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You were getting headaches from going online? What? That sounds bad. Good for you keeping up with your contract. I finally made it a day on nofap. Yay.
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@DaBestYou're welcome. I'm glad you liked the list. I think it helped me too. Positive: Got an okay nights sleep. Getting further away from the vaccine. I slept okay. I got up in the middle of the night to send an email about how I didn't like my coworker who's mean to me at my new job. Hopefully the boss does something to make it right for me. I couldn't sleep because I kept thinking about her. But after the email I felt better and slept. I don't think I can handle working with her long term. It reminds me of when I did data entry and my superior was mean to me everyday and I had to ask her for help on work everyday. It was awful. I couldn't sleep well and dreaded seeing her everyday. This job is kind of shaping up to be like that because she's the point person for whenever I have a question about anything I have to ask her for help. I asked if there was an alternate person I could work with instead of the mean one. I kind of doubt there is but maybe I'll be lucky and get someone else. I'm getting further away from teh date that I got shot up. At this rate it feels like it's going to take forever before I feel back to normal if that day ever comes. I don't think I'm going to ever take a vaccine shot ever again. The side effects are worse than taking the risk of getting the disease for me. Although I am a therapist so i have to see a lot people. That puts me at a higher risk for catching diseases as they come out so maybe vaccines are a good idea for me. Darn it. It looks so nice outside. I'd like to go hiking. My client doesn't want to hike though because the rocks mess up on his shoes. Sure is nice looking though. Maybe we can take a walk around the neighborhood. Oh I got food poinsoning yesterday from my moms home grown chives. We both threw up in the morning from them. It sucked. My stomach's still feeling sensitive. I'm thinking I might try a new job out and quit this other new job because I don't want to deal with the verbal abuse from that coworker. My mom's completely insensitive to my situation and demands that I tough it out. And there's always someone mean around you have to deal with. I smiled at the tree I accomplished eating avocado I am grateful for tree, avocado, vornado, heaters, portable things, personal things, yoga mat, purple, butterflies and glass tables God bless
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Positive: recovering from vaccine Doing a little better from the vaccine. So that's good. It's still lingering and bothering me but I do seem to be getting a little better each day. So it would make sense that I'll eventually fully recover. The headache and the irritability are the biggest problems. Plus the fatigue. I'm getting acne from my new jobs. The editing job causes me acne. And the therapy job is causing me acne too when I have to talk to the mean admin my skin has been breaking out with new pimples for three days since talking to that mean lady. So that means everytime I have to talk to her I may end up breaking out in more acne. It really sucks to have this disorder. I'm not feeling very positive at all today. I've been feeling kind of suicidal again lately. I really want to quit the editing and therapy jobs but my mom is super mean to me and tells me I need to keep working those jobs no matter what. EVen if they cause me acne she doesn't care. I'm kind of miserable. I smiled at one punch man I accomplished eating my moms crappy omlette I am grateful for one punch man, food, water, seltzer, cranberry, blackberry, tangerine, pomegranate, light and bartholomeu. I'm making a list of things to live for because I think it might help with feeling depressed and suicidal. Things to live for: All my great TV shows that I can still watch. Reading the bible Eating breakfast and other meals Desert and chocolate candy Those good moments when it's nice being with clients Nature Hiking The slim chance that I'll find love The slim chance that once my medications are gone my disorders will clear up Money because I like making money and saving a lot of money. Retirement I want to make it to retirement early someday Getting licensed. It's a crappy process but it would be awesome to actually make it someday The possibility of working a good job as an LPC. I already got a job offer that's active once I get licensed and it pays well with someone I don't hate and could possibly stand working for. Mom when she's nice to me. Yoga and other forms of exercise that I do. Weightlifting, calisthenics and walking. Maybe I could even swim again one day, but I kind of doubt it and think it'll just cause me acne again too. But I might try it again anyways once I get off meds and see if it somehow takes away the acne. journaling. Because that's nice. I like journaling. especially in my paper journal where no one else can read. I can really get my feelings out there. Good surprises. Sometimes good things happen. Like getting a good new client. Gamequitters. I have some good chats on here with people sometimes. And that's it for now. Hopefully this list helped me and you feel more like living again.
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My Journey with quitting video games so far
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Wish I could get a better job shoot. I just got a new job and they're treating me badly from day one. Probably gonna look for another one. -
Positive: It's my one full day off this week. Yes it's sad but true, I only get one full day off. But at least I get this one day. I miss Saturdays already. Sad face. I dunno maybe I'll just only work so few hours. They won't be happy at my new job if I only open up 3 hours to them. I guess I'll try to do it though. I can do six for them as long as my old job loses some hours. I can make it work kind of for now. I'm not feeling the new job at all. The office admin was a jerk to me bigtime and I'm trying to report her. But I don't know if reporting her is really going to change anything much. Meh. Life sucks right now. At least I'm lowering my medications. Just went down a half pill. And I'm ever so slowly recovering from vaccine. Today marks one week from when I got it and I'm still not feeling completely well. Looks like I've officially crested over into uncommonly long side effects land. It is slowly getting better though so maybe it'll go away completely eventually. My acne is getting worse from all the getting yelled at by jerk admins. So that sucks and makes me want to quit that job. My mom's being a jerk and extremely meanly telling me to not quit that job. But I guess once I get approved at my old job I can quit the new job. Although my old job isn't looking so good lately with my client physically abusing me and the other client getting discharged for cancelling too many sessions. I dunno maybe I can get the new job working. Stuffs all screwed up in my world today/right now. I hope and pray it gets better. I finally got the idea to scramble my eggs some on the pan so the yolk doesn't run everywhere when I make it into a sandwich. Genius idea. I smiled at snow I accomplished making my eggs not runny today. I am grateful for snow, eggs, scrambled eggs, mom i guess, moms friend, editing job, dictionary, japanese, anime, and pink hair. God bless
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@RealworlderYeah I bet it's much better having the sun out. It must be freezing to get up in the winter and go running in the mornings. I have actually found a supervisor I'm working with now. All I am waiting for now is to get approved for supervision by my work site. Which looks like it'll actually happen in mid Feb because my notes are getting better according to my supervisor. Work is mad stressful. I'm in the proccess of trying to report the office admin for being a jerk to me now. Hopefully she gets a good reprimanding and cuts the crap. Yeah actually working for my mom isn't so great. She's a hard butt and she takes the work way too seriously and like gets on my case about it sometimes. But it's not so bad I do get paid well. Vaccine is about done being bad to me. Maybe a few more days and I'll be back at 100% @DaBestFrom what I looked up it said it was common for people to have side effects up to 7 days after the 2nd moderna shot. So according to that what I'm going through is normal. I guess we read different things. Positive: last day of work week Yeah working Saturdays sucks. But I guess it might be worth the hours/money to get it in. That extra three hours goes a long way on my paycheck and my supervision hours. We'll see if I can manage it without burning out. Blah. I smiled at clouds I accomplished laughing I am grateful for clouds, laughter, kids, adolescents, adults, elders, me, you, all the good people, nice people, God bless
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@DaBestSecond dose of maderna. It's said that maderna has more serious side effects than the other one. Still not feeling so good but it's getting a little better each day it seems. Positive: Near the end of the week I've opted to work Saturdays now too so I'm sort of like. Not really getting two days off per week anymore. It's too bad and probably contributes to burnout. But I'm not gonna do a full day Satruday. I'll only do a half day. So at least I get 1.5 days off per week. So that's something better. It's a compromise I guess. My client cancelled and didn't text me back when I asked to reschedule. Classic him. He often doesn't respond to texts. Only if he gets it within like 10 minutes of it sending. Otherwise he gets anxiety and doesn't want to text back if the text isn't fresh. Just some neurotic non-sense I deal with. I have my own stuff I deal with too. My little kid client was getting under my skin lately. He just pisses me off in everything he does and says. Now that I'm reeling form the maderna it's like all his flaws are highlighted and right in my face whenever I talk to him. I just get so angry at him and think about telling him off as I lie in bed at night. Today's the last day of the week I'll have to deal with him then I get two days away from him. Hopefully the vaccine wears off some more in thsoe two days and my tolerance for his bullcrap goes up. He in a difficult person in all fairness to me. He never responds to anything you say to him and just ignores you. Asks a bunch of questions and expects you to respond elaborately. (totally rude and unfair behavior/expectations). Says rude offensive insulting things all the time to me and others. And talks to me like I'm his butler and even calls me his butler and just says, "I want to go to this place." Not "Can we go to this place or may we go." He's super unempathetic and inconsiderate of others. Oh I almost forgot. I got a new job. It pays 67% more than my current job and I start Monday. They said they get a lot more referrals than my last job which had zero referrals. So we'll see how it all goes. I'll get my psych profile back up with their number on it and try to meet with a supervisor for my hours. Just try to get going in general. I am struggling with nofap. It eludes me. I smiled at jesus I accomplished wearing a necklace I am grateful for jesus, necklace, job, nofap, ms kim, mr mehta, raj, janet, jung, mr kim, kimchee, God bless
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Positive: Ever so slowly the effects of the vaccine are wearing off. I'm getting a little more vigor back to me now. It's not much, but I feel a little more energetic than I did the day prior. I'm still getting headaches which sucks. But I'm hopeful that I'll fully recover from the vaccine. Although it's kind of difficult for me to hope for things nowadays. I just feel like I've hoped for so much that didn't happen for me it kind of exhausted my ability to hope for good things to happen. Yeah. My morning client cancelled so I'm going to be editing and doing online trainings for work until 1pm when I go see my pm client. Thankfully they're giving me an extra hour to work with him today. Unfortunately it's gonna probably rain tomorrow and the client is so bad with the ADHD he can't really watch TV because he's too fidgety and stuff. I offered him 5$ if he'll watch with me but I don't know if it's gonna happen. If it doesn't he's just going to pressure me to play video games which sucks every time even though he does it almost every time I see him and doesn't ever relent even when I ask him to. Unchill. Well, I'm gonna drop the client if he won't watch TV with me on rainy days. Either that or they gotta pay me for not really working much on those days. I can't make him watch TV. I smiled at crap I accomplished eating I am grateful for crap, eating, client, chill, TV, water, Bottle, pen, Pencil, mask, book, God bless
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Positive: Still able to work despite vaccine effects. I'm still feeling drained and headache from the vaccine like 4 days later. They said younger people get a worse reaction, but I didn't know it was going to be this bad. I just want to stop feeling tired, achy and a headache already. It's gonna be a headache going to work and watching TV. For some reason TV is giving me a headache now, it sucks because that's like all I have to do. I guess I could browse NNN listings for fun. Seriously I hope these effects go away soon. I ate some avocado in my breakfast sandwich today. It's kind of weird because I don't seem to like it that much anymore. I used to really like it, but nowadays not so much. I still like Chipotle guac though. Man I can't believe the vaccine is killing my TV watching time. That's like one of the things I really look forward to each day. Now I've got to deal with getting a headache from watching. Darn it. I don't really feel like exercising either because I'm so tired. I don't even know if I'd hold up under a walk today. The CDC says that side effects usually don't last more than 5 days but can go for up to a week in common trials. So if it's not gone after a week I'll start to get concerned. It's been like 4 days including the day I got the shot. It just reminds me of that story about a girl who got a flu vaccine and then she couldn't walk ever again because it messed her up. Makes me wonder if it's worth it to get vaccines at all. I smiled at no vaccine I accomplished getting up I am grateful for vaccine, no vaccine, morning, waking, pop toy, atom, vornado, bacon, journal, and mask. God bless
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Positive: Back to 80% Now I'm feeling much better after some sleep last night. I'd say I'm at least back to about 80%. Still feel a tiny bit messed up but I'm mostly good now. I'm gonna go driving in the snow today. Which is a little bit dangerous but I'll probably be alright. I've become slightly disenchanted by the dollar tree. While it's nice that everything is pretty cheap. I haven't really found and good food sources there. The microwave dinners have the most calories but they aren't so great. Oh well. At least the ice cream is good. Don't know if I'll buy one of those for triple net. Unfortunately there was only one triple new I found under 500k that was BBB rated. But there are like hundreds of them under 2mil. So basically you need like 800k for a down payment to buy a more legit NNN. That sucks because it'll take forever to get 800k. So I'm either going to have to buy a 500k NNN that doesn't have as good a lease, wait forever for 800k or buy houses in the meantime. Buying a house would possibly be some trouble as you gotta fix it. I don't have any other investing ideas though because I don't want to do stocks. I have extra time today so I'll check email and look at 2mil NNN's. I smiled at CVS I accomplished making breakfast even though I dropped and lost the spinach on accident I am grateful for CVS, breakfast, feeling better, 80%, spinach, eggs, warmth, snow, snow plows, salt, snow brush thing God bless
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@BuggThanks bugg Positive: still alive I'm all messed up from the covid vaccine. I feel sick and have chills. It's not a good feeling. I'm barely coming on here to post I smiled at Kim sconvenience I accomplished getting out of bed I am grateful for kims, convenience, bed, getting out, health, vaccine, feeling better, peanut butter, apples, and bananas God bless
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@BooksandTreesIt's a good job. They said they might pay me more if they like my work too so that's good. And yeah it can possibly improve relations with my mom. She is a lot happier when I'm working and less mean to me. Positive: Covid shot today? Well. I'm gonna go get my shot even though it's snowing a ton. My mom wanted me to reschedule it. But I just want to get it done already. This will be a good time to do it because I have tomorrow off due to the snow. Hopefully I'm able to safely drive 1 hour round trip to get the shot done. I hope the snow doesn't cause me to get in an accident or something. Maybe it would be better to reschedule. Hm. My psychiatrist has pissed me off super bad. He keeps telling me to stay on meds longer to try them out. Like SEVEN times in a row he told me a long speech about doing that. It's gotten so annoying that I go to sleep and wake up pissed off at him. I'm thinking about getting a new psych. Bleh. So sick of that guy. I could try to tell him to stop but he's ike a maniac about pressuring me to keep taking pills. I don't think I can get through to him. I smiled at nothing I accomplished breathing I am grateful for nothing, everything, breathing, holding breath, air, water, sand, stone, earth, grass, leaves God bless
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Positive: Got a side job So my mom has this job translating textbooks from Chinese to English. She's paying me to edit the english once it's done. Basically she said she doesn't just want to give me free money for my loans she wants to make me earn it somehow. So that's alright. I understand and I'm grateful to get more money on a Saturday. Not working gives me anxiety because my mom's mean to me and pressures me to work mon thru sat. It's not very chill of her but that's just her way of doing things. When I didn't have a job it was very stressful for me because she was always on my case to get a job. Whatever. We're getting bread and I'll eat some pizza today. Then I'll get 4 hours of editing work done and get paid for five. I factored in a 15 minute bathroom break every hour into my pay. Hehe. Yep. My mom taught me to do this kind of crap and now it's causing her to pay me more, how ironic. Whatever it's only rounding up like 30 minutes it's fine. Thou shalt not lie within reason and all that. I smiled at my meditation timer I accomplished getting up after a cold night I am grateful for meditation, timer, mindfulness, cushion, pillow, rest, night, cold, heater, thicker blanket, God bless
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@DaBestI do try. And I'm continuing to try despite unfavorable circumstances. I'm only doing video calls. They still make me uncomfy. I've thought about trying to be a computer programmer. Because that would have me deal with less people hopefully. But I don't think I could even make it through the schooling. I'm already so far along this psych path it's kind of like. There's nothing else for me to do. It'd take forever to do a new career and even if I did I'd probably run into the same problems. Positive: No morning shift today Yeah my client's on a gap in insurance time so I am not working this morning, just posting. Waiting to cancel funds transfers on etrade which is a glitchy site that double charged me and overdrafted my bank account. I don't recommend them. Their customer service isn't very good either and you ahve to wait up to 5 hours to talk to a representative. Also their online live chat thing resets your que every time the screen saver goes on on your computer so you have to make sure the screen doesn't go to sleep while it's waiting in the chat que line. Anyways hopefully they send money back to my bank and I can forget about stocks forever. I just want to work and save towards real estate. My mom just got a job as a translator making more money than me. It really highlights how poor I am. Supposedly after licensure I'll make more. But who knows if I'll even be able to handle working with 40+ people on a full caseload. It'll be a lot to endure for sure. I dunno if I'll make it even if I make it to licensure. It's a lot of crap to deal with. I told my sup I wanted to stop yesterday but went to a meeting with her after anyways to see if I could handle it. I think I possibly could although it's very uncomfortable for me. I Was still able to sleep at night despite the stress. I have one more supervisor interview today so we'll see how that goes. I kind of don't want to leave my current sup even though it's not comfy because I haven't been comfy with over 20+ people I interviewed. So I kind of have to go with the best I can find and just deal with the discomfort if I want a chance at licensure. It sucks but it's what I've got. I'm kind of stressed about waiting to see if I get approved. I just want to find out what the decision is and have it be over with already. I'm tired of waiting. If the interview goes well today though then I'll have to make a choice between the old and the new sup. That'll be difficult. Yeah. I smiled at my blanket I accomplished saying hi to mom I am grateful for grits, oatmeal, courage, empathy, compassion, love, benevolence, endurance, enduring, for licensrue God bless
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@RealworlderGetting up earlier isn't going to stick. I just felt super tired and unhappy all day. unfortunately. I haven't been able to find a supervisor I feel comfortable with because of my disease. I get stressed out lose feeling in my leg and get acne from connecting with pretty much everyone. I feel like I'm kind of screwed here. I think I'm gonna have to cancel on my current supervisor leaving me with no one and back to interviewing peoplke. My life is messed up. I don't even know if they're gonna approve me at my work and if they do I don't know if the new sup will work with me and I do'nt know if they'll even give me a sup. There's just a ton of uncertainty around whether or not I'm gonna be able to even move towards my license. And even once I get it I don't know if I'll be able to handle the work that comes with it because I tried before and failed terribly. Just trying to work with my current sup has got me all stressed out this past week and that's part of why I don't htink I can ccontinue working with her. You can probably tell I'm not doing well.
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Positive: moms alive I'm glad moms alive. She got a fever and stuff from the second vaccine shot. So that's not good, I hope that doesn't happen to me. by the way it's real difficult to be positive today. I'm getting acne from something maybe it's my new supervisor and I've had such bad stress from my new sup that my leg is losing feeling and I've been stressed out 24/7 non-stop for a week. I smiled at kims convenience I accomplished lunch prep I am grateful for kims, conven, lunch, prep, phone, text, money, life, not being dead, feeling like dying?, fingernails, fingers God bless
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Positive: Got up 50 minutes early today. So far so good, but the day is long. We shall see if I fall asleep and get super tired from getting up early like this. I'm testing out my theory that I'll need less sleep now that I'm on less Risperdal. We'll see how it goes. Hopefully it works, but it's okay if not. I can possibly keep reducing my meds. I'm thinking about buying into the stock market. It causes me some anxiety to do so so I'm a bit skeptical of it. But I feel like Apple stock is a good thing to invest in so I might just do it anyways and deal with the consequences of the anxiety. First group supervision is on Thursday. We'll see how that goes too. If I pick up an extra hour. If my sleep reduces I might be able to manage an hour of supervision here and there so that I can work 36 hours a week. If I can work 36 hours a week I can get my license done in 1 year and 5 months as long as I get approved for supervision in Feb as I'm hoping to do. God willing my mean boss will have a heart and pass me. God willing eh. I smiled at mom I accomplished using avocado although honestly I only like avocado in guac. I am grateful for mom, avocado, chipotle, beans, rice, brown rice, cilantro, lime, onion, tomato, corn salsa, God bless
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Positive: reduced meds So I went down half a pill on the risperdal. I don't plan to get off the bupropion. But if I could get off the risperdal that'd be nice. I might actually put a dent in my somnolence. We'll see how much of it I can get off before I lose it and turn suicidal/anxious again. At any rate going down half a pill seems to be faring a lot better than when I dropped a whole pill. I haven't turned suicidal or too anxious so far. I'll probably wait a month and think about dropping another half pill. I got some fanapt to try but I kind of don't want to try it yet. I think I'll just keep reducing the risperdal and see how that goes. I'm still sleeping 13 hours a night, but I seem to be feeling more awake. So maybe soon I'll be able to cut that down to like 12.5 hours or something. My mom is very happy with my recent reduction. She wants me off the meds and calls them drugs in a scornful tone. But I was legit super suicidal and depressed before I took the bupropion. So that's why I don't want to go off that med. I think I'ld be pretty happy if I could get by okay on just the bup. That'd be nice. We'll see what the following months bring if I can manage to get below 2.5 pills or not but this recent decrease has given me hope. I have a lot of free time today as I've been getting up 5 minutes early to make a sandwich for the day. It saves money on buying lunch. Yep. Got a lot of free time this morning before work. Don't know what to do though. I guess I'll just watch my reruns or maybe paper journal. Still waiting for The Flash season 7 to come out in Feb with baited breath. My leg is feeling all messed up and my stress level is a little higher since joining with a new supervisor. But I might just tough it out and work with her anyways because I'm desperate for someone to work with and haven't found anyone in 20+ interviews. I wonder if I'll die or get severe insomnia or something from this. But so far it's just been losing feeling in my left leg which causes me constant discomfort and anxiety. It's awful, but I can possibly bear it for licensure. I'm trying I'll see how I feel after our first 2 hour meeting. It'll probably be bad but we'll see if I can survive it without wanting to kill myself too much. I smiled at mah post I accomplished making sandwich I am grateful for post, sandwich, food, remotes, pen, pencil, bible, mask, salt candle holder, salf zen garden, heater God bless
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@PochatokThanks for your well wishes. I'll keep trying. It's really difficult though. @BooksandTrees I could try to think of people as teddy bears or something. I don't think anything can fix my discomfort though. I'm leaning towards just toughing it out for two years and dealing with the god awful discomfort of it all. I can't feel my left leg and it causes me constant tension and discomfort. I can't sleep well at night either due to this. But I might try to just deal with it for two years so I can get licensed. My life is still messed up but yeah...at least I'm in control I guess. Positive: new week and getting covid vaccine Getting vaccinated on Sunday for the second shot. It'll probably hurt for a few days again and prevent me from sleeping on my left side. That's okay. It'll be good to not have to wear a mask at work anymore because I'm vaccinated. New week new money. I don't make much because I'm a resident. But I still am happy to make what little money I do earn. It motivates me and I want to save all that I can towards a house and triple net investment. I don't want to do stocks really. They kind of stress me out. The market's doing really well since Biden went into office though. The markets gone up overall for so long I wonder if it'll drop one day and not recover. Got a new job translating on the side for my mom. I just correct her broken english translations. I smiled at new job with mom I accomplished getting prepped for a new week I am grateful for God, Ragnarok the show, mom, new week, clients, new clients, old clients, snow days, new job and translating.
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Glad to see you're doing well. Your life sounds like you have a lot going on.
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@BooksandTreesYeah I would be grateful if they forgave 10k too. That'd be a lot of money I didn't have to pay back. They're possibly doing something by March about it so we'll see. Interviews are going horribly. I have a disorder where I don't feel comfortable around most people and after like 20+ interviews I haven't found one that I felt comfortable with. So that means I'm kind of screwed. I could be interviewing every week for a year and still not find a supervisor or a job. I may never get licensed at this rate. It sucks. My life is messed up. Positive: still the weekend My mom was being super annoying this morning and I blew up at her and swore. Now it's too quiet. Whatever she was pissing me off a lot. Plus I'm super stressed after talking to some supervisor prospect for an hour+. I just don't feel good around most people and it sucks to be me. But this is just how it is and the best I can do is keep trying new person after new person hoping to finally find one that I feel okay with. It really sucks and I'm exhausted from endless interviews. I don't feel like I have any hope left. I feel like I'm never going to find a job or a supervisor that I feel comfortable with. I'm just going to die poor and never get licensed. There's basically no hope for me. At least it's still the weekend and I can watch TV and probably do some squats. I'm trying out dropping half a pill off my meds and seeing how that goes. I can't really tell if I'm stressed from the interview or I'm stressed from lowered meds. I smiled at turtles I accomplished eating cold corn because we don't have a microwave I am grateful for turtles, cold, corn, microwaves, lamp, camp, damp, stamp, tramp, nap, God bless
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Yes, keep meditating. IT's the good.
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Positive: There is some chance however small that 10k student debt will be forgiven. So they said that there's a small chance it'll happen because it's unlikely that Congress will pass the forgiveness. But it's possible and it sounded like they're gonna try so here's to hoping it actually goes through some day. If I got 10k relieved that would be about 4 months of work for me. That'd be really cool. They talked about relieving 50k but I kind of doubt that's going to happen. They said about 3/4 of debtors doubt that any relief will come. On the bright side they're pausing interest on loans until Oct 1. So that's great I'll have a lot of time to save money to pay my debt. That'll be nice. I don't think they'll pause it much longer than that though. Then it'll be back to paying interest, darn. Wish they'd forgive some debt. Got more job interviews. I'm kind of tired of job and sup interviews. I hope that the sup at my job will work out and I can finally be done with it and just keep my job. The interviews just haven't been going well at all. I smiled at jobs I accomplished setting an intention for the day I am grateful for fiber powder, DG, jobs, intentions, food, watwer, air, shelter, bed, sheets, pillow, case God bless
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@RealworlderThat sugar. So good. I do try to moderate it. I started bringing a bag of chocolate around with me now to save money on eating out deserts. My clients are getting their 3 hours, I'm just leaving a little early and getting there a little early. Before I would get there early and leave on time. So They're losing a few minutes but it's all fair and legal, I'm not breaking any rules to do this. Just claiming my rightful minutes. I'll get an extra 10 minutes per session so like 10-20 minutes a day probably. More like 10 but it makes a difference when you only get 1 hr free time at the end of the day. Thanks for the luck. I think they both might be full time jobs which I Can't work due to somnolence, but we'll see they could be part time available that works with my schedule. Positive: TGIF The standard positive on a Friday of course. Just happy to end out a week and get two days of rest. The not so great thing is I might be looking at working a half day on Saturdays. I did this for a month or so before and it was really grueling. So I don't know if I want to do it again. I think it will be too much for me to handle. I guess that means I'll have to figure out some stuff to make it work. It's kind of just an issue because to keep one of my clients I'm eventually going to have to switch to working half days Saturday so I can still see him once he gets a job and is only available on weekends. Darn. Maybe I can do it. I smiled at weekends I accomplished getting through the week I am grateful for weekends, weeks, days of the week, rugs, tables, chairs, mahjong table, bacon, eggs, spinach God bless
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@Bird By BirdI see. I'd prefer not to hate people if I can help it. I feel like it makes me in a bad mood. But I understand that it's part of our experience. Sometimes it can't be helped much. Positive: waffles today So eating waffles was good. Mom made them for me. I ate a bunch of syrup with them which was also nice. Syrup is so addictive though. It's a little too good. Especially the ones with HFC in it. The day starts late today. But I realized I can start the session like 5-10 minutes early and end a little early to squeeze out a tiny bit more free time for myself at the end of the day. So that's good. My clients might not appreciate it at first, but they'll probably get used to it after a while. Then I can get there early and leave early. I like that. Hm. I'm supposed to like have phone calls today. Gotta check my email to see when I scheduled them for. I wasn't really on top of my game last night or all day yesterday. I just felt all cold for the whole day because I got caught out in the cold the day before and it froze me some. Takes time to thaw back out for me. Got a couple job interviews coming up so that's kind of cool. It's just that there's a low chance I'll actually get them and feel like I want to go work there. My chances of finding a good new job are slim. But we'll see how it goes, maybe I'll find something if I'm super lucky with better pay. I smiled at CB I accomplished sleep I am grateful for food that doesn't upset my stomach, dollar tree, pizza, banquet, sleep, CB, work, face, skin, and phone. God bless
