You did not pass the secur 16 Posted November 11, 2022 Share Posted November 11, 2022 (edited) 2022.11.11 I'm busy all workday, not tiring but not have plenty of time to pay lots of attention to other things. Weekends in recent days in future is busy too. Don't have enough time to play game and to write a lot. At moment, I don't have much motivation to play game, because time is limited after all. but what about future? I still worry that whether I have an activity to relax myself efficiently while I'm in extreme pressure except for game. That's kind of activity you truly love and make me immersed completely, forget the pressure. I tried writing story, draw, harmonica, crafting and photography. But these activities can only last for less 1 hour. I have to change activities frequently in order to not get bored in a day. maybe I write this essay for hours, but it's temporary. it's not every day's activity. I also found different environment effects the attention to activity. An open environment with much external stimulation such as people around me, passing by, people's talk, things around me, will help me pay more attention to activity, even I'm not very interested in it, I can't still do it for long time. But a closed environment like my apartment room——8 square meters room with narrow window, makes me easier lose attention. and also, thought above leads me to thinking whether my purpose is just finding ways to kill time. WHAT DO I WANT TO DO IN SEVERAL DECADES LIFE. indeed, there are something but untouchable. I don't have enough money(traveling), enough skills (play melody to express emotion and draw to express), equipment(crafting) partner(fighting or boxing) and so on... I have to develop myself first. In other words, I'm hungry for mental food, but I don't have survival skill for mental food(psychological need). Also, I know I'm influenced by society, public, people's value judgement and think I should do VALUABLE things. But what is valuable exactly? I know this in logic mind, but I still tend to that in emotion mind. Even at this moment when i write this journal, I know I write journal to fix myself in logic mind, but I want to show my unique thoughts in emotion mind. GO ON PRACTICING... p.s. What do I love to do in heart, except for game? Edited November 11, 2022 by You did not pass the secur Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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