BooksandTrees

I love using GIS. I made a project with all ther bridges in my area of the country and gave it lots of properties to use for projects. Do you plan on using it in the future?

Sorry to hear she is getting lost and being mean. Do you have a phone to bring to potentially avoid this situation? Have you talked to her about what she says is being mean? Good job not swearing today. I swore yesterday and it wasn't worth it. Keep up the good work.

Today went extremely well. I got all my work done at work and took time to breathe and destress during the day. I had an amazing amount of energy after work ended and I only worked 8 hours again. I then exercised for 20 minutes, showered, relaxed, ate dinner, and then 3d modeled. I spent about 2 hours doing it and texting with people. I really enjoyed it and learned a lot. I got my voltorb to glow and started modeling lightning around it. I'll try to finish those this week and try to animate it.

Blog can be tricky since it might introduce more work for you and less personal time. Some weeks you'll want to blog and other weeks you won't. As long as you're not pressuring yourself to write like x amount per week and are doing it for expression and enjoyment. Good job with the diet.

I only worked 8 hours today. I feel happy. I kept getting asked to do more and I told everyone no. I have no huge plans today other than working out, shower therapy, and some time 3d modeling. But I'm not in the mood to keep doing shit. No days off for 16 days now. I'm not working more overtime.

No, I appreciate it and it honestly was a contributing factor to me quitting originally. I haven't handled it well initially, but have learned a lot over the past week.

I don't think this is a good idea. Some things you can wing it, but only if you have a firm knowledge of the materials. If you don't know the calories in your items, how many calories you need per day, or to lose weight in the correct cutting method then you're going to wind up in circles. It's like trying to bake a cake without measuring out the ingredients, using the right temperature, and cooking and cooling it for the correct amount of time.

1. Temporary. 2. I enjoy it and missed it when I quit last year. I'm not taking it for granted. 3. I'm extremely efficient. It's just a collection of deadlines. I'm not going to consider this advice since it is too broad for my specific deadline. I'm not trying to sound rude when I say I'm not listening. When something is due it's due and that's what happens in my industry. I hope this does not offend you since I respect your opinion on things. I've just done most of these things you've suggested with more breaks etc. I don't really want advice for the burnout. I think I've learned not to work on weekends anymore, not work for free for the sake of the budget, and how to make my own decisions more prominent.

It means that after work I'm so mentally fatigued that I can take some deep breaths for a bit and instantly feel like I could sleep for a long period of time with no desire to do anything else.

Today was tough. There was a huge problem with a design and I was asked to fix it. This stressed me out because I now have 5 deadlines this week. Like, damn dude. I chose not to work late though. I'm tired of that. It's been 3 straight weeks without a day off. I'm burnt out and tired. So I enjoyed dinner and just relaxed. I am gonna take a shower and sleep or something. This week I'll return to art and exercise when I have energy.

I just play alone because of the quarantine. It's a lot of fun. I just shoot on the wall to relieve stress.

Thanks! I was too tired today to do something unfortunately. I'm a novice as well so don't worry. Go ahead and post stuff!

You're in the right place. You wrote a great post. Let this be your identity and compass. Turn to these words you wrote when you have cravings and then write about it until you don't crave anymore. Welcome to the forums.

What are you doing to deal with this anxious energy? Have you tried doing body exercises like pushups etc? Running? Something physical might calm you down and then you can do some deep breathing. Have you started researching new hobbies or activites to do with your son?

Trouble sleeping tonight. I get anxious at night some days. Virus stress and work stress are getting to me. I'm doing my deep breaths and watching funny videos to avoid it.

You have my full support! You've overcome so much in life and this is just another challenge. I hope you're able to get the surgery and also stay healthy through this whole thing. Thank you for sharing this with us. We've got your back!

6 lbs is a lot. I've been sticking to like 1 lb per week and just seeing how that goes. I think Buff Dudes and jeff Nipard have good videos on cutting and bulking healthily. As long as you're not starving yourself I can't really say anything. Sounds like you had a really productive day so that is good.

Sometimes I wish I could listen to my own advice. I didn't really do anything today. I think I'm burnt out from this project at work. I beat myself up for not starting to 3d model that voltorb's effects. I just wasn't in the mood for it. I think it's because I'm so uncomfortable with the software still. Those tutorials I followed weren't really tutorials. They were more like a classroom setting where I watched him describe stuff. It wasn't interactive. So I followed along and forgot everything because I wasn't practicing and it was boring to follow. I enjoy using the software, but I forget where everything is. I think I'm just gonna fuck around some more and give myself permission to not be good. I'm still being too hard on myself. I'm exhausted and need some down time. Sometimes making a huge project is tough. I think I'm just gonna fuck around and mindlessly make some furniture in 3d so I can just slowly learn, listen to music, and get more comfortable with making things. I'll post some stuff that I make every so often if I feel like it. It's like I'm trying to run a race and I can't even stand on my feet yet so I cry like a baby. Patience is key. It's so easy to be objective and help others on this website and I'm not listening to my own words. Edit: I actually did an interactive tutorial for creating hair and made this:

I finished my work today and will subtract the hours I spent from Friday so I can have a longer weekend. I was kind of angry about all of this, but I'm choosing to feel better. I played some street hockey to calm my mind and then watched a little documentary. I think I'd like to try and animate today.

That's actually a great idea. Every town in the United States has their own closed captioning TV and Radio capabilities so you have options. I think that might be a fun idea.

I think this is one of those stretches that all of us go through. Honestly, you're exhausted. I just think this is the case since I've had long periods of time where I feel exactly like you. I've been 77 weeks free from gaming and I still feel the same way you're feeling sometimes. Try simplifying things for the next week. Pick a bed time and a wake up time and stick to it for a week. I suggest earlier wakeups around 7 AM and sleeping at 11 PM. That has worked for me, but you might feel different. But since you feel exhausted, listen to your body. You might actually just be tired and not resting enough. Sometimes you need to rest for a week or two and then you feel ready to go. That's something that video games doesn't let you do: relax. You're always competitive and always trying to progress your stats or rank. Trust me, I used to be a professional gamer for 7 years before quitting. You're always training, researching, competing, and it's stressful. I was not sleeping, getting digestive issues, and always irritable. I wished I could watch a movie, but I'd fear I was losing exp gains or ranks. Give yourself permission to relax for a week or two and don't get any creative goals. I'd just find a consistent sleeping schedule, eating schedule, do some home body exercises for 10 minutes a day using "Home Workout" app. It's free and fun to use. It will give you some competitive juices because there's a timer and completion aspect to it. I don't think you'll enjoy walking right now. It's too boring. Some people love it, but for others it's too boring. You have a lot of pent up frustration. I find that when I'm always tired it's because I'm depressed. I believe depression is the suppression of anger and frustration. It's like your body's self defense mechanism to calm down. Exercise is good to release frustration. This app is all body exercises like pushups, etc. I think that will relieve some frustration. The less frustration your mind has to deal with the less energy your mind spends. That will make you less tired. With art, I think instead of trying to make something I'd just think about how you feel. If you're angry and agitated just sit there and make a bunch of angry lines and color around with it until your anger is gone. Then you might feel like laughing and doing something stupid with what you made or something. You're used to being proficient at video games for hours. Now when you're learning new stuff it sucks because you're bad at it and there's no escaping failure because you can't hide in video games anymore. So it's time to trick your mind into doing activities to relieve stress and those will be good hobbies eventually. You're doing great and I promise you'll get through this if you commit to it.

I totally agree with you and am sort of developing the theory that the only way to overcome an addiction is to redirect the triggers that cause us to "need" something to feel better. It's different with every addiction. I am curious about masturbation in moderation because there are some benefits I feel from it when I don't binge it. I want to have a girlfriend once I'm ready and when that happens I want to have sex, but not have it be the only reason I'm with her. So I'm slowly leaning on redirecting my triggers towards exercise, breathing, comedy, talking to people, journaling, or being responsible and completing the task at hand that I'm stressed out about. A lot of us will use escapism to procrastinate work or chores. If I train myself that getting it completed instead of escaping then I'll have the mindset of tackling projects instead of wanting to watch tv or something. I'm not curious about moderation with gaming at this point because I understand how difficult it was for me to get to where I am. I never want to repeat that again. I'm eternally grateful to have been able to quit. That's the same thing with eating healthy. I can't control myself with junk food so I'm just going to not buy it and if I really want a treat I'll still count calories and only eat dessert in a positive setting, not one where I'm alone and sad. We'll see what happens. I'll journal it. I didn't watch porn after the one yesterday and I'm not in the mood today. If I can lower my dependence on needing to masturbate then I think I will eventually be able to masturbate without porn permanently.

Just be careful with that mindset. If things don't go well I don't want you to think you're not acceptable since that's not fair to you. I just mean in a casually observant way it's important to be within the social norm while maintaining your originality. It's like eating your favorite cheeseburger. You're not putting herring on your burger, but you might add a new seasoning.

I stopped having the mental pull to play games. I stopped missing it. I stopped having brain fog and withdrawal. No desire or feelings toward gaming at all. No anger, no shame, no regret, no desire, no love, no excitement. It was like I never had attachment in the first place. I had been addicted to porn before quitting games. I can easily recognize the difference.

I think you have good intentions because you love your father. I'd just tread lightly here. I haven't played video games in 77 weeks. I clearly understand how they are addictive and bad for people with addiction issues. That being said, I can't try to make others quit. I had two roommates who were severely addicted to video games. They both got angry at me when I quit. I didn't even try to get them to quit. They'd just see me happier. They stopped talking to me over time and now we rarely speak. I also have a parent who's addicted to eating poorly and smoking cigarettes. I try to explain how I was able to quit eating junk food, social media for 79 weeks, and gaming for 77 weeks. They don't care and they don't want to hear it. People with addictions know the addictions are bad. They sometimes continue to be addicts to escape their own responsibilities of quitting their addictions because they know it's too tough. My point is I think you should only focus on yourself right now. You mentioned you're only 1 week into quitting. You need to focus on yourself right now. I didn't stop craving video games until almost 120 days of not gaming. That's a third of a year or 20+ weeks. You'll be stretching yourself thin emotionally and mentally if you're trying to get someone to quit with you and you might encounter a situation where you get stressed out and take out your stress on them in the process. Focus on yourself, see if you can improve your life, and if your father recognizes you have a better life then maybe you'll influence him to change his ways. There's two kinds of leaders: the silent leader who shows you how it's done, and the verbal leader. But verbal leaders need to walk the walk when they talk the talk. Good luck.