Someone's Unbeatable Grudge Against Me

[Ado Tori]

Right now, I can update my monthly journal.

Instead, I'm posting here because my safety is at risk. I have already scheduled an appointment with a social worker.

Over the past three months, I have been making great efforts to compromise with my family. Show more initiative at home. 

My sister consistently brings up a gaming incident from approximately thirteen years ago.  

Thirteen Years Ago: 

• I made new friends at school, and we all have Steam accounts. 
• My new friend starts asking me for TF2 items. 
• I obliged over generic weapons until he asked for my Bill's Hat. (L4D2 Pre-Order Cosmetic)
• After consulting with my sister, she rightfully shut down the trade.

Despite preventing the most valuable item from being lost, she continuously brings this up in gaming conversations. 

I have a theory as to why this is her saving throw against me.

• The situation can never be amended.
• Previous criticisms were actionable and fulfilled. 
• She left the incident in a superior position. 

I don't know what her end goal is. Does she want my apology? 

My relationship with that friend ended very traumatically. And thus, any time it is brought up in bad faith, I shut down. 

After registering a second Steam account for multiplayer, the initial one automatically became hers. 

What confuses me is her abstinence from all games outside miHoYo's ecosystem. Her Steam account is largely abandoned. 

[Ado Tori]

I could update my other threads, but this situation has only deteriorated. 

Despite my progress in completing my backlog, my relationship with my sister has gotten worse.

My elder sister and I are gamers, and we've amassed collections of incomplete games.

My sister has consistently been critical of my purchases, be they games, subscriptions or consoles.

This never sat well with me because I have put more effort into my backlog than my sister has. 

The altercation that inspired this post was an argument last Sunday.

In 2015, we got an Xbox One and created an account under my sister's email address. (Getting the Xbox was her idea.)

Ten years into the future, I'm the only person who uses it and that account.

The problem started when I linked my Discord account to her Xbox Account, and her rationale was strange.

She left her room and insisted people see her email address. (That was used to create the Xbox Account).

From there, I had to explain to her that Xbox does not publicly display any user's emails automatically. (Or any social media platform).

Mind you, she is not angry that I connected the account to Discord but believed I would give her data to scammers.

This isn't the first time I have had to defend myself from such accusations.

She once accused me of planning to buy a Nintendo 3DS after just purchasing a 2DS. She thought so under the belief that the 2DS predates the 3DS.

In my other thread, I mentioned completing Dead Space 2. My sister has been waiting for me to do so we can play Dead Space 3 Co-Op. (Her previous partner gave up on the game in 2022.)

Despite completing DS2 on January 30th, we played together only once, on February 7th.

My sister alternates 5-day and 2-day work weeks, working 12-hour shifts. She has been on this work schedule for years. We also live together. 

The years of my frustrations with her have developed so much resentment and visceral anger for her. 

For everyone's protection, I packed a week's worth of clothes and left for a cheap hotel.

I have returned home and relayed all this information to a social worker. 

Upon investigating my sister's Steam account, we discovered she has been playing Elden Ring instead. (I never ask her to commit to a DS3 session due to her lack of transparency and accountability.)

The main games she plays are Honkai Star Rail and Zenless Zone Zero. 

Because of the escalation at home, the social worker wants to contact my sister to mediate. 

Because of her consistent dishonesty and hypocrisy over the past 5 years, I have no intention of forgiving her without significant change. 

I've decided to make allies and build my life outside gaming as a distraction. She isn't worth the effort as she is. 

[Ado Tori]

Getting used to uploading attachments here. 

[Yan]

AAfter reading everythingI still don't understand why your safety is at risk...

[Ado Tori]

I risk having panic attacks every time I interact with my sister. 

My panic attacks make me overthink terrible things, and I consider harming myself or others. 

With that in mind, I feel the best solution is to create a secure environment for myself. 

• Prioritize being alone when she is home. 
• Mentally prepare myself before she speaks to me.
• Focus on my own goals instead of satisfying hers. 

I might need to use a no-contact strategy because of how extreme our relationship has gotten.