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I wondered about this. Like, I don't think Pokemon Go compares to WoW, LoL, RuneScape, Overwatch, CSGO, etc. I just don't know if it would give the same lethargy that other headline games give.

Lol thanks. Now get to those hobbies!

I found that my short term memory was non existent with gaming and it made me less productive at work, more forgetful with responsibilities like bills, and lacking effort in human relationships, which contributed to having no friends.

Thank you. We'll see how it goes.

Glad you're enjoying respawn and making progress here. Welcome to the forums and I hope this makes a difference in your life. I found that within the first week of quitting games my mind became more clear and I was less irritable in general. It's a very taxing lifestyle to be a gamer.

If my new apartment is good I'm going to get an electric drum set. I was hesitant to buy them in April because I knew I'd have to move.

I'm taking credit for helping lead to this lol. I'm glad you found it though in all seriousness.

Why are you quitting video games and do you have a potential job lined up or a degree or anything? Just curious about your background with gaming. Welcome to the forums.

Welcome to the forums. Feel free to immerse yourself a bit and read some introduction stories. I have a decent one you can find on the first post of my diary. I also have a guide on how I was able to go over 500 days without gaming in the celebration part of the forums that I'd recommend reading first. Good luck.

It sounds like you need to get some stress and frustration out. Sometimes you have so much on your mind that you avoid other things in life because you're already bogged down. It's avoidance procrastination and anxiety. When you're feeling down and want to hide, do the opposite. Listen to an aggressive song, do some jumping jacks and then get pumped up. Get your stress out and then attack your tasks by accomplishing small checkpoints on large tasks. You'll feel relieved after and start doing your normal activities again.

I saw Foals live 4 years ago. They're pretty good. I enjoy the song. Sometimes I depend on adrenaline and powerful music to push me in the direction I want to go.

When did you get drums?

Blender 2.83 is free and a professional software. You can also use Google sketchup or Autodesk visual studio 360 for free.

Update: I found an apartment to tour this weekend. It's 900 sq ft for $1,600/mo. It is brand new and located in a town I love. Hopefully I like it this weekend so I can move in. It would be so nice to know I'll be home for longer than 4 months. After the good news I calmed down and finished all the work I intended on doing today. So now I feel double the relief that I've found an apartment and finished my work. Something I'd like to work on is my action oriented mindset. It's a huge benefit because I'm a highly responsible problem solver who doesn't procrastinate or sit on things. The issue is I prioritize issues like my apartment over issues at work because technically it's way more important. But sometimes this gets me distracted from work and I'd like to be better at realizing things can wait. I didn't have to panic search today, but maybe it was the right thing to do. I could have been a lot kinder to myself during the ordeal at least. It's something to think about. If I can get this apartment I'd save over $5,000/yr in rent and that's huge.

I would be so afraid to sit in a store for 1 hour lol. Is anyone staring at you?

I got over 6 hours of sleep last night for the first time in 2 weeks. I'm somewhat torn regarding rent and it is stressing me out. I'm trying to find roommates and it's not working. The only places I can find at the moment are asking for almost $2,000 per month. Jesus christ. If I can just do this for a year I'll be certain I'll pass my exam and then be hellbent on getting a home afterwards when the market crashes this fall. I've been stressed by the fact that I'm moving for the 4th time in 15 months. This is so stressful and depressing. I've just been so unfocused on work and I have a lot to work on. It's stressing me out and compounding a bit. I can't stop thinking about it. It's so annoying. I'm trying not to get wrapped up with porn to escape it. Idk. Today I'm grateful for my job, my friends, my family, and myself for sleeping a little more.

I'd kill myself if I moved home again so that's not a possibility. We'll see. I need a miracle.

That's true. I had 2 roommates for years, but I am kind of tired of roommates now that I'm almost 30. It gets a little old after a while. Plus, most of my friends are getting married.

Welcome to the community. I noticed you like climbing. I got really into rock climbing this year before the quarantine and I love it. It's my favorite activity to do now and I love the community.

I feel better after venting. A couple things I must adhere to over the next year: Rent, not buy. I say this because we'll be in a depression next year and making a major purchase is not smart during this time. I'll save more money for a potential down payment. My car payments will conclude in the winter, saving me $5,000 per year. I have my large exam in October. If I pass the exam I get a substantial raise and bonus to increase my savings. I'll have an additional 6+ months to research a home to buy and feel comfortable about the location, commute, amenities, house style, etc. instead of trying to panic buy. Study for this exam like a motherfucker from June til October so I can answer any question like a lightning bolt striking a tree. I got lucky the exam was canceled because I doubt I would have been ready to pass that exam in only 2 months of studying. Who knows. I have 5 months now. Continue my health kick. I love the way I feel now compared to the past 3 years. Put more effort into dating after the exam. It's clear my heart is aching for love and I want to put some effort into it. Keep 3d modeling and blogging Really love these hobbies Today I'm grateful for my job, my friends, the community, my family, and myself for not going much more insane than I did this morning.

True. I may have been in a bad mood earlier but better now. I just don't want to panic buy something is all and it's so hard to rent here. I just don't want to move back with family. I'd be crippled.

Hehe

I'm in a very bad mood today. I can't shake my anger and it's just relentlessly consuming me. I feel trapped. I can't find an apartment to live in and I don't want to buy a house right now. It's cheaper to buy a house than it is to rent an apartment in Massachusetts. This state is so fucking expensive to live. The apartments shown on craigslist look like slums. 400 sq ft only $1,600 per month!!!! Wow. That's suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch a great deal. 8=================================D Fuck this. I'm so frustrated. I want an apartment with fucking laundry in it. I don't want to share laundry facilities. If you find an apartment with a washer and dryer in it you will pay 400-500 more dollars PER MONTH for it. 1 bedroom no laundry is like $1,500. 1 bedroom with laundry is $2000 per month minimum. Owning a 1,500 square foot condo with laundry etc is $1,700 per month. How crazy is that? I'm better off buying. Oh wait, I can't buy. Because the United States and the rest of the world is in a recession and about to go into a great depression. You just wait when July ends and people start getting evicted because their unemployment for coronavirus ends. This country is going to be in an economic disaster in less than 6 months. So why buy now? People aren't even selling right now. April 2020 had 30% fewer homes listed and it was the sharpest drop in United States history. The funny thing is prices aren't dropping. People are just waiting. It's like purgatory. Not to mention most of the units being sold to first time home owners (100k-300k per home range) are just a home that is owned by someone with multiple properties. How to get money in America: own properties and rent to people and keep increasing rent. I make a lot of money and I live in a shit hole. What's the fucking point? This is so depressing. And I don't give a fuck that other countries have more poverty than me and I should be grateful. That mindset only lasts so long. I'm not privileged to rent a dump apartment. I'm at a disadvantage if I'm making good middle class money and living in a place that lower income people can barely afford. Yes, I'm glad I have a job right now. Stop saying "at least you have this or that". That's for people who settle in life. Stop. I just want to enjoy where I live. I want a home I look forward to being in. I want to own objects such as a couch or a table. I don't own any of these things. I have a bed, clothes, and kitchen stuff and I make upper middle class money. The other thing is it's easier to get a nice home in Massachusetts if you're a single parent on welfare. They have so much affordable housing here. It's unfair for people like me who have multiple degrees, a tough job that earns just enough money to avoid the lower income homes, but not enough to be in a good home. Government takes from the middle class like a baby sucking on a tit. 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I hope this inspired you to keep quitting video games.

Today was better. I didn't sleep well at all with only 3 hours of sleep and it impacted my day negatively. I had to lead a difficult meeting this morning and do some research and did well. I struggled after lunch due to the lack of sleep. I'm very tired. I took a nap but I just gave up afterwards. I need to do a couple more things for a project, but I also need to train somebody all day tomorrow. So I'm not sure how it will go. I think I'll wake up early, finish the stuff I couldn't finish tonight, train the person tomorrow, then just end the day and relax. I think I'm going to do a 3d animation tutorial either tonight or tomorrow just to get back into it. I've been avoiding it for a couple weeks. Most likely, I'll watch a movie tonight and give myself a break. I've been watching a lot of porn recently and I'd like to stop it. I've cut down from 2 times a day down to 1 and doing it way before bed so I'm not stimulated when trying to sleep. I think that will help. I don't think it will be possible for me to quit porn during the quarantine. I just want to manage it better. The last thing is I'll be looking for an apartment instead of a home. I have to take that exam and I don't want the stress of buying a home to impact it. I want to pass the exam, get my raise, clear more debt, save more money, and then have my open window to buy. Today I'm grateful for my friends, my therapist, my family, my job, and myself for getting back into things.

I love this song and really connect with the anguish and passion in Kurt's eyes at 50 seconds. It helped me through the weekend. This weekend I'm grateful for music, friends, family, and myself for finding the strength to bolster my convictions and power through it.