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  2. Deku

    Journal

    Hey! For what it's worth I think you did amazing. Beating your record by 16 days (like, two whole weeks!) is outstanding and probably something you thought you could never do when you started your challenge. I know you're intensely disappointed now, but imo that's a really good thing, as it's far better than feeling indifferent or even being satisfied with yourself. That disappointment shows that you still care about this journey that you've put yourself on. It shows that you still care about becoming the best possible version of yourself. Which is the point, isn't it? This was never about reaching a number for you. Your ultimate goal was always self-improvement, and attaining a life that you could look upon and feel satisfied with. Yes you relapsed and yes that sucks, but I think it would help you to realize that you're still on the path to reaching that ultimate goal. You've progressed incredibly far in the last month, and you'll only keep growing if you choose to continue. This setback is only a loss if you let it steer you off the path, and back into your old ways. What could you have done differently? I'm going to give you a rather controversial answer: nothing. You didn't ask to have your work hours slashed. You felt a huge amount of stress, and so your body resorted to the best coping method it had. Even people that have quit their addictions for decades can relapse if put into a similar situation. I think a better question to ask is, what can you do differently for next time? Stress is an unavoidable part of life, especially when you're working hard to improve yourself, and you can't let yourself relapse whenever that happens. The methods you use in the future to keep yourself from relapsing under stress will be critical to the success of your journey. I really hope you come back and choose to continue! And if you need someone to talk to, please don't hesitate to hit me up. ^_^ As a diehard anime fan, I leave you with one of my favorite quotes:
  3. TTT

    90 days

    Day 60-61 (tue): No games. Still running away from a few things though. Picked a new thing/hobby/skill and it ate my time the last two days. Needs scaling down. I finally found a few things to be collecting money towards as well. Need to be plus a lot and instead it's a lot in the minus. Habit Tracker: Good habits: 192; Procrastination: -772; Addictions: -68; Other bad habits: -21; Identity total: -669
  4. RB1

    Journal

    Day 38: RELAPSED. Unfortunately I relapsed today... I actually got through the entire day yesterday after making my post about the cravings I was having. I got out of the house, refreshed myself, and got into a great mind set. Got through day 37 feeling very good and accomplished. I wasn't feeling very good about the detox for the past three days, but I woke up this morning feeling great about it after dealing with my cravings. I was willing and ready to continue with my detox. I opened my e-mails and got an e-mail from my boss and co-workers saying that my hours at work would be cut in half once I got back from my vacation. I was expecting to work 40 hours a week, and now I'll be working 20 or maybe even a little less a week. This immediately put me in a very stressful situation since I went on this break expecting to have 40 hours of week, which would keep me in a comfortable position. The fact that I'll only be working 20 doesn't immediately put me in a bad spot, but definitely not a good one or the one I expected and planned for. This stress caused to to relapse instantly. I didn't even think about it. I just went from this state of bliss from being on vacation, a proud feeling of accomplishment for pushing past heavy cravings for a few days in a row, to this instant state of stress, frustration, and panic. That gave me the need for instant gratification. Anything to take the edge off immediately. I closed my e-mail and ended up binging youtube gaming content from about 10:30am to 5pm, then again from 6pm to 8pm. That's 8.5 hours of youtube gaming videos in a day... Well, I'm extremely disappointed in myself now... I feel like 37 days of hard work instantly went down the drain. I don't feel as hooked right now as I did in the past. I feel like it's gonna take a good amount of effort to put down the games and gaming content again, but not as bad as what it took 38 days ago. I'm feeling that brain fog that gaming gives you along with a lack of control over myself. Very, very disappointed in myself... I have a lot more to say, but I'm gonna leave that for another post. I don't feel like I can immediately start my detox over right now. I need a few days to collect my thoughts. I'll be back to it again in a few days, week, or maybe two, but I'll definitely be back. I'm trying to stay positive since I know relapses happen. Once I get over how upset I am, I'll really take the time to reflect on the last 37 days and what I'll do next to make sure this doesn't happen again. I wanna say I'm proud for how far I got. I broke my record. I thought my record was 31 days, but I went through my old journals I wrote privately and realized my longest record was actually 21 days... Beat it by 16 days, which I guess is nice... I honestly don't feel very proud at all though. Just extremely disappointed in myself. I'll be back, hopefully sooner than later. But I need some time like I said to recollect. To anybody reading this, please let me know how I could've gotten past a moment like this. I've gotten past multiple instances where something stressed me out, I got heavy cravings, and I got past it, but this time I feel like I just got stressed, skipped the need for cravings, and my brain just said, "I'm gaming fuck it" without giving me a chance to let my self calm down or think. At the moment, I can't really think of what I could've done to prevent this.
  5. Day 114 No VG - 114 days, No SAH - 10 days, NF - 1 day (1/7) The middle of my week is usually quite boring. Oh well. I was very stressed out at work today. I need to start meditating again. I do feel like I was relatively productive today though. So that was good. I also took care of multiple errands today. I feel like I've also been fantasizing/daydreaming a bit too much recently. I need to resume facing reality. Tomorrow I'll get up a little early to do a little journaling. Peace.
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  7. Congrats on quitting @LiamL. I'm glad you realized what you were losing before it was too late. I'm 29 and struggled with a gaming addiction for as long as I remember too. But I'm celebrating 29 days of no games today and I couldn't feel better. You've taken steps in the right direction, and the only thing left to do is to keep taking them. Go forward everyday and don't stop to look back at what happened in the past. I'm moderately active on these forums, and am more than willing to help in any way I can. So if there's anything I can do for you, just shoot me a DM. Again, Congratulations and Welcome to a better, happier Rest of your Life.
  8. So much for keeping a "daily" journal on here... However, the reason for the lapse in entries is a good one! So what is it? I've been hard at work on my side-hustle. I have my company website nearly built now, and it feels like things are coming together for me to begin this journey into entrepreneurship. This is something I've wanted for a long time. and I'm really excited about the prospect of working for myself some day; BUT I also have bouts of anxiety and nervousness. Sometimes fear will creep into my mind and pollute my thoughts with whispers. What if I'm not good enough? What if the competition is too strong? What if I can't find any clients? Wouldn't just be easier to play LoL and not worry about any of it? Now, I know this is to be expected but it doesn't make it any easier. And while everyone may have their doubts, not everyone seeks the ease, comfort, and safety that virtual reality provides like I used to. But I've been resilient against those urges to drop everything and fire League back up again. And I'm proud of myself for not shirking at those undermining thoughts. It's been 29 days since I've last played a video game. And friends, besides the rare urge, I rarely think about gaming anymore. It's a freedom unlike any other. I'm not sure if this is the longest time I've gone without gaming; but I am sure it's been the most productive time of my entire life and the proudest I've ever been of myself.
  9. Ikar

    Ikar's Diary

    Day 122: After work, I ate, went outside and wrote a ton, I might still cook. Nothing other than that.
  10. Thanks for reaching out buddy. You haven't ruined the 3 years. We're both not in the best situations, but by admitting things, being positive and trying to better ourselves we will get away from the problems. Your ex gf probably wasn't the right one for you. Focus on yourself and I'm sure you'll meet someone once you're in a better place both physically and mentally. I'm back in the gym now and exercising 4 days per week. If you need to chat just message me on here and I'll help as much as I can 🙂
  11. What I have learned to deal with procrastination is to set a routine and follow it no matter what. If you say you can’t do it your choosing not to do it. If you say you can’t do it you must do it.
  12. Day 29. "Pound Cake" 13 pushups & 26 situps per day - I hurt my foot, saw the physical therapist and it all worked out. He showed me, once again, that my foot is okay and that lots of it is in my head. Véry odd. I KNOW that it hurts and that I should be careful. And yet there I am, every time, doing the exercises with him in his practice. Such a mindfuck. I made the deadline. Like a true writer, I finished my second draft and then let go. I wandered the city, ran some errands, got some ideas and finished my third draft based on those musings. Now we play the waiting game. I spent the better part of the day cooking. Holy shit, I love cooking. Typical local dish with chicken broth and a bunch of veggies, cut julienne, and some cream. Meal prepped the hell out of it and now we have about 2 kilos of the stuff ready to munch. I also finished the dough for the lemon meringue pie that I'll be making tomorrow. It needs to rest for a night. I had a véry productive day. No series, no movies, no binging, no podcasts. Utter focus, all day long. It's wiped me out, though, but being as tired as I am right now makes sure that I'll sleep a lot better. Recent highlight: Finishing the third draft while searching frantically for just the right songs to accompany the story. It's for radio, so the music is super important. Ended up finding a bunch of Westworld-style jewels. Budget status: I may have gotten another gig on Thursday. It's like it's raining money all of a sudden! My one goal for the next 24h: Make that lemon cake! And also prep for the D&D-sesson of the evening. I have some story to write and I might go out and get my world map printed ^^
  13. I agree with you, man. Do it because you want to or because you enjoy and value the friendship and you want to give something back. All of your relationships should be bilateral, not unilateral.
  14. Days 146-152 Frustration, lots of frustration. Quitting gaming doesn't mean your life is fixed. It is just a stepping stone, or in my situation, it removes the veil to reveal the problems that I been ignoring all my life. Those problems don't get solved right away, they take time, they take seasons. Like I long to be a part of something, but we are stuck in this rut. My frustrations at times make me want to find something virtual to be a part of. It tries to wear me down into asking why am I holding out. I have to walk away from my computer. Seasons are changing. The call center I work for has gone thru shift bids last week. My wife and I talked about it, and she came up with a good idea. We are going back to Friday/Saturdays off. We are going to check out churches running Saturday night. There is no way we can screw that up lol My shifts start later, so I am preparing for war. Bed by 1pm and get up by 10am. Enjoy my mornings with my wife before work instead of feeling ripped out of bed in the mornings. I feel like I am trying to undo the damage from the past 7-8 years. We picked up bad habits/lifestyles and they have to become undone. I remember a wise lady years ago who got fed up with people coming to her with the same problems year after year. It was funny, but it was really true. "Mature! Mature! Mature!". I feel like I am just as guilty as the people she was saying it to. "When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways." -1 Corinthians 13:11 ESV
  15. I agree. The one thing I'm liking is that I'm not getting brutally depressed about all of this right now. For some reason I'm letting a lot of these stressors go and acknowledging that they're not my problems, my fault, or require me to care. I'm more positive and confident. For some reason this has really clicked with me this week. The idiot at work and my family isn't even bothering me either. I think the exercise, hobbies, and schedule I've created has really helped. I'm also trying to socialize less with the people I dislike. It's interesting that I'm now 3 weeks into this mindset and I usually change each week. It's making me wonder if I even need medication for depression.
  16. Hi my name is Mike and I am 19 years old. I joined Game Quitters because I want to quit videos games as well as become successful in life. I am happy to say I do not have a gaming addiction, I play games in moderation.I am inspired by Mr. Cam because he took a huge step and quit gaming for good. I hope to follow in his foot steps as well. I want to quit gaming and to pursue a career in international business. I want to travel the world, meet new people, and make some friends. This fall I will begin community college and start my journey to becoming an international businessman. Please feel free to add me on instagram and snapchat @kingmap117 . Mr. Cam if you saw this message please feel free to contact me as well. You are an inspiration to us all and I really appreciate the hard work and dedication to you helping those in need with their gaming addiction! Thank you so much and I hope to hear from you guys soon :)
  17. Days 2-3 Monday was pretty bad. Couldn't get to sleep on sunday for some reason, stayed up until 4 in the morning or something stupid. Tired all day and was hard to concentrate but managed to get at least some reading done. Today was much better. Started early in the morning and got a lot done. Think I'll try that tomorrow too. @giblets Think you're right. Was just thinking I've probably never gone more than 2 weeks without gaming of some sort.. so perhaps better to get that done before adding anything extra. It's just a marketing course that's part of my CS degree. There was an option of doing it online in the summer instead of lectures in the fall, so got lucky on that. Much easier this way. Haven't really thought about gaming that much. Think I'm so burnt out/bored of it right now so that's helping. Hope it continues this way.
  18. Hey, days are filled mostly with work for medical school. Learning currently for physiology and biochemical stuff. But it goes good I think. Just have to keep the pace up After those mornings/afternoons I spent in the library I feel exhausted and so obviously I want to chill infront of the computer. Thats also the point that I am a bit unsure if reducing online time maybe will lead to lesser efficiency for university stuff because I doesnt ‚rest‘ as usual. It probably will, but just for some days. Then I would be prolly even stronger. Dunno. As long as the med school runs fine and I am healthy, I feel happy. For that I also need again to start some sport and more socialize. Thats important for me.
  19. Great man! Keep it up, stay motivated till u build up the discipline u need!
  20. well , your situation is kinda like mine , i ruind 3 years of my life by gaming , but gaming was not all the reason i did that but its a huge part of that. you are so lucky to have such a nice gf like her! i think she is enough for you to move on and start making progress. my gf but she ha some issues her self , i tried to save the releationship but it didn't work out. anyway if you don't want play again i suggest you to throw away your play station or give it to someome , at first i stopped playing league of legends but people kept sending me massage asking to boost them so i delelted all the game and i don't have good internet to download it again. just do one thing. start go to gym you get so much energy from gym . P.S : i myself am in a bad situation somdays i lose hope and energy but only thing that matters is to move on and get better everyday
  21. Why not find new pals online, especially when you have an online business? Besides, you can be more productive in making new acquaintances through social media in order to improve your promotion. I really think if you like something, you should use it for good. I use Instagram a lot for sharing my content with other people and I found many new friends and other people in this sphere, which makes me feel good. I can recommend some useful stuff for Instagram as well: https://zen-promo.com/view_likes_on_instagram Additional services really make it more comfortable for me.
  22. Hey guys what is up! I feel great today! Today is my 11th day of the detox and I can feel more and more alive every single day. I’ve realized I’m also becoming more of an extrovert than being an introvert that I was before. School is going good and I’m still learning the skills to become wealthy in my business. I’m also reading some good books and I’m trying to train myself because I always would overthink everything and I’m trying to change that and start thinking letting the chips fall where they may. The only negative going on for me that I don’t like is a girl I like doesn’t like me back and I’m confused about how to make this business thing work for me. But other than that things are great and I can’t see what today brings. Peace guys!
  23. i was watching a movie then someone said " you will never find love if you are too scared to put yourself out there ! " i never had a girlfriend in my life neither kissed a girl while i am 20 years old now! and in a country that is a huge sepration betwin girls and boys and most of them have bad attitude to eachother but recently i started asking girls to go out but eveytime they reject me! i think 3 or 4 girls . i spoke to them in wrong way i dreesed bad and so on. just don't be scared if you are not going to ask them out then how do you want to find a girl friend? btw , about not playing games for 18 days that's very good brother !when you want to make progress in your life you do it step by step . don't need to take 5 step 5 step . just get better than yourself in yesterday
  24. Congratulations man! That's awesome to hear and how far you have come in one year! Here is to continuing on to the next year and all the hard work with It! You got this!
  25. DaBest

    Journal

    Good call on getting out of the house. That's a great way to stop that kind of thinking in its tracks. I should do more of that too, in retrospect.
  26. Day 113 No VG - 113 days, No SAH - 9 days , NF - 0 days (0/7) Well, Sunday was eventful too. I had yet another improv show, but this one went fantastically well. We got a really good ovation from the crowd at the end. It felt great to see everything come together. Saturday night was kind of a bust. Turns out it was just a sports bar, which was surprising from how it looked on the outside. I should've forced myself to be social, but I felt out of place since it seemed to be just groups of friends everywhere and I was there by myself. It felt weird. In a way, a club would've been easier because I wouldn't stand out as much. No big deal though, it was good to notice the thoughts I had which caused me to leave. I will be more aware of them next time. Also, I keep losing track of the goal of No Fap, so I'm going to create mini-goals along the way. Part of my problem is I lose track of my purpose once I start to stray down the wrong path. This has been the most difficult of the three to manage, by far. All-in-all this was one of the best weekends I've had in a long time, and easily one of the most unihibited ones, too.
  27. Honestly I believe your in the right mind to deny being best man. Best man to me in a sense is someone who is your best friend and someone you can get real with. So I think your doing the right thing there. I went back to catch up on some of your posts and I get about the shut in type people. It's hard seeing friends or friends who you thought would be better be glued to there screens but I see it as we are the ones who broke free. I know its just a single post but it's one of my favorites especially that I feel like it goes with the section I quoted with A reminder to the single people, stay strong! https://imgur.com/gallery/xvBcN3R Anyway though, friends are just like what they say about finding a partner. There are plenty of fish in the sea but sometimes it takes a bit of effort to reel in the one. You got this man and take care of yourself!
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