hemonkey

Day 43 I had some fun on my simulated stock market and made only $136 as of now but the maximum I made today is $600. I am just practicing right now so when I go to college I will know how to invest and how to make more money through investing.

Day 42 Pretty deviating day. I was on the brink of relapse and pulled myself out by doing a 45 minute exercise. That was pretty scary because I don't want to start over again but I will not give up to my inner gaming addiction and cravings.

Day 41, almost half-way through! Today I started an investing game with my dad. It is on Marketwatch where you start with $100,000 and try to become first place among a lot of contestants in your private game. Tomorrow is going to be hard because at school I have the eye straining classes (math class, I need to use a math learning program to do homework). I am however getting good grades because I think getting an A- or below in middle school is unacceptable.

I used to also do weekend gaming but it is the worst strategy(for me, maybe for you). My advice: never game in moderation, you will want one more hour after your first hour and so on until you relapse.

Day 40, 44.44% through! Today I started school again but the truth is: I pass through my classes half-dead from staring at screens although my grades are good in the end. Today I am not going running because I got tired from yesterday's run. Homework goal: every 20 mins rest so I don't get too nauseous from staring at screens. Hope to get homework done in less than 1 hours so I can shut my computer down for the rest of the day.

Day 39! Happy new year! My goals for 2021: 90 days without gaming Running 5 kilometers under 30 mins.(before summer starts) and then possibly 25 minutes after BMI under 21 Read 20 books

38 days may not sound like a lot but it is for me. I have relapsed a bunch of times in the past and have not even passed 30 days. I am doing great so far and is pushing forward to my next goal: 60 days.

Day 35 I think. One thing I hate about my detox are detox distractions. Every time I watch television when I am tired, Youtube keeps giving me suggestions related to gaming even if I click not interested. I now just watch Prime video and Netflix more because I have had enough of Youtube giving me updates on gaming.

Well, I haven't been on since Wednesday I think. I have been busy with the Christmas celebrations so I have not turned on my computer for 5 days. Christmas has been great for me as of now for we are still in the pandemic. I have been sleeping well lately with no insomnia. I workout almost everyday either by agility training or running 3 or more miles every afternoon. One thing I have been working on is building a Lego kitchen for a future Lego film. Another thing I have been working on is practicing piano because I already played some Christmas songs for my family on Christmas. So far, this has been day 32 of my detox and today I have also finished reading The Great Gatsby by F. Scot Fitzgerald.

This is 2 days from Christmas. Today I feel kind of lost because I don't have the motivation to do anything. Hopefully, as the day progresses my senses will come back to being more enthusiastic. I did not want anything material this year for Christmas but I wish I can complete my 90 day detox. Things has been pretty challenging for me now because of the innumerable cravings. I hope I can make it to 90 days.

Day 24. I am not very happy with myself right now. I know that it appears I'm doing well but I have a big problem. My holiday break started so no school work but, this leaves me an extra 6 hours of procrastination time. I am now thinking of a plan for everyday like a to-do list. Just cooked and ate breakfast and now I just procrastinated 2 hours on my couch watching TV. I hope I can do better than yesterday.

Today just more coding for fun for myself and family to play with. Went on a run today which is very good. I went running around my city for about 3 miles and walked the rest because I was tired from the run 2 days ago. The game I made today is insanely hard and is so hard you can't beat the easy levels(at least I can't although I created it 😞). It's here in case if you want to try it out(set a timer so you won't relapse):https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/466106084/

My advice is just to delete the game and your account if possible so then you can give away everything that you value and desire in the game. If the game costs money and you spent money on it and doesn't want to delete it then consider giving it to a relative or a close friend.

I don't have any siblings so I will have to consider replacing for a friend. If my friend asks me to play a game then I would choose a multiplayer game where we control our own characters and fight like those two player games designed for one keyboard. If my friend wanted to play online through different computers then I would be very cautious about it because online games like Roblox and Minecraft are highly addictive and cause me a hard time on my detox. In conclusion, I would recommend two player fighting games on the same console/computer and never play online games because you would go back home and log in again and play for hours so you can beat your friend next time.

I still remember when I first joined I was so new to detox and everything and I was a total amateur. I looked at the games I coded before today on a website called scratch. It was "interesting", that was the word I was looking for. I had games in which you tried to survive by killing and eating bears and games where you tried to fight giant zombie bosses. I had also meme games where I would make memes and make them into animations and I looked back at them and thought it was funny. I made some changes to my games like a clicker game called sheep clicker where you click sheep to get better sheep and get better gears and power-ups. To conclude, this is my 22nd day of my detox and I have made it, the day where all fails before, the day of the 2nd greatest relapse in my previous detoxes.

Tuesday, got out of bed at 7:20 but felt a bit sleepy after sleeping at 10 last night. Mostly due to me getting up at night because I chugged down a cup of water before bed again. I tried to run yesterday but failed after not being able to run after a week. My knees were hurting because probably I didn't stretch after last time when I beat my old record and felt exhausted. Anyways, this is day 20 of my detox and I am pushing through. The main threat to me now is my TV which I everyday after working in front of my computer I watch it for 2 hours straight.

I keep watching TV after dinner for hours and can't get up from my couch. It has wasted my precious time a lot. I need help.

I recommended to not use your phone or tablet because that is the easiest and cheapest way. If you then delete your blocker because of cravings then I suggest you also pull the plug on your computer and lock it in a cabinet for a month and see how it goes.

Today is an awesome day because it is Friday! I woke up at 7:10 today because I had to use the restroom but I did not go to sleep afterwards. Finished breakfast before 8 and attended my classes. I went to my friend's house to play ping pong today with a mask on and enjoyed my time there because I have not seen a single soul in months! I hope I don't get covid-19 though because I have heard of the consequences although I don't think I will because I don't think my friend has it.

The last book I read is Robinson Crusoe by Daniel Defoe. It's a classic about a shipwrecked mariner that survived on an island solitary for 24 years before discovering savages on the island with him. It is a good book to read by yourself or someone else if you are interested.

A fresh new day to work on time management! Wake up time: 7:20 am Last night sleep time: 9:50 pm I feel refreshed after a good night's sleep. Today I have a few things planned out: 1)work on my presentation 2)color my drawing 3)practice piano 4)read for 2 hours Edit: I changed my display name now to a more special one so now you can refer to me as @hemonkey

Yesterday I had to postpone my run because the weather was just not right for me but I went on a walk and did a HIIT workout at home for 25 minutes. I practiced piano yesterday and although I made mistakes, I was able to enjoy my time and not smash my keys like I would do when I was younger. Another thing I would like to write is something important about my game quitting journey. My school is hosting an event on the game "Roblox" as part of a recreational activity for students. I was tempted to sign up but I know I would relapse after what happened last time. Last time I relapsed is when I wanted to play in moderation so I played for 1 hour. I didn't want to stop so I kept playing until it was the end of the day and I had to go to sleep and got nothing done. I believe I will complete my 90 day journey because of the hardships I have been through and learning how to cope with them. Eventually, I would get to a point where I will complete my journey and be in a crossroad to decide if I want to play or not but that is in the distant future.

So I forgot to edit my journal yesterday. It is what it is and I will move on today to a new day. I have 2 things that I want to emphasize today. One of them is that I have started to play the piano which I think will help me significantly on my detox to become awesome again. I have played the piano before but got too much into gaming and just killed my time for it. Another thing is today I took math class and had a test. I got a full score which shows that I have studied and also that I used my time wisely and did not game. I am also going to go running 3 miles this afternoon so I can keep my body healthy.

It was pretty hard for me to get up from bed mostly because I had to use the bathroom at night and it woke me up and I had to try to fall asleep on my own. I think it is mostly because I got thirsty at night before bed and drained 2 cups water. Anyways, I went to class today and was pretty awake. I wanted to do video games today but I am not going to because I know the evil creeping behind the monitor. Since I am writing so early today I might edit this later in the after noon.

Today I took a break from filming and did some chores like cleaning around the house. Also did some reading at the end of the day. I have lost track of how many days I have been on my detox but I would take my best guess at 10 days because I remember starting my detox at around thanksgiving. Thankfully, I do not watch porn and do not use social media (you may want to call me a nerd) which is good because I have 2 less things to worry about.