I decided to start the 90 detox today at 8p.m.
Becuase I already played video games in the morning and the evenings before work
And I knew If I waited tomorrow to start, it won't work
I know I just managed the first three or four hours
But I feel like I succeeded because I always play during the late night hours
And until the clock reaches the sleeping hours
But I didn't
I know it's just the first day
But I feel like I succeeded because I felt so many "good" reasons to play
I feel ill; I want to rest in bed and play
I don't like the anxious feeling I am feeling now; I want to walk away and play
I am not getting the well-deserved verbal communication from my family members; I want to play
But I didn't
Instead
When I came home at night
I plop myself next to a bookshelf, grabbed a picture book, and spent a quiet night
And now, I am thinking how can make every day end like this night
I know today is just the first day,
But the decisions and the choices I made today mattered.