Dere's Journal

[Dere]

The Beginning.

Day: 1

    Hello! My first day is about to end. I didint feel the urge to play some games. I had some thoughts and it's hard for me to think about not playing for about 90 days. I have created some lists. I want to update them as the time will pass to make an tl'dr for those who will start reading my journal lately.

    About me and games. I have spent by far to much time gaming. I want to get something more out of life. Im curious to see the results.

I have made some goals to achieve:

1. Start coding more!
2. I would like to learn to play on ukulele.
3. Learn to create 8-bit music.
4. Come back to drawing.
5. Start going to the Gym.

What I am afraid of:

1. I might feel quite anxious soon. I need some non gaming friends.
2. Semi-depression feelings without games.
3. Adverts and reviews of new games and features.

What I want to do to make my life easier now:

1. I want to create an kanban board near my desk, so I can keep track on that sweet sense of progress.

What's more, I want to make this community a better place for us all. If any one would like to start a bigger project, or just start coding drop me a msg.
 

[usernameforworldpeace!]

Hey!  I like your lists  Welcome  @Dere.

[Dere]

Derez likez tablez.

    In this post I will list my lists that will contain my thoughts, ideas and fears. You will also find some conclusions.Enjoy.

 

I have made some goals to achieve:

1. (D1) Start coding more!
   1. (D3) I have already made progress towards this goal. I want to make small commits to my projects every day.
2. (D1) I would like to learn to play on ukulele.
3. (D1) Learn to create 8-bit music.
4. (D1) Come back to drawing.
5. (D1) Start going to the Gym.

What I am afraid of:

1. (D1) I might feel quite anxious soon. I need some non gaming friends.
   1. (D3) Community on irc prevents my anxious feelings.
2. (D1) Semi-depression feelings without games.
3. (D1) Adverts and reviews of new games and features.

What I want to do to make my life easier now:

1. (D1) I want to create an kanban board near my desk, so I can keep track on that sweet sense of progress.
2. (D2) I have to implement a Get Things Done into my life.
   1. (D2) I am reading a book about it. I will make a bigger post about this when I'm finished.

What i want to do to make my life more enjoyable:

1. (D3) I have created a journal to track small thoughts and memories in order to be more aware about world around me

 

How do you like lists so far? Any ideas?
 

Edited June 4, 2016 by Dere
Refactoring

[Kad]

Welcome! You have a good plan now just let it happen.

[Cam Adair]

Welcome and great job starting your journal!

[dullage]

Good luck dude!

[KrazyFace]

Congrats to commiting, you just made the hardest step!

[Dere]

Day 3: Ghosts that haunt me

    Hey guys. It is my third day and it already got hard for me. Probably because it's weekend. I used to fill my spare time between tasks ( if there were any! ) by gaming. Sucks guys. It turns out, I have a problem I didn't know about. I am sometimes feeling numb, bored and tired at the same time. I recall that I always picked up games when this occurred.
    I have noticed that i should raise awareness about world about me. I enjoy things more when I am more aware about them. I no longer enjoy small things. I have decided to keep a mini journal about small thoughts I have about world. Mostly because those thoughts disappear without a trace moment's later.  
    I still can't accept that I will not play games in following games. It bugs me. I cant keep myself occupied because of this numb feelings.

As always, visit my post on the first page for my tables update. Please comment on them. Do you like them? Is there anything i could change about them?

Dere.

Edited June 4, 2016 by Dere
Update about lsits.

[usernameforworldpeace!]

Hey Dere.   I'm liking the look of those new lists! Especially the goals to achieve -  hopefully those activities will give you something to try when you'd normally just play games. Maybe give yourself a treat, like if you make it a week without gaming you can buy a ukelele ?? 

[Cam Adair]

Hang in there. Each day you are one day closer to your withdrawal symptoms being gone. You've got this!