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    Pete's Journey

    I'm not too sure, I was getting a good rhythm in and able to be productive with my time, and one day I started visualizing playing this one game I used to play, like a strong craving and I finally caved.
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #34-36 Guys I've been relapsing pretty badly this week. And am feeling quite discouraged. Can someone please share tips and/or encouragement please? It will be very helpful Thank you ..
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #31-33 Had a great weekend this past few days. Redeleted 2 old games i redownloaded and feeling back to a fresh life w more time and focusing on things that matter more than gaming. Felt growth with friends/social circle and progressing gathering leads/networked for job apps as well.
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry # 30 Made a plan to catch up on the things I didn't ended up doing yesterday. But its good. Being able to turn back around
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #29 Oct 11th Dang .. Struggled with some difficulties and I caved.. 90 days til Jan 9th.. Not going to let this fall last longer than today.
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #23 - #28 Haven't been on here for about a week. Would just like to check in saying that this past week I've had friends invite me to play a new game together during launch date. For me it was easy to know that it would've been a poor decision doing so but it was slightly tempting. Being off games for a longer time made it easier to say no; I even helped a friend say no as well. However, this past week I've also been spending quite a bit of time, watching videos and going out hence not making the best use of my time and breaking some healthy habits I've strived to start/create. Starting today I will get back on track w the items I've listed on Habitica and am going to act on the information I gathered in the past week. Derek Sivers said - if information were the key to success, we'd all be billionaires with six pack abs. I'm going to reach out to a few seasoned people in the industry I'm interested in pursuing. We shall be aware of which parts of our life we might be susceptible to compromise. Be aware and take action against what we've taken lightly. Stay disciplined.
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #22 Did a difficult test today. It was challenging. I'm glad that overall I was able to make a big step for this career change. I might not have done well but I've mustered confidence to apply to other openings or even reach out to places w no openings. And I'll know how to better prepare to break into this industry.
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #21 Had a great time meeting someone from the firm I'm applying to. It was nice to chat and I felt even more excited/interested in my transition. Grateful for: 1) Being able to have insight on an industry I'm interested in working in 2) Being able to prepare for tomorrow's test 3) Being able to communicate and share this journey with supportive friends
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #20 Going to get some rest tonight, I've a semi big meet to prepare for tomorrow at noon. Procrastinated a bit today, I remind myself that this isn't how I envision myself acting. It's either pain of discipline or pain of regret. I have the strength to deny urges of procrastination and will put my time to good productive use. Grateful for: 1) Taking a blood test and finding the results to be positive 2) Meeting an interesting Spanish guy, learning from him, and discussing potential development of a project. 3) Being able to have this nice buffet and eat to contentment ?
  10. Care to share them? In any case, best of luck brother, I wish you well..
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #19 Great day today. Was mainly preparing for my upcoming test this week. Looking back, being productive has helped me a lot with not gaming, it's been rewarding. I'm grateful for: 1) A friend who's willing to help. A genuine friend who doesn't interact with me transactionally. 2) The opportunity to learn financial modeling ? 3) Being able to give advice to someone younger, in a place I once was
  12. Hey Blazing Man.. I hope you're doing well today.. I'm curious, how have you spent all the time you've freed up from not gaming?
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #18 I love Sundays. I get to drive alone, think without background chatter. I also like listening to podcasts while I'm on there. Today I felt inspired and moved by Tony Robbins' sharing and stories. He gave some good life advice: at every stage in your life, focus on how you can add more value. It is the only thing that is fulfilling - keep growing and giving. You can only have so much pleasure in the body by yourself. I'm grateful for: 1) Having access to brilliant minds, even if it's through podcasts. To be able to be continuously learning from some of the brightest minds in their fields. 2) To be able to give to a cause I care about. It's easy to think that you have to do well before you can do good for others, but I'm trying to exercise doing good for others despite how good or bad I'm doing. 3) Taking on a challenge - which is some sort of little speech on stage. I feel like that has forced me to grow in boldness. I tend to overthink things. I feel like things have to be done perfectly, especially if they are being done "live". Because of this I feel pressured and I'm, at times, tempted to back out. Over the years I have realized that this kind of attitude and thinking has really prevented me from becoming my best, I've learned to acknowledge that I'll always be imperfect and I just have to give my best in that moment and grow. Previously I might've not attempted things because I was so afraid of failing or looking stupid - instead I turn to games where progression is made easier and you can respawn, restart, save and reload if you make mistakes. That is just not reality, I've gotten so comfortable with that, that I am too hesitant/afraid to try new things. 4) I am grateful for not playing games. If I were still playing today. Oh MAN! My mind would be occupied by thinking of which equipment set would be worth grinding for and best suited to tackle this/that boss, or how to plan on allocating stat & skill points so I can get an edge in PVP, or how to outmaneuver the enemy team if they decided to play a certain strategy or a diff strategy. Point is these things take up a lot of brain space and the opportunity cost is FAR TOO HIGH. I'm just extremely grateful for being not on games today and the past 17 days because it has enabled me to grow as a human being. I believe continuing to do so will show more benefits and the longer I spend my time more productively, the more that the benefits will compound. I'm excited for this growth, and I know it'll be painful, I'll have to deny my urges, I'll have to work hard, not procrastinate, do things that are tedious/unenjoyable in the moment, I'll have to deny my being tired and still do/act be productive, but it will life worth living. I wish for you all to continue growing as well. :) Edit: Went through some old files - found some notes and responses from my interaction w a therapist/counselor from Jan 2016 - I did find myself seeking advice on quitting gaming. Wow.. that was nearly 2 years ago .. My gosh .. At least I'm moving on from it now. Also the counselor did advise me to reduce my time playing but not to quit completely. Yikes !
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #17 So I've 2 friends' weddings tonight I'm looking forward to that. There will be a lot of people I know - friends and acquaintances from college life, from different social circles, etc. Sometimes I get a little social anxiety and I tend to drink a little beforehand to combat that. Will try and take notice of how I feel tonight, hopefully the non gaming and the being productive has lead to better self esteem/confidence and it will be genuinely a more enjoyable time out. Will challenge myself to be bold tonight and also to make new friends ? Grateful for: 1) Friends and opportunities to meet new people 2) A wonderful roof over my head, waking up and being able to have breakfast at home is a privilege 3) Having a good night's rest and starting Saturday positively. Edit: So I did have a good time at both weddings. Got compliments on my outfit hahaha - that was nice. I did feel cold turkey quitting gaming has improved my awareness and just being able to be more present even in social settings. Not proud that I had a little too much to drink though.
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    Pete's Journey

    Entry #16 Resisting the urges have created a little bit of a build up, I do feel sometimes that the struggle renews daily but its good to be able to combat it a day at a time. Being bombarded by target gaming ads is not helpful, wish there was a way to remove all that targeting. I spent a good chunk of the day doing the CFA today whilst part time working. Really preparing re entry into the finance. Went and had good food and sake with friends at night and did an escape room game to add some socializing to the day. It was nice. Grateful for: 1) Ability to concentrate and go through needed material for work - no procrastination at all today 2) Hanging with new and old friends again - enjoying relationships 3) Not caving into urges - daily wins count Looking forward to tomorrow :)
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