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    Ikar's Diary

    Day 114: Back to work for me after the weekend. I was setting up some bank stuff, wrote to a few people, called with parents and watched Two Diners by Peterson again to crank me up. After that, I went outside to lie for a bit to think and cooked a chicken. I intently lied in my speech today after a long time. It was the sort of lie where you are too careless at first, forget to do something, lie about it and go fix it immediatelly after that in no time flat, to not be too much of a bastard. I am vigilant.
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    Day 113: I spent the morning in the bed, practising NEOs. I feel ambivalent, perhaps a bit confused, as I do not actually know what do I promise from a no-fap, whether partial, full or none at all. Later on, I was reading and on the internet. I cooked lunch, took a break and went for a walk to a church, where there is also a golf course. I was collecting golf balls for about an hour, but then I went back as there were too many and nobody to return them to on the weekend. I will go there once my employment on the pig farm ends.
  3. A teacher! I am teaching English part-time. It is fun getting people involved and perhaps even giving a damn about what are you on about ?
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    Day 111: OK, I guess a long silence was a long entry yesterday. After work, I have been researching some stuff and wrote an email, then I tried to meditate by counting breaths (which was difficult) and then I fell asleep early. Day 112: I had a day off today, so we hitch-hiked to Reykjavik with one companion. One of the drivers was a teacher and I remember two things from him: passion and patience. Though I know delaying is no bueno, I will have a day off tomorrow as well and I will have an easier time writing too, as I feel somewhat out of focus now.
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    Day 110: After work, I went outside, wrote to friends and saw a dead baby whale that got stranded on the coast nearby. I have been thinking of writing a longer entry, tomorrow I will do that.
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    Day 109: I got some good food today! I also bought a flight ticket, so in less than a month, I will be home.
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    Day 108: Ordinary day at work. I visited the Icelandic guy and hung out with him. We also exchanged some food!
  8. I agree with making a change. In retrospect before I quit gaming, I can say I had a ton of issues that I am currently trying to become aware of and slowly untangle. I talk to and listen to people more. The fun fact about people is that we never really know ourselves in the present. Anyhow, go for it. As if your life was at stake which it is!
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    Day 107: Nothing overly relevant today. Worked, walked, talked. Gonna have a small drink in the evening, as it is my birthday today ?
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    Also, nofap starting tomorrow, till the end of Iceland. It will be at least a bit over a month. Time to get serious!
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    Day 106: I woke up even before the alarm. Worked till lunch today. I searched for a job back home, sent a few emails, read and pushed my comfort zone by climbing over a ravine.
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    Day 105: Working the weekend till lunch this time. I wrote, took a nap, wrote again and read "The subtle art" by Mark Manson outside, finally found myself in a position to do it. My mom also called. Good day, I feel caught up with my life.
  13. Interesting thoughts on nofap. I have mixed feelings about it, but I had that about quitting games too.
  14. I am realizing early in my early 20s that some people come and some go and not only because they or you change places. Maybe you give them a chance or two, but then you realize there is about 7 billion other people you could click with too after a few hours of conversation. Regarding family in this, chances are if you are honest with them, they will see your point and help you out and connect. My mom was shocked to know she raised an addict too, likely somewhere on the level I was shocked there was a huge part of hate in my love towards my ex. https://yourpersonality.net/attachment/index.php Is it this site you refer to? Same here, I think I am starting to be good at this. I had a clash at work recently, because I did something wrong and they decided to ignore it, so instead they built up resentment and doubt. When I called them out on doing something wrong, they would get defensive, bring up the (unrelated) past issue into the (now) argument and talk all about how stupid were they for being so "forgiving" in the past. My point is, mature people can stand honesty, admit they did something wrong and you do not have to worry about them exploding, because they are responsible for their feelings and will not get mad regardless of whether that thing they did was wrong or actually right and misunderstood. Again, I know I want to do this, but I am not sure how much I act it out. Enjoy your break ?
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    Day 104: Back to the good old boring days. I roasted a chicken today myself probably for the first time and wrote a bit again while outside.
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    Day 103: Interesting day today. I think I managed to make peace with myself and that is the most important thing for me, so I can feel good and work properly. I also realized I am happy when people call me out on my wrongdoings, justified or not (that is up to me to consider) and that I am happy that I do not lie.
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    Day 102: I think I spiked an issue today at work somewhat recklessly and did not think through the consequences of it. It is part of a larger issue in the workplace though that is bound to be resolved soon, so right now I am not too sure what to make of it. I like how this diary is still on the forum, almost non-related to games. Small step a day takes you far in a year.
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    Day 101: The work was okay today. I had a good chat afterwards with the colleagues and I think that was good. Nothing much other than that.
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    Day 100: Work went quite decently today. I asked a few things regarding my employment too I was not 100% sure about. I ate after work, got my laundry done, wrote a work email, went outside to think of something smart to write, ate some vegetables and now I am here. I feel like I nailed it today. Action followed action. The full weekend rest, barely to the point of boredom, helped. I hope I can keep this up.
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    Day 99: I wrote, got the recap done, took a walk and possibly safeguarded some money. I did not end up reading any books. I think I will be more active to get my future job existence at home sorted out. Overall, it was a good day to get myself together.
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    Here's my monthly summary again: Game Quitters - I'm still reading the journals I am subbed to, though I know I comment less. physical development - I move basically all day at work. I either take a long walk or short walk with meditation after that. mental development - I finished 12 Rules a month ago, since then I have read articles on Mark Manson's website, but it has been a week or more since I last did that. I will hop into books I have on my phone today after a walk. going out more/new people and screen time reduction - I feel like quite the social animal, I write and talk a lot. I spend quite some time on the phone writing. uni - summer break English teaching/my business - This has to be tackled when I return, perhaps even more than the university. Searching for possible employers and students is crucial towards my growth. Again, all this is on hold, but I put some ideas for me to investigate when I get home at the latest. Iceland - I made it here! I will be working on the pig farm for one more month, then do some small scale travelling for a week or two and go home. family - I have been keeping in touch every few days. AFTER ICELAND - priorities: hobbies: modeling (WWII stuff), paintball, geocache, drumming (yoga?) Meditate my business/English teaching - schools (both state and private), websites for teachers, jobs university (whatever happens and springs to mind while there) Self-authoring
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    Day 98: I dodged an entry yesterday. We drank quite a bit, but not enough to knock me out the whole next day. I was resting the whole morning though (and even masturbated twice - it was an odd morning). I took a walk, cooked, wrote some people, got back on Tinder and cleaned my room. I feel better after today, I feel like I broke the slump. I have tomorrow off too, so I will execute more of the ideas I had planned. I have my focus back.
  23. We can still keep it there for a while! I could copy what NannerZ wrote. I can also agree 100% on your first paragraph from my perspective. I enjoy your analytic approach to your own issues and the issues of others. I also hope your gf can find the courage to smartly contend with all the free time that she has been given, much like we did when we started the detox! Well done and good luck!
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    Day 96: I feel tired and I have a hard time focusing after work. I got some stuff done back home, I have been dodging that for several days. This scenario I put myself into is interesting, because I know I am tired after work, but I also do not feel justified to waste the rest of the day and I know that is the correct attitude. I might need a full day or two to set myself straight, to meditate and think, because I feel I am doing stuff haphazardly. I want to review these days when I get back home.
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    Ikar's Diary

    Day 95: I went to a bank to set up my account for the salary. Nothing too special otherwise. I wrote a lot today. I was cooking with mutually destructive results, but I had fun doing that. I had a thought in the morning I can command and control myself the most effectively of all people. I will try hard to make it so in my future workplace as a freelancer. Other than that, I am in Iceland for a month and it feels like I came here yesterday. Time lingers really only when you want it to. I will make the monthly report tomorrow.
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