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  1. Catherine17

    I'm done. For good!

    100% relatable for me)) Ooh, fantasy. That's cool, I prefer it as well, altough I choose contemporary genre (and a bit of heroic). Wish you inspiration:) I write but only occasionally. Now I am just running around trying to finish all the assignments for university. Thank you, I appreciate the offer🙂
  2. Catherine17

    Onlysoul

    Get well soon! Hope you feel a little better with each day!
  3. Catherine17

    Begin again

    Day 9/90 The morning wasn't very productive but I talked to my father and we had a nice conversation. He told me a hilarious story about his former job. Sometimes I really wish I could become a police officer too. Unfortunately, he prohibited me to study the Law. Then I went to the swimming pool, there were more people this time and it was much fun. Swimming can be some sort of meditation, you are fully concentrated on your moves, devotion and strength of the others charges you with energy, long strokes synchronize your body with water and for a moment you become water yourself...sounds almost religious. I must beat my fear of heights, if I want to take part in the contest this year (and I want). I started reading Frankenstein, which is one of my favourite books and the source material for my term paper. I've read it twice already and with each time it becomes more interesting. Mary Shelley is a genious writer and a remarkable woman of her time. I finished my assignment for Creative Writing school, gotta send this tomorrow. In the evening I went to the local festival of ice sculptures. Some of them had melted down even before people arrived to celebrate! So much work - and it went for nothing:( I watched snow sculpures, took a walk along the enbankment and watched fireworks. They were launched from the lake, some of the police officers were controlling the process. One of them were filming it on his phone and it reminded me of my summer and the day I started my second detox (that lasted 56 days). The historical was held at the same embankment. I hadn't slept a whole night - of course, I was binge-playing but still decided to get out of the house because I didn't want to miss the event. So I watched some fencing, shooted a bow and decided to go home. All of a sudden a little black cloud and downpouring rain made me change my mind. I found shelter in a small tent. Technically it belonged to the volunteers, but the downpour was horrible. So it was me, 6-7 teens who helped to run the show and two police officers, one of them was younger, the other one - older. The rain lasted, but in the end we were rewarded with a lot of rainbows in the sky. Everyone left the tent and started making pictures. The older policeman grumbled about 'the kids these days with their smartphones' and walked away. And by 'walked away' I mean that he hid behind the tent so his partner couldn't seem him and took a bunch of photos himself. When he noticed me, he smiled and it was he who looked somehow younger, not me. Alright, time travel is over.
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    Begin again

    Well said:) Gratitude is a powerful concept. Sometimes when it is hard to wish prosperity to others, I just say to myself 'They walk their own path and I shall walk mine' .
  5. Catherine17

    Press 'quit' to win

    @Ph0enixBut what about fictional books, in which authors speculate about philosophical, political and cultural ideas? Or about some non-fiction books thar can be written poorly? I don't think that games (apart from visual novels) are interactive books. It is a different kind of experience and they simply work differently as I've already mentioned. And although reading a healthy habit (healthier than gaming at least), I agree that if somebody wants to escape, they may find it there.
  6. Catherine17

    I'm done. For good!

    Hej! Just keep this positive attitude and everything will be fine, I am sure. Relapse can be something to learn from. Just concentrate on pursuing new activities. Speaking of writing, I once took part in a writing challenge and our daily goal was to write 2000 characters each day (it is not that much, about 300 words). It is easier to build a habit this way, because when you are inspired you are certain to write a lot, but what if you are not? Just make sure you set tangible goals) What are you going to write, btw?
  7. Catherine17

    Journaling from south of Sweden

    Tack så mycket!)
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    Day 8/90 It's been a while. I haven't relapsed, but cravings were harsh. I performed well at university but when I was getting back home I was consequently ruining everything. I managed to get main things done, but it wasn't enough. I wonder how I lived through last semester with all my binge-gaming and youtube and letsplays. It's like there are two different Catherines - one can be productive, loves to learn and wants to be a part of someone's life and another one lives a mindless life and envies others instead of becoming Even though I'd like to concentrate on positive things: 1. I decided to apply for a student exchange program. This is a huge step for me, because this is the first time I've decided to be honest with myself. I want to go abroad, even though I like saying that people are the same everywhere and this is a pointless experience. I used to be so frustrated about being unable to study abroad that I kept telling to myself that I don't want to, that it won't bring me anything, that it is stupid and so on. So I asked myself what I actually want. It will take some time to gather all necessary papers and I don't think my chances are hign but I will try anyway. Even if I didn't succeed, it would be an interesting experience, because I feel very grown-up while collecting documents and asking important folks to sign them. And yes, I'm twenty. 2. I had a first lesson at the course for tour guides. Let it be my personal challenge. 3. I had a swim class two days ago and I'm going to have one tomorrow. I enjoyed it a lot, a good swimming session always heps me to get rid of the mental fog. Though I kinda miss my old team but I hope I will get to know somebody to have a chat with eventually. 4. Today I have been very productive and had my own class. I start to realise that I enjoy being a tutor. It was very rewarding, indeed. I have prepaired a lesson, we talked a lot (we were discussing St. Valentine's day) and did some exercises. My affirmation for today definitely is 'Love what you do and do what you love' 5. I finished reading Madame Bovary. It's a wonderful story, an example of brilliant writing and composing. It tells us how unrealistic expectations may turn our life into hell. Emma Bovary spends her days daydreaming and waiting for the 'true love' to come, she craves for emotions and romance. Her expectations are built on romantic tales and clichéd love stories, so it's not a surprise that they don't match the real life. Of course, there is far more to that book that this, but I am always trying to connect fictional stories with my own life. It's nice to return to journalling.
  9. Catherine17

    Moving on

    Hey, Vera! Get well soon and don't forget to take of yourself. You can handle this!
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    Begin again

    @BooksandTrees Thank you for sharing and giving me a piece of advice. Your story is something I can really relate to, seriously, even the part about seeing therapist. I needed that. Though it's something that is hard to keep in mind when you are going mad and get carried away by emotions.
  11. Catherine17

    Journaling from south of Sweden

    @AtariJag pluggar svenska på universitetet, we've just started learning it and I only know basics)
  12. Catherine17

    Press 'quit' to win

    @Ph0enixI think we understand the term 'fiction' differently, but that's okay, I see your point. Though it is a bit sad that the first things that come to your mind when we talk about relieving stress are alcohol and drugs. Why not get together with your friends, go for a walk or listen to music?) Don't be so negative about yourself and other people. And books and alcohol are not the same, they work differently on a biological level. Alcohol is a depressant that oppresses one's mind and body while reading is a brain-stimulating activity which increases your cognitive capabilities. Finding a hobby for relaxation and rest is important when you fight the addiction. We tend to forget that we cannot be productive 24/7/.When we are tired it is much harder for us to make decisions and resist the cravings to play. Reading is just one of the options.
  13. Catherine17

    Journaling from south of Sweden

    Hej, @Atari! Welcome to the forums) Lycka till!
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    Begin again

    Day 4/90 I've just returned from the uni and I am angry and frustrated. At least now I know that these particular emotions trigger my cravings. The question is what I should do with this info? I just don't understand what's the point of dwelling on some unpleasant and unsignificant experience. Last year all my fellow students decided that they desperately needed to inform others that studying here was pointless. Everyone was rambling on about this constantly. 'I've bought a new dress and everything is pointless', 'Don't forget to hand in the task and university is pointless', 'I always pay cash and my life is pointless' and so on, and so forth. And then I say 'everyone', I mean it. But, look, I got it, they don't like it here but I do. And it's freaking annoying. It's been a year now, let's move on. The funniest part is that all they are doing is whining. Any official complain? No. Have any of them dropped out? No. They could have already found their new path in life! And if they had dropped out, my academic scholarship would have increased slightly. I just don't get it. If anyone is reading this, I have a small question. How do you manage your anger?
  15. Catherine17

    Press 'quit' to win

    @Ph0enix I don't think tht fiction books is a virtual reality. Reading is good for the brain, it reduces the level of stress and is healthier than gaming by all accounts. Trust the one who studies literature:) Well, it's up to our fight/flight/freeze response when we choose how to react to the problems. Sometimes even flighting can be beneficial in the long run (no pun intended).
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