Retirement Journal

[DW1909X13]

Sun/8-21-22

Hi.

Managed to stay off games for 2 full days and into 3rd now.

Some realisations have really hit me this morning:

• Wtf have done to my brain
• Its all too exhausting
• Why can I not stop thinking about have a 'quick game' (demon voice on shoulder)
• Why can't I focus on anything else
• I have spent roughly 30 years of my life (35 now, mega drive at 5ish...) playing these damn things. And for what? 

What is scary, is I am noticing similarities to when I quit drinking (23 y/o - sober since (12.5 yrs)) and that initial month was utter hell.

So how to get through this:

• I'm done. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have made the decision to retire - for good - from gaming.
• Steam, GOG.com, Xbox account - all deleted. Gone. Vamoosed. For good.
• Streamlined my phone apps and seriously considering a good old fashioned phone and dropping the Smartphone. 
• Pick some life goals (1 short, 1 medium & 1 long term).
• Spoken to a good friend about this and he is being supportive.

About to look at listing Xbone on eBay then take dog out for a walk and think about some goals. Without podcast or headphones etc. Just me, dog and a walk.

I sincerely wish you all a good and positive day.

 

[LostRiver]

Hi, good to have you here.

We gamequitters all got sick of being rendered exhausted and hopeless by video games.

Whatever you find working when it comes to streamlining/ limiting phone use, please share with me.

I have enabled monochromatic colors on my phone plus using this blocker https://www.stayfocused.me/ and was able to limit phone use by a bit.

Let's take this journey together day at a time.

Edited August 21, 2022 by LostRiver

[Amphibian220]

Go for it. You have experience of swapping a bad habit for a healthy one. You can do the same with gaming.

[Paul A.]

Keep going!

[Amphibian220]

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Edited August 27, 2022 by Amphibian220