It's Just the First Day

[Emily]

I decided to start the 90 detox today at 8p.m.

Becuase I already played video games in the morning and the evenings before work

And I knew If I waited tomorrow to start, it won't work

 

I know I just managed the first three or four hours

But I feel like I succeeded because I always play during the late night hours

And until the clock reaches the sleeping hours

But I didn't

 

I know it's just the first day

But I feel like I succeeded because I felt so many "good" reasons to play

I feel ill; I want to rest in bed and play

I don't like the anxious feeling I am feeling now; I want to walk away and play

I am not getting the well-deserved verbal communication from my family members; I want to play

But I didn't

 

Instead

When I came home at night

I plop myself next to a bookshelf, grabbed a picture book, and spent a quiet night

And now, I am thinking how can make every day end like this night

 

I know today is just the first day,

But the decisions and the choices I made today mattered.

Edited February 25, 2021 by Emily

[Emily]

I'm really sorry for the cringe; I promise the rest of the journal entry won't be miserably cringey as this one

I just needed something write 

 to pass the night.

(Okay, I will stop)

 

[DW1909X13]

Hi Emily,

You've done amazing to get this point and you should be proud of yourself. Take it one day at a time and I wish you every success.

You've got a forum full of support here to help you get through.

All the best,

[Emily]

Hahaha, it's actually like third time serious detox after hearing about game quitters

Which I will explain another entry or self introduction page. 

 

But thank you for the warm welcome!

[Amphibian220]

Welcome to the community Emily. This journal is exactly for introducing yourself to us. Can you share more about yourself. What about your goals? Are you a university student?

[TheNewMe2.0]

Hey welcome to the forums. Good job taking your first steps to quit this time around. It's always difficult but once you get some momentum it may become easier. Hope you find good things to replace gaming with. What're your hobbies?