The past week has whizzed by and I can't believe it is almost June. I have been working hard during the week, but my work ethic took a dip during the weekend. All I have to learn is that I need a plan to make the most of study time during the weekends, and to cut out all distractions even if it means leaving the house. This week will be another busy week, but I think I'll be more prepared as I am currently removing the non-essentials from my life to focus on my coursework. Let's see how this goes!
Sorry to hear you didn't have a good fatherly figure in your life. It must be really hard to look back on, but from it you can also feel accomplished when you achieve things without that help. Being content with oneself is a necessity for consistently good self-esteem. It is something I am working on as there are times when nobody will recognise you for your accomplishments. Perhaps it might be a good thing for you to try to do if you don't want to feel 'empty'. That's my two cents, best of luck with living without relying on images, whether imagined or from video games.
Hi Jay, You're right about eating unhealthy food as a reward. Eating unhealthily as a reward for eating healthy defeats the purpose of eating healthy in the first place. I don't have any particular solution, but perhaps you could try having a relaxing afternoon walk on Fridays if you've done well that week, and otherwise write a letter to yourself or a reflection of some sort. If you have any better reward ideas, I'd love to hear them. Good luck with getting your habits rock solid, I'm sure it'll come to you easily now that you've seen what you feel like after doing it wrong. Keep it up!
Haha yes it is indeed swapped. Best of luck for your exams! Hopefully you've been finding enough time for your studies too. I stopped doing the TrumpZone project a few months ago, as I've been working in an enterprise group which I go through the motions of starting up a social enterprise with. I'm gaining the experience for doing what would be needed for my project, so I can get back to it later if I find the time. At the moment, it looks like I'm not going to have the time though, as I'm struggling to do all the coursework necessary. Thanks for dropping by!
Good to see you're still reflecting on your position whilst going through relapse. It can be very hard to find the courage to block out the games permanently, but it is very freeing afterwards. Best of luck getting through this!
Thanks Jay, I'll need to look into that. I think I'll do my best for the next week and see if it becomes a pattern, but in the meantime I may need to cut off fencing and my new commitment to an engineering performance.
Quick post today. Today has been a stressful day of submitting a group project, now I've got another group project (yay?) to handle. I've realised that I need to make more time in my day to study, and I'm simply haven't been finding that time in the past couple of weeks. I went gyming today and went all-out, I felt great afterwards. I'll need to reintroduce regular exercise breaks to maximise my productivity, as I know there's room for improvement.
This week has been super busy so far, but not in a good way. I've spent heaps of time every night writing a research report and working on a group assignment, however it has been at the expense of sleep. Furthermore I've been using my usual gym time to work on these things, which isn't good for my health. I think it is a symptom of having too many extra-curricular activities on my plate, as I'm constantly needing to compromise things in my life. I'll get back into gyming tomorrow, but getting enough sleep will be a hurdle I'll be struggling with for the next week.
For yesterday: the rest of the week has still been very busy, with report deadlines coming closer. I've been studying most of the weekend to a satisfactory level (however not ideal), and I know that I need to keep more active for maximum study performance. I'm still happy with what I've done though. I didn't manage to do any studying on Friday as usual, but I think I need to properly dedicate it to time off if I'm planning to do full-on studying every weekend, otherwise I get no free time! For today: Today has been a relatively good day overall; I packed a good lunch, worked hard throughout the day, got the help I needed in maths, and worked long hours. However I didn't go to bed on time and I attempted to sleep in this morning. It ended up in me simply wasting time as I didn't get back to sleep. As a result I didn't go to the gym, which is a pretty poor start to the day and to the week. This week I'm focusing on doing the best I can in my studies, with my second priority being to push myself out of my comfort zone wherever possible. That means getting back into cold showers!
This week has been an extremely busy one. On Monday and Tuesday I was staying late at university to complete a group business project, which we submitted last night at 10:30pm! This evening I went to an audition to be part of the 'engineering revue' which is a yearly stage performance by the engineering department. I got back home late again, and I'm finding it difficult to make the most of time spent travelling. I'm thinking I should start reading my kindle on the bus again, as it'd be an ideal time to read self-development if I'd otherwise just browse the internet or gaze out the window. The other day for my social challenge I made sure to be a conversational leader when talking to my friends. It worked pretty well, but there's plenty of practice to do as I'm currently not able to sustain it for a long time. My challenge for tomorrow will be to speak to one stranger whilst waiting at a bus stop (or on the bus) for as long as possible.
Today has been an amazing day. I made the most of it by going to university to study (despite it being a Sunday) and packed myself a lunch so awesome that I even had a partial dinner left at 6pm. I am happy with the amount of work I've done today, however there's always room for improvement! I did well by running up/down seven floors of stairs during study breaks, so that I was energised for my next study period. I think I could have been more productive by fleshing out what I want to accomplish by the end of the study period, just as I start it/beforehand. This will give me a goal to work towards and I'll be much more on-task that way. Social goal: I'm reintroducing the social goal as it has had great benefits to my life in the past, and I need to be constantly challenging myself to keep up my social skills. Tomorrow I'm going to be a leader in group conversation, which is usually something I'm not confident with doing.
It's not been good that I haven't posted recently. My week has been okay so far, but I've found it quite difficult to put the time in to study. It is partially because of commitments to clubs and my enterprise group, but largely due to just not feeling great and not putting in the necessary effort. I've been reassured that continuing with zero games is the best way to go by friends and family, however I still need to reduce the influence of my gamer friends by hanging out with them less. I have figured that being part of a robotics club or being involved with that area of my life has contributed to feeling a little directionless, so my biggest challenge for the next week is to get involved with a robotics project that will keep me engaged and wanting to do my best with my studies. I've been making bigger steps towards independence recently, as I now make 100% of my lunch 100% of the time with ingredients I've purchased solely for myself. It has made my lunches go further (I pack way more in) and more to my preference (well balanced, with my favourite foods). After my call today with my accountability partner, I've identified what I need to work on the most, and I now have challenges for the week.