Stev1989PL 56 Posted January 13, 2021 Share Posted January 13, 2021 Finished day 1 > 89 days to go In the beginning few words as how this journal is gonna look like. - I am doing this purely for my myself, for my own purpose, writing from the bottom of my heart, not seeking anyone approval, cheers or special chapel to be built - though if it motivates at least one person somehow I will build it myself - the idea is to finish EACH of my day just before going to bed with journal entry - even if there is gonna be just few words like "feeling like I am scrubbing the toilet with my teeth", whatever - the idea is for me to last all 90 days (I have committed myself before my girlfriend, all of you on this forum and dear friend of mine, my psychologist) - being honest I have always quitted in few days, two weeks tops with all my new "resolutions" of how my life is gonna be - this time I will try to not fck this up for real !! - the idea of quitting is total = no games, no streams, no video content, no websites, no twitter, NOTHING GAME RELATED Entry: Feeling quite optimistic, although tired in general at this moment. I have started the new job as Project Launch Buyer for European Automotive Plants which I know will be a challenging as hell and in very near future I'm gonna feel the urge to fire my ass and go straight back to candy land of virtual world and becoming one of the best instantly with no effort. That is quite discouraging.. But knowing that this stage will come eventually I am gonna be prepared to just accept that I suck until I stop sucking (yeah yeah I know). Also I am gonna try to fill my time after work with whatever I can just to stay away of urge that crawl down on me like basilisk from Harry Potter.. I can feel it coming, whispering louder and louder until it ends up with me with my phone/laptop in my hands petrified for everything else but that. As ending of this entry I would like to share with you activity of today that filled my battery, hold my focus and made me succeed with this day. Attaching the photo also as saying "hello" to whoever might read my journal. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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