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I've been feeling really uneasy since I started my journey here at game quitters. Like this constant feeling of uneasy and uncomfortably in my mind. I think I've finally realized what this feeling is. It's the part of me that wants to go back to the way things used to be. It's like the old version of me is fighting but a new better version me is coming out and the pain is the old one dying. I'm not sure if this makes sense. It's hard to explain some of the thoughts and emotions I've been feeling.

I'm feeling the same at the moment - I'm going to sell my PC but there's an inner conflict between my old personality and the new one. 

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3/04/2017

Day's without gaming: 34

1/3 of the way to 90 days!!!! I'm one week into the new workout program and I'm already noticing differences. My legs feel stronger as it feels easier to walk around. I've been putting off laundry for a few days now so I really need to do that tonight. All and all today was a good day.

I've noticed that the more energy I apply to bettering myself each day. The better I feel and the easier it is to do the next right thing.

Today I am grateful for:

1. Understanding people

2. Community

3. Friendship

Good things that happened to me today:

1. They needed me to come in earlier to work.

2. Felt more rested than usual(still need to work on getting better sleep)

3. The work day went by quickly.

Coding progress:

Completed 6 coding challenges since last journal. Half way through intermediate algorithm

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3/08/2017

Day's without gaming: 38

Good day today. I have been having sleep problems the past few weeks and when to the doctor on Monday. She gave me some medicine to help me sleep. Nice to finally have a full nights sleep. This mornings workout went well. My first time completing an entire workout from my program by myself. In the past I only did one or two exercises as practice.

Getting back on the ball havent done much programming this past week. Rewrote my plan for completing things. Talked to my dad about moving to Denver in a few months. I've also been looking into coding schools. I would like to start applying for work once I finish my certification in April.

I am grateful for:

1. Family

2. Water

3. Exercise

Good things that happened to me today:

1. I ate some awesome noodles from Panda Express.

2. Had some free croissants from work this morning.

3. Got a lot coding challenges done.

Coding progress:

Reworked my schedule since falling behind last week. Moved things around so I can still finish by April. Should be done with my protfolio page by tomorrow night.

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3/10/2017

Day's without gaming: 40

Good day today. I have been having sleep problems the past few weeks and when to the doctor on Monday. She gave me some medicine to help me sleep. Nice to finally have a full nights sleep. This mornings workout went well. My first time completing an entire workout from my program by myself. In the past I only did one or two exercises as practice.

Getting back on the ball havent done much programming this past week. Rewrote my plan for completing things. Talked to my dad about moving to Denver in a few months. I've also been looking into coding schools. I would like to start applying for work once I finish my certification in April.

I am grateful for:

1. Family

2. Water

3. Exercise

Good things that happened to me today:

1. I ate some awesome noodles from Panda Express.

2. Had some free croissants from work this morning.

3. Got a lot coding challenges done.

Coding progress:

Finished 2 algorithms today.

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3/14/2017

Day's without gaming: 44

Had an awesome workout this morning and managed to stay under calories for the day. Spent time with an old friend who is home for spring break. I hadn't seen him in awhile it was good catching up. He is a big gamer so I had to turn down an offer to play with him. I explained that I was quitting for good this time. He said he dosen't really understand it but he can respect it. Which was honestly really nice to here. He's a really good friend and I was worried about telling him that as I didn't want it to get between us. Luckliy we have other shared interests aside from gaming.

I am grateful for:

1. Shoes

2. Having aspirations

3. Exercise

Good things that happened to me today:

1. I didn't have work today so I went to the gym during an off time and no one was there.

2. Meet up with my friend for dinner and sat around a fire in his backyard catching up for 4 hours.

3. Found out the workout program I'm doing has an app. Used it today it definitely streamlined my workout.

Coding progress:

Finished another algorithm challenge. I am one away from finishing the intermediate algorithm scripting section which is the half way point of the certification.

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3/18/2017

Day's without gaming: 48

I'm over halfway to 90 days!!!!! I've been journalism less as things are much easier now. I've been working a lot more and studying. I ran into someone in a cigar shop today who is actually looking for an intern for a non profit doing developer work. So I might be able to get some work experience if I can land that. I'm always so thirsty I need to drink more water. Drinking more water is going to be a focus of next week.

 I am grateful for:

1. The gym

2. My family

3. Good music

Good things that happened to me today:

1. Spent the day in a cigar lounge with an old friend.

2. Meet someone who works in the industry and could have an internship for me.

3. Ate some awesome shrimp tacos.

Coding progress:

Finished intermediate algorithm section. Decided to start working on the back-end certification Began learning git.

 

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4/6/2017

Day's without gaming: 67

Over two months! The guy I met internship opportunity didn't work out. I work for Starbucks and they have free college tuition through ASU Online. I finished all the paperwork yesterday. I signed up for an advising appointment for Tuesday afternoon. I will be able to register for class starting in June once I speak with my advisor. Working out has been going really well. It's the one thing in my life I have control over. It's really helped me get this far.

I need more activities I'm thinking about checking out toastmaster.

 I am grateful for:

1. Protein Shakes

2. Chicken

3. Having a job

Good things that happened to me today:

1. Pushed my self to failure on my bench press for the first time

2. Spent some quality time with my mother.

3. Saw a friend from out of town I haven't seen in a few months.

Coding progress:

Enrolled in a new web design class through codecademy because I've been really stuck on the webpage design aspects of my front end certification.

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4/29/2017

Day's without gaming: 90!!!!!

I haven't posted in awhile so I thought I would update since it is day 90. I've started keeping a personal paper journal for the past two weeks. I have also gotten into therapy. It's been nice to have some who can give me an objective outlook. I know my friends and family care but they have there own agenda when they offer advice. I have been consistent with the gym. I'm finally noticing physical differences to my body in the mirror. I have been attending yoga for a month now and have really enjoyed the quiet it creates for me. I've made a few friends through yoga who are positive healthy people. I finally decided to give Toast Masters a go. I've been to three meetings so far and love it. I just payed my dues last week and should do my first speech in two weeks or so. I made a new friend through there who is also trying to change his life for the better. He is in a similar space as I am where he has made bad choices and wasted time in the past with negativity and is looking to progress in life. I've also decided to quit pornography as I think that will greatly contribute to my health and my ability to form intimate relationships with women. I'm doing a 90 day detox with masturbation to help me quit porn which I am 29 days into.

I tried to join an online class for web design to wet my feet in online classes. It was really difficult for me and I dropped out and got a refund because I couldn't handle the pressure. After that experience I don't think going back to school for me is the best option at this time. I think I need to find a better paying non-degree job for the time being. I think that if I'm going to work a job I don't really love but just to get me to where I am going to go. I should at least pick something that is going to teach me new skills. While Starbucks has been fun these past four months I think I've learned all there really is to know there. It has definitely helped with my people skills but I think it's time to move onto something more technical. I figure that even if I get a job that pays the same if it's teaching me new skills it's worth the effort of changing jobs. My current idea is a entry level help desk IT position as I've already done some of that type of stuff in the past. If any one has any job ideas let me know.

I am grateful for:

1. Texas Barbecue

2. A bed

3. Clothes and a home

Good things that happened to me today:

1. Spent sometime soul searching and realized some truths about myself.

2. Spent time with an old friend and ate good barbecue.

3. Hung out with my sister and her new dog.

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8/20/2017

Day's without gaming: 12

Back again unfortunately. Man it sucks I was doing so well. I thought I could handle a little light gaming that was a mistake. I'm trying to move forward in life so I need to quit again. Need to reconnect with people on here. It's hard going through stuff alone.

I am grateful for:

1. My father

2. Water

3. having a bed

Good things that happened to me today:

1. Made some money selling old things on craigslist

2. Got to eat breakfast with my family at a diner

3. I posted on here!

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It's ok man, it was hard for me to quit gaming until I joined these forums, At first I couldn't believe it , I was like 'wow, people are actually doing it, they're actually quitting games on here'.

So, after years of trial and error, I gave it up, every single game in one week. Trust me, there are some good people on here who will help.

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8/21/2017

Day's without gaming: 13

Thanks for the kind words everyone. Today was a lot easier as I was traveling. About to go spend time with a friend who is a big gamer so hopefully I can avoid the temptation while i'm over there.

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8/21/2017

Day's without gaming: 13

Thanks for the kind words everyone. Today was a lot easier as I was traveling. About to go spend time with a friend who is a big gamer so hopefully I can avoid the temptation while i'm over there.

Np simmsjt, hope you do the right thing

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