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Thank you for the advice, I don't know for sure if this will work out but after talking and thinking about it it more or less feels like the quote you miss 100% of the shots you don't take is true, I don't yet know what I'm going to do or how I'm going to do it but I guess the best course of action is to take the hit, ask it in a more direct and honest way and if it doesn't work out that's fine, I've already had the same situation before and just remained as very good friends with the person I asked out. Still sucks but if it is the best possible option to at least not end up with any regrets then I'll take it

Shoot my shot at relationships, failed?, she already had warned me that she was busy this weekend again either that or she doesn't catch anything, I don't want to be bothersome, hate those kind of people the ones that force something. Idk what I'm going to do I want to be clear about what I feel but don't want to force things, I'm going to go down to one of my best mentors ever and ask him, maybe he can tell me something, anyways I'm glad I didn't relapse due to this, I was very close, but at least I guess this is progress

Yesterday I was very tired on the afternoon and didn't manage to do much, today I woke up well and managed to concentrate, it was fun it left me with a bit of mental exhaustion and I had to go for a walk and a water but it let me do a lot, mornings and nights are definitely the best moments for me in working, mainly because of the tranquility I think? maybe It is also something else in those times the peace and quiet... Idk I'll see if I can get a bit more time to think about it with the new book I bought about concentration

Good luck on the thesis, hope it goes well.

Off to a good start today, managed to just embrace work and move forward, let's see what this leads me to, these next 2 weeks or so are definitely going to be a challenge in a lot of aspects of my life, let's just hope I can pull through and if I can't then at least I will have learned a lot

Yesterday -> spent most of the day trying to concentrate, got some time on but I was really distracted for a while and when I got home I picked up the laptop for 30m which was bad and led me to spending 2h this morning distracted instead of doing what I had to do. Recovered though and now I want to see what I can get done in the morning it is still early enough that it feels like I can still have a good morning so I'll see. Things I did right -> recovering from the internet and reminding myself the reasons why I quit, writing my daily bullet journal and getting out of my home

Thank you for the advice and the diary I'll ask you for recipes or references when I have more time to dedicate to cooking, it is also good to learn new dishes,

when well today, lots of work that i needed to do managed to slip in some responsabilities time for cooking and sport in the mix and even managed to avoid letting a slip up of playing a video become a night of depression and worse next day, feeling really proud of this last thing

Don't worry they are nice to read, by the way I have to ask you where do you get these recipes? they are great, do you have a list or some references? I've been wanting to get into cooking but sometimes I lack the recipes so I just end up sticking to basic or traditional dishes

Good progress keep it up it will become more natural as time goes on, congrats for forgiving yourself and having the courage to take small steps

I also personally struggle with this a lot, what I have found usually works best is to have activities that you look forward to instead of games, for myself those where mainly social activities that managed to combine hobbies with relaxation or work like a club you enjoy a group of friends or sports in general. I guess my best advice really is to not only clarify the reasons why you want to quit, forgive yourself for slip ups and take it one step at a time, but also create an environment conductive to the life you want to live, making it hard to access games and making/creating other alternatives which you prefer and you could see yourself doing long term

Sliped this morning it all started yesterday when I let myself watch some vids in the night before going to bed, I have to be very careful and ensure that I finish the days strong with no internet and don't jump into them in the morning, as that just makes me lose a morning or more. Took back control now and managed to do some menial tasks which is good, I will work on getting back on my feet and seeing what can I do so that the cycle doesn't repeat the next time

Got it today, did an activity for the group all day long, I'll have to spend more time catching up tomorrow but I don't regret it, it was time well spent and what's more important time socializing and away from the internet

Concentrated, no internet and good habits for these last 3 days. Breaking out of the internet loop and having other tasks really does great things for me let me see how far I can take this spree

Good to see that you didn't give up and even stood up for yourself. Keep going strong and pause to examine your fathers actions so you don't fall back into his trap of just blaming the other or feeling about trying to move on with your life, hope it goes well.

Going to try to sink into a deep state of concentration in these next hours. My focus has declined this year and I want to see if I can get these "state" again since it helped me study and do most of my tasks much better. Today will be my first attempt let's see how it goes, going to shut down all media, take away the phone get a silent room and block the communication apps. I'll elaborate further later

Done with today, no content just studying talking with friends, working and cooking good stuff overall, let's see if I can keep it up, I sometimes feel like I don't do much when studying but that will with time and effort be fixed hopefully

Note to self: Going into nature whenever you are stressed or feeling unable to do anything is great. Whenever you get stuck on recurrent self destructive habits go outside for like 2h, it helps reset the mind

Got back on a schedule, still have to work on reducing a bit my reliance on music to get things done since it makes me concentrate less but that is fine, final sprint on work, lots of upcoming possibilities and uncertainties but one step at a time, now work, then enjoy then relax and finally turn work itself into enjoyment. Got a really nice video from a friend about quotes maybe it also helps someone so I'll leave it here inspiration.mp4

Got back up, gonna try to keep it up , feeling a bit sad or bad here and there but nothing out of the ordinary

Procrastination got me yesterday, it was the worst episode of it I ever had now I gotta see what I do today to solve it

Congratulations on achieving this truly inspiring.

Well, it was a good run at least. This weekend I collapsed and resorted to youtube again, I still have to find a way to deal with music specially without going overboard and also managing the ups and downs I sometimes face. Good things I found out: 1-Instead of going on a full self indulgence spree it was more contained, maybe it was the pressure of academic work and having overall more stuff outside the internet like commitments friends work ideas sport and goals but somehow I did manage to get out quicker 2-Routines, self reflection social connections and sport are very important if you neglect your physical and social need to focus solely on you work/entertainment ones it will come back to haunt you 3-Space between me and the internet is necessary, I can't be constantly fighting a battle to keep myself from opening a certain page, it wears me down too much, a dumb phone together with a blocker is what I need even if I may not fully like the idea of needing this "external help" to manage my time and addictions well. 4-Problems pile up you need to forgive yourself but also force yourself to correct it as soon as possible before they get to big sometimes a I'll start with a little action right now no matter how big the problem is is enough. Bad things/realizations I had: 1-I still can't handle social media/new non-work related digital technologies like smart phones, youtube, twitch or games in general vr... 2-I'm still lacking in many non work related skills like social life, life skills, work-life balance... Today I'm going to get my phone and change it back to the dumb phone together with turning the blocker ups back on I still can't handle it fully on my own but I will try to keep working to one day be able to do so. That's about it, let me see if I can make good use of the rest of the day and to whoever is reading this just know that as my trainer once told me you can do anything another person with 2 arms and 2 legs can, you just need to believe that you can and you will get there, you are indeed capable enough just have patience and put in the work. Good luck on your journey ahead 🙂

Don't worry this isn't a job or obligation, it is something we do out of our own volition, take it easy and hope you have a great day

last 3 days been in a weird state, done work, had by fun with colleges, prepared stuff for the summer which is great and even held a great conversation with my friend over the phone about general stuff. Right now I may be feeling the come down from that. Idk I just feel the urge to stay indoors after class and just listed to sad music, or feel some kind of petty for myself? i can't explain what it is a longing to be sad I don't know. Anyways managed to get out of bed, and I'll start with a bit of sport and just going to lab, showing up at least who knows how it will end up but let me at least be able to say that I tried