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Hi JustBeingReal This is a turning point for you! Thanks for writing out and sharing your story, I enjoyed reading it. I like your signature by the way.

45 MINUTES MEDITATING The mission today was to meditate for 45 minutes. That is a long time, what I did was what the Headspace meditations do and just kept counting my breaths. I almost fell a sleep a few times, I felt myself nodding off LOL. And I checked the time once to see how long I had left. But I definitely felt very very relaxed when the time was up. I didn't want to talk and ruin the peace. ------- KARAOKE DANCING QUEEN OK great I did the karaoke tonight. I sang…. you guessed it, Dancing Queen by ABBA It was in a hotel bar, it seemed that most of people singing were regulars because when he announced me he said "OK we have a new singer" lol. But it went OK…. as a musician, I record myself singing sometimes, but I never go to open mic nights to perform so this was scary. However once, I don't know what I was thinking but I agreed to sing a solo at a funeral…. that was really scary………..…. -------- TWO PEOPLE RESPOND Two people have responded to my apology letters from yesterday. They couldn't have been better to be honest. It feels really great to have that closure on these things that have kind of been niggling away in my mind all these years!!!!! I'm really happy about that --------- I'm facing a lot of fears these past few days. It's good

Keep it up, enjoyed reading your 3D posts!

Today's mission was to write down a list of tasks I need to complete. Inspired by Cam's example of apologising to someone, instantly I thought of a handful of examples in my life where I wasn't at my best and I've always felt bad about. So I decided to write letters to these people to apologise.I made an account on Facebook and sent them the letters this evening. I sent letters to an old friend and an old acquaintance, both who I felt I took part in teasing unkindly when I was a teenager. I sent one to my older cousin apologising about something I said to them when I was a child, and one to a friend who I feel I let down a few years ago.I'll have to wait and see if any of them respond.... I feel incredibly vulnerable right now, but at the same time feel like I just kicked life's ass. This has turned into a really scary mission for me lol but also one of the most profound. Thanks ---------- In other news I got my first 3 music hours under my belt today on the path to ''10,000 hours by 34''. Woohoo Tomorrow it's karaoke...

Hey @asquerade. I make music too! When it comes to writers block, sometimes what I find helps is using sounds you don't usually use and messing round with them. Often I get inspired by the new sound. Or if you've already got a project on the go, just doing really mundane tasks like quantising a bunch of notes, that helps me get into the flow sometimes. Enjoyed reading your journal so far, especially your adventures in socialising. Keep it up!!!

Today's mission was to do the 7 Minute Workout. I really liked it!! I'll try to put it in my daily routine. it's an improvement on just my '10 press ups' at the moment. also makes a cold shower a bit less daunting after working up a sweat. I've been using RescueTime for over a month now so I just checked out the Monthly Report of my time spent on the computerSome really interesting insights!!! This month so far I've spent 139 hours on the computer. So that's….. 6 hours a day so far, on average…...I've spent 29 of those 139 hours in my main music program, Cubase, so thats about an hour a day, i would like to average more than that though. I want that to be my main computer activity!!! My best day was May 12th when I did 4 and a half hours in Cubase.and I've spent 13 hours on this forum lolLet's say I get up to 180 hours this month….. times 12 months is 2160….. so in a year that's….. 90 24-hour days….. let's imagine this was the same for the past 10 years……. 900 days or 2 and a half years. So, let's see….. let's say I averaged about an hour a day of music for the past 10 years, I'm upto 3650 hours. Still a way to go until 10,000 then !!!!!!!! INTERESTING So let's think about this further…. this is getting complicated for my brain, but…. if I carry on the same then. it will take me about another 20 years to get to 10,000!!!! BUT.. if I up my average to 2 hours a day, it could take another 10 years. now, if I upped my average to 3 hours a day, it would be about 6 years…… I think that's right? interesting…. (I'm using 10,000 hours as a goalpost because i heard thats the number you have to reach to have 'mastery' of something) If I could somehow do that, i'd be 34 by then …… that's really exciting to think about. you know what, I'm going to start a countdown to my 34th birthday. i'll put it on the whiteboard along with my countdown to 77 years old

World peace is a joke??????? - Knock knock* Who's there? - World peace * Ha, yeah right!! BYE Why did the chicken cross the road?To raise money for world peace. - Why did the chicken cross the road?-To get to the possible world-peace-creating-man's house... - knock knock * who's there? - the chicken - Doctor doctor, I feel like the world is falling to pieces* That's impossible, there's only one piece. World Peace, dude!!!!!!!!!! A man walks into a bar and shouts "WORLD PEACE IS POSSIBLE!!"Everyone turns to look at him. They give him a standing ovation. They go out and proceed to save the world.

END OF WEEK 1 RAMBLING INTROSPECTIVE THOUGHTS POST - Today the challenge was to have a cold shower. This wasn't bad for me to be honest because I've been having one every morning for the past 2 weeks! I also did a month of cold showers last year because there was a challenge to do that on Habitica. I still make strange animal noises when I first jump in, and I still shout "IS THAT THE BEST YOU GOT!!?!" at the shower head - but the sudden sharp intake of breath is less intense at least... Today I spent…. around 4 hours on the internet. I'd like to do less than that….. Sunday is the danger day 'cause I don't have things scheduled past the morning …. I smell all salty right now because I went for a long bike ride this evening, and went climbing rocks by the sea, it was windy and the sea was splashing on me. I shouted "F(£&%@@ YOUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!" at the sea as loud as I could!!!!!! I had a lot of energy in me! I was full of wonder at everything. the universe is so crazy huge and incredible, it's a wonder I'm afraid to do anything. When I was on the rocks by the rough sea tonight I thought, right now I would die happy... if I can accept that, dying at any time, what have I got to lose then? It's a really freeing feeling. another of my friends is getting married next year lol the thing is I'm happy being on my own right now, but I still compare myself to others. I ask myself what do I want?? I think, to express myself, as me, as an artist, share ideas, create visions, promote diversity of thought, throw rainbow spanners in the works..... often I feel like I'm holding back, from a fear of rejection, failure, fear of what others think. Which is why I've really liked doing these 'courage' missions for the first week of the Challenge. It helps me to think of life as one big experiment. I love this quote, ""The way to war is a well-paved highway and the way to peace is still a wilderness." It makes me think that it's actually our duty to do more experimenting in our lives because we still haven't found enough peace yet! Ultimately I want to live with a higher motivation that just doing things to challenge my will or to have some arbitrary goal of success. I want to develop and live by a life philosophy, like The Slight Edge talked about. I'm going to work on writing a life vision statement or something lol ..... It was nice to think about stuff just riding around random neighbourhoods under a full moon tonight. And looking into people's houses as I ride past…. seeing people sitting on the couch watching tv…. it's fun……. lol now I sound creepy

today's mission: to sing karaoke somewhere!!!! I found a place that has a karaoke night on wednesday evenings 8-11pm, but i won't be able to get there until 9.45. Hopefully I will get a chance to sing or I will have to find somewhere else. Since I couldn't do the karaoke today I did the bonus mission as well, which was to send a message of appreciation to 3 people.

Hey, that rhymed! In a post I found It said you were into making Hip Hop sounds Do you write your own lyrics? Give it a go Give me a holla, give me a yo, yo, yo! So yeah. You could try writing a rap You sure don't need a computer for that !

Today I had to record and upload a video of me dancing for 30 seconds Here it is……………………………… https://www.youtube.com/embed/YGJbjm5vu4o dancing is fun!!! but kinda tiring. i need to get more fit…. maybe by dancing more! --------------------------------------------- Today out and about I felt inspired again to do the 'take a picture with a stranger' challenge!!I found an older gentleman with a bicycle and got him to agree to be in a picture with me!every time i look at it i laugh but i won't upload that one, it's for a special project (i used a different sign) (the challenge has inspired me!)

Hey Zak.Thanks for joining , I look forward to reading more of your insights!! Welcome

Today I had to approach someone I found attractive and give them a compliment about somethingI wandered around the streets for 1/2 hour feeling nervous about giving anyone a compliment!! This left me feeling miffed - How can I hope to be a positive, friendly person if I can't give 1 little friendly compliment to someone? Got home, had lunch…sat down at the computer, starting to waste my hours on the internet like any other day… but I didn't want this to be any other day!!! Every day is a wonderful gift!!!!! So I went for a bike ride to a different town, let opportunities go by again, until I saw a lady whose style I really did like... I said excuse me, I really like your style, and I like your bag, and she said, "oh thank you, I didn't know I had a style" and laughed, and off we went in opposite directions. She seemed happy, and I felt happy. It was a happy moment. Mission accomplished, got home… went on reddit, pinterest, blahblah… whoops!!! I'm reading the book "The Shallows" at the moment. Hopefully it will put me off the internet more. Already I came across some interesting insights about the plasticity of the brain!!So, bit of a mixed day but glad I got the mission done again.I've written out a detailed schedule for my time tomorrow which I will stick to, just as an experiment - see what happens! If anyone wants inspiration for self-discipline just check out the works of performance artist Tehching Hsieh!!!!! https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tehching_Hsieh

That's magnificent

Hey tinysleepyowl, welcome to the forum! I totally know what you mean substituting gaming with youtube let's plays. Now, let's kick some butt!!! P.S. love the username ….

today I had to find a complete stranger and have a photo taken with both of us in itThe first person I tried was a gentleman around mid-50'sI stopped him in the middle of a car park with an ''excuse me sir'' and asked if he would be in a picture with meHe was surprised saying, "me?!" and declined to be in the pictureSo I carried on walking round and found two younger guys in their motorbike gear sitting on a bench by the harbourThey agreed to it, and S got in the picture with meThe other guy M taking the photo was saying all the time "this is weird" lolWish I'd stayed longer to have more of a chat but I ran off fairly quickly The picture is in the quotes below

Hey guys. 'Life is a game' is a metaphor that I often hear around here, and it reminded me of this article I read a few years ago which I've never forgotten - a game review of 'Real Life'!! https://web.archive.org/web/20041118095311/http://www.gamespot.com/gamespot/features/all/gamespotting/071103minusworld/1.html I find it quite inspiring in a way. So many possibilities...

Today's mission was to ask for a 10% discount on a tea/ coffee/ drink of your choice. I don't drink tea or coffee so my intention was to buy a smoothie and ask for a discount. So at lunch I went into the smoothie shop. When they gave me the price, I felt too embarrassed to ask for the discount! Rats. BUT - I didn't want to be defeated! So when I had another chance I went into a different coffee shop and… bought a bottle of water! And I asked for a 10% discount on it…. She paused, looked at me confused for a bit and said… Sorry, we don't do that for water… (hehe - maybe they do it for other drinks then??) So I said OK thanks. Paid for my water and we had a cheery goodbye. -------------------- The 30 Days SOCIAL SKILLS PROJECT UPDATE Really pleased with today. I initialised 3 conversations which I hardly ever do. Not with strangers, but colleagues. I also had a couple of other conversations which I felt went OK. It's all practice. --------------------- GRATEFUL for: 1. music 2. when you feel passionate about life 3. funerals 4. cats 5. hair 6. my feet 7. the day / night cycle 8. SSD harddrives 9. siblings 10. the act of giving presents -------------------- "Shoving its butt in my face Like a fart of light, the Sun awakes me Can this trauma, common to all mankind Unite us in solidarity For world peace????"

Every time I've reinstalled Steam after an enforced break, it feels good the first few days …. then it just gets out of control again. Very true!!

So true! It's happened often. Thanks!

This is my vision board I made for today's Challenge. As well as things related to my bucket list, I have included pictures that I find inspiring, like the Hubble Ultra Deep Field image, and inspiring people to me - Patch Adams, Shooby 'The Human Horn' Taylor, and the character Guido from the film Life Is Beautiful. -------------------------------------------------------- So I did the new morning routine. And I think it felt good. My mind felt "cleaner". I didn't bombard it with lots of internet stuff like usual. In fact, I didn't even turn the computer on until when I got home later. Which is great! I'll do it again tomorrow. Unfortunately though, I did seem to make up for that lost 'internet time' in the evening. I've got to be really vigilant in the evenings. NOTE TO SELF: watch out for Squidward (a.k.a. Pinterest) -------------------------------------------------------- What I'm grateful for right now 1. New beginnings 2. Second chances 3. Third time lucky's 4. Hats. 5. Oxygen 6. learning about self-acceptance 7. this keyboard 8. Eyesight 9. all my other senses 10. the birds singing

The first step is the biggest step. You've taken it! Let's goooo

Hey Patrick, great to have you here. I'm impressed that you have such self-awareness and a desire to grow mentally at age 15. You have the chance to turn your life around right now, with your best years still ahead of you. We're all rooting for you. Welcome and good luck!

Today I made a morning routine to follow wake up do Headspace Take a day away from number of days left alive tally do some simple exercise have a cold shower get dressed eat breakfast while reading a helpful book and the next mission proceed to have the best day ever I hope this will be really useful because at the moment I wake up and go on the computer right away. I spend an hour bobbing around on the internet, checking social media, emails etc. Read something today about 'what you think others think about you, is what you tend to believe about yourself'. Re-reading my first entry that's a bit eye opening

Yesterday was a busy day. A couple times when I was home I did do a bit of mindless browsing on reddit, woke out of it soon enough but could do with finding other relaxing activities to replace. later I watched the results of the eurovision song contest had a couple of conversations during the day, but it might take a while to build confidence to start them myself. little by little!!! The Slight Edge! yes I'm excited to apply The Slight Edge to these social things. So I think I'm realising, my rookie social skills are not because there's something wrong with me, it is because I just haven't socialised much! (always chose to go on the computer instead).