Kuymak

Maybe it’s possible for you to make amends to people you treated wrong. It could be a way to get even with your past. But it’s a very sensitive thing to do. Maybe it’s possible to do something for this people without letting them know. I don’t know, it’s just an idea.

I like it really much to write on paper. Its feels better for me compared to write directly on a pc. Plus, its keeps me separated from my pc. I even started a handwritten journal for myself. Like a 12-year-old kid. Haha Good luck with your new medication!

summary of last days I’m feeling better nowadays. At a normal day I have no problems with games. I don’t have thoughts about them or the feeling that I must play. That’s good. But on some occasions, it changes. For example, one friend of mine told me about a remastered version of a game that’s coming soon. A game that I wanted to play with him together in the past, but we hoped for a new version. So finally, there’s an announcement but for me the case is closed. I told him that, but I had cravings and I have craving this moment I am writing this. Next weekend I will go with some friends in the mountains in order to climb. Corona regulations are ok, but the weather could be a problem. I’m looking forward to it but I’m also a little afraid. The people I’m going with usually drinking a (lot) alcohol. I decided for myself to stop drinking alcohol the next time, maybe forever. Will be interesting Thanks for reading

I can relate to your experience. I often have the same problem. It’s a dangerous situation for me because I am tempted to grab my smartphone and surf mindless the internet. And then its even harder to sleep. thanks mate

5.6.20 Today I’m not in a good mood. I woke up and and I felt some kind of depression and no motivation to do anything. But I’m glad I must work today, so I’m not alone and less tempted to do anything like gaming or wasting my time. Im glad I did the step and stopped gaming

In my opinion I think it’s more important to meditate regularly, than to mediate for a long duration. But I’m not a monk ^^. Yes you mediate the whole day in 10 days. Its a good atmosphere, everyone is focused on meditation, and you don’t have to worry about preparing food or anything else. Just mediate. It‘s a really good experience

Thats good. I participated in a 10 day course a couple of years ago. It was a good experience and i would like to practice vipassana regularly. So I meditate 10 min each morning and evening.

summary of last days I was feeling good despite of my sleep problems now. At the moment I don’t have really a temptation to game again. But at one day I had a strange experience. There was a thought about the previous games I played. I tried to stop to think about it but the thought was stronger. So, I gave in, and reexperienced my last 4 games. The story, the way my character was build and so on. I was proud about my achievements and enjoyed the story. After going through all 4 games I accepted this experience, swiped it away (like on a tablet) and everything was ok. It felt like a peaceful goodbye to a chapter of my past. I hope It remains like this. I filled my calendar, but its not easy to do all the things because I’m tired most of the day. But every time I have energy there enough things to do Before I always had a list with things Id like to do. The calendar solution is much better because now I can see how much free time I have and much time I (like to /have to) invest for each activity. Thanks for readying

Yeah, I also like to go hiking or to go mountaineering. But climbing is possible to do it regularly. Do you have some good opprtunities around where you living? Yeah, I like to read a lot. It’s a dangerous thing for me because I tend focus only on reading and get lost in a fictional world. Especially after I quit games. So, I like meditation a lot because you are focusing on the reality in this moment. Do you hear about Vipassana meditation?

Hey Chili, You seems to be really engaged in your new activitys. Well done. Keep it up. I wish you the best.

You have an massive Streak there. Well done and keep it up!

You’re doing good. Keep it up. Live will always be an up and down. But when we are sober we are not in the game of our addiction anymore. Live will be more stable

summary of last days For a couple of days, I was visiting my hometown. I was feeling better these days, because I was meeting old time friends and keeping my self busy with socialization. It was nice just to sit together and talk. Thanks to corona its not possible to meet with a lot of people at the same time. So, I was meeting some people separately. Which suited me well. Time passed quickly. One friend I met, I now this guy since we are 6years old, is playing games in his free time a lot. In past times we played together often. I told him gaming is not a topic for me anymore. He couldn’t understand why, and he still believes I will play again in future. We will see. Same for my sister. I don’t know why I told her, she doesn’t play games so there is no need to stop her talking to me about games. But she thinks I’m overdoing it… I think until now I was good to let my people think I have everything under control. I don’t know something changes at the moment. I started to talk about my problems instead of withdrawing myself. So today I’m back at my flat, in the city where I work. My plan is to use the next days to plan my calendar. I’m excited. Some thinks I would like to do in future: - Learning bass guitar - Learning french and spanish - Meditate frequently - Joining a meeting of travelers in the city - Writing a Book about my travels - Live and eat healthy - Go climbing more often - and some more but im lazy 😛 Thanks for reading

Yes its not an easy one. But we can do it. We have one life and now we have the chance too live our live the way we really want. Keep it up Thanks! I wish you the same! Yes, you are right. It’s from a 12-step program. They have a lot of powerful tools. Like concentrate only on 24h each day. It’s a good mindset. I like what you are writing. It’s like you said. We may be powerless but not helpless. We have tools to make a difference. Like writing a journal, planning the week(s) ahead and so on. We can make the choice not playing games today. Keep it up!

Addendum dated May 21 I have no motivation to do anything, so instead of gaming I am reading a book. I am reading the book Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind. Really interesting. In the evening I was feeling better and started to deal with my addiction. Reading stuff and planning what to do instead of gaming in my freetime