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I'm having trouble calming down tonight. I think it's very important to have days to relax and recharge. I was facing major burnout over the past few weeks. I appreciate feeling better today. But that dark side makes me feel like I wasted a day. I want to come out tomorrow on fire and start a new animation project. There's something inside of me pushing so hard to be amazing and create a wave of brilliance in entertainment. It's like an earthquake of turmoil from within. I talk myself out of it on rest days like today was because it's what I tell everyone. You gotta be more kind to yourself and not be so hard all the time. I appreciate the words. The hunger I feel for success can be unleashed tomorrow with my new project. I'm going to animate a ghastly from pokemon. I was going to make a room, but I'm compelled to make this really cool animation.

Today was ok. I just didn't really do much. I cleaned my apartment, cooked, ate, and spoke on the phone for a few hours to people who I haven't spoken to in a while. It almost feels like a chore. They just tell me the same shit in a different toilet. Heard it before. It's annoying. I guess I'm being too mean. But there's nothing really new or enjoyable when talking. It's not like the conversations I had with my friends yesterday. I am frustrated by a few things with a dating app, but I don't really want to talk about it with you guys to be honest. I ask you don't comment on this portion of my diary. I'm writing it for myself. I made a dating profile on hinge and have had about 25 matches in the past 2 weeks. I don't really enjoy them after a while and just unmatch with them. The conversations are just boring after a while. Nobody is piquing my interest whatsoever. Many of the women on there only talk about themselves and never ask reciprocal questions or take initiative and ask about me. Only 3 have done this. I think many women on the site are lonely and want attention. I'm being patient with it, but I don't see this lasting long. I wanted to test a few things and see if I'd get matches and it's worked exponentially well. The issue is I still just dislike the people I match with over time. I dislike generic women who like generic things. I've actually watched less porn since creating the profile. Don't wish me any luck or talk to me about this. As I mentioned I just wrote this for me.

I think your eye art is coming along well. You can also scan your titan art and color over the scan. Or trace it. That way you keep the orginal. Good luck with the poetry group, but be careful with the virus.

Welcome to the forums! Good luck and feel free to read around and ask people questions as you start to discover more about yourself.

I agree. I've been waking up at 7 and feel a lot better each day. No more 9 or 10 unless I truly need it for health purposes.

Lol that's terrible. Thank you.

Thank you

Dude, I really love the color on this. Are these from the new markers you were talking about? They're way more vibrant than normal markers. That's nuts.

Today I'm 78 weeks free from gaming. I worked some overtime last night, but I got 3 days off and am going to relax. Today I spent time with my artist friends on a long online video call. We all animated and 3d modeled together, while talking about life and joking around. It honestly reminded me of playing video games again, but the good parts of it. I just missed doing things with people outside of work, but on the computer. It was really productive, and yes, I finished my animation! Here is the first thing I've ever animated. I received so many compliments on it. It's only supposed to be 2 seconds long because of what the original anime had. I was supposed to just learn something the basic way, but you all know I'm extremely complicated and imaginative so I get frustrated with simple tasks. I was told to 3d model a chair and give it texture. That bores me. What made my project so difficult was to give a sphere with only two eyes for features some character. I think I did that well. I also created dynamic lightning on my own. I followed a tutorial, but my lightning is completely different than the tutorial I followed. I created a very unique shape and modified its properties to a creative way to fit my project. I then created an explosion technique, which generated smoke from it. I also created a procedural glow effect before the explosion. Here it is. Thanks for supporting my new hobby: Voltorb Animation.mp4

Nice. Just keep focusing on one thing at a time and enjoy the process/be patient with it. That voltorb I'm making is going on like week 3 soon and I feel so much better about it now than I did in March. I remember my friend did eye tutorials then noses, then mouths, e.t.c. then her portraits got really good after a year. This one is a major step up from previous ones. It has more dimension to it I think than previous drawings. Like it looks more 3d than 2d.

Congratulations! Hope you're feeling better.

Are you drinking enough water, sleeping, and giving yourself breaks from screen time?

The wind is so strong that it shakes my home and the heating unit is so loud that it makes loud banging noises. Twice I've woken from being scared. This is pissing me off.

I took the video with a phone so the quality is bad.

Today was another great day. I continue to wake up early and I continue to practice good diet, stress relief activities, working only 8 hours, exercising after work, taking a shower, and then working on hobbies. As requested, here is another progress shot. All of the lightning and sparks you see are fully animated and move dynamically. I should be doing beginner stuff like making chairs and cups, but that's boring and not my style at all. I wanted to make a cool animation that inspires you. I'm very proud so far. @Erik2.0, @Ikar, @Alexanderle Click on the one at the bottom. I don't know what they're so huge. I created lightning animations. I took a still render of it because it will look cooler once it is fully animated and I post it on YouTube: I then have it glowing about to explode: Next I'll be creating a smoke effect and an explosion effect. 20200416_193720.mp4

That's awesome. Glad you're digging into this hobby more and enjoying it.

Will do. I didn't think there was much to share, but hopefully this weekend.

I love using GIS. I made a project with all ther bridges in my area of the country and gave it lots of properties to use for projects. Do you plan on using it in the future?

Sorry to hear she is getting lost and being mean. Do you have a phone to bring to potentially avoid this situation? Have you talked to her about what she says is being mean? Good job not swearing today. I swore yesterday and it wasn't worth it. Keep up the good work.

Today went extremely well. I got all my work done at work and took time to breathe and destress during the day. I had an amazing amount of energy after work ended and I only worked 8 hours again. I then exercised for 20 minutes, showered, relaxed, ate dinner, and then 3d modeled. I spent about 2 hours doing it and texting with people. I really enjoyed it and learned a lot. I got my voltorb to glow and started modeling lightning around it. I'll try to finish those this week and try to animate it.

Blog can be tricky since it might introduce more work for you and less personal time. Some weeks you'll want to blog and other weeks you won't. As long as you're not pressuring yourself to write like x amount per week and are doing it for expression and enjoyment. Good job with the diet.

I only worked 8 hours today. I feel happy. I kept getting asked to do more and I told everyone no. I have no huge plans today other than working out, shower therapy, and some time 3d modeling. But I'm not in the mood to keep doing shit. No days off for 16 days now. I'm not working more overtime.

No, I appreciate it and it honestly was a contributing factor to me quitting originally. I haven't handled it well initially, but have learned a lot over the past week.

I don't think this is a good idea. Some things you can wing it, but only if you have a firm knowledge of the materials. If you don't know the calories in your items, how many calories you need per day, or to lose weight in the correct cutting method then you're going to wind up in circles. It's like trying to bake a cake without measuring out the ingredients, using the right temperature, and cooking and cooling it for the correct amount of time.

1. Temporary. 2. I enjoy it and missed it when I quit last year. I'm not taking it for granted. 3. I'm extremely efficient. It's just a collection of deadlines. I'm not going to consider this advice since it is too broad for my specific deadline. I'm not trying to sound rude when I say I'm not listening. When something is due it's due and that's what happens in my industry. I hope this does not offend you since I respect your opinion on things. I've just done most of these things you've suggested with more breaks etc. I don't really want advice for the burnout. I think I've learned not to work on weekends anymore, not work for free for the sake of the budget, and how to make my own decisions more prominent.