allanjchiang

I will be taking a break from journaling here for a bit.

Day 42/90: No Gaming Day 3/90: PornFree Installed MyFitnessPal today and it was quite easy to use with the photo logging and barcode logging feature. Apparently, I had 90 something grams of protein today. Not sure how since I usually only got like 40g of protein when I calculated it myself. See you at the top!

Day 41/90: No Gaming Day 2/90: PornFree Gained 1kg after starting to eat supermarket highly processed fried potato chips again. I don't even enjoy eating them but it's an addiction. Hopefully I won't keep gaining weight though!

Just deleted all of my P collection and the last remaining 'non-addictive' games in my PC and phone. Will join your journey in the P free hike up the mountain! Day 1/90: PornFree for me

Thank you for sharing your perspective. This helps a lot. You're right. You are the five people you hang out with the most. I remember when I was living alone with my flatmates, they all smoked and I started smoking too. Thankfully, I caught myself and immediately moved out of the flat the next day. It was a bit tough negotiating the rental contract but I haven't smoked ever since. Day 40/90: No Gaming

Day 39/90: No Gaming I remember the reason why I quit gaming was to spend more time practicing violin. Now that I've quit the violin, I'm not sure what to do with my time. I always thought of retiring early so I could play more games. Maybe I could join a pilates class. I'm terrified of women though and pilates class is basically all women. Exposure therapy right?

Thank you for sharing the music recommendation. Thank you. Day 38/90: No Gaming I used to see exercise as a chore but after quitting games, I actually use exercise as a pomodoro break. I want to have the same mindset for meditation too. I haven't meditated over 1 minute for many days now.

Day 37/90: No Gaming I feel very validated from hearing from my psychologist that he liked my sad music. He said some people like listening to sad songs because they validate them. I was thinking my songs were too sad but it's nice to hear some kind words for a change.

Well done on making it to day 83. Keep it up. You got this.

Day 36/90: No Gaming Thank you for sharing your perspective. He apologized but I decided not to continue because my physiotherapist said I was recovered already. Today wasn't a productive day but I might just be disqualifying the positive. I slept in and slept in the afternoon for 3.5 hours. I haven't really done anything and I felt down. However, I didn't play games today no matter how much I felt this way. If I focus on the positives, I had a healthy lunch, dinner and I was able to communicate my feelings assertively to my mum. I told her, "When you lecture me about eating breakfast, I feel ashamed. I want you to not use shameful words when 'motivating' me to eat breakfast." I went to the physiotherapist today. That's all I can think of that was positive about today. To another day!

Day 35/90: No Gaming I hired a personal trainer and he kept talking about games with me. I wasn't able to assert my feelings in person. However, I just texted him saying, "When you talk about games, it makes me feel resentful. I don't want you to talk about games with me please." Hopefully, we'll come to some sort of agreement. Else, I might just hire a different one.

Thank you. Day: 34/90: No Gaming

Day 33/90: No Gaming

Thank you. This means a lot to me. Day 32/90: No gaming

You're welcome. Thank you for sharing your honest feelings.