Hello guys,

my name is Kaloyan i am 17 years old and i am from Bulgaria. As you probably suspect my life is gaming, since early age(when my parents got me my first computer), i sunk into gaming, i found it fun and entertaining and something to do while i am bored, but soon enough from a hobby it grew into an addiction but i was not realising it. While i was at elementary school and middle school i did not considered it as a problem because frankly i had alot of other problems, i was in a private school with the whole school being composed of merely 100 people, i had a few friends which made fun of me alot but i pretended not to be harmed from this, as soon as i have gotten home from school i sat on the computer , forgot about all my problems , studying and homework and i would sink in about 10h a day in gaming with going to bed at around 2-3a.m. Middle school passed, High school came around the corner and here i was in a school with around 1000 people, 200 being in my grade (a pretty huge social circle), i was afraid to stand out , interact or make friends , not because i did not want to but because i was afraid and i did not know how to, alot of the guys made fun of me for being short and looking like a child while the rest had beards and big muscles, thats why i would sink even more hours in game time , trying to do my homeworks and studying at the last moment, barely getting any sleep. And i was cool with that, the big questions weren't on my mind at that time. Soon enough i became 17 , i realised a few things about life and asked my self the following question: What was my goal apart from becoming strong in a game ? Who am i? What do i like? What do i feel? , i became even more depressed when i saw the dissapointment in my parents voice when they saw my failing grades. I knew it was a time for a change but i was afraid to do it , because i was afraid that without gaming i would have nothing left. I knew i couldn't deal with this on my own, so i came here. 

On a happier note, i enjoy playing football(EU), i love music and from time to time i enjoy spiritual herbs, thats basically my hobbies outside of gaming which was a whole new universe of hobbies for me!

Im really glad that i am here and im starting to feel that there is hope at once !

Heyyy! Awesome to have you join us here. So cool that you're from Bulgaria! That's country #47 that's represented in our community now!  

You'll find a very encouraging and supportive community here. Let us know how we can help!

Welcome you have made the first step and there is indeed hope.

Hi,
welcome to the forum! Your situation is very similar to mine .  If you ever want to talk just write I will find some time