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Hi everybody!! This is my first day of my commitment to be video game free. I was a professional league of legends player and hit grandmaster. Top .05% on the North American server and was the best player in the country at my specific champion. I worked hard and became obsessed with the game in high school and actually led my high school team to the California state championship. I’m now in college but have taken time off to learn how to program, and even though I’m making progress I find myself still chasing the high of playing against other league pro’s like I once did. Being competitive by nature, if I feel like I could have preformed better I tend to pour hours into the game to improve once again- even though I have other goals and aspirations. I’ve tried starting a business before and have had multiple short term girlfriends but no success in the long term. When I’m down I find myself urging to pursue league and remember how desperately I want to go pro, and it creates a cycle of gaming for days on end and forgetting about the world around me. I’m very excited to reach my goals in the future and this is the best way to start! Happy to join a thriving community like this one - cheers! 

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I was sooo addicted to lol because I am also that competitive guy. Chased those pro goals. Luckily it took over me so fast that I knew I had to stop. So I never really got good in the game. Cant imagine how hard it is to stay away from it if you are actually a PRO eg being good in something which is so damn addictive. I literally didnt pla since 3 years or more, and I still want to restart now and then.

couldnt you make a living with this game as grandmaster? 

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Couldn’t I make a living oh man… haha yes I could have figured something out but it wasn’t the life I wanted to live. Day number 2 is difficult today. It wasn’t for deactivating my accounts I might have lost already or would have been sitting right there telling myself don’t open the application. Waiting for it to get better 🙏

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Hello everyone,

 

This is my fourth day of quitting games. I have seen huge changes in my life and have been working hard. Honestly it’s getting harder thought and my cravings are prominent at times I used to game. I can only imagine what I will be like one day these changes are great. I’ve continued to read, meditate, and am about to program once again. An adaptable schedule is in place.. will connect later! 

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Hi everybody,

 

this is my 6th day of being game free and I’m feeling a craving. Probably the biggest one yet. Maybe this is the hump I have to get over and must keep pushing. This is interesting why it’s coming on day 6. My brain feels like it’s drawing me towards it and I feel less motivation to do productive things like read and code. I feel like I miss gaming or some aspect of short term gratification. Maybe life’s not exciting enough for me? Not quite sure, however I will keep pushing for the sake of the experiment and the new me. If I have to be unhappy for a bit than so be it! 
 

best,

Nick

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Deeply  depressed and major urges today. Not sure what to do about it. Will keep pushing as I don’t want my life to go back to what it was before. Let’s go game quitters 

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This might be day number 8 or 9? 
 

im feeling ok. Other worries that we’re sitting there before gaming are now present. I’m not coding enough, I feel like I’m not capable of doing it. All these thoughts there were lost due to the gaming are now at the forefront of my mind. If I really focus on what I know I have to do my life will change. The gaming served as almost a blissful ignorance for what I really have to accomplish which is good! TIME TO FOCUS 

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My thoughts of gaming actually aren’t there currently. This is interesting, however my depression is coming from elsewhere. It’s so interesting - when I’m not ahead of my work I am depressed and when I am ahead of my work I am happy. I need more work ethic. 
 

best,

Nick 

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It’s Wednesday and it’s the middle of the week. I have to say I’m quite disappointed with myself. Although I haven’t relapsed- I am still trying to escape my situation via chess.com or other mentally stimulating activities. I’m having trouble programming and learning coding because the passion doesn’t seem to be there right now. This is kind of the story of my life where I have an insane amount of passion at the beginning of something and then it fades, and I fail to follow through. I need to be an executer if I want to reach my goals. Maybe I will start by coding for just 20 minutes and see where it takes me. Maybe if I start I won’t stop. But even now I doubt myself and feel the urge to go wash my face, read a book, and be in the same situation an hour from now. Letting time go by as if I have plenty of it. The longer I wait the longer it will take to reach my purpose. 

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I feel like a relapse is coming. I remember when I was gaming I was actually interested in coding but something is stopping me right now. I have a high stress towards it like I can’t accomplish it and don’t even know where to begin. Im so lost and when I game I could forget about all of this. It’s been 12 or 13 days and yes my life has gotten better but these cravings are sooo harsh right now. All I want to do is game for hours oh my goodness. I need to get my work done. Enough of this. Here we go

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Not sure if anyone is seeing this. I hope so as we can all do this together. It’s my 2 week anniversary of being game free! I feel a lot better and am make strides towards bettering myself. I’ve started coding again, reading, working out, up early, and generally feel better about myself. My mental health has definitely improved and I’m glad I’m doing this. I have to admit- the urges/cravings are still there and sometimes they come back strong but I’ve continue to preserve. We got this guys 

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Hi guys It’s my 16th day of being gaming free and I am feeling solid. Sometimes I have an extremely large craving in the middle of the day but I push past it. I feel like my days are more full now and rich. Like I’m actually living and getting stuff done. It feels good and I want to keep living life this way rather than the old way. I want to keep chugging along and feel free! Hope everyone is doing alright.

 

Nick, 

Shapoff

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Thanks Lemynaded!! I’m feeling so good right now I’m actually getting work done! It’s fun too - much better than gaming actually like life is just generally more exciting. So many emotions just waved over me! A nice fist bump for the current progress was definitely just made. 
 

best,

Nick 

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My 17th day. I’m feeling a slight urge to get my feet wet in some other things. However I know I’m not interested. Putting a ton of things behind me and my life has definitely improved in the past two weeks. Very happy about it. 
 

best,

nick 

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This is my twentieth day without gaming. It feels great and I am definitely making more progress towards my goals. I did watch porn today for the first time in a long time and I feel kind of shook by it. I’m not really interested in it and watched it as a reward but it didn’t really feel like one. I was making an excuse to see what it was like after all this time and I don’t  think I’ll do it again for a while. I’ll probably have urges these next 4-5 days but after that I’ll be on to the greater blessing of life. Btw, life feels like the video game now.

 

best,

Nick 

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