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Entry #1

I'm going to start journaling daily, just simple journals to keep track of some positive things I've done and how I feel.

Today I'm grateful for:
1) Starting the respawn program - got to module 4 and will try to finish the rest tomorrow

2) Got to spend time with a friend and offered him help

3) Having the courage to meet a much older guy for advice on work

I'm feeling good about myself today, I did engage in a mentally engaing actvitity as well as a social one.

Looking forward for the next days to come.

Over and out

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Entry #2

Today was another good day. It was not a big struggle to stay away from the games.

I am grateful for:

1) Making a good impression during a business meeting.

2) Being able to spend some time with my brother and teach him how to fly a drone.

3) About to step out tonight for a concert.

I wish whoever reading a pleasant day. Will check back in tomorrow.


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Entry #3

First Saturday. I did end up having times where I feel I was bored - immediately thought of that list I came up with from the respawn program and thought of diving into one of my mentally engaging activities to keep me away from gaming.

I am looking forward to:

1) Doing a module from the respawn program

2) Music practice 

3) Reunion dinner with some old friends (sometimes I feel crappy and unconfident if I've not been productive for the day or even for the week. I hope not to feel this way tonight - have been making some good decisions this week and have been more productive)

Happy/proud that I'm able to move on to one of the mentally engaging activities instead of giving in to gaming

Edit: Did Module 6 today and I'm going to list 10 simple things I'm grateful for. I'm grateful for being able to sit in a comfortable chair right now, I'm grateful I've gone through education and am able to understand a program like respawn, I'm grateful for having friends who invite me to dinners, I'm grateful for a new pair of pants I get to wear, I'm grateful I am able to surf the internet and plan parts of my week ahead, I'm grateful for the nice temperature in this room right now, I'm grateful I can look up how to meditate on youtube, I'm grateful for having a water dispenser in my room, I'm grateful for a loving family, and I'm grateful I am able to sleep well.

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Entry #4

In conjunction with the game detox I'm also trying to go for no fap/no porn as suggested by Cam and also because I feel like getting into the habit of that I feel like it wires my brain unhealthily in a similar way that gaming does. It wastes time, takes away productivity, messes up my view on women. Anyways, would like to share that I fell into masturbation today, no porn however; felt some guilt and discouragement doing so, but I'm not going to dwell too much on that, I'm going to have a quick moment of remorse for it, pray about it, then pick myself up and move on. Today is a good day. God is good.

Gaming wise, its not been too much of a struggle today. Its also been just the start of the day, I've made plans for the rest of day and plan to follow it (did the calendar portion of respawn) - I've to brush up my cover letter and resume later this evening. I'll edit this post as soon as I get it done. No more procrastinating - time to really get some order back into my life.

Read a portion of the "Rules of Life" book by Richard Templar and a key takeaway I'd like to note down and share is to really reflect on who you are, to be the best version of yourself no matter the situation, and to know what counts and what doesn't.

Today I'm grateful for:

1) Being able to blog here and be open about my struggles, keep tabs on my journey and progress

2) A good night's sleep and a Sunday filled with a good mixture of productive/mentally engaging activities, social ones, and even resting ones

3) Good appetite for today's breakfast. Have not been having the best appetite this past few days. Seems like it has all turned around today and I'm glad for that. I don't tend to eat unhealthy foods when I game - I tend to skip meals and not even feel hungry. So this appetite and good breakfast this morning is really something I'm grateful about.

Time is still passing by relatively quickly, but a little slower since adding events to my calendar. Still struggling a little to stick to it but it has helped me be more productive. Also, I've noticed that I'm a lot more present and empathetic, I feel like I can connect with people emotionally much better.


Sidenote: I'm needing advice on seeking a health insurance policy, anyone can share advice on what a health insurance policy should look like? And whether or not someone in their 20s should consider starting a life insurance policy early on?

Thank you for taking your time to read and go through this journey with me. I wish you a very pleasant day (or night) ahead.

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Entry #5

Gaming has not been a struggle today. Habitica was interesting, debating whether or not to use it though because of its very similar to game like features. Struggled with porn and masturbation again this morning but I'm glad I can be open about that struggle here and that helps me move away from it and break the cycle vs letting it continue for a few days.

Today I'm grateful for:

1) Being able to study for the CFA

2) Looking forward to hit the gym later

3) Having a friend who'll proofread my resume/cover letter for job apps. Wish me luck guys.

Thank you!


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Entry #6

Dangerously slumping on a 3 day streak w porn. I've been able to stay off gaming without significant struggling but have shifted some time wasting to porn. Any advice anyone? Anything at all will help.

Bright side

1) Having a dinner with a few friends tonight - some are new

2) Still managed to power through some work and kept up with daily responsibilities

3) Eating healthy today

I've also been procrastinating on job apps. I've been filling up my time with other forms of reading and also signing up for short online courses. I really just need to dive in and finalize my resume and send it out. Will do that after dinner tonight.

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Entry # 7

Got curious about habitica and made a second account to "cheat" haha, wasted some time there but at least I stopped it shortly after. After that, I felt so guilty didn't have the desire to get into porn today. No gaming urges today.

Grateful for:

1) A crash course into laundry detergent formulation at work today - was interested in chemistry when I was younger, interesting way it played out this way

2) Finally finished my resume/cover letter - its been hard to explain some jumps and short tenures at some jobs

3) Being able to assist a cousin who's feeling lost

Also attending a talk focusing on strengths. That's positively shaped my mindset. Signed up for a swing trading course, gonna invest in a little education on that.

That's all for now folks!

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