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  1. First, sorry if I came off as abrasive. You handled it really well here! I think when it comes to new things, there's this initial excitement where it's new and fun and exciting. Then it starts to feel very boring and repetitive once the novelty has worn off. This is a critical time in hobby formation. This is where you'll decide if you want to stick with it or not. Eventually, once you get really good at it and start producing some really awesome things, and maybe even have people appreciate those things, it becomes fun again. It's just a matter of if you're willing to work through that crappy period where it feels more like work. I'm at this point with the violin, and I've been at this point with writing for a while. It helps if you've got some long-term goals attached to those hobbies. Maybe you want to perform at events. Maybe you want to publish a book. Those types of goals keep you motivated and energized when the act of doing those hobbies no longer gives you joy. I think it's a really huge step to get to a point where you're no longer being affected by what other people around you are doing. A lot of the time, things like that affect us because of our own insecurities. I can attest to that from personal experience. Just keep up the fight man!
  2. A couple of things here: 1) Your life isn't always going to feel exciting. That's the dopamine talking. There are going to be days where the last thing you want to do is the activities that under normal circumstances you know you enjoy. You're going to have days where all you want to do is lay in your bed and stare at the ceiling and be lazy. The difference between the average person and the exceptional person is that the exceptional person understands those days are going to happen, and then goes out and does the things that make them exceptional regardless. They have a success mindset, that no matter what, they will continue pursuing their goals and not allow things like laziness or "not feeling it" get in the way. Obviously this is much easier said than done, but through dedicated practice you can get there. Like anything else, the determination to push through laziness or discomfort is a skill that must be honed. 2) You seem to have a great deal of bitterness towards other people, even people you don't know. You judge the people that walk around in the gym between sets staring others down, but do you consider that perhaps they are doing that to compensate for a great deal of insecurity they feel about themselves? Everyone has a story, everyone has their problems. Judging someone for those things, things that you don't have a damn clue about is not productive or conducive to your future success. Even the other day where you got pissed because I missed the part about you already seeing a therapist. I mean... there are much, much more important things to get stressed out about. Eleanor Roosevelt said: I don't dare to judge you. But I strongly encourage you to figure out which one you fall under. This hatred and animosity you hold for other people is not healthy and it's not helping you. It's really important for you to figure out the source of this and deal with it. You're going to have a great deal of trouble achieving the things you want in life until you do.
  3. I would say if you're still addicted, which it seems to me that you are, then I would stay away from games entirely. You obviously have a very strong emotional attachment to EU4 which you're justifying by saying it's helping you with history, geography, etc. If the latter was true, then you could do other things to fulfill that desire, like read history and geography books, explore your local area, do geocaching, etc. The fantasies and cravings may or may not stop. I think that's an experience unique to each individual. I don't think the goal should be to try to stop those things from happening. For what it's worth, Cam Adair still experiences cravings from time to time. The important part is managing them and understanding that they do not have to define you. Good luck! If you need any further help feel free to post again! 🙂
  4. So I am officially in a relationship with the woman I met on Match. The honeymoon phase has definitely settled in lol. One thing that I knew was going to happen as a result of this was other things in my life feeling less important and wanting to spend most/all of my attention on her, and it is happening. So I've got to find a new balance that includes her. I'm STILL ultimately responsible for my own happiness so I cannot give up doing the other things I really value.
  5. Sure I can post in my journal about it. It's off topic here. Don't want to derail your journal!
  6. Yeah for sure I definitely feel the honeymoon phase going on lol. But it's going to be really important for me to find that balance I need so that I can both satisfy my partner but also satisfy the things that I want as well! On top of juggling my life at home... lol. Great problem to have though.
  7. I think one of the most important skills to develop is self-awareness. One challenge I'm facing right now with this new relationship I'm in is my partner sort of consuming my attention. The other things that I know I love seem less important. I knew this was coming however and I was aware of it developing. It's just a matter now of finding a new balance with this new person being a part of that.
  8. The best way to deal with failure is to practice self-compassion. Beating yourself up over things has been scientifically proven to make it easier to justify doing the very thing you're beating yourself up over. Try to forgive yourself for messing up and resolve to do better next! This sounds like a great way to spend your time! Your drawings really are excellent, I'm quite impressed. 🙂 I think you need to give yourself much more credit for it. By the way, I'm very impressed with how you handled yourself during your trip. You really deserve a lot of respect for that. That's a lot of abuse to take, especially from a loved one. And make no mistake, what your dad did to you is abuse, whether he'll accept that or not. For that matter, whether YOU'LL accept that or not. You are an amazing person and don't deserve to be treated like that. Keep up the fight, you're doing great! I know it seems hard now but take it from me, it does get better. A lot better. You just gotta keep yourself moving in the right direction. 🙂
  9. Personally I agree with you about cold approaching. I never felt comfortable doing it, nor did I ever really want to do it either. I met the girl I'm with right now over Match. I wasn't really looking for or expecting anything at the time. It sort of just happened. I think if you take the proper steps to prepare yourself and allow yourself to be open to opportunities that come along, then things will sort of just fall into place. I know that sounds super cliche but I do believe in it, but then I'm also a believer in the law of attraction.
  10. Nice job man! You have a great approach with your streaks. Don't be hard on yourself for breaking it, just start a new one. 🙂 If a man experiences sexual arousal at the sight of every woman, then in my opinion something isn't quite right with the man. I go to the gym on a regular basis and while I do appreciate the beauty of fit women, it doesn't arouse nor frustrate me every time I look at them. Then again I am demisexual so maybe this doesn't quite apply to me. I think the best approach is to try to strengthen your resolve, though I have no advice for how to go about that. This has actually become a pretty big issue in society, where people are finally and correctly starting to hold boys and men to higher standards of restraint as opposed to shaming women for wearing what they want to wear.
  11. This is so true. You need to have enough respect for yourself to tell the other person where to shove it. Otherwise what you're doing is giving that person who doesn't care about you complete power and dominance over your life. They don't deserve that power. Nobody does.
  12. I think it's possible to have a very healthy relationship with masturbation. It isn't the act specifically that causes a problem, but the way people go about it. There are actually a lot of health benefits to regular masturbation, including stress and depression relief. https://www.spermbankcalifornia.com/male-masturbation.html
  13. So texting for me is pretty important because I'll only ever get a chance to see my date 1-2 times a week. I've got a lot going on in my life and the person I'm seeing right now values her independence as well. We're both totally OK with how often we get to see each other so it's just a matter of filling in the gaps in between. Yes! You totally got it! Anyways, as it turns out, this person I'm seeing is completely cool with candid conversation. We went into a whole host of personal topics. She expressed how nice it was to actually have a conversation regarding expectations around sex, among other things. This is like my dream courtship. I'm really happy right now. 🙂
  14. I'll be completely honest, I'm not comfortable with this idea at all. I'm totally fine with going it alone. But thanks for the suggestion! Honestly, you're right, I am holding some parts of me back for fear of rejection. As an example, society has this idea that texting first somehow makes you the desperate one. Whereas I just don't care. If I'm the one texting first every time, I really just don't care at all. I want to text good morning and good night every day. I don't understand when taking a few minutes out of your day to show the person you like that you're thinking of them became a sign of desperation... I'll be completely honest, I also don't subscribe at all to the idea of holding back on certain topics just because it's date x. Now, this isn't a typical courtship because we exchanged about a novel's worth of information with each other over Match before the first date. However, I don't see a problem at all with interspersing some more serious topics among the light-hearted banter. I do agree about not spilling the entire life story right away so it doesn't become overwhelming. Even still, I told her about the game addiction, and I told her I do face some anxiety issues (without going into too much detail... she actually asked me to elaborate but I told her I wasn't ready to share that yet), and she shared with me some stuff about her own past, and she still seems very interested, so... Anyways, I don't plan on elaborating too much about the anxiety until it becomes relevant to the courtship. Not because I think it's too early, but because the anxiety only exists in my head and it's MY responsibility to deal with it. I don't want anyone to have to help me with it unless they're a medical professional. My interactions with others should be fun, engaging, exciting, etc. and not an extra therapy session. I refuse to turn my future partner into that. Ideally, she never finds out anything else about it. Anyways, thanks guys for the posts! I think tomorrow will say a lot about where this thing is going. 🙂
  15. All good man. It was my bad. Have you ever considered online counselling? I'm getting pretty good results from that.
  16. Shifting from a results-oriented mindset to process-oriented changed a lot for me. I think that's a really great suggestion.
  17. Sorry bro. I did read your 500 days post but I must have missed that bit. 😞 Do you find then that the therapist isn't working for you? Are they not available to talk to when you need them?
  18. OK so some backstory: I've started seeing the woman from Match that I thought ghosted me. Turns out she almost immediately responded to me and I just didn't get an e-mail about it. My bad. Our second date is tomorrow. Today I got pretty bad anxiety about this whole thing. Everything seems to be going very well so far, yet I still get these really stupid thoughts. "She's going to dump me because I'm too much of a headache with my anxiety." "Why didn't she respond to my text about feeling a connection with her more enthusiastically?" "She's going to cancel our date because she's just not that into me." Etc. I know in my mind that all of these thoughts are lies. There is no basis in fact or reality to take them seriously. Yet they constantly pummel me. I can fend them off at first but eventually it just cripples me. I spend so much mental energy trying to fight them off. Today I tried a new technique of just listening to my music with earphones on. The idea being to drown out all the mental noise with actual noise that inspires me. I found this really, really helped. Within 10 minutes I was calm. It feels kind of weird to lay in bed staring at the ceiling with headphones on but if this continues to work then I'm willing to live with that. I may even bring earbuds to work to do the same thing, since all this shit usually starts during the day. I have no idea how I'm going to tell her about this stuff. On top of being clueless about how to be a boyfriend, I'm dealing with all of this. At the very least I need to let her know it's going on so if I say or do something that seems kind of silly because of it, she'll at least know why. On most days I can keep it controlled but there will probably be especially bad days where it's going to come out, or she'll pick up on something being very wrong because I'm terrible at hiding my emotions. I am legitimately excited to see how things go with her but at the same time I'm worried that she'll just think I'm too much of a burden to date. I guess there's nothing I can do about the latter, and if she doesn't want to deal with it then I guess she isn't the right person for me anyways. I keep telling myself that I'm an amazing person that deserves love and respect, and I do believe that to be true. I guess we'll just see where things go from here.
  19. @BooksandTrees Have you considered looking for a therapist? If you feel like you have nobody to talk to about your shit, a therapist might do the trick for you. Also, have you ever tried creating a competition with yourself? Track your progress on things and keep trying to beat your PBs. If that's not enough, you could look into lifting competitions or endurance races. Those are obvious sources of competition and really do stretch you to the limit. It seems like those would be a great way to fulfill that need of yours while also being something keeping you occupied and burning your negative energy off, since you'd need to be training at the gym on a regular basis.
  20. To your first point above, I don't even want to be that type of guy. That's what I mean about being so atypical. I think the tension between what I want and what I've been told I should be has caused me a great deal of stress and anxiety. I recognize that most women won't approach men and not doing cold approaches will limit my options. I'm at peace with that. To your second point, I also believe a lot of people, not just women in the 30-40+ range have gotten past the whole "fairytale romance" stage, where they won't settle for less than prince charming with the perfect personality and Brad Pitt looks sweeping them off their feet within 10 seconds of approaching them. Most reasonable people in that age range should at that point recognize that everyone is flawed and you're going to have to accept someone who is flawed. That doesn't mean dropping your standards, but to expect it to go perfect from the get-go is completely unrealistic. I have to wonder how much of how you see yourself is being projected onto women. You realize you're not much of a catch and you develop the idea that most women around your age aren't either. It's a defense mechanism you adopt, perhaps subconsciously, to ease the pain of not being in a committed relationship yet. I'm not saying that's you, but it might be worth it to do some self-reflection and figure out if that might be what's going on. There are plenty of high quality women available in the 30-40 range, and they are available for various reasons. Last, if the offers you get aren't appealing, then the answer is to make yourself better in order to attract higher quality people into your life.
  21. I'm really going to have to get disciplined about this lol.
  22. Honestly I didn't find it that hard. I wasn't really too attached to it to begin with. I think I watched sports more as a social thing. My cousins and I would get together to watch it. Unless it was baseball I rarely watched it on my own. My inner editor is cringing at the amount of times I typed a variation of the word watch in this paragraph LOL!
  23. Long ago I told myself I'm not going to invest myself emotionally into sports anymore, and it seems you're taking that same path. You've realized the truth. They don't care about you. They don't win for you. Whether they win or not, it doesn't affect me in any way at all materially. I'll watch the occasional game from time to time but only to enjoy the game itself. I don't care anymore who wins or loses. It's a waste of my emotional energy. Then there's also the 3 hours per game, minimum to watch them all. That's a lot of time spent!
  24. I think it's important to take what other people say they do for their morning routine with a grain of salt. Not everything is going to work for everybody. I do think it's important to discover what DOES work for you, but don't feel pressure to do it any certain way. YOUR morning routine is unique to YOU, whatever that ends up being, and you shouldn't feel bad because you don't do it that guy's way.
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