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Thanks for the advice @Ikar! An update: I went to my math teacher today because he made a mistake on the test and I talked to him about it and how I deserve to get that question right. Unfortunately, he became enraged and yelled at me because I had bruised his ego. And funnily enough, the principal was sitting in his classroom which goes to show that he is indeed mentally ill and it is not my problem at all. I can't believe how 99% of students can put up with him acting like he's the king of this school.

I hate studying, problems, and homework. I don't have bad grades, and I have no problem doing well in school; it's just that school is so tedious. My calculus teacher, in particular, is someone I dislike very much. He keeps ranting about how everyone should be passionate about math instead of only taking a hard class to get into a good college. I disagree with him completely. I think he is outdated and makes the class unnecessarily difficult because he is delusional about today's society and stuck in the past. My math teacher makes his tests many times harder than the AP test and expects half the class to get an A. How am I supposed to enjoy school? There is no way to argue with him because he is autistic and is full of pride and arrogance. I am in a nerd high school because I wanted to challenge myself. Now I think my life is just boring because I am surrounded by nerds who only care about their GPA and test scores. Many of the nerds have no sense of humor at all and I feel like I am one of the few neurotypical and normal people in my class. This is why I like to hang out with the less study-orientated people at my school like my teammates in the swim team and water polo. I enjoy swimming and racing and I love the thrill of competition. I just don't like grinding it out at school. What should I do? Is this normal for me?

School is very tiring for me. I try to finish my homework as soon as possible so I have time to myself but it is hard. My high school is very academically challenging. I feel a lot of stress compared to when I was during summer break. People around me in school are more stressed than I am however and I do not like their lifestyle. It is as if the students are machines who have no sense of direction other than to study. I do not want to be like them because I do not want to waste my life doing things that make me unhappy. I know I am smart enough to find a way to be efficient while also doing well academically.

Yesterday was my first day of my junior year. I was so tired I went home and fell asleep like a baby. Today was a little better. I have a lot of APs this year as well as being in a tough high school. Without video games, I feel like I am more focused so I hope I will do well this year.

On Wednesday I went to Disneyland with my friend. We went to basically every ride except Indiana jones and in the end after 14 hours of walking and waiting in line my feet were no longer functional. On Thursday I rested the whole day because of how tired I was. Friday I went to the DMV for a walk in appointment to get my learners permit and it took me about three hours which was fairly quick because there was not a lot of people in line that day. Saturday it was just a normal day for me doing some chores and today I started the day with a three mile run. Ever since I went to Disneyland I have been fatigued every day. I get close to nine hours of sleep per day but I still feel tired throughout the day and constantly need to take naps. I hope I’m okay. Tomorrow school starts for me again.

Today I woke up and immediately took my provisional driver's test and barely passed. Many of the problems were very tricky and I had to guess on some of the problems. Luckily, I passed so I am very thankful for that. Then, I went to Costco to do shopping and then I went swimming with my friend. Right now I feel very lazy because I just achieved my goal of getting my driving permit but I must find things for myself to do before I relapse into gaming or get addicted to social media.

Now it's been 2 weeks since I stopped playing games entirely. My life has been pretty boring so far because time passes slowly without playing video games. Today I started my day by cooking breakfast and doing a light morning yoga. I then went to the library to study for the SAT. Then, I went for a light swim at my local swim center because my swim team is taking a two-week break. Now with so much free time, I try to fill up my time with other meaningful activities like playing the piano or exercising. I also try not to look at my phone as much as I can and try not to scroll through instagram.

Today I started by cleaning all the tables in my house. I then played some piano including two songs that I have not touched in two years. After that, I went for a walk in the park and it was too hot so I came back home. I went to church in the afternoon and here I am lying down on my couch writing this before dinner time. I really feel like life has slowed down for me without video games and social media. It kind of feels like how I used to spend my day when I was very young when there were not that many distractions. Overall, I believe that I am on the right path because I feel happier and less stressed now. I sleep a lot better and just feel a lot more calmer and my attention span has gotten longer. For the next few months I plan on talking to more people especially in school and my swim team about my new life and hopefully I can get a girlfriend because I have two years of high school left and I want to fully experience the typical high school life before it is gone forever.

I got my password back so I can get on my main now. This morning I went to an intrasquad meet hosted by my swim team for little kids so I was a timer there helping out. I then had delicious fish tacos for lunch. After eating lunch I was exhausted because the taco combo had too much fat and carbohydrates. I tried to fall asleep but couldn't so now I'm sitting at my computer trying to write something down for my daily journal instead of scrolling through Instagram. Later I plan to do some cleaning around the house and then go ice skating with my friend.

It's been a long time since I've posted here but I'm glad to be back again. This is completely unrelated to gaming but about life. Today I was playing football with my swim team and I was guarding this guy, let's call him X. So I was trying to stop X from getting the ball when he elbowed me in the stomach. I felt a sharp pain at first but then a burst of rage followed shortly after. "I want to KO this guy and send him to the ICU right now", I thought to myself. However, I saw how everyone else was having fun, and because I did not want to ruin the fun for everybody, I controlled my anger and moved on. Now sitting at my desk, I think to myself: if this happens again, should I go ahead and go full Mike Tyson mode on X and rip his face off? Or should I suck it up and move on?

After almost 2 years, I'm back. Today was me mostly doing chores and making a video for fun. I have since made many friends and am no longer a video game addict. Happy to get my life back.

I'm now a high school sophomore and have never had a girlfriend. Anyone got tips?

This question may not be about quitting video games but about life in general. I frequently have a tendency to become emotional when someone insults or provokes me when I am having a bad day and become very angry. This also happens when events are very unfavorable for me for example if the computer stops responding when I'm in the middle of an essay. I also get very angry and want to use violence (beat them up) when someone acts like a jerk to me in school when I'm already having a bad day. What should I do?

So these couple of months after I moved, I have been messing up constantly. I suck at managing my time and feels like all my goals are crumbling away like sandcastles at the beach. I have tried to control myself but my problem always comes up: I cannot control myself. One of the main problems that occurred to me was opening a new tab when I am working on either homework or other important things. I open a tab and search up random thoughts and it wastes my time. Another problem is I keep waiting to do the harder tasks and people have told me to do the harder tasks first but I always fail. This is why I am messing up now and I need advice on how to improve myself.

9/29/2021 Lost track of time since I last watched a gaming video or anything of the type. I moved to a new city and now have busied myself with everything and have no time to think about gaming maybe on the weekends but the reason I did not write was because I was under stress from adjusting to a new environment and new school. As of now I am more comfortable with living in the new city and I still stay in touch with some of my old friends.

I could not write these past couple of days because I was very sick. It started with a sore throat but I ignored it thinking it was just a common cold(it was actually just a common cold) and I went to swim practice just to avoid boredom. It was about Thursday night that I came back from practice and a fever descended upon me. I was fatigued by the amount of exercising combined with my constant headache and I felt chills running down my spine literally. I later got a fever of 102 degrees and took some tylenol to reduce body temperature so I could at least sleep a few hours in the night. The following day I went to test for COVID and luckily I was negative. I was so relieved by this news but I need to be more careful around people now since everything is reopening.

This has been 2 days since I have last written. My goal for this week will be a small goal: go to sleep before 9:30pm so I can get up early the next day to exercise and get a kick start for the day. I hope I can accomplish this goal because time is running out for me and I don't want to end up like a loser.

I'm quitting again because I feel like I shouldn't be wasting my time during summer vacation. People don't live forever and I don't want to regret my life on my deathbed thinking I wasted everything. This time I want to try to convince my friends into meeting in person more like we used to before the pandemic rather than talking through discord and gaming mindlessly. I hope this will be the last time I fall into a terrible relapse again.

I heard my dad say that when he was addicted to gaming and wanted to stop, he just quit cold turkey without any difficulty. I haven't been able to do that with myself maybe because of a different world today with more technology dependent individuals or my own problems but has anyone else ever successfully quit cold turkey without difficulty and not have any relapses ever since? I need help because I keep relapsing detox after detox.

I'm back! There were several reasons I was offline for 2 months. One being that I was busy the last 2 months with vaccinations and transitioning my quarantine schedule back into the pre-pandemic non-social distancing daily tasks. I went back to my swim team and attended school in person. I also got my 2 doses of pfizer vaccine which the second one gave me fever 😞

this is sad... I have relapsed everyday for the past week. This has been my most horrendous week ever since quitting for good. I hope life gets better for me somehow in the future but for today what I did is: waste time clean the floors wasting more time regretting my mistakes(worst thing you could ever do in life) finally realizing why I am a loser today and started on some productive things I wish I knew this younger before in elementary school but it is what it is, I was too young to understand back then.

Oh flip! It has been a week since I last posted ever! 😮 Well, this is what I've been working on: Piano Exam, online one where you record yourself playing and upload and P.S. I didn't cheat 🙂 Use of calendar app, an app on iphone that I recommend highly instead of a to-do list. Most people give up on their to-do list everyday. Video with Adobe Premiere Pro, Expensive video editing software more powerful than iMovie which I used to use.

Already easter today! I have finished all of my tasks ahead of time like piano exam and numerous assignments. Now I get to have some fun going outside to the park and working on my lego films! I have not even touched lego filming ever since last month due to a combination of school and preparing for my piano exam. Now I feel more relaxed and easy with time. Today I want to share something I learned. It's always important to stay busy with hobbies even if you are done with everything. This can be derived from Calhoun's mice utopia. The mice who get free food and free bedding stop reproducing and started killing each other. After 2 years the mice population was on the verge of extinction. So conclusion is? if you don't have meaning in your life, create meaning. This is your life, spend it wisely.

Hey everyone I missed april fools but here is something I am doing to make up for it: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/510828567/

Hey guys it's been almost 2 weeks since I last posted here. I just wanted to say I am doing well, aside from a minor relapse. My gamer friends has been wasting their time as usual so I try my best to persuade them to exercise at the park with me. One thing I am passionate about is using a calendar instead of a to-do list. I watched a motivational talk about time management and decided I'm quitting the to-do list. This has been day 1 of calendar management and I have been very productive.