allanjchiang

Great job on 67 days! Almost there. I found seeing an in person therapist helpful for seeing more different perspectives on porn addiction. Some therapists say it's ok to have a balance between fantasy and imagination. If you PMO once, the next one has to be an MO or NoFap. Then the cycle repeats. It can be more helpful for avoiding PMOing everyday since you know that if you wait two days (I found I have to usually wait 2 days after a MO or PMO to be able to MO again just using imagination), then you can MO, then the next one can be a PMO after a day or two. That way, when you eventually do find a partner, you won't be all caught up in the fantasy of P since you alternate between the two. And you won't feel guilty all the time. I've found it's more realistic for me since I don't have a partner yet. I'm sure if you are always PornFree, it could be better but it's what I've found that worked for me. Again, don't have to take advice from a random stranger on the internet; but seeing a therapist has changed my relationship with porn. And I think in a healthier way, in my opinion.

Monday 8th Day 21/90: No Gaming Day 3/90: Meditate >3 minutes (Meditated 15 minutes) Day 3/90: Avoid sleeping in the afternoon for over 30 minutes Day 3/90: Wake up before 11 a.m. 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Went to the tailor Woke up early for psychologist appointment, didn't hit snooze Avoided potato chips again 1 Thing I Could Do Better Maybe focus more on one area rather than spreading out my attention too much Free Writing I feel like lapsing but will keep going. Yin: 6 days (darkness, pessimism, addiction) 8_12_2025 Yan: 14 days (Optimism, hope, happiness) 6_12_2025

周日七日日记 第20天/90：没有玩游戏 第2天/90：没有睡超过半个小时的午觉 第2天/90：冥想三分钟 三个东西我做的好不管多小 去了健身房 讀書讀了50分 早起來 一个东西可以做的更好 去跳舞

Sunday 7th Day 20/90: No Gaming Day 2/90: Meditate >3 minutes (Meditated 4 minutes) Day 2/90: Avoid sleeping in the afternoon for over 30 minutes Day 2/90: Wake up before 11 a.m. 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Studied pedagogy for 25 minutes Studied composing / singing for 25 minutes Drank a healthy protein fruit smoothie 1 Thing I Could Do Better Help dad with the smoothie Free Writing I feel like lapsing but will keep going. Yin: 5 days (darkness, pessimism, addiction) 7_12_2025 Yan: 14 days (Optimism, hope, happiness) 6_12_2025

周六六日日记 第19天/90：没有玩游戏 第1天/90：没有睡超过半个小时的午觉 第1天/90：冥想三分钟 三个东西我做的好不管多小 走了半個小時 寫了75分的程式 10：20早上起來 一个东西可以做的更好 繼續寫歌

Saturday 6th Day 19: No Gaming Day 1: Meditate >3 minutes (Meditated 4 minutes) Day 1: Avoid sleeping in the afternoon for over 30 minutes Day 1: Wake up before 11 a.m. 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Studied coding for 50 minutes Had greek yoghurt without sugar with some frozen mixed berries Woke up earlier today 1 Thing I Could Do Better Go for a walk Free Writing Yin: 4 days (darkness, pessimism, addiction) 30_11_2025 Yan: 14 days (Optimism, hope, happiness) 6_12_2025

Thursday 4th Day 17: No Gaming Day 10: Meditate >3 minutes (Meditated 4 minutes) Day 20: Avoid sleeping in the afternoon for over 30 minutes Day 0: Wake up before 11 a.m. 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Composed for 25 minutes Studied 3 new Chinese words Had a conversation with a mental health nurse 1 Thing I Could Do Better Don't do anything too stimulating within at least 2 hours of bedtime. I woke up 6 times last night lol, my sleep was extraordinarily fragmented so I woke up late this morning. Free Writing Composing is fun. I thought it'd be boring because I finished one piece but the new motifs I made were quite cool. Yin: 4 days (darkness, pessimism, addiction) 30_11_2025 Yan: 12 days (Optimism, hope, happiness) 4_12_2025

I'm reading "No More Mr. Nice Guy" by Dr. Robert Glover as recommended by Cam; in one of his YouTube videos' comments section.

Well done on day 316 of no useless videos. Inspired by you, I no longer open video social media even with news feed eradicator since it still shows the subscriptions in the left hand side of the browser; with "blue circles" whenever there's a new video. I guess I do mindlessly browse music social media sometimes but it's not as bad as video social media in my opinion. Just curious, how long have you been game free? I noticed you stopped tracking it.

Wednesday 3rd Day 16: No Gaming Day 9: Meditate >3 minutes (Meditated 4 minutes) Day 19: Avoid sleeping in the afternoon for over 30 minutes Day 14: Wake up before 11 a.m. 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Composed for 25 minutes Drew anatomy for 25 minutes Studied Chinese for 25 minutes 1 Thing I Could Do Better I was going to reinstall games and I had every reason to. But the deal breaker was the fact that I wouldn't be able to moderate only playing one hour a day. The more you game, the more you want to game, the more your brain wants to game so the more you game. After the '1 hour limit', I wouldn't be able to go back to doing the activities with more delayed gratification. I would definitely go over 1 hour. Therefore, it's kind of like wireheading in Nicky Case's AI Safety long form post. Free Writing The more you game, the more you want to game, the more your brain wants to game so the more you game. I'm still at it. Keeping the streak. Yin: 4 days (darkness, pessimism, addiction) 30_11_2025 Yan: 11 days (Optimism, hope, happiness) 3_12_2025

Welcome! What's your favorite food?

Well done on reaching 61 days without games. Keep it up.

Tuesday 2nd Day 15: No Gaming Day 8: Meditate >3 minutes (Meditated 10 minutes) Day 18: Avoid sleeping in the afternoon for over 30 minutes Day 13: Wake up before 11 a.m. 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Composed for 25 minutes Drank tea instead of coffee Socialized with peer support worker 1 Thing I Could Do Better Spend time on things that energize me rather than drain me. Free Writing Today I had a conversation with a religious guy but I feel like it's draining because I'm not religious myself. Maybe I could be more assertive and just tell him that I don't like talking about religion. Yin: 4 days (darkness, pessimism, addiction) 30_11_2025 Yan: 10 days (Optimism, hope, happiness) 29_11_2025

Sunday 30th Day 13: No Gaming Day 6: Meditate >3 minutes (Meditated 10 minutes) Day 16: Avoid sleeping in the afternoon for over 30 minutes Day 11: Wake up before 11 a.m. 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Woke up early despite no appointments or obligations Studied languages for 21 minutes Meditated 10 minutes first thing in the morning using a "wake up" guided meditation 1 Thing I Could Do Better Put the things I want to do in Google Calendar and show up for my own appointments without any need to be perfect, just working lightly and just showing up is enough. Free Writing I want to start cooking for myself again as it gave me quite a sense of enjoyment and accomplishment. It's healthier too. Yin: 3 days (darkness, pessimism, addiction) 30_11_2025 Yan: 10 days (Optimism, hope, happiness) 29_11_2025

Saturday 29th Day 12: No Gaming Day 5: Meditate >3 minutes (Meditated 4 minutes) Day 15: Avoid sleeping in the afternoon for over 30 minutes Day 10: Wake up before 11 a.m. 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Taught my first violin lesson for 30 minutes Drank healthy fruit protein smoothie Meditated 4 minutes 1 Thing I Could Do Better Always do research before buying things, don't blindly trust salespeople Free Writing Today I taught my first violin lesson. I blanked out at times but I got through it in the end. I'm not sure if I want to continue teaching because I didn't really feel much even though the student was quite agreeable. I'm not sure how I'd handle more disagreeable students but I guess I can always choose my own clients, the benefit of being your own boss. I feel like I'm so exhausted after teaching that I don't want to practice the violin myself. My own violin teacher said, "As a teacher, you won't like it when your students don't practice." Then again, I practiced more than I have ever these past two weeks. Hopefully, I won't make a habit of not practicing and pick it up again tomorrow. But that's what I always say, "Tomorrow." As some people say, if you're not doing it today, you're probably not doing it tomorrow. So I might just pick it up today. Yin: 2 days (darkness, pessimism, addiction) Yan: 10 days (Optimism, hope, happiness) 29_11_2025