Karabas's Journal

[karabas]

Day 0 | It's darkest before dawn

Hey guys!

See my introduction here.

Today was the worst day I've had in a long time. Almost nothing done as a result of gaming, YouTube, and otherwise time-wasting. And I'm really sick of doing this to myself.

So I'm gonna take up the 90-day challenge.

Rules:

1. No games: computer or phone or internet. Nothing.
2. No YouTube videos, Netflix, or other movies/tv unless I actually need to (like for work, study, etc)
3. I restart the 90 day counter if I break the above 2 rules in any way
4. I get a prize for every week I continue this (going out to a nice place to eat)
5. I need some kind of prize for making it to 90 days, but I'm not sure what that could be yet

Some additional things:

1. I've been doing habit building before this for about a month and I'd like to continue. I've lost most of my habits as a result of this gaming problem coming back, but I still have a few. The rules are the following: keep each habit for a month, get a reward after each successful week, then move on to the next. I usually keep an easy and a hard habit at the same time.
2. I need to work overall on reducing my distractions. I just created a new user account on my computer to keep my personal internet browsing/computer use separate to my work. Even while using different desktops, I was running into so many different tabs on each screen, it became chaotic and distracting. I've already started keeping my phone out of the bedroom when I sleep - I'm going to do the inverse and keep it in the bedroom while I'm working.
3. I have a problem whenever I come across a "big" task that requires focus. My instinct is to avoid it by gaming/watching videos/etc. I'm gonna try to combat that by taking every task and breaking it down into smaller, easier to-dos on my notepad.
4. I'm going to use a Pomodorro timer with 20 minutes of work and 10 minutes of a break. After 2 hours, I'll step away from the computer and do something else, as Dannigan suggested. I have PLENTY of tasks that I could work on.

My main focus over the next week is to get back into my proper schedule. I wake up around 6:30 am to do my morning prayers (I'm Muslim). Optimally, I'd like to be in bed by 11:30pm and then take a 1.5 hr nap in the afternoon, but I'm gonna start with being in bed by midnight and doing the nap. That's 8 hours total (not the same as 8 hours straight, but it's something). Also, Ramadan is around the corner - not sure how I'm going to handle that. We'll be waking up around 4am to eat before dawn, but early bedtime is also unlikely. So I might need to do something like 11-4 and then something like a 10am-2pm nap.

The good thing is that I'll be traveling in 5 days for about two weeks. It's very easy to keep off of games and videos while traveling because you just don't have the time. I think I can handle 5 days, then I get ~14 for "free". At that point I'll be almost 20 days in, which is a good period of time to go without gaming/vids.

I've tried quitting many times before and failed many times, but I'm prepared to get up and try again if I fail. Fingers crossed I don't have to :)

Thanks for the forum and support, folks!

[Dannigan]

* big cheer *

Wow.  What a powerful start to your first journal entry!  You've got this!   And this time, the results will be different.  Nice job on listing personal rules so that you remain accountable for your actions, and also the reward system that you'll use.  Interesting, a reward after 90 days detox!  Hey that's a very good idea......

Have a safe and peaceful vacation.  I'm looking forward to reading your journal in the near future!

~ Dani

[Hmmge]

Good luck friend. When you combine the detox with journaling and a proper strategy, it's a guaranteed way to victory. I really feel like this is it - for all of us!

Just a quick note: the second part of pomodoro is supposed to be legal procrastination to ease off the pressure, not another type of work!  I used the method for a while, it's very powerful.

[karabas]

40 minutes ago, JustTom said:

Good luck friend. When you combine the detox with journaling and a proper strategy, it's a guaranteed way to victory. I really feel like this is it - for all of us!

Just a quick note: the second part of pomodoro is supposed to be legal procrastination to ease off the pressure, not another type of work!  I used the method for a while, it's very powerful.

I'm hopeful :)

And yeah lol, legal break is what I'm intending. Just have to figure out what, now that I can't game or watch vids.

[karabas]

Day 1/90

Bedtime (yesterday): ~4:30am

Woke up: ~3:30pm

Comments:

I went to bed super late because I was trying to get all this detox stuff in order. I also ended up talking to my wife for a few hours about something that was going on with her. So I'm not too upset about going to bed late. I woke up super late, partially because I had to wake up for prayer at 6:30, so I broke up my sleep into chunks. I actually woke up more around 2, but then I just lazed around the bed for another hour and a half.

Overall today was a good day, but it got derailed a bit towards the end. I had a bunch of things that I need to do ASAP hit me around 11pm, just as I was getting ready to wrap up for the day. As a result, it's now 4am and I'm still up. But I gotta take my wife to the doctor's tomorrow morning, so I'm waking up early. Hopefully that's enough to get me back on schedule.

Cravings: practically none! They were very mild and mostly triggered by stuff like seeing a Netflix show review in the news.

Productivity: boss! Up until the 11pm episode, I was on point with all my habits and other personal projects. I got some actual work done too. I didn't use a pomodorro timer, but I did use a timer and took 10 minutes off at every 20 minute mark. After 2 hours, I stepped away, had dinner, walked to a corner store for some sparkling water (I LOVE sparkling mineral water, I don't know why. It's the only water I drink pretty much).

Feelings: Until I got overwhelmed by responsibilities, I felt calm and in control. It was nice. I also noticed that I paid more attention to my wife and showed her more affection, which is something I've been neglecting. And it pretty much came naturally. When you don't have games or vids to distract yourself with, suddenly you want human connection again!

Another thing I'm happy about is that once I felt overwhelmed, I didn't instinctually reach for some videos or games (which is the exact thing I did just a few days ago). Power of intention! Pretty crazy.

Minor habits:

• Morning spiritual routine (check): so far it's just a short prayer and reviewing what I memorized from the Qur'an (it's about 70 pages and I'm using spaced repetition to review all of it by doing just 30 minutes a day). I've been doing this habit for over a month now, so I'm just logging that it's continuing.
• Religious study routine (fail): I plan to apply to a seminary-type institution, so this is kinda essential for my future plans. I try to do 15 mins in the morning and 15 in the evening, but I messed up this night. Will try again tomorrow! I used to do this pretty regularly.
• Career-related study routine (1 day streak): I'm doing an online course for 15 minutes. This is a habit I had from before and broke recently. Re-instated today :)
•  Personal to-do list (1 day streak): This is another habit I recently broke. I would dedicate 30 minutes every day to get some of my personal to-dos (like taxes, shopping, etc) done. I went way overboard today since I freaked out, ended up doing more like 3+.

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: FAIL

Ok, that's it for now. Heading to bed now (It's 4:16am). Got less than 5 hours left to sleep. Yikes.

[karabas]

Day 2/90

Bedtime (yesterday): ~4:30am

Woke up: ~10:00am

Yeah, today was a write-off in everything but keeping away from games and vids. I had to wake up early for a doctor's appointment, then had a bunch of errands and the like to do. I got home in late afternoon and was completely exhausted. On top of that, I still have a bunch of stuff I had to do outside of work: taxes, prepping for the trip, etc. So I spent the rest of the day either doing those things or procrastinating and trying to keep myself from relapsing.

Cravings: moderate. I'm definitely far more vulnerable to these when I'm tired. I think what happens is that any serious task becomes difficult and requires focus since I'm sleepy. As a result, my craving for distraction kicks in. However, I did avoid the worst of it by doing non-game stuff. For example, a dream of mine is to buy some agricultural land and build a house on the property. So I like browsing through property advertisements online, looking through the pictures, etc.

Productivity: It depends on how you look at it. I didn't work very much today (or the day before... or the day before that). But I got a lot of urgent personal tasks out of the way, so hopefully that's something. And honestly, I was so tired, I'm just glad I didn't relapse. Also, it's 2:08am right now and I'm gonna head to bed soon, so I'm going to bed a lot earlier. Hopefully this is a start in the right direction.

Feelings: I'm just tired. Otherwise, happy with being able to restrain myself despite the fatigue. I've got hope for this detox!

Minor habits:

• Morning spiritual routine (check) - although I made it up later in the evening cuz I was in a rush to the doctor
• Religious study routine (fail): no way I was going to restart this today
• Career-related study routine (2 day streak): I actually used this as "good distraction" when I was feeling cravings
• Personal to-do list (2 day streak): I spent way more than 30 minutes on this today... and probably will tomorrow, too.

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: FAIL

[karabas]

Day 3/90

Bedtime (yesterday): 3:30

Woke up: 1:30

I was so exhausted today I slept through my alarm, which is pretty shrill. I guess I needed the sleep.

Today's been another one of those days. I had urgent tasks like taxes and prepping for my trip and I barely got anything else done. I'm realizing I need to do better with these personal tasks in terms of staying organized. When it comes to work, I'm good about taking breaks via Pomodorro, keeping track of time, doing non-computer stuff. But when it comes to personal stuff, I normally don't spend this much time on it, so when I have to, I just kinda work. And the worst is I don't focus, I just jump between tasks and it's super disorganized.

Cravings: very little. I had to keep my phone with me today, so I ended up doing some Facebook, which means I watched some videos there. That wasn't part of my detox plan, so I'm letting it slide, but I need to get off of Facebook anyway. I've been meaning to for some time. The news just make me depressed. Also, the Expanse Season 3 is out and I'm a big fan, so that was a bit tempting, but I'm settling for reading recaps instead. That's how I stopped myself when I was binge-watching Lost on Netflix a few years back.

Productivity: it was OK, just chaotic. But I got a lot of stuff done and tomorrow should be a proper work day. Looking forward to it! Also, I really AM going to bed soon now, so hopefully I'll push my bedtime by another hour towards my goal of 12am.

Feelings: happy the day's over, looking forward to tomorrow!

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 1 day streak
• Career-related study routine: 3 day streak
• Personal to-do list: 3 day streak

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: FAIL (but getting closer!)

[Hmmge]

Good job on being productive despite getting up in the afternoon, I rarely can do that. Going to sleep earlier should help a lot with overall well-being, make sure you get there! 

[karabas]

Day 4/90

Bedtime (yesterday): ~3:00

Woke up: 12:30

I seem to be failing at proper sleep habits, but a lot of it is due to the fact that my schedule is currently irregular. We're flying for our trip tomorrow and there's still a lot to figure out. On top of that, I'm trying to finish up some stuff work-wise. But I told my clients I'm traveling, so I'll be work-free, and we have to pick up a relative from the airport on Sunday early morning, so we kinda have to fall in line in terms of early sleep tomorrow... at least I hope. This is the biggest crux of my getting my life in order, after quitting games/vids.

Cravings: practically none. So far this has been easy... and it's kinda worrying me. Why is something I've struggled with so much suddenly so easy? Will it stay this way? I do catch myself having impulses to game or watch something, but it's kinda like swatting a fly away, it's not just a peep on the monitor and then it goes away. I'll be monitoring these - I think that once they no longer happen is when the detox has really worked, even if it takes more than 90 days.

Productivity: I've been able to do some work today, but with the late start today and packing/planning for the trip, I wasn't able to get as much done in that sense. Still, I feel like I didn't really waste that much time today and overall it's great! My biggest time waster is now Facebook. I try to keep my phone in the bedroom during the day, but I still check it on my laptop occasionally. I really should log myself out - and I'm planning to do that at least for Ramadan (just a month away), but hopefully earlier.

Feelings: a bit anxious about the trip (I always am), otherwise good!

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 2 day streak
• Career-related study routine: 4 day streak
• Personal to-do list: 4 day streak

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: FAIL

18 hours ago, JustTom said:

Good job on being productive despite getting up in the afternoon, I rarely can do that. Going to sleep earlier should help a lot with overall well-being, make sure you get there! 

Thanks man. Yeah, it's tough, and I still don't get nearly as much done. I always aim for going to bed early, but then something happens and I stay up. But what that means is that after 12am, I'm not super productive, but I still end up going to bed late. Really need to get this straight, but hopefully our travels will force us to.

[karabas]

Day 23/90

Bedtime (yesterday): ~1am

Woke up: 6:30am (+1hr nap in the day)

I've been back from my trip for a few days now, just getting back into the swing of things. As you can see, late nights are still an issue =/ But it's mostly due to work, which I could manage better, I think. I'm still Youtube & Game free! It's been 3 weeks now and this is about how long I lasted the previous attempt at self-control. Let's see what happens!

Productivity: Awesome. I've been killing it at work overall, I just have a lot of distractions (that are not my fault). But I've been putting in a solid amount of hours, I'm actively looking for more clients, and things are moving forward. The weather's really nice out now, so I've been really getting into growing stuff. We have a huge roof that nobody uses except us and it gets sun all day. So I have some lemon tree seedlings growing, a big rosemary plant, and now recently planted onions, tomatoes, basil, and sage. I'm also trying to grow carrot greens (for seeds) from carrot tops and date palms from date pits. Let's see how that goes.

Cravings: they come once in a while, but it's OK. Nothing seriously hard. I'm noticing I'm using more and more Facebook all of a sudden, which sucks, because I hate facebook and pretty much all of social media. Ramadan's coming up and it's definitely in my plan to not log in throughout the month and in general, except for Messenger, which I use often for good things. I also haven't been doing the whole 1 hour of non-computer stuff after two hours of work, although I do try to take non-computer breaks. I'll try to be better about it going forward.

Feelings: tired, but happy with how things are going. I gotta make sure to get rest, though. My self control slips when I'm overly fatigued.

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 2 day streak (ish, need to make up 15 minutes tomorrow)
• Career-related study routine: 1 day streak. I like the new course I'm taking, so this should be easy to maintain
• Personal to-do list: haven't worked on this since vacation, need to re-instate.

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: FAIL

Edited May 4, 2018 by karabas

[Dannigan]

Had to stop my sewing to say, "Good to see you back at the forums, @karabas. 

Now, back to my sewing.....

~ Dani

[karabas]

Day 24/90

Bedtime: ~2:30 am

Woke up: ~1:00 pm

I was clearly running low on rest and I had the opportunity to catch up on some sleep, so I did it. Went out with the wife for some food afterwards, so I only got to the productive stuff later in the day, but I still got the stuff I need to do done.

Productivity: I haven't been wasting that much time - Facebook's the biggest time drain for me right now. I don't know why I keep putting off signing off from it. I should get a head start for Ramadan. Otherwise, I spent a bit of time taking care of plants upstairs (I replanted the rosemary into a bigger pot - didn't realize how badly root-bound it was! I hope it's not beyond thriving).

Cravings: None today!

Feelings: Still good. I'm really bipolar about work stuff. Sometimes I'm excited about how well stuff's going, other times I'm super worried. I've had 15 client interviews in the past month. It's amazing, it's way more than I normally have. 2 of them resulted in some work, but so far that's been limited. I've had a lot of work this week, but I can foresee not having as much in the coming week and it's making me nervous. 

Another thing I've realized is that I need to make 15 minutes of working on my new business part of my daily routine. I've been itching to work on it, but I rarely do. So I just talk about doing it and never get stuff done and it's worrying me deep down. I gotta have some movement forward towards the goal. Assigning 15 minutes every day to a task has been working really for me in other stuff. I've reviewed memorization of Qur'an, for example. Over ~3 months of just 15-30 minutes a day, I memorized ~6 pages and reviewed about 40. So it means I can read about 45 pages without mistakes and quite smoothly! Same thing with work - a little bit of learning has helped me develop new skills and gain new insights. So 15 minutes of working on my business should give results in the long run, and I'll feel like I'm moving foward.

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 3 day streak (still 10 minutes left to make up)
• Career-related study routine: 2 day streak
• Personal to-do list: haven't done this one again. forgot.

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: FAIL

 

[16030669g]

hi karabas, i am new to this forum and it is really inspiring to read your journal. You have already gone through 24 days of your 90 day plan, so just keep going!! never give up!! we will support you here and witness your success. You have done well in keeping your morning/evening spiritual routine and the religious study routine.

I am also going through my tough postgraduate study. I am really afraid of getting failed in the upcoming summer practicum, but I suffer from serious procastinaion and  I am a heavy game addictor. Everyday I struggle like hell. This is my first day posting a journal here and i hope it will help change my situation. Just want to let you know u are not alone. 

Keep fighting together bro! 

[karabas]

Day 25/90

Bedtime: ~2:30

Woke up: ~11:30

Ok, so today ended up basically being a day off. I woke up late, had unexpected visitors over, then spent most of the day out with my wife. Had to stay up to keep my habits... not sure if I should've done that or just have made them up later.

Productivity: None to speak of, but I guess I could use a day off on occasion

Cravings: Too busy doing other stuff for those! :D

Feelings: It was nice to take time off, but I'm itching to get back to being productive tomorrow. Also, I'm REALLY tired of going to bed late. Short of an emergency, I HAVE to go to bed before midnight tomorrow.

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 4 day streak (still 10 minutes left to make up)
• Career-related study routine: 3 day streak
• Personal to-do list: didn't forget this time, but didn't have the time. will try again tomorrow.
• 15 minutes of working on my business idea: wasn't the day to start new routines :(

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: FAIL

17 hours ago, 16030669g said:

hi karabas, i am new to this forum and it is really inspiring to read your journal. You have already gone through 24 days of your 90 day plan, so just keep going!! never give up!! we will support you here and witness your success. You have done well in keeping your morning/evening spiritual routine and the religious study routine.

I am also going through my tough postgraduate study. I am really afraid of getting failed in the upcoming summer practicum, but I suffer from serious procastinaion and  I am a heavy game addictor. Everyday I struggle like hell. This is my first day posting a journal here and i hope it will help change my situation. Just want to let you know u are not alone. 

Keep fighting together bro! 

Thanks, man. Good luck with your detox, too!

[karabas]

Day 26/90

Bedtime: 4:30am =/

Woke up: 10:30am

Decent day, minus the going to sleep late. I did a good amount of work, took a break from the computer to do some offline work on my course and then went for a walk (wife joined in). It was nice. I'm finding that I can't stay glued to the screen for a long time, I need breaks or my ability to focus starts to falter.

Ended up staying late because wife was dealing with some stuff and I had to talk her through it. I don't mind it, that's what the relationship is for in many ways :) Just really need to get back on track in terms of sleep. Suggestions are welcome!

Plants are doing well, I'm having a lot of fun with it. Setting up a compost bin on the roof - vast majority of our waste is organic, so this will help with both feeling bad about how much trash we produce and with getting some nice compost for my plants :) I have some more plant ideas coming up :) If we weren't planning to move within a year, I'd set up those square foot planter thingies, but those would be impossible to move. So it's pots for now.

Productivity: pretty solid. I did the work I needed to do, I was fairly focused when I did it.

Cravings: nothing serious. Getting to 4 weeks of this detox now and am getting really scared about relapsing since this is about the time it would happen normally. But so far so good. I think the journal and the community really help!

Feelings: I'm good. Things are progressing. I'm noticing a difference in my ability to focus on tasks I don't like. I know from past experience that as long as I keep this kind of productivity and focus up, I can accomplish a lot. Hopefully even more over time. Good sleep is essential for that. So I'm optimistic.

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 5 day streak (~ish... I need to make up 20 minutes now)
• Career-related study routine: oops! I'll make it up today to keep the streak up or will have to reset this counter
• Personal to-do list: finally! 1 day streak
• 15 minutes of working on my business idea: yes! 1 day streak

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: MAJOR FAIL

[16030669g]

I envy your progress man! I want to be like you. I also want to be more capable of focusing on work that i don't like, because I often have to force myself to study and prepare boring stuff for my practicum. Seeing the benefits brought to you by the detox journey really give me motivation to keep going! 

[karabas]

Day 28/90

Bedtime: 1:00am

Woke up: 10:45am

I skipped day 27 because it was late and I was trying to just get myself to bed as early as possible. It didn't really work. I was still tired when I woke up for morning prayer (~6:15am nowadays), so I went back to sleep planning to wake up at 8, snoozed until 9, set my alarm for 10:30, and finally dragged myself out of bed at 10:45. Sigh.

Productivity: Today was a total write-off. We had guests over, so by the time I had my breakfast, I had to help getting food and the apartment ready for them. Then after the guests some drama happened that basically led me to being finally available with some free time by 9pm. At that point, I haven't done ANYTHING in the day, so I had to catch up on my habits, make up the habits from the night before where I just went to bed, etc. I essentially had no time to work at all. 

Cravings: Didn't have time for those

Feelings: It's a bit of a tough day. The problem with freelancing is that your income depends on hours worked. So when I don't work, I start freaking out. My whole life plan for the next year is based on maximizing income (to save up money from school). So far I'm just covering my expenses and debt payments. So I got really stressed out. But the good thing is that the day is over. Tomorrow's a new day to get back on the horse. I took out my prize bag of chips and am eating now as a consolation instead lol. 

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 7 day streak (~ish... I need to make up 15 minutes now)
• Career-related study routine: this needs to be reset
• Personal to-do list: nope
• 15 minutes of working on my business idea: 3 day streak

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: STILL FAILING

Edited May 9, 2018 by karabas

[karabas]

Day 29/90

Bedtime: 2am

Woke up: ~11am

It's been an OK day.

Productivity: I worked when I had time, but I ended up doing a bunch of other non-work stuff and didn't get as much as I wanted done.

Cravings: Nothing much.

Feelings: I just really want to finally go to sleep on time.

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 8 day streak
• Career-related study routine: 1 day
• Personal to-do list: nope
• 15 minutes of working on my business idea: 4 day streak

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: NOPE

[16030669g]

1 hour ago, karabas said:

Feelings: I just really want to finally go to sleep on time.

i think it is a good sign! It implies u will probably have a good quality of sleep since you are craving for it? lol

I also started  to integrate some spiritual/meditation practice into my daily routine now after reading your journal. When I lie on my bed at night before falling asleep, I will try to do "quantum touch" (a type of energy healing) to relieve my stress. It also help alleviate my insomnia . 

[Hmmge]

4 hours ago, karabas said:

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: NOPE

You haven't managed to do this in any journal entry yet. What's your plan? Perhaps some change?

Edited May 10, 2018 by JustTom

[karabas]

Day 30/90

Bedtime: 1:00am

Woke up: 6:00 am, then slept 10:30-12:30

I'm headed to bed and it's just past midnight!

Productivity: It's been OK. Need to focus on this part now if I can sort out the sleep long-term.

Cravings: Occasional, when I get really tired.

Feeling: Tired. Also, I made it to a whole month! Amazing!

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 9 day streak
• Career-related study routine: 2 day
• Personal to-do list: 1 day
• 15 minutes of working on my business idea: 5 day streak

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: kinda? (i'll count it)

13 hours ago, JustTom said:

You haven't managed to do this in any journal entry yet. What's your plan? Perhaps some change?

Today seems to be the day, but otherwise that's a good point. I'm not sure. I usually stay up late because I'm trying to finish work or one of my habits, but it keeps biting me in the butt, because then I get less sleep, wake up later, start doing work later, etc. If you've got ideas, I'm all ears :)

[karabas]

Day 31/90

Bedtime: 12:15am

Woke up: 6:00 am, then slept 3:00-4:30

It was a good day. I fronted all my habits at the beginning of the day except the stuff I do at night as a habit. That means that I wasn't scrambling at night to finish up everything I needed to do. 

Productivity: It was great! Put in a good work day today. Just at the very end of the day, I got carried away looking up flight tickets to a place I really want to go sometime this year and I missed the time to do my evening habits. I'll make them up tomorrow morning, but overall I'm really excited about being able to go to bed on time again!

Cravings: Still nothing serious. I logged off Facebook today, ahead of Ramadan, so that was a bit of a withdrawal process. I now don't have any major distraction I can make use of. It's good, it forces me to do the pomodorro technique. I even read an article about the Expanse today (one of my favorite shows) and I didn't have the craving to watch it! I'm surprised I've made this far without any significant difficulty.

Feeling: I'm feeling good. Hopeful. I can get a lot of stuff done if I can just go to bed on time.

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check (ish, need to make up tomorrow)
• Religious study routine: 10 day streak (but need to make up 15 mins)
• Career-related study routine: 3 days
• Personal to-do list: 2 days
• 15 minutes of working on my business idea: 6 day streak

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: 2 kindas! I'll take it.

[karabas]

Day 32/90

Sleep: 12:20am - 5:00am, 6:00am - 2:15pm

Yeah, you read that right. I have no idea what happened, I went back to bed after morning prayer thinking I'll sleep another couple of hours, set an alarm, and then just snoozed for a long time, then turned the alarm off, and kept sleeping. My wife went to bed several hours after me and she still woke up earlier! I don't know.

But honestly, I don't mind it too much. If I was that tired, then I needed the sleep. I know that I lose self-control when I'm tired, so overall being well-rested is a good thing.

Productivity: I didn't end up doing that much work today because of the late start, but I kept all my habits up and made up some of the ones I lagged behind on. So overall, I'm OK with it. And now I'm up early and I feel good!

Cravings: Fine, but I really gotta put my phone away in the other room for sure. I keep checking it all the time. Since I logged off of FB, I'm now checking the news a lot more often. But thankfully the news isn't never-ending like Facebook is, so it's already an improvement. Cravings for games and movies haven't been too bad. 

Feeling: Some fellow detoxers relapsing recently has gotten me worried about my own detox :( But overall I'm feeling good and optimistic about this. I find that being afraid of relapsing is overall a good thing. 

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 11 day streak
• Career-related study routine: 4 days
• Personal to-do list: 3 days
• 15 minutes of working on my business idea: 7 day streak (w00t! It's been a week... I've made some good progress)

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: 3 kindas! It's good, but I really need to be more strict about this now that I've gotten myself overall back into a better sleep schedule.

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Maybe you slept too less brother. I believe good quality of sleep is the essential source of our willpower. But good to see you almost kept all your habits up. You are almost there bro, keep going!

[karabas]

Day 33/90

Sleep: 12:40am - 5:00am, 12:00pm - 3:00pm

With Ramadan coming up, I really wanted to reward myself for the 30 days of detox before the fast started. So we went out today for food and then in the evening I spent a couple of hours talking to my dad (we talk once every month or so). And then it was late. So basically I didn't get any work today, but I'm OK with it because 1) I didn't have much work to do and 2) I need days like this to balance things out on occasion :)

Productivity: Not much to speak of

Cravings: Nothing because I kept busy.

Feeling: A bit bummed about breaking my sleeping early streak. Tired. Otherwise, good.

Minor habits:

• Morning/evening spiritual routine: check
• Religious study routine: 12 day streak (15 mins needed to be made up)
• Career-related study routine: 5 days
• Personal to-do list: 4 days
• 15 minutes of working on my business idea: 8 day streak

Major Habit - Sleep by 12am: nope :(