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  1. Hi Andy, To get you up to speed with me, I quit games for 7 months, relapsed, played for 2 months straight and then quit again, I have now been off games for 3 months. In regards to your suicidal ideation, mental images of hurting yourself and the unwelcome sexual fantasies, I can reassure you that these are most definitely not a reflection of who you are. It sounds to me like 'Pure OCD', which is an internal OCD in which people suffer from intrusive thoughts. The anxiety comes from providing these thoughts with meaning but the thoughts can also be substantiated by your anxiety. So if I, a heterosexual male, was to see a man in public and have an intrusive thought of having sex with him, I might mistake my anxiety for sexual excitement and start to question my sexuality. I implore you to look up about it to see if it resonates with you. If it does, remember that, although relief is comforting, it is a short-term solution to Pure O. With any type of OCD, accepting uncertainty is the way forward. It's about demeaning intrusive thoughts by taking away their power! I do not want you to come away from this message thinking, 'I've got a mental disorder!' because I don't think you do. I don't think I do either. There are a lot of arguments against the use of labels. However, one must use labels when they are useful and I think, from what I've read, that you share some symptoms of Pure O. There are many therapies that can help combat Pure O and intrusive thoughts; Exposure Response Prevention (ERP), Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) and Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing (EMDR). There is little public discourse about Pure O and intrusive thoughts but I can assure you that there are many people out there suffering from it. Our mental (or cognitive if you will) reactions to quitting games seem to be almost identical. I too, have extreme anxiety, panic attacks and disassociation. Although less of the latter. I experience anxiety-induced nausea all the time which is very uncomfortable. Even now, as I'm writing this, I feel so anxious and all I want to do is fall back into the comfort of playing computer games. It's the only thing that takes me out of my head. But luckily I've built integrity! I would rather suffer at the cruel hands of sobriety than succumb to the falsity that is gaming. I understand that your panic attacks and ideation have been greatly reduced, well done. It's really impressive that you've done this all on your own. In reference to your disassociation, anxiety and intrusive thoughts, I'd advise seeing a therapist. Therapy gets a bad wrap but all it is is trying to become the best version of yourself and it's never too late! I am not suggesting therapy because I think you need to be 'fixed' or have a 'mental disorder' but because I think, quite simply, you can live your life in greater comfort if you do go and see one! I may have missed the mark entirely with this message. I actually came to the forum today to write a post about how I was feeling. All I want to do is play games although at the same time, that's the last thing I want to do. I don't find anything else remotely stimulating, I have terrible anxiety and I'm having suicidal thoughts at the moment. Anyhow, I hope this message provided an ickle bit of insight.
  2. Gaming was at the epicentre of our lives, we'd invest lots of time, consciously (dream) think about it, unconsciously think about it etc. So giving up gaming is a huge achievement for people like us. But it is also a process. When I stopped the first time, I began doing what you're doing, filling my time with equally as vacuous hobbies as gaming. But...we both know that watching TV and web browsing is not nearly as detrimental as playing games. However, this doesn't excuse it. Clearly, you've gained foresight because you can see that watching TV and web browsing is not what you want to spend your time doing. But treat yourself with compassion by reminding yourself of what you've achieved (giving up games in the first place). Now to address the problem at hand, I've recently had a revelation. You do not need to entertain every urge, thought or feeling in regards to whatever, it may be; gaming, wanking, watching TV, web-browsing etc. These things are non-reflective of your (moral) principles, opinions and self. Personally, I created a few rules regarding hobbies such as TV and web-browsing to ensure I wasn't wasting my time. These included only watching TV shows that are the following; educational, interesting (to me), informative etc. The same goes for web-browsing. The moment I feel myself falling down the all too familiar rabbit hole of looking at memes, I step away from my thoughts and apply objectivity. To suggest more immediate, practical anecdotes to your problem, I'd suggest downloading 'Block Site' and adding your most visited sites to it. It's kind of a flawed application because you're in complete control of what websites you can or can't visit. But, I believe that someone who is as strong-willed as you (proven by your strength in giving up gaming), will be able to resist the temptation of visiting 'banned' sites.
  3. I started playing computer games at 12. The following took place between 12-19. I argued with my dad throughout puberty about playing computer-games. He installed Norton security to limit my time playing games. It did not work. We had screaming fits at one another, I hated him so much. It was really sad. I was super insecure and anxious at the time so I used computer games as a way to hide from my (normal teenage) problems. Neglecting issues such as these means they grow, mutate and solidify. I wish my parents had taken my computer away. But my dad said to me recently when I told him I'd never let my kids play computer games, 'everything must be done in moderation, if you stop them from playing they'll want to play more.' It can also create a permanent rift between you and your child. I am lucky that I realised how addicted I was half a year ago (with the help of Cam's videos on YouTube ((maybe show him one of these?)) Personally, I'd remove everything game-related from the house i.e. his computer, monitor, mouse mat, mouse, all games, cleanse the computer, sell it, tell him it's never coming back, he will be upset but will eventually forgive you. I don't know what the right thing to do is but that's because I'm 19 and and not a dad. My advice to you if the above seems too extreme; engage him in things outside the house. Take him to beautiful parks and ponds, join a fitness class together (?), make him join an art class, a karate class - anything to get him out the house. Something he must attend weekly, which is social, fun and educative. Then hopefully, he can naturally lose interest in games (albeit this is very hard). Computer games are partly responsible for my lack of cognitive skills. I played games for seven years straight and I thought about games all the time. I didn't experience a normal adolescence. Nor did I experience an abnormal one. Just nothing. So much time gone that I could have used to develop interests, intelligence and personality. I feel dead inside the whole time and all I think about (even after 6 months of not playing games) is how boring everything else is. That reminds me; if you remove everything, you must block sites like Twitch and YouTube. I may have managed not to relapse but I do watch the occasional video that renews that burning desire to play games. Do not let him watch videos (at least within your house). I became so accustomed to gaming life i.e. takeaways, lack of responsibilities - I now do not know how to operate in real life. A point that must be made; I have a loving family, my parents are together, I'm (luckily) privileged, I was privately educated, I had all the opportunities and options that one could hope for but even then, games took over. The main game I was/am in part addicted to is Fortnite. It's one of the worst in my opinion, evident in how many young people play it. They're all consumed (including me) by this idea of playing it competitively but you must communicate with your son that the likelihood of him becoming a professional player is equal to the odds of winning the lottery. I am assuming he plays competitively because he plays on a computer and as you've stated, he plays all the time. Epic Games have utilised the prospect of e-Sports to coerce (mostly) young boys into thinking they have a chance of playing competitively - this is untrue, corrupt and manipulative.
  4. This post has helped me so much. I've been game-free for 5 months and only recently have I experienced the most intense cravings yet. What Cam said applies to my situation like a key slotting into a key-hole. I have an exam on the 14th May, a project due on the 7th, and I've written and directed a play about game addiction that is being performed on the 7th May. So applying Cam and James' logic, it is now clear to me that my cravings have appeared purely as a coping mechanism to the stress/pressure. So thank you. I was worried because I didn't think there was anyone else who had been game-free for as long as me, and suffering from a sudden ambush of life-debilitating cravings. I want to reemphasise a point I've made before because it is particularly poignant in cases such as these; Watching gaming-clips as a form of appeasement does not work. It is effective in the short-term (a couple of hours) but exacerbates the cravings 10 fold in the long-term. I was so fucking close to relapsing this week, but I persevered. My gaming-friend Jet epitomises the worst type of gaming-friend. He's highly manipulative and persuasive and I've experienced the full brunt of his attempts to woo me into relapsing. If you have someone trying their best to get you to play games with them, who is fully aware of how its ruining your life, remember that they're probably feeling sad that they don't have the strength to quit. Maybe this is a little extreme, but I'd suggest cutting them out for a while by blocking them on social media. It's so advanced these days you can block people without them having the faintest clue.
  5. @James Good I needed someone who hadn't played games for a long time to relate to me, so thank you James. I'm having very strong cravings at the moment and it is very hard to think coherently. Therefore, I'm going back to university sooner than expected. I'll keep you guys updated if things get bad again. It's been up and down this past month but this forum has helped in preventing me from relapsing. Cheers, George
  6. I've been watching Fortnite videos all day.
  7. @Splitstep How long has it been since you've played games? Update on me -> The cravings are coming and going but they are still very strong (?) I'm having vivid dreams of playing games and have watched one or two Fortnite YouTube videos to appease myself (I know this doesn't work, it only maintains the addiction). I want to play more than I ever have before. And it has been such a long time since I gave up so this is understandably demoralising. There are a few simple reasons as to why I'm having such strong cravings; - I'm currently at home which is where I used to play games, so my computer is a couple of feet away from me - I'm in a revision period for university exams so I am very bored - I don't have anything to consistently do, i.e. a job (because I am only at home for a few more days before I return to university) - The cravings have been very strong since I returned home (so for three weeks they've been addling me) I've creating a word document listing all the reasons why I gave up games. That has helped a little bit.
  8. Thanks for the replies. I managed not to relapse. I'll revert to reading these replies if my cravings ever return (which I'm sure they will). To be honest (although I'm trying to remain optimistic), my cravings at the moment are constant i.e I am experiencing them right now. I think it comes from being bored, unoccupied and living at home where my computer is. @Catherine17 What good things come from gaming?
  9. I didn't relapse. It's been four-five months since I gave up, and my brother said something worrying to me the other day. He's a clinical psychologist, 'there is a possibility that the cravings won't ever go away.' That is a good point - about feeling more empty once you've relapsed - I'll keep that in mind.
  10. Hi, I haven't gamed or watched any game-related videos or adverts for FIVE months...I'm experiencing the worst of it right now. I just want to game so fucking badly. It's insane. I'm like moments away from touching my computer (although I sold my mouse, mouse mat and uninstalled/deleted games and computer accounts). I need some reassuring words or maybe some advice. I don't understand what is going on. I thought I was supposed to be over it by now. I have ADHD and some mental health issues so take that into consideration if you're planning on replying to this topic. I'm super frustrated, sexually, socially - I don't get the same feeling from ANYTHING that I did from games. I was so good at games as well (like semi-pro at Fortnite) and I played it with my best friend that doubled the fun.. I need to remember the shit bits of gaming - the lack of sleep, the unconscious regret, the lack of socialising, bad mental health, embarrassed, sad, addicted. Another thing you should take into consideration is I suffer from intrusive thoughts (psychological condition to do with OCD) so this emphasises why I played games so much and why I want to play them again because the thoughts are relentless and horrible to live through and like 50% of my thoughts are I.T. Please for the love of god, someone help.
  11. I AM ON THE VERGE OF RELAPSING Guys...I haven't played a game in so long or watched ANYTHING game-related BUT i'm struggling, like HELLA struggling right now. I want to play a game so fucking bad. I want to feel that feeling again in my body, i want the dopamine rush i want to not give a shit about anything in the world but the game im playing, i want to forget everything that stresses me out and just plug in to Fortnite and fucking pwn everyone. I was so fucking good as well. I haven't played a game in like 120 days straight but i stilll want to fucking play so bad man. I hate how my dad makes me feel, i feel so stupid ive got ADHD so my head is SO painful to live in. Please someone help me. What do I do?
  12. I finished my detox today. Hooray. But...I'm panicking. I'm still dreaming of playing video games such as, PubG etc. I don't know why, it seems like it's gotten worse just after my 90 day-detox has ended. I won't relapse but I have very strong urges to do so. I'm so lost all the time, I don't know what I'm genuinely interested in. I try and do stuff creative but nothing is as rewarding as shooting someone on PubG lol. These urges are meaningless and ephemeral but even if you're aware/mindful of the chemicals and sensations in your body, it doesn't mean they're any less effective. I suffer from really bad thoughts so without video games, I'm not distracted and my brain implodes. All the thoughts come crashing down like a wave on a beach... Anyway, I know I've just gotta survive and not give in but it's so so hard. Especially when you just want to run away from everything in your head. I can almost feel an urge to play in my tongue. We're not addicted to video games, we're addicted to the feelings we experience when we play right? So that's why my tongue feels tingly when I think about shooting someone on pubg, I just want to feel alive/energised. I have such bad psychological problems and the one thing that'll convince me I don't is video games. Like if you had rly fucked up thoughts you'd just want to NOT have those thoughts right? Simples lol(?) I get it if you're addicted to video games and you stop and everything gets better but for me, I've stopped...and everything has gotten worse. That's not entirely true, things have gotten better but yesterday was super shit. I'm a coward, ashamed, sad and I just want to forget about all the stuff in my head. I'm too cowardly to kill myself and I don't want to make my mum sad. I'm too cowardly to self-harm or get addicted to heroine so I go for something that isn't physically demanding. Gaming could be the worst addiction out there. [email protected] HEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
  13. Hi, In the past, I've chosen to comment on journals rather than write my own. However, I am nearing the end of my 90-day-detox and thought it fitting to write an entry. To quell curiosity, I will have succeeded in not playing a game or watching anything game-related come the 1st April. I'd like to direct my next point at people who have only just begun their 90-day-detox, and at those who are mid-way through, experiencing limited urges to relapse and generally feeling better. I found the beginning extremely hard, the urges in my hands and arms were almost tangible. However, as the days drawled by, my brain returned to a chemical equilibrium and the urges to game subsided. I experienced a period of moderate peace, internally and externally, in regards to gaming. Only in the last week, have I experienced vivid dreams of gaming and the return of those uncomfortable urges to relapse. But I persevered. I have jumped the last hurdle and I can see the finish line. The message I'm trying to convey, is that never give up, even if you start experiencing urges 80 days in to your detox. This forum has essentially saved my life. It might sound melodramatic but I am sure there are some forum users who will understand where I am coming from. If I never happened across Cam Adair's Tedx talk, I'd be stuck in that same loop. Although, I have invested many hours into therapy and re-organising my thinking patterns which has obviously helped a lot. I feel so hopeful and happy. In an effort to raise awareness of the effects computer-game addiction has on people, I've written and directed an original play that will be performed on the 7th May in Cardiff, Wales. So, if there are any users who'd like to come and see it, message me and I'll provide the details. Thanks, George
  14. Good luck, Jacob. What university are you studying at? I'm studying ancient history at Cardiff University. Do not feel obliged to reply, I'm just curious! 🙂
  15. Well done. A suggestion for next time, try and refrain from watching YouTube videos of Star Wars: The Old Republic. Through this, you're maintaining your addiction. The process of giving up games, will be far easier if you prevent yourself from watching and listening to anything game-related.
  16. The relationship between you and Sophie seems to be very deep-routed and loving. I take back what I had originally proposed, she sounds like a sweet, loving and gentle person. It is understandable that she is conflicted within herself as to whether she should pursue a relationship with you. If you really love her enough (I don't doubt that you do), you will stay strong and eradicate your addiction like stamping on an ant. To repeat myself, your brain is currently trying to convince itself that playing games is the same as Netflix. I'm guessing you're thinking along the lines of, 'what's the difference between watching Netflix all day and playing games? I might as well just play games if I'm going to be addicted to something...' You must 'log in' to your rational mind which is saying, 'In truth, I don't find watching Netflix as stimulating as playing games and I'm actually quite bored...' In my opinion, I don't think one can become 'addicted' to Netflix because there is a time-cap on all the shows you are watching. I'll grant readers of this post that this may appear a little naive. However, you must stay away from YouTube and social media sites. You can fall down those whirlpools the same way we fall into the gaming whirlpool. I don't watch Netflix that much but I definitely remember, during my detox period, that I was watching it more than usual. However, I quickly became bored of this. You're looking for something that is equal to gaming in its mind-numbing capabilities. However, I strongly think that Netflix will be unable to stimulate you the same way games did. I am fully aware that the process of giving up games is different for all participators. As the days pass, you'll lose interest in Netflix. If this doesn't happen, then you need to be proactive and stay away from it as much as you can. Also, I'd urge you to sell all your gaming software. Cut the cancer out. Just cut it out. Not sure if you've already done that and mentioned it in the earlier entries of your journal but if you haven't, get rid of it as soon as possible. This whole thing may seem overwhelming, but you are doing the right thing. You're going to live a happy life, a stable life, full of adventure and fun, and free of the constraints that gaming imposes on you. I'm excited for you Montif.
  17. Hey, I browsed through your journal and read your latest post. Try and remind yourself that you're currently going through a tough process. It appears, from what you've written, that your brain is reacting heavily to the absence of gaming. I know that physically and mentally it's tiring, but in actuality, your low mood is a good sign. It substantiates your decision to attempt the notorious 90-day-detox. In the recent past, your brain has been subject to an unhealthy intake of chemicals causing an imbalance in regards to your mental health. By removing gaming from the equation, your brain is being forced to acclimatise, and thus, amidst its confusion, you experience numerous 'bad' moods. Try to understand that you're experiencing the symptoms of detoxing and avoid being self-critical, compliment yourself at least once a day. Gaming addiction isn't taken very seriously, we all know that. So I'm presuming that you do not have anyone to support you during this time (?) If you have stated differently above, I apologise for my mistake. But even so, battling an addiction with support is hard, let alone without it. So take a deep breath and pat yourself on the back. The constant fluctuations with your mood will dissipate over time, but you are going to need to adopt a heart of iron in reference to relapse prevention. But I assure you, after surviving 90-days without games, coupled with adding some exercise to your weekly routine, you will feel normal. To repeat the words of others, try your best to avoid abusing technology. For example, browsing on YouTube or any social media outlets. For this action encapsulates the dreaded 'shifting of addiction' on to something else. Personally, I have banned myself from going on YouTube. I use social media sites for a limited amount of time, I deleted all of my social media apps on my I-Phone. It is liberating. You're doing a very brave thing Montif, and I commend you for it. In regards to your girlfriend, I do not mean to be overstepping, please tell me if I am, but she sounds a little narcissistic. I'll admit that I have never been in a relationship, therefore, I cannot relate to you fully. However, I was in love with a girl at school who would constantly push-and-pull me away. It made me feel so depressed and anxious that I was forced into therapy. I explained to my therapist how this girl made me feel, how she behaved and acted. My therapist introduced me to N.P.D (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) and suggested that from my definition of how this girl treated me, she appeared somewhere along the N.P.D spectrum. I am hesitant to suggest narcissism because I feel like I have a personal vendetta against it and thus, whenever I hear or read of someone whom is suffering from being in a relationship with a narcissist, I seek to snuff it out. I might also be wrongfully diagnosing her. However, I remember feeling like it was always my fault whenever anything happened, experiencing extreme social anxiety, negative thoughts, cynicism etc. Elaborate on your relationship a little more, if you can, I'll be able to provide a comprehensive analysis and reliable diagnosis.
  18. Your post suggests your brain is currently trying to rationalise playing games, convincing itself that it is a hobby instead of an addiction. It's hard to become aware of this and admit to yourself that you're addicted to games. This forum is for a small minority of gamer's who have a desire to stop but don't know how. Ask yourself, do you feel a sense of guilt when playing? Do you feel ashamed? That you could be spending your time more productively? The fact that you complete your chores and work before playing can be interpreted in two different ways. Firstly, it could be a way that your unconscious brain is justifying the time you commit to playing games. On the other hand, it could be a sign that your addiction is at a premature stage. I believe that the former is more likely. The very reason you have found this forum and shown concern for your well-being implies that you're not happy with how much time you've put into games. And I completely understand the difference between watching a show and playing a game competitively. However, the down-side to gaming is that it unnaturally produces a constant flow of pleasant sensations throughout your brain and body. There are many productive activities that will elicit those sensations in moderation. So to answer your question, I think you have shown a desire to stop gaming by posting on this forum which convinces me that yes, you are addicted to games. However, I am undecided on whether the addiction is only just showing its colours or it has been tormenting you for a very long time.
  19. In relation to your most recent post, the Buddhist view of happiness when referring to pleasant sensations in our brains (Dopamine-release from gaming) can be applied to your current situation. It states that pleasant sensations disappear as fast as they arise, and that as long as people crave pleasant sensations without actually experiencing them, they remain dissatisfied. However, this problem has two very different solutions. The biochemical solution is to develop products (games and gaming-consoles) and treatments that will provide humans with an unending stream of pleasant sensations, so we will never be without them (constantly playing an addictive game). Buddha's suggestion was to reduce our craving for pleasant sensations, and not allow them to control our lives. According to Buddha, we can train our minds to observe carefully how all sensations constantly arise and pass. When the mind learns to see our sensations for what they are - ephemeral and meaningless vibrations - we lose interest in pursuing them. For what is the point of running after something that disappears as fast as it arises? Apart from the bracketed parts, I copied that from Homo Deus: A Brief History of Tomorrow by Yuval Noah Harari. It's a really interesting book and although he is referring to the development of futuristic products and treatments that'll provide long-lasting pleasant sensations, contemporary products such as, gaming/drugs/alcohol are all examples of ways humans are trying to control their minds and ensure they experience only pleasant sensations in today's society. I've quoted this paragraph because I want to let you know that it is okay to feel shitty sometimes and that even if you don't have as productive day as yesterday, it is okay and that you'll feel and experience the great feelings of your 8th Detox Day again. Stay strong. Also, have you considered seeing a therapist? I have a therapist that I see weekly and it is highly beneficial. They teach you new ways of thinking and how to observe your thoughts from an objective perspective alongside a lot of other useful techniques and strategies.
  20. Well done Jon! In my experience, the early days were the easiest. My ma told me that giving up an addiction is like riding a wave, so don't be surprised if you start experiencing urges and low-moods.
  21. Do you even read the introductions? I appreciate that this comment is a little unfair although, I received a similar response to my introductory post. You have changed my life Cam, I mean it! Inspirational. But to offer some constructive criticism, the activity of the forum is severely lacking. People's comments need to be reciprocated otherwise they'll convince themselves that joining the Game Quitter's community is pointless. To Lukas - I read the entirety of your post. You are not alone in your suffering. I have had a hard time adjusting to life after giving up games, it's been around 4 months. I'd strongly advise you to reconstruct and remould your interests on various social media sites to avoid adverts of games and game consoles. It is a tough road ahead, a cliched saying but it is true. You must regularly remind yourself that you were open minded enough to realise games were the route cause of your problems. Therefore, you are a person of significant value and you are making the right decision! I am proud of you Lukas! Keep us updated.
  22. Hi, A question that has been on my mind recently can be summarised in the following explanation; I spent 15,000 hours on computer-games, two in particular; Mount and Blade: Warband and Fortnite. When I was a child, I never had an urge to play console games but when I did, it'd be with my friends and the whole process was very casual. After I transitioned to playing computer games, I wrinkled my nose at console-players. Now that I've given up playing computer games for good, I'm rather sensitive about touching anything game-related. However, I was never remotely addicted to console games yet from giving up computer-games, I've developed this idea that if I were to play on a console, it'd detract majorly from the progress I've made in the recent months. In theory, it should not but I know it would. Therefore, should I abstain from playing the PS4 until the urges to play computer-games dissipate or can I allow myself to play thirty minutes of COD with my friend if he asks? Through writing this, I believe I've answered my own question. The very reason I'm bringing this up proves I should stay away from anything game-related until those urges are gone. Also, my mum got home from work last night and my friend and I were filling out an application on the computer that I used to use for gaming. She said wide-eyed, 'You're not gaming, are you?' which I found to be quite agitating as she's been at the helm of a cascade of compliments in the past month, i.e. 'Chris, you've made so much progress! I'm so proud of you.' She's made comments when noticing I hadn't been joining in with my brothers or cousins, when they're playing on our PS4. Although, I've never been addicted to console games. She views games as a whole thus clearly can not differentiate between a console and a computer which exacerbates my annoyance with her. I'd lose credibility in her eyes if she were to find me playing on a console with a friend, albeit lackadaisically and non-suggestively. Therefore, I'd adopt a cynical view of my progress and quite frankly, I'd feel like I'd corrupted the ground I'd covered up to this point.
  23. Hi, I wasn't aware that there was a forum, I've been trying to communicate through the YouTube comment section for far too long. I gave up games around mid-November, I uninstalled game-related downloads (i.e. Discord) from my computer(s) and successfully purged anything associated with games off my devices. I also remoulded my interests and suggestions on social media sites which proved to be an arduous task. I haven't looked at a video of someone playing a game etc. or anything of the sort since I gave up. However, I am struggling a lot. There have been many positive things that have happened to me since I quit although, the urge to relapse is growing within me. Games was an escape route for me and it was incomparably effective at doing so. I study History at the University of Cardiff. I sold all of my gaming equipment, including my computer. I am feeling stable at the moment but still have a desire to sink my teeth into that feeling that we're all so aware of. I have A.D.H.D so playing games was in-congruent with how my brain works, exacerbating the effects of gaming addiction(?) I interpret my self as someone who is sensitive in all aspects of the word. For example, when I am in love, I feel the full effects of it or when someone close to me passes away, I mourn to an extreme. Therefore, I feel as if I am particularly vulnerable to the effects of gaming and am suffering twice as hard as the usual games-quitter. I appreciate this is a gross assumption and I am open to all manners of being shut down. But it is an indisputable fact, that the urges in my hands are almost tangible and the feeling of boredom that circulates around my body daily, does not assimilate to the boredom of an average man. I am hungry to play games. I have an itch that needs to be scratched. My mind races with ideas of what I can substitute games for but it falls upon nothing nearly as enticing. Perhaps I am an adrenaline junk-y and the only thing that'll emulate that feeling of playing games is jumping out of planes and getting into fights...although, I don't want to do those things (ha). I love to read and write, a muscle that I now exercise daily. I manage to squeeze out a couple of squats and press-ups. I have only just been accepted into a play that I auditioned for...all of these things sound promising but none can successfully emulate the almost-orgasmic brain seducing sensation that you experience from playing games. So dear God (I'm not even vaguely religious...), deliver me from this evil because I'm sick of it. Yours truly, Lord F.R
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