Daniel

Day 41 Still having memories of playing videogames when I was younger, not really cravings, but memories. I've been watching movies lately, delaying some of my obligations, I will take care of some of them today. Ways to tell yourself "I love you": Brush your teethGo to sleep on timeWake up on timeEat healthyWorkout

Day 40 I'm been staying like an hour in bed before getting up. Also I've been sleeping around 10 hours, not a good sign. I had a dream about Cam making a meet up at Europe. Clicked on discord chat menu at the forum and it opened my old discord account, with all my old videogame buddies and conversations. It failed (or I failed to find the GQ server). Perhaps it's a good idea for newcomers to transition their voice chat from videogames, to voice chat at GQ but to me it only caused cravings.

You know discord was specially built for videogame communication, right? Of course like anything in life it all depends on the use you give to the tool.

Congratulations Marquess! You should be proud of this accomplishment. Thanks for sharing what you learned about the process. Keeping your detox as simple as possible is a great advice. I think this is what we failed to understand before we arrived at gamequitters. Just like you said, quit gaming, keep a journal and add a new positive activity. Love fact that you will apply the same strategy to another negative activity, best of luck!

I think you would need to google a bit for that. In case you want to delete it, go here

Day 39 I have been having memories of playing videogames when I was a kid. For example playing wrestling games at n64, creating characters, playing with my cousins and friends. So many hours spent there. This memories often come up when I am bored (at church for example, or while driving around) Also remembered when I started playing Vainglory, and all the effort I put to be more skilled at the game. I used to skip school, go to Starbucks and stay there all day playing. Most kids nowdays have plenty of free time, smarthphones and wifi at home, all the tools needed to become a videogame addict. Having trouble changing my avatar, woot

But at the same time, most people who are rich (and didn't inherit their wealth) think and live in a way that leaves no space for video games. I don't think most gamers suffer from actual clinical depression though, but one can still be very miserable. Yea, it's not an habit of succesful people. For some reason some rich and/or famous people end up with other types of drugs problems.

It´s usually recommended that you go with someone close to you like a family member. So they know what are you feeling and talk to them about what you want and what you don´t want. Zyprexa is a controlled med and an antipsychotic. I actually took several meds before finding one that worked with me. The meds are just extra help. The routine is more important. I decided to start the meds because the depressive cycle lasted a very long time and I was simply having no progress. Each case is different, perhaps you don´t need meds, perhaps you do. Maybe pyschoteraphy, or just new activities. Maybe a life plan could help or something in your past doesn´t lets you move on. Whatever it is I hope you get better. Yep, just like that. I would write down my goals, the things to avoid, things to do. Sometimes I would wait until monday to start, others I would start the very same day. I would be pumped for a few days or weeks. Sometimes I wouldn´t even get started. But then I seemed like I would run out of steam (I wouldn´t last long either) My girlfriend was crucial factor. I would always convince her like I would convince myself "I will get right this time". Eventually she showed me I had been saying the same for a year and I was in the same position doing the same cycle, but each time was worse. That´s great. In my case I see a relation or correlation between depression and gaming, fapping and porn. That´s why I´m looking to avoid all three.

Seemed strange to me that they published your content, but that's actually the audience GameQuitters is for. I'm a native spanish speaker from México, let me know how can I help.

Day 38 Some slight cravings and thoughts related to gaming. The good old "well if I was rich I could probably play videogames" I think my sex drive is a little higher since I started the detox. I still feel a little down but I am feeling better and I'm sure it will pass. Wondering if most gamers are depressive.

Day 37 I feel like I went through some kind of reset. Now I understand than I can't let my down. While the first 30 days were hard I don't considered them a fierce battle. I feel moments like these when you have a slip, you start having thought about just giving this up, or just play a quick game of anything, feel some cravings, those are the hard days. Perhaps that what the "1 day at a time" saying means. Having fellow members, give you feedback and advice is very, very helpful. Yea, I will keep up with the spanish journal. The journal at GameQuitters is like my AA reunion. As I said you write very well, even more impressive knowing that you ain't native english speaker. I like Fargus style as well. Perhaps I'm spreading myself to thin by avoiding three activities at once, however in my case I feel they are connected. I will consider what you are saying and keep the priority on avoiding videogames. After all this is a forum for quitting videogames. Lately I have been just using the phone instead of whatsapp. If someone is texting me something important I'd just call them. Rarely do I send an important message or picture throught whatsapp, I feel it's more of an entertainment app, rather than communication app. I'm getting plenty of feedback on not worrying too much about fapping and focus on avoiding videogames, thanks That's my thought, I managed a month, I can repeat it and streatch it. I simply let my guard down. The awareness must be there, every single day.

Have you applied the detox tools? Stay strong!

Welcome William, you are at the right place. Take a look at the tools of this forum here. If you really are serious about quitting gaming I recommend to apply all the tools and talk to your parents about your problem. Also talking about a life plan would be a great idea.

Greetings! Have you accepted the 90 day detox challenge? I truly recommend you start a journal and write daily. Cheers.

Really impressed with your honesty. Like you said about your relapse, cut your loses and focus on avoding any more damage. Try to see if there was a pattern or an igniter that made you relapse. Mind if I ask you what's your treatment?

Just like you I didn't want to be on meds. In my case I didn't want to be one of those "weak minded" people who need pills. I thought "I can get my life in order when I want, I will just have one more game, one more porn scene, etc" But I started to a see a pattern in my depression. The pattern was: Play videogames, neglect school, neglect my girlfriend, hit the gym sometimes, avoiding being social, sleeping late. Watch porn, masturbate, felt like shit. Repeat until I finally said that I had enough, vowed I would put my life in order. I'd go a couple of days without porn and masturbation, put attention to school and my girlfriend, very little gaming, hit the gym often Then I would start gaming and the cycle would repeat. Each cycle the "vowing to put my life in order" time was shorter each time and the "feel like shit" was longer. I don't even remember how many times I tried to beat my depression. I would get in a strong mindset but I would always eventually succumb. You sound like you have your routine in order. Just be honest with yourself and put the cards on the table, let the doctor give you a diagnostic and see what happens. By the way there are several types of depression, in my case I was diagnosed with Dysthymia, which is a chronic type but less severe. Who is joining you to see the doctor?

Hey Reno, Sometimes I write my random thoughts during the day. If those thoughts are related to my detox, I use them as inspiration to start writting the journal. I simply write them on my cellphone, then check them out when I am browsing at the forums.

Day 36 Yep, it's my morning routine and night routine. Today I masturbated again, missed my workout and had more intense videogame cravings. Almost played again. My food choices were worse as well. My girlfriend dropped by and cheered me up, it helped me a lot. It served as a wake up call. One of the habits I dropped this week was writting here as soon as I woke up. I felt it helped me a lot. My journal at my website hasn't been updated. Yesterday I spent some time longing for the past, reading the blogs I visited when I was younger and seeing old pictures. But I know I need to focus on the present.

Day 35 I'm still lacking some focus, specially for school, gotta keep up the motivation. I feel like I need extra focus when changing routines. I was very focused when I went to Mérida, so it was ok. But when I came back I let the focus slip. I will keep abstaining from videogames, masturbation and porn. Need to focus on my goals.

Day 34 Today I spent some time with my girlfriend. However the night before I masturbated thinking about a fitness model. While I didn´t watch porn I did take a look at some of her videos and pictures. I think all this was the result of a mix of different factors. I deactivated nightwatch filter. It´s back on. My messed up sleep schedule due to the trip. Hopefully it will return to normal today. The fact that I´m giving more attention to watching other women. Had a week without sex. Some doubts I have with my relationship. As conclusion I can say that I was getting too confident with my detox, and this is a reminder that I can´t let my guard down. Had no problems with either porn or videogames

According to our fellow member Marquess, this process is called the pink cloud and it's part of the detox process.

It's called hawaiian pizza, it has ham and pinapple. In Mexico, at Domino's pizza there's a variant called Honolulu that comes with jalapeños and bacon.

Day 33 A couple of days ago I was thinking that most cultures are raised with the mindset of achieving happiness. Can you see the mistake in this mindset? It is very ambiguous. It means that your happiness is the ultimate goal no matter what, and it can be achieved even at the expense of your own well being or at at the expense others. This way of thinking is closely related to consumerism. You could say "playing videogames makes me happy, so I will chase happiness playing all day for the rest of my life" Another type of mindset is looking forward to perfect oneself, help others achieve perfection and to perfect the universe. This mindset makes me think that by chasing this task happiness will follow. ### I'm back home. Today, I had a very odd feeling while I was walking. It was a mix of peace, serenity and joy. Cravings... what are cravings?

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