Keeping myself accountable starting here: 

(2018-10-12) Day 1: began reading Respawn and starting this journal. super hyped and motivated. Deleted all Steam games and uninstalled Steam.   

(2018-10-13) Day 2: Went to see Venom. Will have Tom Hardy's children. made post to sell PS4 and games on Kijiji. Also finished audio book on the car ride home. Did not relapse. 

(2018-10-14) Day 3: made arrangement to give away my PS4. did not relapse. 

(2018-10-15) Day 4: Worked overtime. Did not relapse. 

(2018-10-16) Day 5: Did I mention I'm doing Respawn as well as NoFap? shit's really hard yo. Did not relapse on either. 

(2018-10-17) Day 6: Day off work. Did not plan activities so I ended up touching myself out of boredom. Did not relapse on video games though. (note to self: plan activities ahead of days off) 

(2018-10-18) Day 7: did a day-long hike near Banff. Feels great. Did not relapse. 

Edited October 19, 20187 yr by Absurd Fish

Good decision to start the journal, it will definitely help you with consistency. 

Also, wtf is that profile theme ?

Hi JustTom, 

It's from my favorite Netflix show Bojack Horseman, a show about talking animals with mental health concerns in Hollywood!

Also thanks for your encouragement ? 

 

Nick 

Good work so far, keep it up!

That profile pic legit cracks me up every time I look at it. Hope you stay on here for a while ?

1 week clean of video games!

lesson learned: I am highly prone to relapse if I don't plan my days off ahead of time.  Will fill my days with activities ? 

(2018-10-21) Day 10: Dealt with violent incident at work. worked 16 hours. Waaaaay too tired to relapse. 

(2018-10-22) Day 11: Worked. went to gym afterward. Did not relapse. 

(2018-10-23) Day 12: Day off. spent most of the day on Youtube. A little tempted but did not relapse. 

(2018-10-27) Day 16: Day off. Went to see Hunter Killer starring Gerald Butler. Not worth the price of admission. Came close to reinstalling EA origin. Did not relapse. 

(2018-10-30) Day 19: Got re-certified in First Aid / CPR / AED at work. stayed busy. Did not relapse on gaming. 

Edited October 31, 20187 yr by Absurd Fish

I...am starting over. since last journal entry more than 5 months ago I've had a massive relapse and had been gaming on my PC almost daily. I am setting to restart my process. Starting tomorrow, March 9th. 

Never give up, get back up and try again. We're all on the same journey here, it's not easy but we only lose if we stay down after a fall.

Thanks Fawn_xoxo! I am currently listening to Atomic Habits on Audible and it's been great with structuring habits. I am committed to writing here daily. 

(19-03-09) Day 1: feels great re-booting the process. Leaving for work after penning this journal entry and will not be back until tomorrow. No chance of relapse today.  

(19-03-10) Day 2: worked Day shift. Finally finished moving all furniture to the new place. Feels great. Did not relapse. 

(19-03-11) Day 3: Worked day shift. Came close to reinstalling games on Steam but somehow creeping my ex on Facebook and finding out that she's happy and with someone else leaves me in absolutely no mood for gaming. Did not relapse. 

(19-03-12) Day 4: Day off. found out that my move actually made my auto insurance go up; thanks Alberta. Went to see Captain Marvel and had Sushi for lunch. Also went to a completely random coffee meetup with complete strangers. Was an alright day overall. Did not relapse.   

(19-03-13) Day 5: Day off. Ate like shit the whole day. Realized that I need better picture and profile for Match.com. Did not relapse. 

(19-03-14) Day 6: Day off. Went into work for a department potluck. Did not relapse. 

(19-03-15) Day 7: AAAAAAAAND that's a week clean! Prove to myself that I can survive without video games! 

 

Edited March 16, 20196 yr by Absurd Fish

(19-03-16) Day 8: Worked 16 hr shift. Too tired to relapse. 

(19-03-17)Day 9: Worked evening which turned into overnight OT. Did not relapse. 

(19-03-18)Day 10: day off. Did not relapse despite strong urge. 

(19-03-19) Day 11: Day off. signed up for 3 different meetup events and went to the gym. Did not relapse. 

(19-03-20) Day 12: Day shift. Wing night with coworkers after gym. Did not relapse. 

Edited March 21, 20196 yr by Absurd Fish