Entry 25.4(Written on 26.4)
Day 100: No Useless Videos
Day 932: Sticking to Food schedule
Day 535: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00)
Day 83: Being in bed before 23:15
3 Things I did well no matter how small
-In bed at 22 - 8 hours before scheduled wake up time
-6 theory units
-Nutritionist call
1 Thing I could do better
-Having planned the next day to end on 20 00, not 22 00
Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5
Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 101
Entry 24.4(Written on 25.4)
Day 99: No Useless Videos
Day 931: Sticking to Food schedule
Day 534: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00)
Day 82: Being in bed before 23:15
3 Things I did well no matter how small
-Finished output goals.
-Afternoon run in the sun
-6 theory learning units
1 Thing I could do better
-Still be in bed 8 hrs before wakeup time this si critical for health and effectiveness in all tasks.
Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5
Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 100
@Amphibian220 I saw your question and am working on answering. Will take a few days i believe
It takes a lot of self-awareness to look back and connect those dots, especially when gaming feels like the one thing keeping you sane in the moment. But yeah, what starts as a coping tool can quietly turn into a wall between you and the life you actually want
Putting boundaries in place, like avoiding interaction and preparing mentally, is a good short-term step. But given how serious this is, especially with thoughts of harming yourself or others, I really urge you to reach out to a therapist or mental health professional if you haven’t already. You don’t have to figure this all out on your own
I’d also say, don’t beat yourself up if you catch yourself missing games or even slipping back for a bit. It’s not all-or-nothing, it’s a process. You’re figuring out how to fill that space with things that actually stick, and that takes time. Even the smallest wins, like picking up a new hobby for 10 minutes or finishing a walk, matter more than you think