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TheNewMe2.0
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@BooksandTrees I agree with your idea. However, I have this bad feeling that comes over me when I do most things. Including all forms of art, most tv and books. It's a really bad feeling that worsens the more I do these things and causes my skin to breakout in acne when I do them. So my hands are kind of tied. I mostly am just able to go to the gym, go hiking, meditate, read christian/psychology books and run errands. Literally almost everything else I can not do because of this strange condition I have. I don't have a ton of hope for myself although maybe psychotherapy will help. Until some miracle of a breakthrough happens for me I'm stuck doing just about nothing.
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I got low back pain too. Got any recommendations for exercises to do for it?
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Congrats on one month. Boardgame cafe sounds like something that you're gelling with. I'm happy for you doing well and finding new things that you're passionate about.
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Hello,
I believe that feeling you're describing will come. We start at a deficit having to fill the void of gaming. Over time it fills and we feel better. Then we have a surplus of good feelings and feel great. That's my hope. I just saw it happen in @Icandothis journal. Go check out her recent post. Please excuse the expletives and appreciate the support. Like you're saying, it's one day at a time. Just getting through each day is enough to, over time, make a big positive change. Adding 5 lbs a week to a barbell adds up to 130 lbs increase in six months. It may not seem like you're becoming happy overnight, but it's coming slowly over time. Just like the strength gains.
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Hey, It's good to hear that you're moving on with your love life. That your kids and you are going to be okay. I'm happy that the weight of your suffering has lifted so much recently.
🙂
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Good job getting your diary popularized. I'm grateful to have people comment too. Sounds like things are going well. I hope your weekend goes well. I know unscheduled free time is something we're all working on filling up. Make those schedules people!
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That''s great your post its' are working so well for you. Are you doing physical therapy to heal something?
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Day 66 NF 37 Np 20 Med 6
I'm increasing the severity of my No Pop. Instead of just not popping pimples I'm also not allowing for rubbing the skin hard enough to detach abrasions. I'll just have to make peace with it and apply medication. I guess I'm looking forward to group. I think I'm going to take the plunge on respawn. I hope it's worth the investment. I did superman holds today for my low back. It seems to already have had an effect on my low back pain that has been plaguing me. Maybe I won't even have to use a weight lifting belt after all. I'm glad I've got the superman holds and will continue doing them at least once a week. I forgot to do cardio today. I was just kind of adjusting to my new client so it's a lot to take in. I haven't figured out what he and I can do together aside from going on hikes and walking the mall. God help us.
I'm grateful for
My mom and all that she does for me.
Food, water and shelter.
God. GQ, the few tv shows I can watch, my clients, work, and my school class.
God bless
Erik
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17 hours ago, Ikar said:
Why did you have a knife in the first place? What was the purpose of it? Myself, I think basically anything can be used as a weapon, depending on how creative one is.
Good luck!
I got one for self-defense. Sure you can use anything for a weapon, but it takes less time to get out a knife from your pocket. I don't think I'll be getting one though.
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Super nice pics of Colorado. I was wondering if you have any YouTube recommendations for getting better at drawing/drawing anime. 😄
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Day 65 NF 36 Np 19 Med 5
@Tomas @BooksandTrees @WhatAboutToday? Thank you guys for your encouragement and feedback. I will try to give myself a break with being allowed to watch some tv. As long as it's not too much. I really have cut back a lot on forms of pleasure in the past couple months. I'll keep adjusting my tv intake till it's at a level where I feel it's helpful for me.
My sister's moving out in a month so that'll probably help reduce my stress levels. I'm also going to a yin yoga class tonight which will be my first yoga class in months. I hope it goes well. Two of my clients are into collecting knives. It's making me want to get a knife too. *morbid disclaimer* But then I was told to get rid of my knife because I was having suicidal thoughts of killing myself with it. So I don't know if I'm ready to have a knife or if I will be at any point in time soon. I was told to check into a suicide prevention group 9 hours a week for three weeks. But, I didn't have time because I work so I'm doing 3 hours a week for three weeks instead. We'll learn about coping. I really hope I get something good and lasting from the group to help me cope better. It starts on Monday. Wish me luck 🙂 .
I've been watching an episode or two of anime lately. It's a struggle for me because I really enjoy it. But, it's causing me anxiety so I've been feeling more anxious lately and it's kind of hard to deal with. I think I'm getting better about it. Like it's not as anxiety provoking as it was before. Drawing them is cool too, it used to be my peaceful time where I didn't think about much of anything. Creating things makes me thing about God and how he created us. He has such a tender heart for his creation. Always loving and forgiving. Caring and guiding.
God bless
Erik
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21 hours ago, WhatAboutToday? said:
Do you plan on doing or already do it?
Yes, I do exposure therapy with watching tv, doing art. That's about it. Doing these things can be pretty tiring for me. I wonder sometimes if it'll ever get easier or less draining to do. Maybe.
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Day 64 NF 35 Np 18 Med 4
I was reading @BooksandTrees post about finding balance. I feel like I don’t do that too well. I either watch no tv or too much. Maybe there’s some other way to occupy my time that’s more positive and productive.
I just watched the office today. It was ok. I just felt reminded of how cam was saying its no good if you quit games and just watch Netflix. So I guess I’m still just looking for other things to do. I can learn stuff from YouTube . Maybe I could get into cooking.
I actually put in a request to permanently delete my league of legends account after watching the video on GQ. I feel good knowing it'll finally die. I think it'll be final in the beginning of march. My job's going good. I guess I just had a bad day because during intake my therapist asked if I watched tv or other things to distract myself in a healthy way. I then took that as a green light to go watch TV and started binging for a couple days. Coming back to write here on my laptop and watching some of the GQ videos I feel refreshed. I realize it's a lot better to spend time posting to these forums than it is to be watching TV. I hope the rest of my life just comes naturally. I know it's slow to develop. It's a marathon, not a sprint recovering.
That being said working out has really been going well. Both my parents complimented me on my physique improving. I've been consistently going every day and although I don't lift everyday I still do cardio and yoga just about everyday. Except legs day it's really hard to do cardio after haha. When I was powerlifting my abdominal wall would hurt while using the belt. So I started lifting without it. Now my back's hurting from not using a belt. So I figure I'll try lifting with a belt again, but hopefully it won't hurt this time around because I'm only doing one exercise with the belt on twice a week. Before I would do three exercises a day three times a week using a weightlifting belt. So the volume is going from 9 to 2. Also I'm going to clamp it on the right side. Previously I would clamp it on the left and the left side would hurt. So I'm hoping this will balance out any potential abdomen compression from the belt. I'm really not putting the belt on tight. I don't know why it hurts my abs to use it, but I'm just really hoping I'll be able to at least squat with it on without pain. If I can do that much I can continue my workout program at the gym.
I'm doing a 5 day modified 'bro split' from Jeff Nippard's YouTube channel. It's really got me doing a lot of exercises per day. Before I did his program I was doing a slightly less intense version of what he prescribes. It makes me wonder what the game quitters 'health mastery for normal not genetically gifted people' workout plan is all about. I don't want to pay money, maybe they'll give me a free one 😄❤️
God bless
Erik
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Day 63 NF 34 Np 17 Med 3
It's my new aim to post to forums right after the gym to get off technology before bedtime. Meditations going well since setting the timer. My workout advisor is saying to take rest days, that they're important. This is okay with me, but if I fully rest like, nothing but walking around and sitting. I'm going to have extra free time that I don't know what to do with. hmm . . . I guess I can read more. Maybe write a poem or draw anime.
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The Jeff nippier recommends the upper lower split
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You had a productive day for two hours of sleep. What's your favorite cartoon? That's awesome you're practicing yoga with a group. I'll be trying to go for a yoga class Thursday and/or Sunday this week. I'm happy for you going on a date with your friend. I hope that happens for me someday, the only friends I have are far away from me or on here. Maybe I'll make friends at yoga/gym/buddhism/poetry. Life's not over yet! Nice job on the food!
I'm glad to hear your paranoia has subsided. Seems like it was a bumpy week. Do whatever you need to self-care. I'll pray for you. ❤️
p.s. There's a book called the secrets of people who never get sick that helped me overcome my illness anxiety (previously called hypochondria). It might help! If you do read it I recommend the sections on positive thinking and different exercise forms the most. There's weird ideas on there too that you might want to avoid.
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Day 62 NF 33 Np 16 Med 2
@Icandothis Thank you! Two months no gaming phew. I can replicate anime pictures. And I can sort of write poems. I would try writing fantasy but it's kind of overwhelming for me it's so vast. Although I like it. I think it'd be good for me to pick one and spend some time each day on it. I draw anime pictures for my clients sometimes and they appreciate it 🙂 .
I'm going to start watching my clients game some of the time, hopefully that goes okay. I'm happy I made two months without gaming and one month no fap. Even no pop is good too at two weeks. Meditation I've always done regularly, but I don't think I've done 30 consecutive days, usually I miss a few within the month. So this will be awesome to do 30 in a row. I would of course prefer not to see people game. But, it's sort of a thing we do to have them do therapy and then we do what they want some of the time. They're taking an interest in doing what I want so it's fair to do something they want. I don't have to play. I remember reading @Cam Adair post about someone relapsing because he started watching gaming. That's a little concerning for me. But, my supervisor basically told me to watch them game as a reward for doing therapy. Is watching something I can do without crossing that line into actually playing the game? If I feel overwhelmed with temptation I'll just see if they can not game while I'm there and ask my supervisor what to do. This one client is like . . . possibly unable to refrain from gaming for the 3 hours at a time I see him though. I'll text my supervisor tomorrow.
I'm reading the psalms. They're nice and soothing in a way. I'm trying to lose a little body fat by eating less. It's so easy to overeat after lifting weights, but I think I can eat less and continue training . I just have to get used to it. I'm watching videos by Jeff Nippard on YouTube on weight training. I'm also watching some game quitters videos and plan to listen to their podcasts while I do cardio tomorrow. My medication's weird, I'm getting off hydroxyzine. My anxiety with anime, poetry, cartoons, fantasy. That seems to be going okay. Although I felt like reading and writing fantasy was too big of a commitment for me to take on. I drew what I thought was a good pikachu today. Still got it! Ok it’s not perfect but I’m happy. I used to watch Naruto and try to draw the characters. It's probably my best artistic skill. Ironically watching and drawing anime gives me anxiety. But, I still managed to draw some today. If I keep trying to write poetry I'd get a small book and try to figure out what the templates are and stuff. I'd want to do that to connect with a friend of mine who's into it.
I hope everyone's doing well. That all your game quitting is working out and you're living wonderful, fulfilling lives.
God Bless
Erik
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Good job finding perspective in the tragedy
In life we struggle
and so do caterpillars
That's what makes us so beautiful in the end.
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Also that's really sad about Kobe's passing. He was young and did have everything. His life seemed to be in a good place too. God bless him and his family.
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Day 61 NF 32 Np 15 Med 1
I forgot to do my ten minutes of meditation yesterday so That means I’ve got to reset the counter on it. 😭 oh well it’s okay. I’ve set an evening alarm to remind me to do it now so I hope that helps.
I wish I had an artistic hobby now to do to pass the time. Maybe I could try poetry again. My friends into that.
I got my cardio yoga and foam rolling in today which was chill . The gyms a sleepy place on sundays sometimes. I hope everyone is getting all the help they need .
God bless
Erik
Actually I think I might have done meditation in the morning and not at night. I don’t really remember though. Maybe it’d be good to keep a schedule. Pretty sure I didn’t meditate haha.
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17 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:
I'll take it.
Upper body
lower body
rest
upper
lower
rest
rest
repeat. 🙂
you could just do push ups and pull ups on upper day and squats and lunges on lower day.
You can do cardio and yoga everyday. With foam rolling too on rest days
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What’re you doing exposure therapy on?
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Yeah I read books. It passes the time.
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Exercise is good. I can recommend an at home routine for muscles if you want one.
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That soup sounds delicious. Yum. I can see now your reasons for staying. Life sounds like it’s going to get a lot more difficult once you split. I’m grateful that no ones dependent on me and i live with my mom who takes care of me. The only relatable experience I have to you is my ex was kind of verbally abusive so I stopped talking to her. I’ll pray for you.
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Day 67 NF 38 Np 21 Med 7
If you read my previous reply to books and trees you know I'm severely limited in what I can do. I'm trying to stay focused on what I can do and stay positive about that. I'm doing respawn and reading the respawn book now. It's pretty cool so far. Although it's hard to be reminded of why I gamed in the first place. It's good to clarify the reasons why I don't game now. I'm also watching a youtube series on bodybuilding which is nice to learn about. I'm trying to reclaim my 5 compound lifts which I took a break from due to injuries. God willing I'll reclaim more of my life.
God bless
Erik