BooksandTrees

I agree with how fast the months have gone. I feel like I was so dialed in during my exam that I just worked, studied, journaled, and went to bed. I'm trying to slow down now. Do you think you'd benefit from a slower pace to things or do you feel that it's just something you've noticed with how fast this year has been?

Sorry you relapsed recently. I haven't been very active in the forums because of my exam. Relapse happens and it takes such a long time to build up that ability to move forward. But each step is a step in the right direction. Just remain true to yourself and be realistic. Don't be overly positive or negative during different swings. Take it in stride.

Just wanted to say hi and that I'm thinking of you and hoping you're doing ok. Is everything alright?

I was reading on reddit about how everyone felt about the exam and apparently I'm not the only one who struggled. There's going to be massive petitions to redact a few of the questions. We'll see what happens. Thousands of people are saying how they flat out guessed on over 10 problems. I did the same.

Thanks. I took a week off with my personal vacation time and studied 12-16 hours per day. I took the practice exam and dominated. But it seems that everyone is in the same situation as I am and we all got very strange, difficult tests that tested us on stuff we've never seen. It's disappointing.

I took the test. The first half went really well but the second half was extremely difficult and I don't think I did well. To be honest, I think I didn't pass the test. So we will see. They asked some absurd questions and I wasn't a fan of it.

Thank you. I think it's important to know that I could learn material that I was interested in without taking breaks, but solving problems takes more thought. Video games depend. I think some games you can just keep playing but others are exhausting and your performance dips down. I just think the fun factor of gaming vs work pushes people over the edge. Plus it's an escape. If you ran a clan online and were in charge of others it wouldn't be as fun.

Welcome to the forums. There will be many days like this followed by days where you're constantly trying to chase this productivity and it can get you frustrated. Then it leads to cravings. Take this whole process in stride and be patient throughout it all. This is a great journey you're embarking on. Good luck.

Tomorrow's the day. I'm nervous but ready to do this. I want to give it my best shot and just find hope along the way. I really hope I pass. I mostly want it over with. The pressure is insane to pass. Or maybe it isn't and it's just all coming from me. Whatever it is, I'm taking it very seriously and I'm ready to compete and perform.

I finished studying today and took the practice exam. I got a 90 on it and finished with 3 hours remaining (2 in the first session and 1 in the second session. The second session was challenging, though. I'm going to try and just relax tomorrow and not study. I might read through my tabs just so I know where everything is, but that's it. I want my mind to be pretty fresh since I know I probably won't sleep well until this is all over. I'm really proud of myself for having the ability to study so intensely these past few days. One of my key traits I've been able to hone for my whole life is the ability to just do one thing relentlessly without fading out. I think that's why RuneScape and other online games appealed to me because I could do one thing forever seemingly. I kind of enjoy that narrow path with few options. It's peaceful. Applying that to real life is hard and it's important to split things up since it's not healthy to do stuff for that long so often. That's why a lot of us struggled to quit games. I had to accept the fact I could do something for an hour or two and move on. Sometimes I just enjoy doing something for 12-16 hours though. It puts me in a cool state of mind. My mindset going into this exam is that if I pass, wonderful, if I don't, then I learned a tremendous amount that I'll never forget and it will make me a better engineer regardless. I answered multiple questions I had about my career from studying for this test and feel better. I still have a job and a career no matter what happens on this test. I'm determined to pass and I will pass. Let's fucking do this!!!!!!!!!!!!

I plugged my air conditioner in. My bedroom is too hot. I tried opening windows and using a fan but it was too warm. I think that's why I've been struggling to sleep. I get into bed and immediately overheat. This is better.

I can't sleep again. I'm exhausted until I get into bed then I overheat and think. I've been thinking about playing sports all night. I miss playing sports. There's no greater feeling than being part of a team and competing together. It's my favorite.

I finally had a relaxing night and watched a movie before bed. I'm nervous for Friday but I'm determined. I'll feel better after studying tomorrow and doing the practice exam Wednesday. Sometimes on nights like tonight I wish I could embrace someone I love and have their support. I do wonder if one day I'll warm up to the idea of sharing my life with a woman again. We'll see what happens. But for now I'm proud of myself for chasing after a dream of mine and hopefully I get it.

I had a good day of studying today and will do more problems tomorrow and Wednesday and hopefully just relax on Thursday. Going to bed earlier tonight.

I'll give a more in depth response this weekend. Studying for the pe exam right now.

I slept better last night. Very thankful for that. Hoping to spend today finishing up my lecture problems.

I studied for 12 hours today and feel really good about it. I got so much accomplished today and am doing well on the problems I'm studying. I'm enjoying the topics a lot and could keep doing this. Because of the high volume of hours I put in this weekend I'll be able to have a more peaceful week where it's just doing practice exam problems all through the week until my exam on Friday. Altogether I studied for almost 24 hours this weekend and am very, very proud of myself. Now for some nice rest.

It's not anxiety. It's disturbances from my neighbor slamming the door this morning to his car and stomping around his house. My study time is fine. I'm doing well. Thanks. I don't have any illnesses. I just want to keep studying. I'm enjoying the topics I'm studying and making a good day out of it.

Another shitty night's sleep. My retard neighbor stomped around and slammed his doors at 5 am and I woke up a few times. I think people are so ignorant. I'm developing a hatred for them already. This is more reason to get my exam done. I want to buy a house with little to no neighbors. I like socializing but I need solitude in my home.

I wanted to share this link about hearing voices or sounds that aren't there. I don't have schizophrenia but I do have anxiety and depression. I hear voices and sounds at night when I'm feeling extremely anxious and have to clear my mind. This report basically confirms my situation. I feel better now. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4710580/

I studied for almost 12 hours today and really enjoyed it. It was the most successful study day I've had. I started to really enjoy the material because it was so directly related to my career that it was answering questions I had in my profession from random problems on my projects. I didn't grow tired at all. I considered studying more tonight because it was interesting, but I don't want to burn myself out. I woke up late because of being exhausted and was only awake about 12 hours today. I studied for almost all of it aside from eating and a nap. I am on pace to complete everything before the exam. I need to keep going. I'm very proud of myself. I just kept telling myself today was going to be a great day and I made it one because of my effort.

Read this post I wrote when I hit 500 days. https://forum.gamequitters.com/index.php?/topic/8392-almost-500-days-without-gaming/ Personally, I don't think you're using this website correctly and I don't mean to offend you. All you've been writing is the amount of days you haven't gamed. You're treating it like a counting streak. The point of this is to live life without even noticing that it's been a day or two away from gaming. It's about training yourself to just be living life in a new way that eventually becomes normal. Our old normal was gaming for hours. My normal now is working 9 hours per day, talking to a friend or family member, exercising, studying for my exam or doing a hobby, watching TV or reading before bed, etc. You have to analyze why you're failing. Every time you log onto this website after a failure you need to analyze the whole situation. How long were you craving games before playing that day? How often do you crave games? What's causing the cravings? What can you do to stop the cravings? What are your triggers? You're not being thorough enough. You have to study why you're failing and learn to succeed. Eventually you're going to hate failing more than you like succeeding and you will never allow yourself to fail because the pain of failure is so intensely frustrating that no success could ever do better. In many cases, not just with gaming addiction, but with everything in life, misery leads to success because we're not a miserable species. We aim to be satisfied. Fuck failing. Good luck

Today I'm 103 weeks free from gaming and 105 weeks free from social media. I plan on making today a productive Saturday for the first time. I will study multiple hours. There's only 6 days left til this exam and I'm gonna finish strong and pass. I won't find the results out til December but just having less stress will be great.

I had an incredibly productive day today. I got everything done at work, helped others, lead others, had a great dinner, went to therapy and had a good session, then I studied for over 5 hours! I'm done with the morning section and under way in the afternoon section. I'm making great progress.

I watched my favorite movie and ate some food and relaxed. I needed a break mentally and I did 3 hours tonight. Can't do 5 every night. Back at it tomorrow. I continue to play my steel tongue drum before bed and when I wake up.