So, I have been trying to get myself to do things. My issue is that I often lose sight of things, which has led me to become a person I no longer like, with a downward slope. It's not that I lose sight of things actually, more that I don't force myself to do the things I need to, rather than I want. Basically I still have a child's mentality when it comes to work. Embarrassing to admit, but true nonetheless. Now I try to correct that by remembering the person I have started showing to be, and using that thought of 'him' as a warning tale to get myself to do the work. Today, it seemed to be a good start. By far not perfect, but I already did more than before.
Hope you all have a lovely day!