NickScales

I lasted 25 days and relapsed for 4 hours, watched porn the past week and have done less work. It started when I felt pressure to go back to school but it’s a reality I have to face. My coding bootcamp is great but I’m not sure what I need to do. At a crossroads and need to think about it more. I want to get a tech job after my bootcamp as I think that would be the best chance I have to reach my goals. I don’t really know what to do. Need to ask a few people for advice and I think knowing how to code is a good thing. My life seems at an interesting spot rn. I’m honestly pretty broke and the only hard skill I have is some programming and sales. I should be able to use that to my advantage and have to keep pushing. The greats all started from this position!

This is my twentieth day without gaming. It feels great and I am definitely making more progress towards my goals. I did watch porn today for the first time in a long time and I feel kind of shook by it. I’m not really interested in it and watched it as a reward but it didn’t really feel like one. I was making an excuse to see what it was like after all this time and I don’t think I’ll do it again for a while. I’ll probably have urges these next 4-5 days but after that I’ll be on to the greater blessing of life. Btw, life feels like the video game now. best, Nick

It’s my 18th day. Still trying to figure out how to post in the daily journal but this is working for now! I’m feeling good. Getting more done and learning much more.

My 17th day. I’m feeling a slight urge to get my feet wet in some other things. However I know I’m not interested. Putting a ton of things behind me and my life has definitely improved in the past two weeks. Very happy about it. best, nick

Thanks Lemynaded!! I’m feeling so good right now I’m actually getting work done! It’s fun too - much better than gaming actually like life is just generally more exciting. So many emotions just waved over me! A nice fist bump for the current progress was definitely just made. best, Nick

Hi guys It’s my 16th day of being gaming free and I am feeling solid. Sometimes I have an extremely large craving in the middle of the day but I push past it. I feel like my days are more full now and rich. Like I’m actually living and getting stuff done. It feels good and I want to keep living life this way rather than the old way. I want to keep chugging along and feel free! Hope everyone is doing alright. Nick, Shapoff

15 days. I’ve gotten a lot done and yes the cravings are still there however I am dealing with them. Feels better!

Not sure if anyone is seeing this. I hope so as we can all do this together. It’s my 2 week anniversary of being game free! I feel a lot better and am make strides towards bettering myself. I’ve started coding again, reading, working out, up early, and generally feel better about myself. My mental health has definitely improved and I’m glad I’m doing this. I have to admit- the urges/cravings are still there and sometimes they come back strong but I’ve continue to preserve. We got this guys

I feel like a relapse is coming. I remember when I was gaming I was actually interested in coding but something is stopping me right now. I have a high stress towards it like I can’t accomplish it and don’t even know where to begin. Im so lost and when I game I could forget about all of this. It’s been 12 or 13 days and yes my life has gotten better but these cravings are sooo harsh right now. All I want to do is game for hours oh my goodness. I need to get my work done. Enough of this. Here we go

It’s Wednesday and it’s the middle of the week. I have to say I’m quite disappointed with myself. Although I haven’t relapsed- I am still trying to escape my situation via chess.com or other mentally stimulating activities. I’m having trouble programming and learning coding because the passion doesn’t seem to be there right now. This is kind of the story of my life where I have an insane amount of passion at the beginning of something and then it fades, and I fail to follow through. I need to be an executer if I want to reach my goals. Maybe I will start by coding for just 20 minutes and see where it takes me. Maybe if I start I won’t stop. But even now I doubt myself and feel the urge to go wash my face, read a book, and be in the same situation an hour from now. Letting time go by as if I have plenty of it. The longer I wait the longer it will take to reach my purpose.

My thoughts of gaming actually aren’t there currently. This is interesting, however my depression is coming from elsewhere. It’s so interesting - when I’m not ahead of my work I am depressed and when I am ahead of my work I am happy. I need more work ethic. best, Nick

This might be day number 8 or 9? im feeling ok. Other worries that we’re sitting there before gaming are now present. I’m not coding enough, I feel like I’m not capable of doing it. All these thoughts there were lost due to the gaming are now at the forefront of my mind. If I really focus on what I know I have to do my life will change. The gaming served as almost a blissful ignorance for what I really have to accomplish which is good! TIME TO FOCUS

Deeply depressed and major urges today. Not sure what to do about it. Will keep pushing as I don’t want my life to go back to what it was before. Let’s go game quitters

I’m still feeling a massive craving and am really just sitting here twiddling my thumbs. Actually so bored and feeling sad. The good news is that I know that if I played league of legends right now, it would lead to binging for 2-3 days on end.. then a possible relapse of porn.. and then a day of depression before I got back to my routine of 5:30am wake up, reading for 2 hours a day and coding for 2 hours a day. Trying to beat this 2 week cycle I’ve been facing for the past few months. Withdrawals hurt

Went outside and laid in the sun for half an hour. Feel better but still mild depression is still there. Losing a part of your identity can leave a big hole I assume. Going to take a cold shower and workout. A lot of sun today and will most likely get sunburnt, however I’m pretty tan actually so hopefully not. This day shall pass and a better time will come. Thank you all for the support with this transition as it is very hard for me. Very hard. Hard work builds character.

It’s my 6th day quitting games. I am bored out of my mind and can’t be near my computer which I need to program on. I feel the craving and constant urge to re-download league of legends and play till the end of the day. What am I supposed to do this seems incredibly difficult. Can I beat this? My life has been improving but I feel a depressive relapse coming on. Don’t know if I can win I’m trying my best everyone. I’m fighting hard. best, NICK

Hi everybody, this is my 6th day of being game free and I’m feeling a craving. Probably the biggest one yet. Maybe this is the hump I have to get over and must keep pushing. This is interesting why it’s coming on day 6. My brain feels like it’s drawing me towards it and I feel less motivation to do productive things like read and code. I feel like I miss gaming or some aspect of short term gratification. Maybe life’s not exciting enough for me? Not quite sure, however I will keep pushing for the sake of the experiment and the new me. If I have to be unhappy for a bit than so be it! best, Nick

This is my 5th day without gaming and honestly I can’t really describe how I’m feeling.

End of the 4th going to sleep. A solid day but I can still probably do more. Feeling happier

Hello everyone, This is my fourth day of quitting games. I have seen huge changes in my life and have been working hard. Honestly it’s getting harder thought and my cravings are prominent at times I used to game. I can only imagine what I will be like one day these changes are great. I’ve continued to read, meditate, and am about to program once again. An adaptable schedule is in place.. will connect later!

Day three addition, It’s now 12 hours later and I am feeling like I accomplished a lot today. Almost like 3 days packed into one. If I could increase my productivity by 3x without gaming that would be incredible. Its 6pm now - around that time I would game or so. Feeling bored but I have to fill that time with something right. I think I’ll work out now or nap. Has to be healthier!

Hi everybody, This is my third day game free and I’m feeling ok. Got up at 5:30 which I love doing and will enjoy a reading a coffee combo. Haha maybe this won’t be so bad after all! I’m sure I’ll get urges and cravings in a few hours however I trust myself to look past them and fulfill my new activities. Part of me honestly writes this hesitantly almost like I don’t completely believe my self. All I know is I’m making better choices. best, Nick Scales

I meditated as well. Wrote a poem that went like this: The birds chirping around me sound like lovers seeing each other after a long war I think of the world around me and question my being. Am I real? Is there a real me? I wonder about the time I spent on summoners rift and know that I was playing a video game, within a video game I see now that quitting is the best move I can make on the chess board of life’s game and it’s time for me to become a summoner elsewhere. On a new rift full of wonder and possibility

Update on day number 2. This is getting difficult - with each passing hour I’m trying full time up to keep my mind off of things. I’ve practiced Spanish, gone to the grocery store, found some items to sell on eBay, and played chess. Do I read now? Continue Programming? It’s a little scary thinking I won’t game again almost like a warm blanket has been taken from me to test me in the cold winter.

Hi all, Not completely used to forums and my apologies if I’m posting these in the wrong section. It’s day number 2 of deactivating my league of legends accounts and I’m feeling ok. The tranquility of the nature and birds around me is keeping my calm and fulfilled. Not quite sure how difficult this will be however I believe in my self. Stay strong my fellow gamequitters. best, Nick