game with like the platform right there. Still this site helps me stay off games.
Im trying to checkout a meetup for fantasy writing and go to church. Hopefully my sleep improves and it’s not so hard to get up and meet someplace at 10am on a Saturday .
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Hey good job getting rid of your pc and going forward into the new gear without gaming. It’s a better life.
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Day 46 NF 15
I feel kind of alone on here and in life sometimes. Maybe I am but maybe it’s not so bad. The gyms good, my parents care about me. I’m getting into therapy so we’ll see how that goes. My clients still ask me to game with them and are sad I don’t game with them. So that’s hard but idk it’s not unbearable.
God blessErik
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Woah your journal really has a lot of things you’re doing. Good for you putting all that effort in.
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Day 45 NF 14
Two weeks NF yay!! 🎈
Well. I seem to feel a lot better when no one pressures me to game and tells me I’m not aS good an employee for not gaming. So today was nice in that regard.
The fabric of my mental health feels kind of thin. Like it could tear easier than I’d like. I’m feeling like I just want to do my weights cardio and a little yoga for exercise. I recently tried out basketball and swimming. While they were fun I don’t really want to detract from my focus on weight training. I felt really tired from the swimming today and unable to go lift. We’ll see what happens of course.
Im wanting to go try out a fantasy writing group. While it’s kind of early in the day for me, I can still do it. I guess it’s just a matter of reading and writing some fantasy now . Hehe.
I watch a good amount of tv and I like sitting on my couch. I dunno if I really want to leave that comfort for fantasy novels. But it would be nice to be around other people. It’s a lonely life when the only people you see are your mom and work related. I pretty regularly feel alone depressed and anxious just sitting around the house watching tv. Still I’m glad I’m not just laying in bed. It’s an improvement from my bottom when everything was overwhelming for my anxiety.
God bless
Erik
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Another day in the grind . Keep on truckin
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Im so happy for you! 🙂🎉😁😃
I can see you’re feeling a lot better and things have improved in your life since quitting vg. Reading your post makes me want to keep quitting even against all the odds, the naysayers and those who want me to keep gaming. I want to stay strong and game quit on because I think it will make me feel better than gaming will. Thanks for your posts ❤️🎆congrats
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Hey, good luck on the job search. Good job at least getting to the gym and with nofap and meditation. Maybe do some yoga to chill
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Beautiful helicopter! Who knew so much goes into rendering those 3D models. Keep up the good work!
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Day 44 NF 13 Sober 1yr 4months
”A Fork in the Road.”
So my clients I have now both want me to game with them. One of them pretty much begged me to play with him today. 😭. I feel like I don’t know what to do. If I play games with him then I lose this forum. And this forum has helped me become more serious about keeping on with my hobbies and pushing myself to join social groups. I felt happy quitting gaming until now . . .
If I game with my clients they’ll be happier and work will go better. But who knows what’ll happen to my personal life. I could easily become addicted to gaming for hours a day again. Even if I moderate I don’t know if I’ll be happy. This site has been the only thing that ever allowed me to quit gaming and do nofap. 😞If I stick with GQ though my clients will always have some discontentment with me because I don’t game with them..... it sucks. Either there’s a rock in my shoe at work or there’s a monkey on my back at home. I guess I’ll go with the rock in my shoe.
The pressure from my client to game is really causing me significant distress. I need to be medicated. My anti anxiety pills are supposed to arrive in a few days. Trying to keep it together while I’m recovering from a suicidal episode is heavy.
p.s. I tried to talk to my mom about work stress. She shamed me for being on gamequitters and finding support here. She said, “That’s weird you rely on a forum for support. I only rely on myself.” Sometimes I really can’t talk to her about things that don’t fit with her view of the world. I think being in an online community is just too new age of an idea for her. Oh well. What can I do. This is why I have no relationship with her. She’s always putting me down and doubting me.
God bless
Erik
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@seriousjay sage advice. I see the community here seems to be pro working on yourself and less seeking fulfillment from partners. It seems healthier.
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@seriousjay I’ve spent some time looking at pickup artist advice too. I don’t really do that kind of thing just because approaching women was too uncomfortable for me. I don’t really have a conclusive opinion on it all. I just haven’t been approaching girls lately and am trying hobby groups. I think if a girl likes me she’ll kind of let it be known. Trying to force the issue doesn’t seem like a good idea for me for now.
sounds like you’re wanting to just be yourself and not worry about pickup advice. I think your working on yourself thing is working for you.
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Day 43 NF 12
"Big Belly Erik."
I ate a lot of food after the gym. Haha. I'm pretty full. If I had higher body fat % this would probably be more concerning. I'm on the thin side. I've been lifting weights for like four months trying to put on muscle mass. I've gone from 165 to 180 lbs at 6"1. I still can't do anywhere near my bodyweight on bench or squat and I'm one of the thinner guys in the gym. Progress takes time. Honestly though! The guys in the weight room are huge! They've probably all been lifting for years. Compared to an average person I'm in above average shape just from being thin. Consider that 75% of America is overweight.
Anyways I really like the CW superhero shows The Flash, Supergirl and DC's Legends. Hence the title which references a place they like to go out to eat in their superhero universe. I was thinking about checking out a meetup group for writing fantasy. It's something I've wanted to do and tried, but never was able to stick with consistently (not even close). Now I'm more stable on medication and I've made a New Years resolution to join at least one social group. I think once I'm on more medication I'll be more stable and better able to consistently write and join groups. I've never watched tv regularly in my life because I was always playing games instead. This past year has been the first time I ever watched TV since I saw Saturday morning cartoons as a kid. It's been awesome. I watch so much tv though these days I get like a woozy head feeling from it. *(@_@)*
Uhm. If I actually get into this writing thing that's really going to cut into my TV time! Ah! Maybe I could just write a script for a TV show instead then I wouldn't have to read and could keep watching tv instead lol. When I was around thirteen I read like 90% of LOTR and thought it was cool. Then later I read some of Brandon Sanderson and Patrick Rothfuss' books. I would listen to Sanderson on audiobook for like six hours straight that was kind of intense....But epic! I think 1-2 hours a day of reading fiction would be my max these days. I used to really love reading fantasy though. It's part of what led me to gaming as gaming is set in a similar time and place. But once I started gaming, reading fiction disappeared from my life. Now I'm rediscovering what life is like for non-gaming Erik aka Erik2.0 haha. I was at Goodwill the other day and saw The Hobbit for $1.50. So I picked it up. It was my favorite book for decades of my life until I read the Bible. The Hobbit is still one of my favorites, but I think the Bible is the best book. It made me a better person to read. The Hobbit always felt like a nice world where I could be at peace and safe. Away from the troubles of my family life. My parents were basically incompatible and just 'staying together for the kids' for much of my life. They didn't talk much and my sister was always fighting with my mom. I spent a lot of time in my room reading and outside playing sports to find a happy place away from it all. Sadly those interests turned into abusing substances and gaming. Two things I'm glad to be rid of today. It's been 1 year and four months of sobriety for me this January ?
Since 2020 has kicked off I've made it a MISSION to overcome my anxiety. It's limited me so much! Now I'm watching anime and reading fiction again. It's a bit uncomfortable at times. But, it feels good too. I was reading Oathbringer by Brandon Sanderson last night and they said, "You've got to pick something and go for it and keep going no matter what. Don't let anything stop you or stand in you way. Go until you've done it! That's all anyone can do." It was great. I read a lot of his books on audiobook when I didn't know what to do with my time in rehab. I wasn't living a balanced life back then. But, I would venture to say it was better reading all the time than playing games which was what I eventually did.
Now I'd like to have reading and writing be a part of my life. To spend time socializing, working, exercising, cooking, meditating and reading non-fiction as well. I think this will be a good balance for me. I'm kind of scared that I'll get sucked into writing. I really don't want it to overwhelm my life. The gym's really important to me! I'm very careful about not letting anything take over too much of my time. I'm keeping the gym to four days a week actually. Five days might be too tiring and also too consuming for now. We shall see where God leads me. For he knows the plans he has for me. Plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Plans to give me hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11.
Updates on the whole writing fantasy thing, gym, social groups etc to come.
God bless ❤️
Erik
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36 minutes ago, seriousjay said:
It makes sense that exercise helps you with your anxiety. Most forms of exercise release serotonin which is a natural anti-depressant and anxiety regulator. If you can keep up the exercise it will do you a world of good. Finding a meetup group to go hiking with is an excellent idea. Exercising as part of a community can only help even more I think. ?
I recently made the decision to stop trying so hard with dating as well. I think you hit the nail on the head earlier. Ultimately we are all responsible for our own happiness. Become the best version of yourself through nurturing your hobbies and passions, accumulate awesome experiences and in general just live an amazing life. You'll become so much more comfortable being alone and single. Dating will become something optional. You will become much more selective with the people you allow the privilege of sharing your life with. You will not tolerate a mediocre relationship. All of these things are positive traits and will make you far more attractive than all those guys that use those psychological tricks to get women. You won't need any of those tricks because you are an amazing person that is worthy of being loved by another amazing person.
Keep up the fight bro, you can do it!
Yeah, I suppose I kind of am moving towards living a happier life single. I wasn't doing well on the apps and I'm feeling better since I got off them. I'll see what the future holds for dating, but right now I'm just trying to feel okay. After being so depressed recently I think it's best to just find my happy place.
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@Icandothis I get it. I’m okay with drawing the line at gaming . I like the not internalizing their feelings about gaming idea. I can feel positive about quitting.
Day 50 NF 19 Np 2 med 5
Well I’m making my way back up to 90 days. Today went well with my client. We took a long walk and watched tv. He didn’t push me to game or anything. Maybe, like me, they’ve accepted more that I’m not gaming. It’s just what works for me.
I’m getting up early for a work meeting tomorrow. I may just come home and sleep after. Working out has been good and getting more cardio is helping me sleep better. I think my sisters going to get back into playing music late into the night. She stopped briefly when my whole family pressured her to . Well, I asked ... there isn’t much else I can do. If she doesn’t get assigned to move back to the west coast in March then I’ll try to move out. I’m saving my money as best I can in the hopes of moving eventually if my sis doesn’t leave. She just makes a lot of noise at night that keeps me up and has refused in the past to be quiet. So we’ll see.
im grateful for my client and my mom who takes care of me. My dad who is there for me now. And my job which while difficult is the best job I’ve had.
God bless
Erik