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I'm going to drop my entries here, I've had issues with relapsing back but I hope this, as an official platform, can help me excel. My goal is 90 days without gaming, and I'll just update every day! Days In: 0/90 Day 1: I've deleted the Steam software from my computer, and it feel so relieving even though I know it's still within reach. Nonetheless, it's deleted! I have plans to go workout after this post, and it really does feel relieving being able to drop my progress down here, and I'm sure my hard-drive is relieved with over 170 gigabytes of games being deleted off of it, haha! Anyhow, small progress today, deleted my access to the game and worked out, working on homework as I go, it's going well and can't wait to continue.

Hello, I'm Patrick, I'm currently fifteen years of age in the United States. I've been gaming for as long as I can remember, from slamming away at my controller on the Xbox when I was ten to moving on to the computer and getting wrapped up in World of Warcraft and Garry's Mod at the age of 12. I'm going to say that the sandbox-esque game known as Garry's Mod is probably my biggest issue at the moment, I've racked a whopping 12,000 hours played in just three years of owning the game, and it's effected me mentally, socially, and physically. I gained just over twenty pounds from playing for eighteen hours a day every day for a summer in a dark locked room while my parents were at work. I've failed two courses this year, and have a 2.4 GPA with absolutely no motivation at all whatsoever to succeed in life or pursue my desired career in the field of law, and just feel so trapped and dependent on the outlet provided by gaming. I hope to start a journal and get active on these forums to try and mend my addiction, the longest I have detoxed was 14 days before relapsing on break, and have issues with my dependency that has formed on the game as a social outlet and not just a means of entertainment. I have very little friends and have been bullied to the point of considering dropping out in the past, and working and gaming is practically my life at this point. Gaming has caused a huge schism within my family as well, which I won't go into much detail in, but divorce has been thrown around in the heated arguments we have on a daily basis in the battle to get me off the computer. I sold my computer, and they took my other one, but I've gotten a laptop with my own money that I game on now, but it's time for me to stop. It's effecting me in so many ways, and I can't wait to try and meet my goal of 90 days without playing.