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Food schedule update 13.3-27.3  (Not including 27.3) 1. Returning peanut butter instead of coconut oil 1 per 1 gram because it seems it didn't change the eczema situation 2. Black sesame 15g instead of 25g - because they're expensive and it seems that 12 is enough to get enough calcium 3. eat 10g chia and 10g flax instead of 20g chia 4. On Thursday after the fast day - because the workout is to be in the evening, leave the schedule as on non-running days until my quick running day during which it shall be returned to be as it is now to clarify: How it is now Sunday - Run Monday - Regular Tuesday - Run and a half Wednesday - Fast Thursday - Run and a half Friday - Regular Saturday - Regular How it shall be after the update Sunday - Run Monday - Regular Tuesday - Run and a half Wednesday - Fast Thursday - Regular Friday - Run and a half Saturday - Regular If I see that the eczema is increasing as a result of the change or if i have any other ideas that may improve eczema, may change schedule again on 20.03 till 27.3 (not including 27.3)  

I was thinking about something on my previous game that I didn't like: measuring ''boss' 'kills per hour''. To me, there was a lot of detail in those bosses's bodies and faces, and a player engaging with them (and their 'minions's') and their coding had to pay attention to a lot of numbers and movements at once. 'Bossing' was also a big deal for me, as I preferred the monotony of easier encounters with monsters - finding pleasure in conversations and new music outside of the game. For example, around a year ago I attached myself to what began as a three-week task of a dozen or two boss fights each morning, then leaving the first profile 'geared' for the following day as I signed into another - for that monotony.  None of that made offline life any easier - though at that time I remember it sort of being so - but I thought I was being smart with what playtime I could 'manage'. That smart/knowing what I could handle feeling is better than any kind of game with rigid timing and rules. One could even say that adding posts like these, full of uncertainty - to my shame - to this second journal is not quite smart at all.  I think I've attached a meme that looked funny enough for me to save several years ago that sums up what I didn't like hearing in a video guide for the previous game - I mean, what more is left to want, at play, once it has been ascertained that you can smash a boss 30 times in an hour, online or offline (at work). What challenge is there left, if you ignore and don't appreciate little details? I've just been listening to birds and other noises on the street outside as I read/type, and trying to feel at peace with them, but it's tough when I think I've done everything I can for my health already in the past. Sometimes, I even find having a healthy, distracting thought like 'maybe I could wear the laziest-feeling muscle group in my body down some more soon' when there are minor imperfections going on everywhere. Needs: Temporary Escape (N), Constant Measurable Progress (Y), Challenges (Maybe), Social Connection (I don't even know).  How much should I rely on constant measurable progress? I rarely ever set a time limit on these posts; they're for 'lost' moments mainly. Low-empathy(?), teenaged me could have timed jogging around my formerly-reliable walking route and tried to beat that time while dodging and scarcely paying attention to anybody else, but I can't. *Shrug*  

Entry 10.3 Day 54: No Useless Videos Day 886: Sticking to Food schedule Day 489: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 37: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -11 concentrated units -Afternoon workout continuation -Wrote all delays throughout the day with minute amounts once more   1 Thing I could do better -Written 1 very small daily goal once more to accountability partner in regards to my project, as yesterday it helped. Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5  Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 54

You're welcome 🙂     You're not done until you're done. So we'll see about that - only time will tell. Stay alert, game-quitting partner.

Ha! I get your point, but I also don't think there's anything wrong with feeling gratitude about nice weather. I know from experience that the rainy days are important because they make the sunny days feel great. It's easy to overthink stuff like that, and might be important for someone who doesn't have a stable foundation, but for me, it's not really an issue. Thank you though! I'm on day 62! I have some vacation coming up, from this Saturday to next Sunday. That'll be Day 75 when I get back. After that, I have some house work being done that'll eat up the next two weeks, realistically. Which means that I think I'll be able to complete the detox and finish strong! Of course, Day 90/90 of the detox might be Day 1/? of the next goal 😄